sahasraraBliss666
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Blitzkreig said:sahasraraBliss666 said:
I started sun square yesterday on Tuesday but at the hour of Venus at 2pm. Does it matter??
I do it indoors in my room.
Now Im going to do it, it's night time. Good ??
If you started it during a non-VOC time, then it should be fine. I am unsure for your timezone when exactly this is, but for me, 2pm Tuesday was not during a void moon. You should reference the Satanic calender, found here.
Last night masturbated after 3-4 days I think. Then after a while oh I felt that same weakness in the kidney...low willpower for like 5-10 mins... Then slept.
Yeah that is ok. As long as the effect on the kidneys didn't feel as bad as last time, then it means the kidneys are stronger than before, even if they feel a little weak. 3-4 days is enough time to recharge without overtaxing the kidneys. In time, you shouldn't feel any symptoms from it, as long as you keep the schedule. Once you start drastically increasing your bioenergy with other meditations and yoga, this can be shortened in frequency even further, but for now, stick to something that you know is safe, which is about 3 days.
I've been pressured to get married, a marriage proposal we have. But I'm going to reject it. Then idk what my future will be. I live in a country that thrives on family and traditions.
I don't feel like getting married but if I don't get married within next one year, it will be hard for me to get married then.
Why would it be hard to get married after a year? Is this based on your age? Remember that as you grow with your meditations, you will transform yourself into a higher value human being. I think this will keep your marriage prospects high, so I wouldn't worry too much about this 1 year time span. 1 year of time spent advancing will put you in the top quarter of men alone, let alone 3 years, or 5 years, and so on.
I want it if it's a Satanic girl but then I have even more other conditions which I think will not be met.
I think the girl being open to Satanism is really the main condition that needs to be met, because with Satanism, the girl can change anything about herself that needs to be changed. Henu the Great, here on the forums, was talking about how he was increasing his masculinity with a Mars mantra. A girl could also do a working to increase her femininity. There are many other examples of how spirituality can transform one's life, but the prerequisite for all of this Satanism. This is why it should be the main condition pursued.
You can do a working to attract a girl open to Satanism and compatible to you astrologically. I think it will be hard to find a girl that is actually already Satanic, let alone JOS-Satanic, but if you tune the working to find a girl most open to Satanism, then it should be pretty easy to convince her.
But then again I think about the ritual I had done, monogamous relationship.
Yeah, this can be a problem. If you did the working for a monogamous succubus relationship, then that is what you have gotten. If you also desire a human wife, then you will need to clear this up with Satan as soon as you can. Don't feel bad about asking him, because this is out of your control if you are not open. It would be very hard to communicate with the succubus.
On succubus thread, I was told by fancymancy that the enemy can manipulate even in your dream with positive experiences too.
Then some weeks ago, I was half asleep , had just woken up in the morning, I had a thought in my mind "Get married" in my own language. It felt different if I remember...I didn't hear a voice but it was a thought. Maybe I was thinking about this matter in the night to get married or not to and then next day upon waking up I had this thought repeated.
My brain was half asleep when I got this thought. Maybe it's just my own mind.
It is hard to say, unfortunately. The enemy likes to attack where you are weakest, so maybe this was not the case, unless you think your weak point is your marriage status. It may or may not have been a sign or your own mind. Just be open to anything else.
Knowing my own nature in a monogamous relationship, I'm so strict in this case, so jealous, I think the succubus could be the same way, no?
So this discourages me to even start a working to attract a SS girl if possible without any strong intention and belief , desire.
It is giving me alot of stress and I'm stuck, not moving forward.
If the succubus expects a monogamous relationship, then that is what they would want, and they may prevent you from finding a human partner. However, this relationship can also be broken off if you wish to pursue a human wife.
Don't be stressed, because this situation has a solution, and that is to clear this up with Satan so he can communicate your intentions to the succubus on your behalf. From there you will be able to attract a human SS girl in good faith.
Neither the succubus, nor Satan, wants this sort of stress or blockage for you, especially if it derails your life and your power meditation. You have to clearly communicate your intentions to them to resolve this, though, just like you would communicate anything with your human wife.
In my country, atleast in my region, there is a certain age to get married. After that age, the value of the individual decreases as he/she ages. I don't think I should reveal my age here, but I think it's not dangerous to reveal..it's just an age.
I'll tell it after some time.
Ya. No.void moon.
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No no no, I don't have time to help someone if she is open. This is VERY RISKY ! I don't wanna take this kind of stupid risk even if it is a wife who is open to the Truth, it is still not safe at all. You never know how things will turn against you. Helping someone in this is risky. Even she/he is your spouse.
I'm sure about one thing, I dont want a human wife. But sometimes you know I miss that physical proximity, doing things...goin out together.... because I only miss these and curious about it because... I have no actual experience with the Succubus if I had one. Not astrally open yet. So that's why.
I'm more comfortable in being with a Demoness Lover now.
A human wife is just a nuance, annoyance. And the man cannot spend time with himself alone or have any time for himself if he has a family. I don't think I want to get tied into these kind of responsibilities. But if I don't marry, I'll lose things, essential material things . Things are different in my society.
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Right now it mildly aches where the stone is. At the bottom , to the far left side.
When I sit leaning forward it starts aching ..just noticed.
Doctor told me that the ultrasound sound report cannot have exactly accuracy.
So it is still 3mm as it was a month ago. I think???
He played a little smart as he noticed I was questioning him and his medicine didn't dissolve the stone at all in any way. He didn't prescribed the neeri tablet this time it alkaline syrup and tablet for treating infection.
Then he told me the calcium made stone are hard which is a fact and if it get flushed out in urine then it's better.
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The stone is still in the lower pole of left kidney.
P.S : there are grammatical mistakes, because I'm lazy as I'm drowsy... Lol..