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EveronK

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Please stay, it will be brief and precise.
Since the beginning of the year I have been in a tailspin. Everything has gone wrong for me, since I had a treatment to eliminate a dangerous bacteria and from there I began to have more problems; stomach especially, I have stopped eating many foods for fear of feeling pain, to the point that it affected me mentally which I am suffering a lot at this moment. I no longer feel the desire to live, to exist. WHAT I HATE. I never felt like this. I want to live. I want to be here. Basic meditation no longer relaxes me. Anxiety eats me, depression kills me. I've been in bed for 8 months, I feel so useless that I tried to talk to my parents about it. Still, I don't feel relieved. I feel very bad every day, I write this crying.

I think this started since I participated in a war/ritual 2 years ago, at that time I was a beginner and that same night an elongated figure dressed in black appeared to me, something that scared me a lot, I asked Father Satan for help and I felt very relaxed that day and fell asleep instantly. But naively, being a teenager scared me so much that I slowly started to stop meditating. I made a mistake. A very serious one. From there I continued with the basics, making mistakes.

I don't know what to do, I'm trying to figure it out by reading the site again, trying meditations and yoga. It's still there, an overwhelming sensation that kills me, takes away my desire for everything. That's why I came here, swallowing my pride, to ask for help. BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE.

I want to help, I want to be strong again. But I need help, my pillar collapsed and I know that there are many who pass by and focus more on themselves, because it is difficult to repair someone other than themselves.

I know some of you will tell me that I have to make an effort. Believe me, every day for me is an effort to want to live.

I'm sorry and thank you very much for reading. I will be attentive to any advice.
 
Besides just adding Aura Cleaning, Aura of Protection and some Chakra spinning to your daily routine, which will get you a lot of benefits that compound over time, you could benefit a lot from journaling.
What I did at some point is give myself 3 minutes to write as many bad things from my day as possible, then take as much time as you need to write at least 10 things you are thankful for. It can be anything, even not being homeless, but the catch is you can't repeat the good things on back to back days. It gets you thinking about things you take for granted.
Lord Valefor's God Ritual provides amazing healing energies and lets you connect to Lord Valefor, who himself is known for healing.
If it's a lack of motivation issue, you can do certain mantras for energy. But I'd rather let someone more experienced recommend you something for that.
I also personally found that Lord Satan's Absolution Ritual keeps me pretty motivated and focused on my goals for a few days, and Lord Baalzebul's Ritual does teach you a new appreciation of life.
Just, in general, learn to be mindful, connect to the Gods, do the easy daily meditations (adding new hard meditations to your life might just be too much right now) and try to take things one step at a time. It WILL get better.
 
If you had a very strong antibiotic drug, that will also kill all of the beneficial bacterias in your stomach and intestine. These beneficial bacterias are necessary for many different reasons which strongly affect your overall health and also your mood. There is a nerve signal connection between the gut and the brain. These bacterias do things like help digest food, and one of the most important things they do is keep all of the bad bacterias away. Because if everywhere is full of good bacterias, there is no space for the bad bacterias to move into. But the bad ones could come in if there is no competition.

You can take probiotic pills, and also drinks and foods that naturally contain probiotics. Like kombucha, kefir, yogurt, unfiltered apple cider vinegar. There are brands that make many different flavors of kombucha in any flavor you like, with different fruits or different herbs. This is fermented from tea, so it tastes like a combination of ice tea, apple cider vinegar, and fruit juice. All of these things will help replace the good bacterias that were killed when you took that strong medicine. The kombucha is very acidic, so you can drink this with a straw to limit the exposure on your teeth so your teeth won't be damaged, and drink water after to wash the acid out of your mouth.

It is a good idea for everybody to consume these kind of things regularly. Not every day or even every week, but often enough that you are getting and maintaining this benefit. You can consume these every day if you want to and it is not harmful, but I mean if people don't like these they don't have to force themselves to consume them all the time. This fixes a lot of problems that most people are having with digestion and overall health.
 


