Regarding Elements ( questioning my experience)

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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First of all, Brother, let me reassure you. I am pretty confident I wouldn't abuse any power (had I any skill with this, be it Hypnosis or Evil Eye or other similar mind influencing abilities).
On animals I can guarantee I won't cause anything bad to happen, any negative thoughts or commands that go against the animal's free will. Actually, I mentioned animals in my last post (while talking about this skill) only because I saw that HPS Maxine suggested they are very susceptible, which I assumed would make them good candidates to test my level... thing is, I haven't even thought of any "order" to give them that I would be comfortable with. When it comes to animals I become overprotective to the extreme and the thought of giving them an "order" they may perceive as bad or negative in the slightest makes me stop in my tracks, nullifying this skill before I even try it out. (This I have observed every time I got curious about this particular page in the JoS website.) So I honestly have no idea yet of what I could try to 'suggest' my pets to do without feeling like I'm pushing them too hard and that I don't have a right to do so. My cats are the most adorable I've ever seen, we sleep together, do anything together and I pretty surely give them freedoms other 'cat owners' (I don't "own" them, they live with me, they own themselves) won't allow theirs. So that's something else that would make me feel very wrongly about. If you do have suggestions on what I could try, I'm all ears. For now I'm just trying to follow the Evil Eye's instructions by using willpower on myself, training my stare with a mirror. This also leads me to the idea of Self-Hypnosis, as I am pretty aware that often enough I am the one holding my abilities back, mostly for fear of using them in a dangerous way.

As for people... that's another story. I'm not saying I would be a freaking monster and bed every woman I like, obviously lol.. (I'm not saying I wouldn't bed one if I really liked her either.. we DO have pages about this Magick in the JoS after all) but I wouldn't feel bad about changing some thoughts in them. We both know how a lot of people are still too idiotic and close minded towards things we already have learned... the matter of vaccines for example is a very controversial topic. Some people (many, thankfully, that I've spoken with) are in the know and I've been surprised lately to have some of them talk to me in the same way I talk to those I try to figure out.
That is great, of course, but there's other things that many people still don't get. One of them, as a very obvious example, the fact that they don't understand and don't question anything regarding our Father. This is why sometimes I have been thinking whether or not it would be a good idea to refer to Father Satan by using another of his names, like Shiva (but Hindi people would assume they know best..) or Pan (Wiccan moron would probably think they know best themselves..) or some other less common name that would make him sound to the majority of people like a completely unknown deity.

This just because whenever I try to tell people about Father Satan and introduce this 'new image' that they have been ignoring, all I see in almost every case is disbelief, fear, anger and so on. At the moment, only one woman in UK seems very open to the idea of Satan being our True Creator and wants to give spiritual warfare a try... which in my list of people is under the voice "beyond surprising", but most of them just turn away.

My ex, as you know, has been another utter failure and after all this time has never managed to even begin getting close to Father. I should have known much earlier that I would have ditched her eventually. I guess "hope" never really dies, does it?

So, one of the things I would do with people and this thought-altering skill (if I had any control over it or managed to perfect it.. that'd be great) is to make them curious about Father Satan, making them open minded, making them question things they know nothing about, and so on. So, basically, you could say that I would perform the White/Black/Asian Awakening Ritual all in one, but in a comfortable instantaneous "thought tampering" version.

Then sure, I can also see this skill as something potentially even deadly and perhaps a great weapon to use against one's opponents, not denying that sounds like a super effective skill (especially since people rarely have a better control than we do over our minds).. stopping someone from arresting you, stopping an attacker, "force-befriending" an enemy..

I have to say though, Brother... I have been seeing reactions like this from others too. Thinking some work of Magick that alters someone else's willpower as "immoral" or "wrong". Don't get me wrong, I don't plan to let any power I will ever learn get the best of me and turn me into some ..lust driven monster or vengeful little prick or something like that, but I do trust HPS Maxine possibly more than any other Human, regardless of the fact that we barely ever even spoke. I understand the whole morality concept of not letting oneself be driven by the power, but I also don't believe we should limit ourselves while aiming to become Gods. There's either one way or another.. holding our horses because we're experimenting with too much power should, in my opinion, only be done when we feel we are not yet ready to deal with the power, lest we just end up cockblocking our already difficult spiritual evolution.

And this is a perfect point of this post to answer your question...

I have been thinking, right after I read your question, about what in Hell was that event that got me the experience the 'dross' or whatever it was raising up my spine. I assumed it was in one of these super long (but apparently so very useful) threads, but I didn't know where to begin and I forgot what keywords I could have looked for.
Then I clicked on a random page number and lo and behold, there it is:

https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=35374&p=187157#p185873

I remembered this was not so long after you mentioned you had seen a yellow lightning, and I begun to visualize my energy differently, not so much as a color but as pure electricity. Then I made it yellow (the color of the Solar chakra not for nothing). That's when I felt that stuff being detached and moving up to my heart, and that's shortly after I have started being fascinated with emerald green color again.
I wouldn't be too surprised if you felt attracted to vibrant blue color in the next few days. You said it "hit" the throat chakra, right? Knowing that region, I'd also advise you to be careful about your emotional state, not to forget that what could manifest as something like a violent lash or outburst MAY be caused by this 'dross' being storaged in your throat for the time being.

And now the reason why I said this was a perfect point to answer this question:

I found the post I linked before doing the 72 names ritual and FRTR, but wanted to get the rituals done before I would reply to you and take my time with the answer. I think that decision REALLY paid off.

I was finishing the 72 names rituals. I can remember the exact moment, it was when I was vibrating SATANAS, I was at the -TAN- sounds.
Now I don't know how I will describe this to you, but I felt something strong in my head.
I have been feeling the sound of the names vibrate in my head and even in the nose since like the second line in the ritual. It surprised me as I don't feel sounds vibrate that strong and clear in me when I do.
When I vibrated that couple of sounds in SATANAS it was absurd... I guess I can compare the feeling to having a drill working its way from the top of my head to the pineal gland. I think nothing will describe the sensation better. It wasn't painful at all, or not even particularly pleasurable.. It just "was". I felt it so intense that for a moment I thought whether or not I should stop vibrating the sounds and return to it a minute later, but I decided to continue.

This reminded me of the 'dross moving up from my 2nd/3rd chakras and into the heart chakra', but it was different.. much more noticeable, impossible to deny.

And to tell you the truth, Brother, I never before felt how sounds could be truly strong, only today did I feel the obvious effect of a vibration.

Another note (as it may be important): as yesterday was the first time I did this 72 names ritual and I only did one repetition for each name, I decided today I was going to do the 3 recommended, but I didn't want to play the entire audio file again and again, so I vibrated each name three times and moved to the next, so 72, 72, 72, 71, 71, 71, and so on until I did 1, 1, 1.
Just so that if you want to do it exactly like I did and see if you get any effect like this you can do it too.

I hope this post answers your question (the main answer for feeling what I did up to the hearth chakra in the end was "yellow lightning" and "standing straight with my back", while sitting cross legged as I often do while meditating and doing rituals) and that this new experience with vibration that acts on the physical casts some more light on your understanding.

Oh, and thanks for the necklace/props advice. I normally clean all of my stuff with golden energy, including the whole house daily with my personal AoP.

Hail Father Satan!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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Have you ever considered trying to directly contact Lerajie in some way? If she seems so evidently to want to communicate with you I mean...

 

[Apprentice]

Things will keep happening one way or another, and if that bother you then it's probably going to be a rough ride, but if you can shut it off and leave your life more peacefully nothing has the potential to harm you.

Hello dear Brother. A lot has transpired since my last post. Well, the bad sleep quality I was experiencing got gradually worse. I was at my wits end. I had a feeling that the working I'm currently doing to obliterate bad planetary influences had something to do with it. So I thought to myself "Rather a painful end than an endless pain" and asked the Powers for guidance. A day or two later a chain of thoughts started to incubate in my head. I suddenly remembered that roughly two decades ago I was diagnosed with asthma. Back then I was prescribed a medication meant for sudden asthma attacks. I used the meds and all but quit after a year or two after losing some 60 pounds of body fat (I was fat as a fuck back then). Thinking back at it, I felt that the doc didn't dig deep enough. I learned that there are asthma medications with different effects. Some have prolonged effect while others are meant for attacks only. The thing is, I have never had asthma attacks. The symptom I was experiencing back then was laboured breathing.
During sleep the breathing gets shallow because the organism doesn't need that much oxygen. If the airways are constricted, this means you are not getting enough oxygen during sleep. Even now I felt that I'm making myself to breathe deeply after waking up but as soon as I turn my attention elsewhere, I'm back to shallow breathing and the body is again low on oxygen. Morning headaches were starting to be pretty regular because the brain is deprived of oxygen during sleep. I also learned that asthma and apnea are often complicated by shared comorbidities and potential for multidirectional casual pathways, i.e., obstruction, inflammation, obesity and rhinitis.

Recent studies have shown that there is a link between bronchial asthma and OSA and there is a bidirectional relationship where each disorder adversely influences the other one.
There are more than enough evidences that OSA is not uncommon among asthma patients; however, it is poorly investigated. OSA is largely overlooked in patients having uncontrolled asthma. Patients with poor asthma control despite optimal recommended management need to be screened for possible OSA so as to reduce treatment cost, morbidity, and improved quality of life in such patients.

I have been allergic to all sorts of pollen since early childhood and possibly mold and airborne fungi, too (this was tested and verified). If you grow up like this, you can't really tell that something is serioulsy wrong. So, considering all of the above I went and got myself new medications. I had an annoying headache that day because the day before was intense, stressful and long so I slept poorly.
After the first night on meds, fuck me, what a difference! My body is still recalibrating itself but the sleep is so much more restful. My breathing is free and I don't have to labor to inhale. I feel much more happy, content and eager to do things.
Imagine Air person without much needed Oxygen? Not really.
Wonder, why was I "blessed" with all this shit. Maybe too much potential in the eyes of the enemy. Vaccine-induced perhaps? My parents were ignorant so I was given everything a growing boy needs.
I also feel it is time to taper off on those nicotine pouches. They gave me some relief back then when my sleep was completely fucked after going cold turkey on vaping.

