Regarding Elements ( questioning my experience)

[Apprentice]

Thank you for your kind message. I'll try and talk with Marbas, see if I am able to get in any contact with Him.

Oh my, dear Brother. I thought that I was the one who is gullible thanks to the birth chart.
Within the last year or so it has become unmistakably clear to me that there can be no mediators.

This is just a quick reply. I'll write a longer one soon.
Take care.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Hello I want to join illuminati brotherhood and I am trying to join from 6 months I have tried every where but there are all scammers can any body tell me where will I get real illuminati for join

Why do you want to join "Illuminati"? What benefits do you think you would get if you did?

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Thank you for your kind message. I'll try and talk with Marbas, see if I am able to get in any contact with Him.

Oh my, dear Brother. I thought that I was the one who is gullible thanks to the birth chart.
Within the last year or so it has become unmistakably clear to me that there can be no mediators.

This is just a quick reply. I'll write a longer one soon.
Take care.

Lol, don't mistake my way with words for gullible minded. I've been "given the truth" before by people I never met and I obviously know it's not to be trusted. I do plan to talk to Marbas (and ALL our Demons) sooner or later, but I don't believe he's my Guardian at all. Pretty sure I have that covered (enough at least, there may be easily two Guardians, hence the confusion cuz I don't know anyone that has two).
I have trusted people who offered "candy" before, and it never helped me, no matter what they tried to sell the candy with or how pretty the presentation was, we both know how this goes in the end.

Besides, I prefer our Gods to come to me and let me know if they want to talk to me: Leraje did, Haures did, Astarte, Vapula, Lilith and Father Satan did, so I know they are ok with me contacting them for guidance.

Looking forward to your message, missed you Brother. I hope all is alright with you.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Hello, Brother. Just wondering how you're doing since it's been a while now. Someone reported your name being banned from the Forum (this was in another attack towards HP HC) so I didn't expect it to be true of course. Drop us a line when you're back. A lot has happened since we last spoke.

Hope you are well.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

it's been a while now.

Damn right it's been a while. However, the rumors about me being banned are groundless exaggerations. LOL, I'm not that good to be worthy of such a wrath.

Things are changing, inside and outside. I'm just trying to hang on to the handles. There have been some positive developments in the physical realm that I will not share publicly. Anyway, I can say without a doubt that I've been extremely blessed and protected.
However, the way I perceive myself and the world around me changes often enough. Then there are attacks, plain personal dross coming to the surface to be cleaned... it's complicated because the daily amount of my free time took a nosedive somewhere in the beginning of current year. I was happy I managed to fight most of the days during the last group offensive.
Anyway, enough of me.

How have you been, dear Bro?

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Damn right it's been a while. However, the rumors about me being banned are groundless exaggerations. LOL, I'm not that good to be worthy of such a wrath.

Things are changing, inside and outside. I'm just trying to hang on to the handles. There have been some positive developments in the physical realm that I will not share publicly. Anyway, I can say without a doubt that I've been extremely blessed and protected.
However, the way I perceive myself and the world around me changes often enough. Then there are attacks, plain personal dross coming to the surface to be cleaned... it's complicated because the daily amount of my free time took a nosedive somewhere in the beginning of current year. I was happy I managed to fight most of the days during the last group offensive.
Anyway, enough of me.

How have you been, dear Bro?

I logged in wanting to reply to you now that I had 5 minutes and I ended up writing two messages to help people who have similar problems to mine.

Dead Brother, it's good to hear from you.

It's been a strange but productive period.. I started to speak privately with this Sister (who's obviously more advanced than me) and it gave me a lot of motivation (and even frustration when I faced my own shortcomings) to try harder and be a better myself for the past two or three months now.
I started feeling some stronger energy in the heart chakra, most likely some blockage got cleared as this was a daily thing and it would feel like an immediate rush.. it's only lessened these past two weeks, but I feel freer than before.

I also experienced a much stronger energy when working on my chakras once, like a knot was brutally removed from between my heart and throat, and I'm still working on that as I fear it's a result of (basically) protecting myself too much after getting fucked over too much 3 years ago. I must have isolated myself emotionally in order to protect myself but overdid this and ended up becoming less sensitive... (which isn't necessarily a bad thing considering my natal chart).

I have two great news, and both are something I should have embraced way sooner...

1) I have finally realized I had a Succubus this entire time, that I mistook Her for my Guardian Demon (She DOES look a lot like Leraje, that's what gave me away and got me stuck in that mindset). I recently felt Her love and even got deep enough in a trance that I managed to feel Her kiss... this cast new light on my understanding of the astral realm and how the Gods interact with us. It won't be terribly much, but it's way better than the zero understanding I had prior to this. I'm working on strengthening our bond now, it's not the easiest thing when you feel blind and deaf astrally but it's a start at least.