 
Please stay, it will be brief and precise.
Since the beginning of the year I have been in a tailspin. Everything has gone wrong for me, since I had a treatment to eliminate a dangerous bacteria and from there I began to have more problems; stomach especially, I have stopped eating many foods for fear of feeling pain, to the point that it affected me mentally which I am suffering a lot at this moment. I no longer feel the desire to live, to exist. WHAT I HATE. I never felt like this. I want to live. I want to be here. Basic meditation no longer relaxes me. Anxiety eats me, depression kills me. I've been in bed for 8 months, I feel so useless that I tried to talk to my parents about it. Still, I don't feel relieved. I feel very bad every day, I write this crying.

I think this started since I participated in a war/ritual 2 years ago, at that time I was a beginner and that same night an elongated figure dressed in black appeared to me, something that scared me a lot, I asked Father Satan for help and I felt very relaxed that day and fell asleep instantly. But naively, being a teenager scared me so much that I slowly started to stop meditating. I made a mistake. A very serious one. From there I continued with the basics, making mistakes.

I don't know what to do, I'm trying to figure it out by reading the site again, trying meditations and yoga. It's still there, an overwhelming sensation that kills me, takes away my desire for everything. That's why I came here, swallowing my pride, to ask for help. BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE.

I want to help, I want to be strong again. But I need help, my pillar collapsed and I know that there are many who pass by and focus more on themselves, because it is difficult to repair someone other than themselves.

I know some of you will tell me that I have to make an effort. Believe me, every day for me is an effort to want to live.

I'm sorry and thank you very much for reading. I will be attentive to any advice.

How much energy do you have right now? What is your skill level? There are many options for rebuilding yourself and restoring happiness to your life, but this takes time based on these two questions.

Try to focus on something easy and simple to do, like pranayama. The breath of fire can restore your energy (fire is the spark of life) and alternate nose breathing can help calm and balance you. Also, press the stomach 36 acupoint, as this reduces stomach problems and aids digestion and energy: https://ancient-forums.com/profile-posts/125/

Regarding other meditations, focus on the 40 day guide: https://satanslibrary.org/hp_hooded_cobra_40_day_meditation_program.pdf

These are simple and reliable basics which you should do. Don't do so much that you run out of energy or will. Instead, conserve your energy only for exercises that strengthen you, so that you can build yourself up and out of bed.
 
Hello dear. You should do the daily meditation every day and never skip a day. Daily meditation and increased energy will solve half of all problems by itself, provided you are serious about it.
I also felt like I was crumbling and breaking every second when I stopped meditating. At that time, I was no longer able to start. One day, I prayed to the gods to give me the strength to start and continue.
Failure is always a part of progress because you learn something every minute of your life. As our friends said, you can improve your health by reading and following the written instructions. you can. Believe in yourself.

sorry for my bad english
 
I had not thought about the diary, I will try to do it, always thinking positively. Also now I feel a little better since last night I blurted out some things while I was writing and knowing that I'm not alone calmed me down a little. Anyway, I'm not very familiar with the rituals, because sometimes I don't understand what they mean or the instructions in the guides/website. But I will look for him and try to perform the ritual he told me about. I really appreciate you taking the time to give me advice. Thank you so much.

Maybe I'll write to you later to ask you some questions about the rituals, since you have the experience that I lack. If there is no problem, of course.

Sorry for the bad English, it's still hard for me.
Yes, the doctor had given me the probiotic Bifidobacterium longum a month ago, which helped me digest bread and stuff better. But I will try to get kombucha, kefir, yogurt, I would have to get the lactose-free ones, since that treatment of the bacteria made me lactose intolerant. Although I will do my best to get them as soon as possible. Thank you very much for taking time to help me.
I don't know if you mean a spiritual or energetic life. But if it is spiritual I think not much, since I did the basics; inhale energy for one minute, aura protection x10, chakra rotation 1 minute each.