Anyway. Love the group offensive so far, haven't missed a day. Work schedule loosened up a bit so everything is smooth currently.
Much respect and love to you, dear Brother. Talk 2 U soon!

 

[Apprentice]

I'm surprised you don't see and hear more than you do with that skill.

Thank fuck I don't, Brother. I know I'm not yet ready for hearing and/or seeing the astral. It would be too much too soon.
Actually, I have come to enjoy the instrument flight. IMO it helps to build blind, unwavering faith and trust towards the Powers. It also helps to increase your own power and build strong confidence.
Why I quoted this from an old post, you might ask. Well, there is a new post that describes the shitshow that some more open members have to endure:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=46066

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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I'll answer here all in one as I need to make time for meditations and training, Brother.

Thanks for the link to that post. Sometimes I wonder how others seem to already have read something posted the same day, linked into their own post and have that post approved. It usually takes a day for mine to get through.
Much appreciated though. I have been having problems at work (very clearly from people that are mentally and spiritually very inferior and easily usable by the enemy) and for a couple of days I've been worried about my job, but I think it's safe to say it was a plain scare tactic with nothing to be used against me. Should have fucking known. All to distract me from my RTRs.

Speaking of RTRs, I just said this again in that post you linked to me from Sybellum, I have been trying something new: when I reach the affirmations in the RTRs (including the SATANAS and AUM) I visualize myself in the middle of the Quintessence, picturing the ginormous dimension made of blacklight color, and I speak the affirmations directly into the Quintessence. I feel this is brutally boosting the RTR's power, especially as I am relatively new to these rituals and these older RTRs I had never done before. To actually feel results such as my base chakra vibrating and humming and something else in my head, connecting the crown to the pineal gland.. that was something, Brother. I was blown away by the effect. (This last one happened while vibrating SATANAS, FYI.)

Regarding your breathing, I think it's probable that the enemy has made this existing problem into something bigger as this period seems to have had an effect on everyone of us. They know they're losing. This scares them horribly and they try every little trick to postpone their INEVITABLE DEATH AND UTTER DESTRUCTION. I've been seeing this happening for a while. They use people that are easily manipulated into having a go at us, abusing their power, abusing people verbally and emotionally, threats and whatnot.
For over a day I almost believed I was going to lose my job because of a manager that abused his power against me and another guy. This isn't my manager so fuck him, the other guy.. don't know yet. Thing is, Brother, try not to let anything get a hold of you.

You have to be like an impenetrable fortress. If it's temporarily harder to reach our Gods without stumbling into some lowlife shit that poses as one of our Gods, make it a habit of always going through Father Satan and asking for confirmations, being very careful anyway. I found using mantras like SATANAS and Gods' names helps as a "private line" to our Gods rather than merely focusing on them. I understand HP Maxine's words on how it is that the dead don't seem to make any spiritual progress, and how this relates to them not being able to speak words of power. "Words of Power" is actually a very precise definition here. This reminds me, once again, of "Magick Spell". Speaking the Words. "In the beginning there was the Word"... right? The bastards stole everything from us, but they can never keep it as it doesn't belong to them. WE ARE TAKING IT ALL BACK NOW.

Be patient and strong, Brother, I have a lot of faith in you. I don't think it's a coincidence that some of us here seem to befriend each other. As Spiritual Satanists we are Family in every sense of the word.

Hail Father Satan Forever! SIEG HEIL!

 

[Apprentice]

for a couple of days I've been worried about my job, but I think it's safe to say it was a plain scare tactic with nothing to be used against me

Keep your cool, dear Brother. Remain polite if possible. If not, inform the other party calmly that such an attitude is not acceptable and carry on. The crucial point here is to keep your inner self calm and balanced. "Trying to find a fuck to give..." is a good description, lol. (OK, I know it's easier said than done, especially if their attack hits a nerve.)

Just a question: how do you vibrate SATANAS? Do you do it like HPS Maxine does in her audio file, letter by letter? I did it in one breath earlier but with this offensive I stick to the protocol.

Did you notice my post in your 444 thread? Nowadays I'm seeing this number and 555 more than 666. I don't have the slightest clue what this all means. I read Brother GitM post that 444 means the need for balance.

Thank you for your kind words. I'm more than confident that you will weather this shitshow at your workplace like a champ. I have no bosses or managers but I was too connected with my immediate family. After I loosened the connections up a bit (adopted the "I don't give a fuck" attitude), the attacks ceased. I found this inner anger that helped me do it. It is a major driving force even when performing warfare rituals.

Yes, we are a family. Small world after all. I'd suggest you read this post if you haven't already:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=45866
Too many people feel the same, think the same. This is no fucking coincidence.

Stay frosty, dear Brother. Warm Regards to you.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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The work situation burst into a bubble of nothing. I haven't even been able to let my supervisor hear about it (just mentioned it in a text, then he had family issues so I didn't want to bother him for this) but the thing pretty much vanished into thin air. I suppose it still has been useful to me in one aspect though: I always strived with really drilling into my head the concept of Destruction being as just as Creation, so events like these make me think harder and realize I have the right to fuck with someone's life when needed. I think this is one of the main reason Haures came to my mind again. She's probably to me what Leraje is to Brother Ghost in the Machine, only he needs to learn to calm down, I need to learn to focus murderous thoughts.

Just a question: how do you vibrate SATANAS? Do you do it like HPS Maxine does in her audio file, letter by letter? I did it in one breath earlier but with this offensive I stick to the protocol.

I'm pretty sure I follow HPS Maxine's audio example. I do it all on one breath: the S is hissed like a cat, the A is open and vibrates in my chest, the T is the TH sound form the Third Eye Awakening (like TH-A-U-M) and the N is a simple N sound that I feel in my chest, throat and head.
I don't know if you referred to another version where you (probably) vibrate each sound for an entire breath, so doing 7 breaths for the whole SATANAS.. I've been thinking about it though, as I found I have problems 'dosing' the breath in equal parts in order to comfortably reach the end of the Demon's name/Rune/Mantra. This of course comes harder with names like DANTALIAN, who has 9 letters in the name compared to RAUM, for instance.
Speaking of Haures... how do you vibrate the H? The R should be rolled (I do one version that gets really close to Maxine's rolled R as I can't roll it the way Italians and Spanish do) and the S should be hissed, but the H ..is it like a constricted exhale? A bit like wheezing?
I need to take up training with her again. I've been feeling this urge. As for Leraje, I'm going to say this.. I don't think I am as advanced as I need to be to fully comprehend why she's my Guardian. I know there's a connection, that much is clear. I felt this the moment I tried to check if there was one, and there was. But every time I tried to contact her, focus on her or anything, the communication seems impossible. It's like she's on another completely different level and I can't reach her. And I find it crazy that I can communicate better with other Demons that I have never met before than my Guardian. :/ It might be that there's also a lot of interference, very possibly caused by the enemy in order to get me to question this relationship and believe less in it, resulting in my own weakening. This would be logic, I guess.

Actually... now that I think about it more and remember visions, I know it is so. -_- Shit.. see? A little introspection and I can find the problem right away, but only when I write it down (usually). This exact thing happened yesterday as well: I asked myself what I truly wanted for myself, as I decided what I thought I wanted for all my life was just garbage that the enemy 'instructed' me to want, so I would create my own mind prison. So I wrote three pages of things and asked myself what I want. I couldn't answer for the life of me.
In the end I made a list of three things, the first two I had to trick my head into getting there. They aren't 'things I want' but problems I want to fix, one of them being exactly the problem we deal with every time we do an RTR and fight for our Satan given right to evolve and be free. The other one I will solve when I can easily access the astral and stop mentally separating realities that co-exist.
The third one was the first of the three that I could state straight away, without it having to be the opposite of something else, and it concerned my love life.
When I read them all again it all made sense and I realized how my thoughts have been tampered with during my entire life, since I have memory.

On the 444 post... I thought I hadn't received the notification because you didn't quote me (without the quote I rarely notice posts, sometimes it took two months), but the post was there, first one posted.. and it simply wasn't before.

Read it. It makes a world of sense. We are Family.

"Stay frosty" ... "Warm Regards" ... someone's been playing with Fire and Ice? XD

Take care, Brother. Talk soon.

Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[Apprentice]

The work situation burst into a bubble of nothing.

I had a feeling this would end in a pile of nothing. When my wife said she's about to dump me, it also ended in a pile of nothing (and steamy bed wrestling).

I have the right to fuck with someone's life when needed

But then again you see the situation clearer than anyone else involved and you comprehend that these attacks on you are orchestrated from an invisible realm. The genesis of this idea didn't happen within the mind of your manager or whoever. It was injected into their minds. Sometimes, a binding is all you need. It all depends on the situation. We need to deal with the root of the problem. Retribution to every gawd-damn meaningless, remotely operated NPC out there means that you're spreading yourself way too thin. The way I see it, one has to keep up a strong AoP, warrior mentality and nothing-to-lose attitude. Unleash and enjoy the destruction when it is warranted and the situation calls for it.
Just a rhetorical discussion from my side.

I'm pretty sure I follow HPS Maxine's audio example.

I was just being curious. I was under the impression that one breath is one letter. I've done the whole SATANAS in one breath if time is tight but this time I used the long version.

Speaking of Haures... how do you vibrate the H?

In my language the H is not exactly the cats hiss but close (like the H in the word 'have'). Yes, basically a constricted exhale.

I don't think I am as advanced as I need to be to fully comprehend why she's my Guardian.

Actually, I decided to postpone dealing with these matters for now. They are busy and so are we plus the astral is littered with enemy dung scavengers. Don't vex yourself. Keep your eyes and ears open for any signs, build strong faith+trust and do your part (meaning warfare + personal evolution). It will all fall into place eventually when the time is right.