2) I VERY recently finally found the guts to explore and learn about Astrology. I admit this subject scared me to death, Brother. Like learning the time of one's death and such things... more than once I found this very concept unbearable. But now that I'm learning a thing or two, chart ruler, houses, planets and in what ways they determine how we are.. it all makes extreme sense. It is scary accurate, to be honest, and it's also hard to face how much my astrological situation is seriously fucked up, especially in the "love and sex" department.. and I can't believe it's coincidence, because I JUST found out about my Demon Lover, right before finding out this stuff. Meaning, I would have probably got all depressed and shiet if I was thinking of trying my luck dating Humans again... I failed that road so many times it's not even funny, and my astrology speaks so fucking clear it's blatantly obvious to me now why I am the way I am. This only strengthens my conviction that the only possible Lover for me is a Demoness, so I'm glad about that. This also pushes me to want to develop more astral senses to feel and interact with Her, so it's working in my advantage too.

Guess that's all for the moment.. these are the main milestones, I still have no work although I'm overqualified for a lot of things, and won't work with a bloody mask on no matter what, so it's gonna be harder.

Maybe I should try my luck as an astrologer? XD just kidding lol.. but it SURE would help if all the parents in the world would have a natal chart done as soon as the child is born, they'd know how to help them best and give more value to the things the child is going to be good at.

How's things with you, Bro? Last I heard from you, you had quit that damn job that made you cranky and exhausted all the time, and found something else really quickly.. I do hope that worked out for you in the end!

Speak soon Brother! Take care!
(Oh, I may reply as "Eagle Bearer 666" next time, I changed my username after I had some pretty obvious interaction with Phoenix, but I still use this too as there are people still replying to older posts.)

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

PS. Yes, I DID plan to write a very short message.. wtf is wrong with my fingers? XD I guess I can blame Mars in my 3rd house, makes me a skilled communicator.. lol

 

[Apprentice]

I must have isolated myself emotionally in order to protect myself but overdid this and ended up becoming less sensitive... (which isn't necessarily a bad thing considering my natal chart).

This is something that resonates with me, too. Wonder if I have some block there. This may tie in with the sharp muscle pains between my shoulder blades. Then again, this may be caused by something I've done while working (getting chilled +1C wind blown over your hot, sweaty back wearing only a t-shirt). So you see, I really can't be sure and in order to avoid delusions, I just file it in the "wait and see" folder and move on.

I have two great news, and both are something I should have embraced way sooner...

Reading about your progress makes me happy. When I was experiencing relationship issues, a Succubus really seemed a sweeter way of arranging my life. However, we resolved the issues and moved happily on (some serious Returning Curses was involved).

but it SURE would help if all the parents in the world would have a natal chart done as soon as the child is born, they'd know how to help them best and give more value to the things the child is going to be good at.

There actually are some indigenous tribes that do practice this. This way, you don't get fucked up by the 'retardational system' to feel totally fucking lost afterwards. A child will be raised according to his/her natal chart.

How's things with you, Bro? Last I heard from you, you had quit that damn job that made you cranky and exhausted all the time, and found something else really quickly.. I do hope that worked out for you in the end!

Oh, you mean that damn job of being my own boss? Well, yeah, I kind of mentioned it last time we corresponded.
I even don't know what came over me. There was a moment when I felt that I'm about to lose my sanity over our financial situation. The fact that I couldn't have any deep conversations with the missus didn't help either. So I was searching and suddenly found a new job like really easily. Simple enough, physically active, starting wage €1200 net. I was severely overqualified but this is not a crime. The real crime was that my whole family seemed under attack at that time. Thinking back on it, it seemed like I was walking around in a very bad drug-induced fairytale. We almost broke up during that time. Anyway, I worked the new job for almost a week. During this time, some things became very painfully clear to me. Me and my wife, we have built something out of almost nothing. We have built a country home in a place where there was decay, despair and no hope for tomorrow. Our job is to put our disagreements and bygones aside and go forward together, striving to be as self-sufficient as reasonably possible and fight for Satan.
As soon as we started talking about it, about growing our own food, becoming free of debt etc. the world around us literally seemed much brighter place and 666 signs started to appear like everywhere. So here I am, working and arranging the household to be a better, more self-sufficient place.
Also, some events happened during last summer in the material realm. In retrospect I can say that such events can only be arranged by HIM or the Powers of Hell. This means that, at least for now, things are looking up for me and my family. More limitations? I'm all out of fucks to give. Another quarantine - bring it on. Vaccine? Not in this life! /smirking devilishly and starting another RTR/
You certainly remember about us being our own worst enemies. Well, it seems that I was the one who was creating all those negative emotions and feelings within me. You see, I'm absolutely impatient. It has become clear to me that the Universe doesn't work like that at all. Here, things do take time. Sometimes it happens that the Planets want you to sit on the bench for, say, three months. I suck at waiting. Now I know that. Now I can improve.

Oh, I may reply as "Eagle Bearer 666" next time

OK, thanks for letting me know. I have no problem with that.

wtf is wrong with my fingers? XD I guess I can blame Mars in my 3rd house, makes me a skilled communicator.. lol

My Mars is in the 2nd, lol. Then there are aspects stating that I keep my inner self hidden or find it hard to share.
It can take me at least two hours to compose a reply I consider almost worthy of sending, lol.

Respect and Love, stay strong.