Two years ago, when I was healthier and more stable, I completed the 40-day program and also felt the energy in my palms with that exercise that came out in the meditations. Now I'm not so good, because the motivation and dedication I had was reduced to the most basic.

[My English is not that good, I'm sorry if you don't understand something]

I couldn't find the breath of fire, what could it be?, and I did the pranayama and relaxed quite a bit.
Acupuncture point 36 do I just have to touch it or do I need to focus a lot on the sensation?

And yes, I will restart everything and follow the 40 day program again.
 
How much energy do you have right now? What is your skill level? There are many options for rebuilding yourself and restoring happiness to your life, but this takes time based on these two questions.

Try to focus on something easy and simple to do, like pranayama. The breath of fire can restore your energy (fire is the spark of life) and alternate nose breathing can help calm and balance you. Also, press the stomach 36 acupoint, as this reduces stomach problems and aids digestion and energy: https://ancient-forums.com/profile-posts/125/

Regarding other meditations, focus on the 40 day guide: https://satanslibrary.org/hp_hooded_cobra_40_day_meditation_program.pdf

These are simple and reliable basics which you should do. Don't do so much that you run out of energy or will. Instead, conserve your energy only for exercises that strengthen you, so that you can build yourself up and out of bed.
Hi, it's been a couple of days since I started again, and the anxiety and feeling of falling have decreased noticeably. However, there is some residue left, although my mind is busy and it still ruins my day sometimes. It's like a constant tickling in my head.
Anyway, I wanted to ask you a couple of questions, if it's not too much trouble.

Regarding the 36 stomach acupuncture, as I understand it, do I just place the 5 fingers and press for 15 minutes or do I have to concentrate on the pressure?

Also, what is fire breathing? I didn't find it or maybe I didn't search well.
And also, to perform a ritual I have to complete the 40 days of meditation right?

This is a separate thing, but I remember reading before that you could say a certain affirmation before sleeping, in this case I say "I don't have anxiety or depression" x40 before sleeping and I don't know if I'm wrong or maybe I'm just thinking things, but if you know something I would appreciate it.
 
Besides just adding Aura Cleaning, Aura of Protection and some Chakra spinning to your daily routine, which will get you a lot of benefits that compound over time, you could benefit a lot from journaling.
What I did at some point is give myself 3 minutes to write as many bad things from my day as possible, then take as much time as you need to write at least 10 things you are thankful for. It can be anything, even not being homeless, but the catch is you can't repeat the good things on back to back days. It gets you thinking about things you take for granted.
Lord Valefor's God Ritual provides amazing healing energies and lets you connect to Lord Valefor, who himself is known for healing.
If it's a lack of motivation issue, you can do certain mantras for energy. But I'd rather let someone more experienced recommend you something for that.
I also personally found that Lord Satan's Absolution Ritual keeps me pretty motivated and focused on my goals for a few days, and Lord Baalzebul's Ritual does teach you a new appreciation of life.
Just, in general, learn to be mindful, connect to the Gods, do the easy daily meditations (adding new hard meditations to your life might just be too much right now) and try to take things one step at a time. It WILL get better.
Hello, a few weeks ago I asked for help. And if you'll allow me, it was the best thing; thanks to your advice, from everyone, I was able to solve many things, but of course, as always, something remains. The good thing in this case is that I no longer feel anxiety (or not as much as before) but I have a void in my mind, it's like an emotional fall that happens from time to time and that's why I'm writing to you, to ask you something about rituals, especially about the Lord Valefor ritual that I found, but I didn't find the Lord Baalzebul one. According to what I read, there are rituals and runes that can help with emotional and physical healing.

However, when I read the instructions I always have doubts, because sometimes they ask me to drink wine in a metal cup, but since I have stomach problems I can't do that. Also, I'm on day 17 of the 40-day program and I don't know if that will be a problem when performing a ritual. Anyway, if you answer me this I would really appreciate it. I apologize if you don't understand something, English is not my primary language.
 