"Stay frosty" ... "Warm Regards" ... someone's been playing with Fire and Ice? XD

I had a feeling you are going to crack a joke about this even before I submitted the post
Anyhow, back then after experimenting with Fire and Earth, I decided not to upset my Elemental balance further. Been hitting Quintessence ever since.
A funny thing happened during this military excercise we had. The weather was cool, about 40°F. I was wearing a light summer uniform, a tactical plate carrier vest + harness + backpack. So far in my life it has been extremely easy for me to catch a cold. When we moved out in the morning, I mentally focused on the Fire already inside me and just fanned the flames. It worked - I felt warm and okay all the time. Fucking awesome.

Respect & love to you, stay strong.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

I had a feeling this would end in a pile of nothing

Today I had another run in with the idiot who asked for my details to write a report... fucking clown. I called my boss and finally managed to explain the whole thing, he suggested I wrote a report to him myself so I did. Haven't heard back but I'm pretty sure no one's got any dirt on me, I'm a freaking saint at work.

Retribution to every gawd-damn meaningless, remotely operated NPC out there means that you're spreading yourself way too thin

True, I see what you're saying. Yet again, if I let those that abuse their little power on others without ever doing anything about it I'm just letting them rule while they shouldn't. I guess in the end it all comes down to the nature of one's attack, whether they were piloted from the enemy or not.. this guy, from what I heard from others, has been harassing workers left and right and even got physical once. Not a good person that can play the "I'm innocent, I just got manipulated" card many others can play, then. I'll see what this leads to, I could always use the "Elemental overload" practice. I've been dying to try "Airing" someone out of their mind, I'm just too compassionate and always chose to let things go.... so far.

Ever thought of ways you could use your Air as a weapon? It used to be the one Element I didn't think could possibly be dangerous, then this year I realized there's at least three ways to use it like that.

Yeah, I've been doing it the same way then.

Couldn't resist. Almost felt like you did it on purpose lol. I'm trying to work with Quintessence as much as I can, but I noticed when I do something for more than I'm possibly meant to (for the moment) I tend not to see other results, so I change strategy. This obviously has happened with the 4 Element A LOT in the past. I'm sticking with my Air for now though. I feel I still have to grasp its true gifts, like the peace it offers, and the senses. Thanks to Air I felt my third eye "throbbing" like a physical organ. Haven't done that again for a while due to the amount of warfare and little time left, but I will soon.
I've also been stimulated to use more Air in my meditations, in ways that would probably agree with GitM's words on Air being the Element that frees and unblocks. I've been feeling an attraction to Air that suggests that's what I'm aiming for, possibly something very related with Leraje's peace bringing.

And great work with your Fire keeping yourself warm. I've done that too sometime when I felt particularly fond of this Element, it's truly fascinating how it seems to make a sweater totally useless. I'm glad you took up the Elements this year, you've been learning a lot, haven't you?

Talk to you soon, Brother. Three more days of offensive and then I'll use the time to work on myself more. There's much I need to do yet.

Hail Satan!

 

[Apprentice]

Hell yeah, dear Brother. I hope you're doin' fine.
I started my working to remove negative planetary influences back in November. I saw no other way around it. Guess what? Lately, all of it got stronger for some days. Sometimes it's hard but I'm hanging in there. I have a pretty good idea about those negative influences as I used the Azazels Astrology materials to get an unadorned overview of my chart (I'm still patiently waiting for full natal reading from HP HC). It's actually quite nice to feel the silver Moon energy around me and KNOW that these negative influences are going away. I do enjoy that.

I've been dying to try "Airing" someone out of their mind, I'm just too compassionate and always chose to let things go.... so far.

You really have to get over that. I once was like you, compassionate and caring, all smiley and shit. Life taught me that nobody gives a fuck. So now I have no problem being ruthless, vicious and brutal when I need to treat someone accordingly. Delight in what you destroy, bruh.

And BTW, NPC people seem to subconsciously perceive your state of mind. At some point, when you free your inner wolf, they will keep a deferential distance and even avoid direct (prolonged) eye contact.

Talking about idiotic co-workers, I remember when I worked in an office, I once vented to my direct superior who was CEO/owner about this one delusional guy who thought that he is somehow entitled to receive some login credentials from me. He even went as far as to threaten me and used joo-style manipulation techniques. I talked to my boss really bluntly, overreacting a bit, explaining the situation using really bad language. He agreed with me and talked to this other employee about proper procedure and trust issues.
Of course, you gotta know people before you can pull a stunt like this. I knew my boss, he is almost like an army grunt so from his POV I was actually making a clear point.

Anyhow, gotta chill a bit this evening, see you back in the trenches tomorrow!

Respect and love, take care.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

remove negative planetary influences

I really wanna hear more about that as I plan on doing it myself. Do share links if you have been doing your Astralogy homework, I'm very weak in that subject and I know I should know much more about it.

I once was like you, compassionate and caring, all smiley and shit.

"All smiley and shit". That's exactly how I put it when I explained my coworker (who has been given a last chance because his union guy was there with him) that I'd be out seeking blood.
So as it turns out I lost my job. Right before fucking Xmas, nonetheless. So, while for once I'm not anywhere close to starvation point, I will be seeking justice. The asshole that asked for my detail was apparently on a personal vendetta and got the group that manages the entire warehouse to 'ban me from the premises', which meant my boss had literally no choice but to let me go, much as he didn't want to.
Because I know what has been done to me is completely illegal and has no grounds to work on (the walking cadaver has obviously pulled strings, not having anything else to do) I will seek legal action and everything else possible, asking for compensation and whatnot.
And EVEN if I get all that, nothing will stop me from using death magick this time. Delight in what you destroy, yes.

Besides, and this will probably sound too good for a coincidence lol.... I had to double check the date and time in my journal to make sure this wasn't a case, but right before this all happened I was starting to write my decisions and understanding about death magick. Then, this happens. Like I was immediately given a target for practice, bet you thought of it a moment ago lol.

So I'm not saying 'losing my job' is a positive thing.. I loved this job, it had to do with machines and I had time to do my stuff, even draw when there was quiet and it allowed me to seriously improve myself as an artist and as a mage as well, giving me time to try things I don't normally have much time to dedicate to, like TK... but I can't help realizing this is a necessary step stone to something grander. Even if it is simply "me going for that other job I really wanted" (that would require a license I can now pay for).
Of course, what I'm seeing now at the present time is a bunch of opportunities. Staying home (NOT 'saving lives' lol) and taking care of the house and backyard, which I really need to, chooks included; using the legal tools in the 'vengeance box' in order to get paid and buy some time ....

Bro, I don't know if you ever read that, but once Brother ChaosBringer told me Leraje told him that "if I was in trouble, to buy time".
I can't help but thinking how I realized that just now. I couldn't possibly have figured that out sooner as I didn't believe it possible that someone would get me, of all workers there, most of them lazy, out of that place.
Now it makes sense.
I need time to do our offensive, time to rebuilt parts of the house, and most of all time to do what I must as a SS to evolve and train, daily.

Long story short, it really looks like I will need to experience Earth here. Anger, death magick, and even the 'dream job' would deal with earth.
Bad things can be used as opportunities. I'll sure make the most of this. (Besides, in this fucked up period I'm pretty sure there's some other meaning to it all... like that they were going to force new restrictions or vaccines. I HAVE been considering leaving, but I loved the job too much to do so.)

Have you been checking again the "How to Deliver the Evil Eye" lately? If you're that good already you should probably give it a shot and see how it works for you. To be completely honest, it was the one other skill I was writing about the day I wrote about death magick, but suddenly I was less inclined to go through with it, feeling more 'meant' to go through with the deadly skills instead. Pretty sure that was an accurate feeling now.

And yeah, I could have probably refused to give my name to the sick fuck, but I don't think it would have changed things all that much honestly. What he did was the worst thing he could do there, to the most dangerous person in the warehouse. All it did for him was mark him for death, and now I have the time to go through with it. I just need to sort my stuff out and power up in the one area I need to grow at the moment, grounding and Earth. (You might want to read my last answer to Brother Ghost in the Machine in my "number 444" post, I realized that just yesterday or so. Pretty useful when you deal with death magick, in my opinion. Perhaps I'll do a post on it in the future. Maybe after I "double check its validity" with that asshole ahahah! )

See you in the trenches later, Brother. I wrote something in the new schedule's post for all to see, perhaps you'll find it more useful than others since you enjoyed working with the Quintessence. The short version is: speak the affirmations into the Quintessence and 'make it destroy the jews'.

Sieg Heil!

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

I really wanna hear more about that as I plan on doing it myself. Do share links if you have been doing your Astralogy homework, I'm very weak in that subject and I know I should know much more about it.

I discussed the matter right in this very thread with Brother GitM. The working I came up with is based on Lydias "Obliterate your Saturn" thread. The discussion took place on page number four of our thread.
Anyhow, in a nutshell, you have to make sure the Moon is waning and as close to new Moon as it can get (best possible scenario) and no VoC. Moon should be in Scorpio for permanent results. I went for a 90-day Munka working with ×99 reps plus ×9 for the affirmation, with each affirmation sandwitched between AUM vibes. The affirmation is: I am in a positive, safe and healthy way totally free from any negative planetary influence, now and forever.
I started the working during the hour of Moon and have tried to time it like that ever since. Assumingly nothing bad happens if I can't manage the right hour every single day but I still aim for it.
A quick look at our calendar and it seems that a good time to start it was even yesterday (the 12th).

Losing your job sucks, there's no two ways about it. Then, OTOH, you have a chance to do stuff that really matters, like warfare and your own evolution. And retribution.
A quick word of advice here before I forget: do time your legal actions with the planets, the Moon and always check for VoC. It is important when sending in applications, letters etc. About two years ago, when we decided to finance a truck, I made sure all the moves were made at favorable times and the deal succeeded. Back then, similar small businesses were denied financing by default.
Reading list:
https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=92
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/retrogrades.html
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Timing.html

The balance between making your living and SS duties has always baffled me. Our business is seasonal, from spring to fall we basically work our asses off, pulling long hours, with December and January having a somewhat lighter load. Imagine waking up at 7 a.m., starting to work after breakfast and finishing at 9 or 10 p.m., sometimes skipping meals as you just don't have the time to cook? So doing this year after year, I feel like I'm getting too old for this shit (to borrow a quote from Lethal Weapon). With the fucking 'ronacircus now on top of it all, our financial future is a muddy mess and I can't see through it. We don't have a backup fund for rainy days. All we have is means and skills for being self-sufficient. I'm tired of this uncertainness and insecurity, it is really starting to get me down. Having deep faith and trust in our Gods is a wonderful thing I've been developing but being barely able to pay our dues and not knowing what tomorrow will bring is grueling. And even if I manage to find my internal balance, the missus shares some distressing financial details with me and blows my zen to smithereens because her mental balance and patience have limits, too. The empathy I feel toward her doesn't exactly help either.
I have always wanted to feel financially secure but so far my track record is not that good. I know I'm worth it, I deserve it. I've known this since I was a boy. The only lesson now is how to make it a reality. I even applied for several jobs, thinking that maybe I need to get out of this family business but somehow I feel that the Gods don't want me working 9 to 5. Needless to say, I wasn't even considered.
I've done some financial workings in the past but obviously there are deeper (planetary, natal) issues holding me back. So I've come to the conclusion that in order to evolve further, first I have to get my house in order, so to speak. Hence the decision to abolish negative planetary influences. Trust me Brother, there's a fucking collection of these in my chart and they all are painfully clear and visible to me.

Yesterday I realized that I was under siege, yet again. At first I erroneously thought that this intense feeling of mental anxiety is a result of my planetary working (you may experience those negative influences stronger during the working, as explained in Lydias thread). In the last RTR thread, other members also mentioned being under attack and having problems with imagination and seeing clearly, just like me. It wouldn't be a stretch to imagine that these grey skanky whores are actually exploiting my own internal weaknesses against me. They always go for it, trying to make me feel hopeless, pointless and doomed.

I have checked the "evil eye" but haven't knowingly practiced it yet. I have succeeded performing it before, unknowingly, with animals and humans. These have been positive situations where I basically make someone grant me a favor or make a horse give me its leg for a trim job.

Yes, I read your posts and tried vibrating affirmations into Quintessence. I thought about it after you suggested it and started to wonder how I could utilize it even further. Will try it with the new ritual, too.

Because of seeing 444 everywhere (in addition to 555 and 666 and 888 and 999), after reading Brother GitM explanations, I started to think about balancing and grounding myself. I can't currently start working on my chakras just yet (cleaning and empowering) as I don't want to spread myself thin but something has to be done, especially with the lower Chakras. Any ideas besides Hatha?

You do what you have to do about that skanky carcass. Just time it right with the Planets/VoC and treat it accordingly.
Recently I've been thinking about how to create intense, permanent fear in your opponent. Fear to the point that he/she gets diarrhea or needs to vomit.

Stay protected and strong, my Brother.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

....

Thanks for all the hints about the Planets, Brother. I guess I'll have to postpone this until I have some time to dedicate to this study too, at the moment I'm too busy trying to get some justice about the loss of the job, maybe getting it back (spoke to my boss, I guess it's a chance, not that I will rely on it that much after this and I still want to broad my possibilities).

I'm much more focused on Earth right now. After the last offensive it's become a lot more clear to me that I need to get myself tons of Earth (I guess working with Quintessence has still pointed that out) so I'm taking my time with it, not making the stupid mistake of rushing into an Element again. I guess some signs are showing me I'm on the right track, and I'm being aware of suggestions and advice from the Universe, perhaps the Gods too, that are getting to me in the form of natural things, like the behavior of insects and birds and our Planet's electromagnetism.

I've been getting back to my childhood love, martial arts, and after a bit of confusion on what style to focus on again, I was 'called' by my absolute love, 7 Stars Mantis. It's incredible how going back to something I thought I knew, years after understanding so many new things, concepts, energy behaviors and such, the entire concept seems almost unrecognizable and so much better. I wasn't too confident with this until this year, but now that I've been diving in it I can see so much more in it, even the strong Earth factor. Not for nothing Mantis seems to be the only style based on an insect... there's others from Shaolin but they're... how to put this.... 'xtianized'.. turned into a farce and meant to only ridicule true martial arts effectiveness. Think how Krav Maga (jewish of course) STOLE concept from a lot of martial arts and put them into a collection of techniques NAMED 'Krav Maga', so it's a collection of stolen knowledge, NOT a martial art.

Don't know about you working 9-5, but if I didn't give a fuck about you I'd leave it alone and not suggest you do something that gives you at least a few more hours everyday in order to do whatever else, other than working, that you want or need to do. Living like this sounds too hard to keep doing after the breaking point, I've seen people seriously collapse and you're Family. Don't want to see you getting crushed by this slavery system, besides, the more time you have the more you can improve yourself and be fighting in our war, making the world a safer place to be as well. I know you're extremely gifted, I suppose that's one reason you're so often being targeted and attacked. I've seen this happening to me a lot since I joined the spiritual warfare, and I know it means I am a danger to them.

I'll check Lydia's threads as soon as I can. I haven't even been able to properly read her last two ones on the base and sacral chakras and Yoga, I tried a couple of them already and I could feel it's good material though. Loved the .."Swastikasana", was it?

I guess some people have a better aptitude to controlling others, personally I haven't had that much success other than a few examples here and there. Not that I really trained it very much either... I remember months ago when I mentioned using magick to manipulate others and you disagreed with this being an honorable thing to do. I know it's in the JoS so it's something we're supposed to learn how to do as well, but I never liked the "idea of manipulating someone else" either. It just doesn't sound fair. Then again....... SOME people seem to ask for it, don't they? Wish I could just go ahead and train my Mantis style on them. I guess that's one of the ways in which I have always countered my lack of Earth, perhaps. Now I understand (or I am starting to understand) how Earth itself can be an incredible weapon for magickal murder. I believe the whole myth of Medusa (the Gorgon) has to do with 'transfering Earth Elements into the enemy', so "petrification" equals "using magick to kill". You know what? I love Air, but Earth is proving to be more useful. Even just for my lately discovered skill of 'finding the North', which Brother GitM stated is a spiritual ability many animals (being more advanced than us) already have.

Because of seeing 444 everywhere (in addition to 555 and 666 and 888 and 999), after reading Brother GitM explanations, I started to think about balancing and grounding myself. I can't currently start working on my chakras just yet (cleaning and empowering) as I don't want to spread myself thin but something has to be done, especially with the lower Chakras. Any ideas besides Hatha?

It's like you're asking for me to say "absorb Earth" lol. I lately re-read about the chakras and their Elements and realized I had forgot both the 1st and 2nd chakras have Earth. I guess I shouldn't be surprised as they provide grounding for the Soul, the first especially being 'the root' and all.
If you think that's too much, you could mix Earth with the Quintessence. Think "blacklight rocks". I found the Quintessence enhances the abilities of an Element when used together at the same time. HP Maxine herself said Quintessence is "a primer", making another Element's effect stronger.
Obviously, always remember to balance them and don't overdo it.

(A little hint, something that I very recently figured out and you might find it very useful for more than one reason: when you balance yourself with the opposite Element, especially, you might feel like you're completely overcome. Dizziness, loss of balance, some real uncomfortable effects. While this MAY be because of the Element coming in too fiercely, keep in mind that whenever you do something that will potentially strongly empower your Soul, you'll attract grey attacks VERY quickly, and they 'WILL use these effects on you in order for you to blame the Element/working and end up causing fear OF the Element/working'. I found this while being very positive while working with Earth, and nearly dumped the Element altogether, getting scared of the effects.)

Wouldn't that be the shit, Brother, huh? I thought of that too before, but I've become too unwilling to mix my mind with hardcore sheeple and jewish sympathizers, so I'll do like Medusa from Greek myth instead. Perhaps I'll fashion my hair into snakes lol. Or Mantises. XD

Take care, Brother, speak soon.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

I remember months ago when I mentioned using magick to manipulate others and you disagreed with this being an honorable thing to do.

It is your actions using this magick that define the honorability or ethicality of it. I even don't know how to formulate it exactly. I only know that I must respect the free will of others. If I can't talk someone to do something, then that's it. Of course, all limits are off for someone who is out to harm me, my family or my property.

Living like this sounds too hard to keep doing after the breaking point, I've seen people seriously collapse and you're Family. Don't want to see you getting crushed by this slavery system, besides, the more time you have the more you can improve yourself and be fighting in our war, making the world a safer place to be as well.

Exactly. And I've been beyond boiling/breaking point several times. If it were an underpaid job somewhere, I would have quit a long time ago. The reality is a bit more complicated because we are talking about a family business. And because you really work for yourself as an owner, then you are willing to go the extra mile almost daily. Some days you have a choice, other days not really. I totally get the importance of meditations and SS work but I also see that if I don't do what I gotta do then we will soon be in a bad place financially. I can't just say that "fuck, today I'm not going to deliver the products to customers". So I'm in a bit of a predicament work-wise. I hope you get my point.

I know you're extremely gifted, I suppose that's one reason you're so often being targeted and attacked. I've seen this happening to me a lot since I joined the spiritual warfare, and I know it means I am a danger to them.

The Powers of Hell have always shielded me from the worst, I guess. I am deeply grateful for that and thank them every day. So the only thing the enemy fucktards succeed in lately is tormenting me emotionally through my immediate family.

It's like you're asking for me to say "absorb Earth" lol. I lately re-read about the chakras and their Elements and realized I had forgot both the 1st and 2nd chakras have Earth. I guess I shouldn't be surprised as they provide grounding for the Soul, the first especially being 'the root' and all.