Please stay, it will be brief and precise.
Since the beginning of the year I have been in a tailspin. Everything has gone wrong for me, since I had a treatment to eliminate a dangerous bacteria and from there I began to have more problems; stomach especially, I have stopped eating many foods for fear of feeling pain, to the point that it affected me mentally which I am suffering a lot at this moment. I no longer feel the desire to live, to exist. WHAT I HATE. I never felt like this. I want to live. I want to be here. Basic meditation no longer relaxes me. Anxiety eats me, depression kills me. I've been in bed for 8 months, I feel so useless that I tried to talk to my parents about it. Still, I don't feel relieved. I feel very bad every day, I write this crying.

I think this started since I participated in a war/ritual 2 years ago, at that time I was a beginner and that same night an elongated figure dressed in black appeared to me, something that scared me a lot, I asked Father Satan for help and I felt very relaxed that day and fell asleep instantly. But naively, being a teenager scared me so much that I slowly started to stop meditating. I made a mistake. A very serious one. From there I continued with the basics, making mistakes.

I don't know what to do, I'm trying to figure it out by reading the site again, trying meditations and yoga. It's still there, an overwhelming sensation that kills me, takes away my desire for everything. That's why I came here, swallowing my pride, to ask for help. BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE.

I want to help, I want to be strong again. But I need help, my pillar collapsed and I know that there are many who pass by and focus more on themselves, because it is difficult to repair someone other than themselves.

I know some of you will tell me that I have to make an effort. Believe me, every day for me is an effort to want to live.

I'm sorry and thank you very much for reading. I will be attentive to any advice.
They all gave you excellent advice, your situation is very delicate and the only thing I can add is to hold on to your will to live. That "I WANT TO LIVE" is really important and will protect you a lot. Cultivate it also through the advice they have given you and hold on to it.
 
They all gave you excellent advice, your situation is very delicate and the only thing I can add is to hold on to your will to live. That "I WANT TO LIVE" is really important and will protect you a lot. Cultivate it also through the advice they have given you and hold on to it.
I say this because we are always alive first and foremost precisely because we WANT to live. It's hard for me to explain better.
 
No need for wine, you're checking the basic ritual page, the rituals you need are here - https://josrituals.org/
No need for wine or other stuff bro i have been there.

Quick question dont mean to hijack the boys thread, even though i dont induldge in any off those things for more than half a decade. 1 year of madness. find my self it not the best of situations.

Is there such a thing as good luck, sounds silly asking that as could be doing with some.

Dont miss a day doing all my religious things.

Maybe you can have a bad year witout narcotics then. that perplexes me as i have never been fresher or stronger.

Perhaps down in ones luck then.

Hope you and all my pals on this are good (y)
 
No need for wine or other stuff bro i have been there.

Quick question dont mean to hijack the boys thread, even though i dont induldge in any off those things for more than half a decade. 1 year of madness. find my self it not the best of situations.

Is there such a thing as good luck, sounds silly asking that as could be doing with some.

Dont miss a day doing all my religious things.

Maybe you can have a bad year witout narcotics then. that perplexes me as i have never been fresher or stronger.

Perhaps down in ones luck then.

Hope you and all my pals on this are good (y)
I'm not sure what you're asking.
 
This probably sounds utterly bizarre but a fecal transplant might help with your digestive issues. It’s a last resort, but it’s something established doctors do, and you sound like a prime candidate.
 
No need for wine or other stuff bro i have been there.

Quick question dont mean to hijack the boys thread, even though i dont induldge in any off those things for more than half a decade. 1 year of madness. find my self it not the best of situations.

Is there such a thing as good luck, sounds silly asking that as could be doing with some.

Dont miss a day doing all my religious things.

Maybe you can have a bad year witout narcotics then. that perplexes me as i have never been fresher or stronger.

Perhaps down in ones luck then.