I tried that today. It's wait-and-see now. Every electrical circuit will have problems if the ground is not there or is intermittent.
As for the grey attacks, guess they're out of tricks with me. About 2 months ago they tried to pull that sympathy towards joos thing on me. Didn't work as I sensed it coming. Then they manipulated my family members. That didn't keep me away from offensive action either.
Besides, I've really got nothing to lose. I'm not going to become an old man, filled with regret, waiting to die alone.
As for the Elemental (im)balance, according to one astrology site, I have everything in equal proportions except Air of course. Other sites give different results. I'm going to work on it more seriously and we'll see. The problem is, just like Brother GitM pointed out, lack of guidance and information. I just can't talk to my GD yet so this is a bit like instrument flight. The 444 is currently my only blinking warning light (if the need for ground is what it means).

Are you getting your job back? Hope everything is running fine for you.
Over here, this 'ronacircus is getting a bit more serious. Our PM officially said that there will be vaccination ID-s required and the police are harassing people who don't wear face diapers. I'm not getting any of this alien shit pumped into me because frankly I don't believe it is something you can just Satanama yourself out of later. Also, people are waking up to this circus en masse.

Thank you, dear Brother. Keep your protection up. See you in the trenches!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Of course, all limits are off for someone who is out to harm me, my family or my property.

Exactly. For the longest time I have completely avoided the Destruction part of magick and our path as I believed I "didn't have the right" to do so. I guess it takes only a number of times being booted to the face by life itself in order to realize what is legitimately right and what isn't.

And because you really work for yourself as an owner, then you are willing to go the extra mile almost daily. Some days you have a choice, other days not really. I totally get the importance of meditations and SS work but I also see that if I don't do what I gotta do then we will soon be in a bad place financially. I can't just say that "fuck, today I'm not going to deliver the products to customers". So I'm in a bit of a predicament work-wise. I hope you get my point.

Right now, facing unemployment again, I'm seriously wondering just how many options there are for someone to work from home or being one's own boss anyway. I was big on this idea before, when my psychotic ex suggested to me I should start a jewtube channel. So I did. I guess I used 'trickery' in order to get easy subscribers, showing something fetish related but that no one unaware of such fetish would possibly consider 'bannable' material, so that was for a few months all I did as I kept getting a thousands views every day for the first week or two.. it was boosting my confidence as my previous attempts were getting nearly zero visits, but the first videos were more centered to 'copy' what others did when they already had good audiences and got paid for that shit. Then I learned of how jewtube banned videos exposing human trafficking and stealthily promoted malignant concepts that our society, teens and children especially, absorb easily and got discouraged. I said, fuck this shit, and dumped the channel entirely, haven't posted anything in at least 4 months or more I think. I even deleted all my 'fetish' related videos as I felt I was being 'dishonorable' towards myself.. consider it a mental Harakiri for something I hadn't any pride in.

Looking at things in a more logical/pragmatic way... I know for a fact that my last job served as providing me time to expand my knowledge and skill in drawing, so yeah.. I did think of making up a channel just for drawing and eventually involve concepts that easily attract people.. latest videogames, 'fetishes' that people may normally look for.. everything that can give me an edge. Besides, my creative side has been so fucking active that even now as I speak I am getting new ideas I haven't seen around.

So why didn't I already do it? ....cuz it's JEWtube. I have no faith whatsoever in the fact that I'm going to be allowed to monetize a channel... I have seen what works. Bullshit videogames, laughing people talking nonsense for teens who lost their brain in a cellphone... so fuck, I got discouraged and believed I couldn't do this anymore.
Truth is.. I would love this if it worked. Making money to create content and do what I love? Hell yeah... so basically the only thing that's stopping me is "knowing this is all jewish sponsored".

By the way, for a good chunk of time I was even extremely serious about making Spiritual Satanism friendly content, hoping to have more people 'look at it' and finding out it's nothing they believed it to be, teach about meditation, include my personal experiences and successes.... I even know who's follow me right away, but it's a very limited amount of people and unless I'm getting paid and making this into a profession, "videomaking" (new profession of the latest 10-15 years, paying awesome cash to those that took it seriously enough), well... I don't want to be working for nothing.

Bro, I can almost FEEL my pessimism right now, so don't mind me too much... in truth, I'm kind of trying to convince myself to give it another try, and since I have been trying this and getting some success while I was still working, I can't think of a reason not to do it now that I have more time to myself. As long as I keep up with my meditations and rituals, I'm thinking this could be a good something to keep up my drawing skill, and eventually get to more than that.. like it or not, I'm still VERY Air and ideas just pop up by themselves. Perhaps all I really need is the grounding to make this happen and be constant and patient with myself. It wouldn't be the first time I discovered bits and pieces of myself by meddling with art and creative stuff.
I'd like your opinion on that.. should I give this another shot (doing something I love, like drawing and martial arts)? :/ I'm kind of torn.. but as I said, the one reason stopping me is knowing jews own that website.. pisses me off to no end. Again, maybe I'm just being too negative and things will change in time as we enter deeper into the Age of Aquarius.

The Powers of Hell have always shielded me from the worst, I guess. I am deeply grateful for that and thank them every day. So the only thing the enemy fucktards succeed in lately is tormenting me emotionally through my immediate family.

That's a constant thought in the back of my mind too, Brother. Unfortunately, we as single individuals can only look after ourselves (and the environment, the Animals, the Planet), and others, even loved ones, have to come second as everyone is on their own path, your partner, your child, everyone makes their own choices and need their own time to live through their own experiences, realize things, understand truths, and eventually make conscious decisions that lead them to verity and self evolution. I'd say they're both lucky to have you in this life, as you provide a constant example of what one should be aiming for, but it's ultimately up to them to choose whatever path they will. If I had the power to make my mother stop drinking as she does, choose to meditate, choose to understand jews are a different race and definitely not Human, I would. She was the one intelligent enough to go against the system in order NOT to vaccinate me, and I can't be grateful enough for that, so it pains me to see her being so self destructive and getting angry when I point it out.
That said, each of us is here for another attempt at evolving past the point of "having to come back here to attempt again".... at some point I guess one has to realize that there isn't a better way to change others than changing ourselves in what we want to become, and others, seeing that success and power, will choose to imitate and follow your footsteps (kind of "be the change you want to see in the world" sort of thing.. people naturally follow the charismatic and the powerful/strong and the famous.. think of actors and singers, they attract because they are shown as being charismatic, strong, famous and whatnot, so people want to be them).
Just imagine what a very accomplished Spiritual Satanist could inspire in the masses... people like 'proof' over knowledge and self experience though.... so maybe, just maybe, it's about time someone starts 'showing off' a little in order to direct the masses to the thought "This IS possible, and if I can do this, so can YOU". Risky, perhaps.. but as long as one stays anonymous and protects the identity... I don't know, what do you think?

As for the grey attacks, guess they're out of tricks with me.

I know, right!? :lol: Feels the same here, Bro. They were active before, the whole 'sympathy for jews', the "tell him he's a jew" thoughts, and shit like that... it just stopped. I guess they really don't know what to try next. Influencing others? Sure.. but they KNOW we're out of their league now. If they could feel morale (the greys) I bet it's gotta be pretty low by now.

As for the 444...
Cha-ching, mate. I haven't seen ANY of it since I accepted to do the Earth training in the fullest. I guess Brother GitM WAS right and this was always about balance.

Are you getting your job back? Hope everything is running fine for you.
Over here, this 'ronacircus is getting a bit more serious. Our PM officially said that there will be vaccination ID-s required and the police are harassing people who don't wear face diapers. I'm not getting any of this alien shit pumped into me because frankly I don't believe it is something you can just Satanama yourself out of later. Also, people are waking up to this circus en masse.

I don't think I'll get the job back as things look very hazy, my ex-boss isn't even answering anymore, but I just applied for an unfair dismissal (costed 80 bucks too). It's taking time as holidays times make these things slower but at least it's something, spoke with a lawyer and they suggested I do this too. Other than this, I'll write a letter to the office that was 'tricked' in banning me, saying everything that happened and trying to have them revoke the hasty decision. Would love to have THAT job back (it was the best I've ever got, gave me plenty of time to draw and even meditate sometimes) but there's a few offices that need to re-access what they said without proof. If there is a way to get them to fear legal actions, I don't know about it yet, and because I don't have a union to look out for me I have to do everything myself.

And obviously I feel the same about the fucking vaccine, but I'm not really worried.. there's a HELLUVA LOT more people protesting and understanding the danger of either vaccines in general and THIS vaccine in particular. There's apparently been certified deaths already shortly after the idiotic volunteers got it and as long as information keeps crowding the social medias and search engines people seem to grow more and more aware of the danger they pose. There's doctors that already stated publicly they'd rather be shot with a bullet than the vaccine.. same words I used. So far I've heard of at least 13 deaths, and one was also (almost) LIVE.. (no pun lol).. a nurse got the vaccine and gets interviewed.. minutes after the vaccine she's collapsing while on camera. Next thing you know, her facebook account has zero activity ever since that moment and 'rumors' say she's recovered... so if she's so fine, WHERE is she now? I'll tell you where she is... in a fucking coffin, mate, that's where she is.

It seems to me that they didn't exactly wait for a few months to make the vaccine more lethal 'later', so that the first batch of idiots wouldn't understand it's lethal.... the way this looks to me, I think they know that there will be too many people NOT taking the vaccine, that they CANNOT force all the people not wanting it to take it anyway, and that it's much safer to play a bigger card hand now than not being able to play it later.... know what I'm saying? It feels they're getting REAL desperate, this is what stepping back a moment and using wisdom tells me pretty clearly. A bluff? It wouldn't make any sense, it would be counterproductive if anything...

I think people are waking up, Brother. Let's keep firing up those rituals even when the schedule ends, I'm not even doing any FRTR WITHOUT the Tetragrammaton ritual as well anymore.