Hope you and all my pals on this are good (y)

If I understood your question well, than the answer would be no. If luck is defined as a result of pure coincidence, I don't believe so. It is most likely just our lack of understanding of how that works.

The not so favorable situation is a product of many factors, most of which you can influence to turn things around. It comes down to diagnosing the critical points where things go wrong and working on them.

Planetary/stellar forces can be used to ones advantage and a better timing of any action will produce a better result. Some change in habits or approach to things may be needed to overcome the difficult period.

Not sure if any of this helps but I wish you good luck nevertheless 😉

SWP
 
If I understood your question well, than the answer would be no. If luck is defined as a result of pure coincidence, I don't believe so. It is most likely just our lack of understanding of how that works.

The not so favorable situation is a product of many factors, most of which you can influence to turn things around. It comes down to diagnosing the critical points where things go wrong and working on them.

Planetary/stellar forces can be used to ones advantage and a better timing of any action will produce a better result. Some change in habits or approach to things may be needed to overcome the difficult period.

Not sure if any of this helps but I wish you good luck nevertheless 😉

SWP
Thank you for this mate, appreciated. :cool:
 
No need for wine, you're checking the basic ritual page, the rituals you need are here - https://josrituals.org/
Oh, sure. I'll check them out, though I don't know which one will work best for me in my situation.
Also, a question; I've been constantly feeling pressure in the center of my head for 2 weeks now, it's like a cold, ticklish air and no matter what I do it's always there, and it's quite annoying, I'm just wondering if you know anything. Anyway, thanks a lot.
 
Besides just adding Aura Cleaning, Aura of Protection and some Chakra spinning to your daily routine, which will get you a lot of benefits that compound over time, you could benefit a lot from journaling.
What I did at some point is give myself 3 minutes to write as many bad things from my day as possible, then take as much time as you need to write at least 10 things you are thankful for. It can be anything, even not being homeless, but the catch is you can't repeat the good things on back to back days. It gets you thinking about things you take for granted.
Lord Valefor's God Ritual provides amazing healing energies and lets you connect to Lord Valefor, who himself is known for healing.
If it's a lack of motivation issue, you can do certain mantras for energy. But I'd rather let someone more experienced recommend you something for that.
I also personally found that Lord Satan's Absolution Ritual keeps me pretty motivated and focused on my goals for a few days, and Lord Baalzebul's Ritual does teach you a new appreciation of life.
Just, in general, learn to be mindful, connect to the Gods, do the easy daily meditations (adding new hard meditations to your life might just be too much right now) and try to take things one step at a time. It WILL get better.

Thank you for this.
I'm trying to turn journaling into a ritual. I bought two notebooks and two expensive pens, one for each notebook, as well as incense for journaling. One notebook I reserve for thoughts, events, reflections, feelings, and so on. The other is my gratitude journal, where I write all the blessings I got and accomplishments I made. Being able to open my gratitude journal and read only good things, it's such a nice feeling.
If anyone has ideas for how to make journaling a Satanic ritual please help me.
 
There are times your have to deliver your love, money and other stuff, and there are times where your recieve love, money and other stuff, those times swift, when you have given, you will recieve, when you have taken, you will pay for your sins. No one escapeses this faith.
 
There are times your have to deliver your love, money and other stuff, and there are times where your recieve love, money and other stuff, those times swift, when you have given, you will recieve, when you have taken, you will pay for your sins. No one escapeses this faith.
I like your message. I like your cat. But please don't put a picture of yourself. There are jews that come here and try to curse all of us, and it's much easier to curse someone if you have a picture to focus on.
 
Oh, sure. I'll check them out, though I don't know which one will work best for me in my situation.
Also, a question; I've been constantly feeling pressure in the center of my head for 2 weeks now, it's like a cold, ticklish air and no matter what I do it's always there, and it's quite annoying, I'm just wondering if you know anything. Anyway, thanks a lot.
That's your third eye, relax your face and especially the upper part, it should help.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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