See you in the trenches, Bro. Take care of yourself.

 

[Apprentice]

Well, I have to start my reply to you with a quote from Ol argedco luciftias I so conveniently stumbled upon.

Be careful with air too. I was in a huge wind storm one time, so I spent about 10 minutes invoking all the air I could. For a few days after I was so nervous anxious, I couldn't stop from worrying about all these imaginary problems. Air can be over stimulating to the nervous system like this.

This is a pretty spot-on description of what it feels to be an Air person, right? Bet this rings a few bells on your side, too.
So my only question is: how the fuck can we change it, balance it?

About that jootube idea of yours. I wouldn't try to build my business based on anything run by those skanky joos. They may fuck you six ways from Sunday. Yes I've seen people run very successful channels reviewing new gadgets, phones, cars, repairing stuff etc.
I believe in the adage that skills pay bills. I'll give you some examples so you can see where I'm going with it.
• An older gentleman I know makes custom gun stocks. He charges about $1,000 to 1,500 for a stock and his waiting list is 1,5 years.
• Another gentleman makes awesome hand-built, hand-carved, exquisite cabinets from expensive wood. He has no shortage of orders despite the fact that it can take almost up to a year to finish one bigger piece of furniture.
• A guy I know does plumbing, another does electrical wiring, another is a chimney sweeper, another is a butcher... the list is long.
They all are independent, have more than enough work waiting for them and they all seem well paid. Just some food for thought.
Also, you have to ask yourself, how good am I at the thing I'm trying to sell?

I can feel your pessimism, I have the same more often than I'd like to admit. I'm here to remind you of the importance of having some real trust in our Father and doing your share of the warfare. Also, we both should get seriously grounded and balanced. The last one is the tricky part. What exactly should we do to accomplish that? How does one even measure that? With electricity, measuring is easy - get your multimeter and ammeter out and you'll have an overview right away. Blindly invoking insane amounts of Earth will not do it, I guess. Somehow we must find a way to be smarter than that.

I'm feeling like lost when it comes to actually making money doing something I love. I even don't know what I love anymore. Around 2004 I had things I loved and started a job based on that. Ten years later I was a burnout

You know what? We actually may be too impatient. I've always felt that it's never wise to try to start anything new in the physical world during the end of the year (I mean November and December). All the energies lay dormant, also the nature is in hibernation (at least where I am). On top of that, we basically don't get sunlight here at the moment. Spring is usually the time where everything awakens and I feel a refreshing wave of new energy. Maybe we both should start a working to attract a pleasant way of making income? We both could use some patience and stronger trust in the Powers.

so maybe, just maybe, it's about time someone starts 'showing off' a little in order to direct the masses to the thought "This IS possible, and if I can do this, so can YOU". Risky, perhaps.. but as long as one stays anonymous and protects the identity...

I've been thinking along the same lines but I guess the time isn't right for that as of yet. The masses are still in a coma plus the ruling joos will make sure any such initiative will be met with ridicule and slander. I personally prefer to be away from public attention, like a sniper with a silencer in the darkness, doing his deadly RTR job against the current joo-based system.
ATM, I personally believe that our warfare should come first and personal evolution second. When it comes to making income, we shouldn't be that picky (wanting to do only the things you love). We have a dark-humored saying about WWII: during a blockade, people even ate all the fatback and eggs. The meaning is: don't be pretentious (during hard times).

Cha-ching, mate. I haven't seen ANY of it since I accepted to do the Earth training in the fullest. I guess Brother GitM WAS right and this was always about balance.

What is your training regimen, if you don't mind? I started invoking Earth daily into my base. Yesterday I went swimming, paused for a second hanging onto a rail and invoked Water into my sacral. I'm keeping the reps low, up to 7 for now as I don't want to go through violent counter-reactions from other Elements.

As for the 'rona agenda of theirs, I don't think they anticipated all the adverse side-effects making it into the media. Also their damn fact-checking can't really minimize the damage. Because of our joint efforts, their little campaign is sinking. We have a saying that "all the steam was used for the whistle" or in other words: all show and no go. I just want to do my part to make sure this 'rona shit will be buried for good. The veil of hebrew energy is feeling like a dirty ripped rag. I guess the rabbies on top of their little dung heap are tearing their hair out.
I will not stop doing the tetragrammaton RTR addition until prompted by the Clergy. I'm way more calm mentally after we started it. Love it so far.

Anyways, look after yourself, remember to excercise and do yoga, eat well and sleep well. See you in the trenches, dear Brother. Looking forward to your reply.

 

[Henu the Great]

So why didn't I already do it? ....cuz it's JEWtube. I have no faith whatsoever in the fact that I'm going to be allowed to monetize a channel... I have seen what works. Bullshit videogames, laughing people talking nonsense for teens who lost their brain in a cellphone... so fuck, I got discouraged and believed I couldn't do this anymore.
Truth is.. I would love this if it worked. Making money to create content and do what I love? Hell yeah... so basically the only thing that's stopping me is "knowing this is all jewish sponsored".

Don't be discouraged. The biggest audience is over there at Youtube, and you don't need to monetize your channel. You can set up a patreon or similiar and share extra content for those who pay you money. Something like basic stuff at Youtube, and all the above plus extras after supporting the channel. You could even launch your own mechandise.

Yeah, it's a jew-owned world for now, but that does not mean we can't benefit from it.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Yeah, it's a jew-owned world for now, but that does not mean we can't benefit from it.

Gotta say, you're absolutely right there, I see artists doing this all the time. Some guy in the UK is making a fortune just on Patreon each month only to draw anime girls ffs. Think I should give it another shot, it would be a waste not to use my new found skills now that I have them.
I'll try something easy and pleasant for me to do. Thanks for the advice, Brother.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

This is a pretty spot-on description of what it feels to be an Air person, right? Bet this rings a few bells on your side, too.
So my only question is: how the fuck can we change it, balance it?

I'd agree with you there Brother, but to this day I have yet to try getting "too much" Air. This is and has always been one of the things that baffled me after reading from HP Maxine that you have to use the victim's dominant Element in order to attack them, as they are weaker to that Element.
I have absorbed inane amount of Air Element and if anything I felt better, more confident, more like 'me', if that makes sense. This is also one of the reasons I keep thinking magick like weather manipulation is the kind I am more prone to be successful with, or anyway natural-related phenomena. 'Micro-magick', like moving the candle flame or the psi wheel to train TK, I always felt as kind of unimportant, like I shouldn't really bother with them. Course I'd love to press a jew into the floor with an invisible giant hammer lol, but somehow I feel it's a magick that doesn't 'suit' me, that I'd excel somewhere else. Not sure that seems as clear as I think..

Earth, on the other hand...
When I did blast myself with it months ago I felt some strong 'destabilization'.. which seems absurd as it's the opposite of what you'd expect from it, being Earth the material, stabilizing Element. I even thought that was the only was my Air worked against me, being 'recalled' all at once, but I wasn't really sure. The other thing I thought of was an attack: because I expected Earth to cause trouble in that quantity I have been attacked the moment the enemy noticed my attempt at re-balancing in order to make me assume it was the Element itself.
Long story short, Air never got me down in the dumps. The 'limit' is simply reached when I absorb more and I feel no more benefit than I already feel, but there's literally no cons.

You know, thinking back of Brother GitM's experience (I really wish him all the best as he's been the single handedly BEST help I had in the last 19 years), I think Leraje suggested something else for me to perk my ears about.. when he 'went' to that astral garden and found peace, that was as well a very clear indication that I should to the same, and the garden being an Earthy thing suggests that Earth is the way I'll find my balance by slowing myself down enough to push myself away from frenetic thinking and enter a phase in which I can meditate with a much, much increased chance of success, entering trances on a whim, like I did do sometimes when I gave myself the chance and enough self-confidence to know I can do it.

The worst foe, in the end, lies within the self. Win that war and you're free to use all the powers the Gods gave us.

As for the jootube idea, I guess Henu the Great hasn't limited the options to that. Being jootube THE video website everyone knows about it's also the one where it's the easiest to create an audience. After that, the audience can be redirected to another website where I am the master of the monetization part (like Patreon as he suggested, but there's many possibilities) and I could finally get paid for a change. I'm not talking 'Pewdie fucking pie' level of money.. if I had millions that easy I'd use it to finance our war through media and giving the masses a much closer approach to Spiritual Satanism, without waiting for them to wake up and come to us.... I just need enough to live peacefully and train every day for all the time it takes.

When I think "Kundalini" it still seems like a very far goal, you know... like it's 'too advanced', 'too far in time'.. all that crap. Then there's also the things that don't make sense, like me using a Magnum Opus level ability when I was 14 and knowing it's part of me, but finding it so hard to do many other things that are easier. Almost makes you think... what if every 'miracle' that comes from the Human Soul is simply the same amount of difficulty, and it's entirely up to us to understand that everything is easy, once we realize that it is.

Trust in our Gods, in the end, is the very basis here.
As long as we think (or we're led to believe) that our Gods are 'unreachable' beings, too far from us, and that we have no skills to reach them, we won't. We won't be able to speak with them, trust them, understand the very concept of Spiritual Satanism, which is the only synonymous for "NORMAL way of life for a Human being".

By the way, how's it going with your quest to find your Guardian? Have you tried to contact Furfur again?
One thing (it may be nothing) that I noticed is that the Gods (Goddesses in this case) that I've been having the closest contact with (meaning they both came to me on their own, other from Astarte) have my own dominant Element AND their Planet matches the day I was born. So say you were born on a Tuesday, their Planet will be Mars, and so on. (In my specific case, the Planet is also related to their metal.. I'll let you figure that one out before I provide too much personal information.)

I feel you're right about starting something after the end of the year, only when the year is freshly started. The last couple months of the year should be focused on understanding what REALLY needs to go and trim it out of one's life FOR GOOD. Hard as it may be for SOME things to go, we have to realize it's for our own good, and that it WILL make a difference in the long run. Most of what afflicts us, be it porn, smoking, alcohol, videogames or drugs, is a problem that was created by the joowish system anyway, so it's only productive to let go of it.
I found that some of our personal preferences (today we may call some 'fetishes') aren't exactly counter-productive (they CAN be used for self-exploration and understanding our own selves) but they can become 'corrupted' and lead to something dark and self-destructive instead. WHEN we see that mistake, we kick ourselves... but as long as we do see the problem and correct it/deal with it, we'll be fine in the long run.

There's just too much in the astral for a person to believe that he/she's not going to find what is truly desired. When we understand this simple thing, we can go forward and advance knowing we're eventually going to get what we truly desire.

As for warfare being first and personal evolution a secondary thing, technically I would agree... but the thing is, BOTH things are needed for BOTH to be successful.
Warfare is useful to fight the enemy... BUT it also is very effective on your Soul and can give you all kinds of effects, leading you to understand yourself better and know what it is that you need to work on.
Personal training/advancement is ultimately what makes you a formidable warrior, so you definitely don't want to postpone it as it will not only make you better and stronger, but provide our Father with a more capable warrior to end this war quicker.
See what I mean?
I think I've been learning more about my own advancement by doing FRTRs and Rituals this year than I ever have before. I've also been very constant and never skipped a day (if I couldn't do something before the midnight I'd lose some sleep to get it all done before calling it a day and doing something more just to make sure the effect is felt).

So don't disregard your training.. a weak warrior doesn't make much of an impact on the enemy. Besides, we have so many means of self-betterment one can easily spray a few sessions during the day, be it Runes while driving longer distances, or training with Breathing techniques (we do breathe ALL the time anyway, so why not make it more effective.. :lol: )

What is your training regimen, if you don't mind? I started invoking Earth daily into my base. Yesterday I went swimming, paused for a second hanging onto a rail and invoked Water into my sacral. I'm keeping the reps low, up to 7 for now as I don't want to go through violent counter-reactions from other Elements.

I've been meaning to ask you about this since I read your reply.. how come have you used Water on your sacral? I know the sacral being the sexual chakra clearly suggests Water to be used, but when I double checked on the JoS it said Earth...

As for me, I have been VERY SLOWLY absorbing Earth for a while, like half December... definitely not blasting myself anymore with it. I will WHEN I feel it's going to help, but Elements need time as you know. I've been trying to do Earthy things, train my body, strength, work in the ground, grounding asanas (Lydia's posts are amazing, didn't know about some of them... but I have to say SOME asanas feel really familiar lol.. like I'd never even stop doing them), and I've been focusing on Earth entering and strengthening my 1s and 2nd chakras (both Earth Element it seems) in order to compensate for the lack of it and give the lower part of myself more contact with not just Earth Element but the whole concept of 'grounding'.

Another thing, which I'm really taking my time with but I just know is surely going to benefit me in time.. I've been thinking about an astral temple a lot, trying to come up with 'the coziest and most grounding' temple I can. Something strongly to do with Earth, caves, solitude, contact with Natural spirits, plants, roots.... these last days I've been thinking of a giant "conch", as I love sea life and seashells and shellfish and mollusks since I was a kid, and this is all coming back now.
For the most part this 'love for the unfathomable sea' (but also sheer terror of the depths) has been what made me believe for the longest time my imbalance just HAD to be with Water... I was pretty surprised when I learned my Fire and Water were absolutely equal. I always, ALWAYS felt they were very challenging and uneven... even now, knowing they're the same in Planets' number, I don't feel at ease with their balance and periodically access this to see what's happening with them.

On the other hand, I do believe I've done a LOT in this life to meddle in that balance, so I'm pretty sure my current Elemental situation is nothing like when I was born. Hope I'll find a way to make sure what it is somehow.

As for the world situation... I bet they're getting seriously panicky by now. More and more are protesting against the restriction, becoming aware of the very real vaccine injuries, opposing 'the law' and all the pointless fines and foolishness... even in France and Italy (two of the most abused countries ever in this 'crisis') the police itself has started demonstrating AGAINST the govt. That's fucking unprecedented in my book.

I really feel positive about the Race Awakening Rituals. I just recently started to postpone the Race Rituals to the morning so I can do them more fresh and it feels better than the early morning hours, when I usually have to crumble all the rituals together. Glad we're restarting the other RTRs as I had a good feeling from them, feeling like I am also liberating myself from long lasting chains.
Don't forget to give enough focus to your lower (lower) chakras... legs and feet. They can be easy to forget about but provide the very basis on which everything else can be built. I found the Serpent RTRs to work well with freeing them, Removing the Curse, Serpent Empowerment and Removing Obstacles have given me the best so far.

Something I feel like adding.. haven't tried yet for a lack of time but I will. I've been doing initially the indicated number of repetitions for everything, but then had to limit myself to 3x as I really couldn't stay awake or at the computer at all. 3x has been the best so far with the FRTR, feeling Father's appreciation and meeting Astarte very briefly for the second time, so it's not like it's very weak... but I will, soon as I can, try a much high number of repetitions for the words/letters/names of the fake 'god' and see if multiple reps prove quantity to be proportionally stronger.
I usually go easily from an extreme to another (comes from playing with the Elements for almost two decades I think) so I'm curious to see if 3x VS ...I don't know, whatever I feel like raising it to, will make an obvious difference.

Last thing, again on astral temples, if you haven't read Brother GitM's reply on that, do it. There's much more than I was expecting to hear, and I think it would REALLY benefit you to have a temple ready for use anytime. You can be there 5 minutes a day, it's still going to help you. (Just type "astral temple" in the search and it should be the first one from Ghost in the Machine in the list.)

Take care, Brother, hope you had a good start. It's a perfect time to try new tactics!

SIEG HEIL!

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

I'd agree with you there Brother, but to this day I have yet to try getting "too much" Air.

The thing is, I've never tried to invoke Air but the description this fellow SS gave is unmistakably similar to my experience as an Air person (emphasis on the "I couldn't stop from worrying about all these imaginary problems"). I also wonder, what can deplete certain Element(s) from your body?

As for the jootube idea, I guess Henu the Great hasn't limited the options to that.

You have to keep in mind that I can be too linear in my attitude. I'm still learning to be more flexible and learn the ability to look at the big picture. Instead of remaining positive and optimistic, I also tend to focus on all the things that can go wrong. Hence my suggestion to stay away from that joo nest. Anywayz, I have no doubt you could make a killing there (depending on your speciality you decide to share there, of course).

Almost makes you think... what if every 'miracle' that comes from the Human Soul is simply the same amount of difficulty, and it's entirely up to us to understand that everything is easy, once we realize that it is.

I actually have experienced this idea before. This is where this old adage comes in handy: whether you think you can, or you think you can't--you're right. I’ve felt that while meditating. Your logical mind sometimes makes certain things seem out of reach (when in reality they aren’t).

By the way, how's it going with your quest to find your Guardian? Have you tried to contact Furfur again?

I asked her to give me any sign if she’s the one but no signs so far. The Yule season brought easier workload so I dedicated myself to our group offensive and personal workings. For some reason, I still can’t make myself to go into a trance and start asking them one by one.
You actually gave me a better idea to approach the situation. Based on that (planet of the day you were born, element etc), I should actually try to ask someone else I wonder if the zodiac position of your Daemon (and the dates given there) may actually match your birthday...

As for warfare being first and personal evolution a secondary thing, technically I would agree... but the thing is, BOTH things are needed for BOTH to be successful.

I actually forgot to add that they both are equally important. There is a simple reason I put warfare first. You see, when I pull long hours and finally find one hour to meditate like at 11 p.m. or whatever, then it's warfare first. Thanks to you and brother GitM I started doing various things (breathing, runes etc) during the day while actually working so this settles that question. Also, I’m in the middle of a Munka working to obliterate bad planetary influences. In addition to this and warfare, I’m doing some Chakra work with the Elements and breathing. Don’t want to spread myself too thin nor exhaust myself (like it has happened before when I wanted to bring more RTRs to the table but drained myself in the process). Currently, the whole list of warfare + personal rituals takes me daily about 2.5 hours to complete, not including breathing and yoga.

I've been meaning to ask you about this since I read your reply.. how come have you used Water on your sacral? I know the sacral being the sexual chakra clearly suggests Water to be used, but when I double checked on the JoS it said Earth...

If you look closely, you'll find that Earth is listed under the bullet points for that Chakra but in the long description it says Water. That one left me baffled so I searched the Forum and found posts (from known members, not some n00bs or j00s) that said it to be Water. At first I tried to invoke Earth into the Sacral but got a funny feeling. After that I tried Water and it felt more natural.

even in France and Italy (two of the most abused countries ever in this 'crisis') the police itself has started demonstrating AGAINST the govt. That's fucking unprecedented in my book.

This is fucking awesome in my book. I sincerely hope this whole ’rona situation will soon implode onto itself. Over here, GPs are refusing the shot because of the list of possible side effects (including death and anaphylactic shock) they have to sign before getting the shot.

I had a peaceful start into the new, doing all the warfare daily without any interruptions and enjoying some good food. How about you, dear Brother?

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

The thing is, I've never tried to invoke Air but the description this fellow SS gave is unmistakably similar to my experience as an Air person (emphasis on the "I couldn't stop from worrying about all these imaginary problems"). I also wonder, what can deplete certain Element(s) from your body?

Never never? :O I assumed you had tried all Elements by now, Brother. Whatever imbalances one has got to deal with, it surely helps to know how to distinguish what's happening when getting some of what is lacking or too much of what's abundant already.. that's why I say I never had any problem with Air. Even after learning it was my blatantly obvious dominant I started to use it a lot and all it did was teach me how to handle it, actually it's been a great asset in understanding further uses one can make of Air, new powers, new methods to apply it on others, and ultimately how the Air Element itself, as pointed out by our dear Brother GitM, is the 'opener'/'unbinder' while Earth itself is instead the binding Element.

Further proof of this (and possibly of my theory that one's weakness comes from the lacking Element, not the one one's got the most of) is that on day four of this new year I got sick lol. I've been doing SLOW Earth absorption for like a month now, trying to build up a small astral temple that looks like a cave and is very Earthy, roots, dirt, plants... thing is, I can't blame Earth only, I'm also pretty stressed because of the job loss, the death in the family 3 months ago, the way I was dismissed from work after literally being the best in the country and having recorded evidence to prove it.. stress gets to me in the physical way when it's too much and goes on for too long. Got a swollen lymph node in the neck that suggests overuse of Earth as the energy got stagnant and one day of fever as I could feel my body seriously giving in to Earth energies.

The good thing, on the other hand, is that I realized just how much the Earth slows down and enhances the ability to focus and stay mentally still on something, a great help in meditation for sure. Right now, though, I'm back on rebalancing the Air, as I just got the call for it again and realized it's the next need: unbinding myself.
I'm also going to focus on astral projection and theta states (where you will yourself somewhere else and move part of your consciousness there, for instance, like I did going to the Atlantic sea bed) as I want to focus on something I naturally feel I need.
The crazy part is that I needed to 'anchor' myself deep in Earth to realize how much I wanted to be freed from my limitations and roam instead. Always wanted to roam since I was a child, always was fascinated with the sky and sky things. No wonder I kept attracting Goddesses that had Air as an Element or had Air skills. Haures herself is said to 'float' winglessly.. didn't when she came to me but I could feel her as sort of 'weightless'.

I suggest you make a routine of Elements' absorption, it doesn't have to be strict (it can't be when talking about energy, you gotta feel it), but you should become accustomed to everything, not only the ones you feel you need to balance yourself. "Know thy enemy" kind of thing... not that Air or any Element is an enemy, of course.. shouldn't think of any of them as anything negative for you, as all can make you grow in power and experience.

You have to keep in mind that I can be too linear in my attitude. I'm still learning to be more flexible and learn the ability to look at the big picture. Instead of remaining positive and optimistic, I also tend to focus on all the things that can go wrong. Hence my suggestion to stay away from that joo nest. Anywayz, I have no doubt you could make a killing there (depending on your speciality you decide to share there, of course).

I've been thinking exactly like you do for a good half a year now. I actually "was" making kind of a killing when I started to give fools what they wanted to see and I was getting real good at it, learning the tricks, knowing what attracts, using color psychology to draw more fish to the net. I just gave up when I realized it wasn't what I wanted to do, that this trick on them was also a trick on myself just to get customers and being able to draw in some cash as well. Later in time I simply started wanting to do this again but on different terms, using it as a way to improve my lacking art while making some money on the side and seeing where that would have taken me.
There's still plenty of times where I just come up with "good ideas for a video" like a "lightbulb moment" so to speak, but I discard it as I gave it all up. The creativity is there, trying to get out somehow. The only bad part is knowing that if I do use my channel to promote spiritual knowledge I'm going to see people unsubscribing at lightning speed, unless I lie to them... there's channels that "teach spells".... new age bullshit with props that mean nothing in magick, no mantras, no energy, just empty words to make it look and sound fancy and confident and attract teens who have a hard time finding a mate before they learn how to wipe their own ass. Panty ass generation.
Been a while since I even checked how many people still follow my channel. Guess I show keep my last promises there and post something good I drew.. I did have some great ideas to actually teach people how to draw like a badass.

I actually have experienced this idea before. This is where this old adage comes in handy: whether you think you can, or you think you can't--you're right. I’ve felt that while meditating. Your logical mind sometimes makes certain things seem out of reach (when in reality they aren’t).

I love that saying, it's absolutely true. I guess when one's new there's this conviction that a deep trance state and such states MUST feel like a 'mystic' something of unspeakable concept ..or something.. while in truth a good trance state in which you can actually make shit happen is probably more like a state of FULL consciousness, you don't really turn off your left brain to benefit from the right brain only, you just learn to use them both at once in a kind of super-awareness. Not for nothing GitM mentioned we're still sleeping while in the awake state.. we simple think we're awake, but we're not accessing our full awaked skills and all the goodies that come with them. In turn, I suppose we see our progress when we go to sleep and become better and better at controlling that dream. In time, it's probable that these two realities, the lucid dream and the 'material' reality, will merge together and we'll be both awake and asleep all the time, changing our one reality in any way we see fit. Dude, it must SUCK to be a joo ahahah! :lol:

I asked her to give me any sign if she’s the one but no signs so far. The Yule season brought easier workload so I dedicated myself to our group offensive and personal workings. For some reason, I still can’t make myself to go into a trance and start asking them one by one.
You actually gave me a better idea to approach the situation. Based on that (planet of the day you were born, element etc), I should actually try to ask someone else I wonder if the zodiac position of your Daemon (and the dates given there) may actually match your birthday...

I did think of the birthdate reference before, but it led me to a Demon that I just didn't feel as my Guardian.. not that I felt many others as my Guardian, I was a total noob when I tried this trick and it didn't do me any good, it was just a desperate attempt, didn't even consider Elements and Planets yet or skills and similarities, or the opposite sex information for that matter.
What I can tell you that works is that ONCE you found your Guardian, you'll feel so satisfied you'll no longer question this and no longer will you look for 'a Guardian' other than the one you have just found. I haven't really had more interaction with Leraje than I have had with a few other Gods, but I wouldn't trade her with anyone else for any reason. She's all I needed.

Also... remember the psychotic ex-girlfriend I was talking about? The last time, when I let her too close for comfort, Leraje was the reason I completely gave that bitch up. She insulted Leraje. You just don't do that to me and expect things to be the same after. She can be grey food, I don't give a fuck anymore. I chose godhood, she chose poorly.

I actually forgot to add that they both are equally important. There is a simple reason I put warfare first. You see, when I pull long hours and finally find one hour to meditate like at 11 p.m. or whatever, then it's warfare first. Thanks to you and brother GitM I started doing various things (breathing, runes etc) during the day while actually working so this settles that question. Also, I’m in the middle of a Munka working to obliterate bad planetary influences. In addition to this and warfare, I’m doing some Chakra work with the Elements and breathing. Don’t want to spread myself too thin nor exhaust myself (like it has happened before when I wanted to bring more RTRs to the table but drained myself in the process). Currently, the whole list of warfare + personal rituals takes me daily about 2.5 hours to complete, not including breathing and yoga.

2.5 hours? After 11pm? Knowing how much you do I'm truly surprised you manage to do that much without falling like a rock, Brother. Hope you do get enough sleep, meditation sessions seriously deteriorate after poor sleep. What you should do, in my opinion at least, is making sure you STILL get some time to do anything you want. A hobby, a vice, whatever it is.. something that makes you "plainly enjoy yourself" after all this. I find it helps to counter your effort, switching between warfare/evolution and personal relaxation/elation can be analogous to absorbing opposite Elements, or doing relaxation techniques after heavy weightlifting. You balance everything and it turn the balance makes it easier to see your own assets and lacks.

If you look closely, you'll find that Earth is listed under the bullet points for that Chakra but in the long description it says Water. That one left me baffled so I searched the Forum and found posts (from known members, not some n00bs or j00s) that said it to be Water. At first I tried to invoke Earth into the Sacral but got a funny feeling. After that I tried Water and it felt more natural.

I guess that's what happened then. I consulted the Italian page ( https://www.itajos.com/X%20SEZIONE%20INTRO%20MEDITAZIONI/Chakra%20Sacrale.htm ) and it doesn't mention 'Acqua' (Water) anywhere, just 'Terra' (Earth). I tried to get to the English website just now but as HP HC said, the JoS is temporary offline.. it's such a good thing we have multiple languages for our website.

As for the Water Element.. that makes a lot more sense to me. I did find it strange that two close chakras had the same Element.. and the sexual chakra not having Water was almost asking to be questioned.
Speaking of Water, after this Earth period I found that Water is calling out to me more and it's brought some ease when I was feeling stuck between fever and such. What I know I need a lot more of is flow, energy flow, and when I'll get there I just know it will feel like a fucking tornado inside me (not that it's going to be just Air lol, just a metaphor this time).

I've been also considering I might have a granthi in my sacral, but the JoS clearly states an orgasm is more than enough to make sure that granthi is taken care of. What's your take on it? Think an orgasm is all that's really needed to move up the spine and let the Serpent be one step closer to rising full power?

This is fucking awesome in my book. I sincerely hope this whole ’rona situation will soon implode onto itself. Over here, GPs are refusing the shot because of the list of possible side effects (including death and anaphylactic shock) they have to sign before getting the shot.

I had a peaceful start into the new, doing all the warfare daily without any interruptions and enjoying some good food. How about you, dear Brother?

Last I heard, Tiffany Dover, the "nurse who volunteered for the vaccine and fainted on camera", has been confirmed to be dead. Obviously every website confirming his is being taken down faster than you can share it to your friends on facebook, but the rumors sometimes are the only spark you need to start the fires of revolution. Not that there's not enough people ALREADY opposing or at the very LEAST questioning the safety of this particularly nasty, untested vaccine, but it's still very good news.
We're gonna see major changes in this world, Brother. Can you see us when we are fully evolved and finally crushing the jews into ashes? Perhaps under a Satanic/Nazi flag?

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

I assumed you had tried all Elements by now, Brother.

You heard. I haven't. Air and Water are still untested (with the exception of invoking Water into Sacral). I agree with your idea that one should learn 'em all. BTW, whenever I get tense like a K-9 dog, I go to swim and sauna. After that I'm really mellow. Can't explain it. Water just... dissolves all the stress and tension.

Got a swollen lymph node in the neck that suggests overuse of Earth as the energy got stagnant

This gave me a feeling similar to my own observations. Earth feels like still... but I don't want to be still. I like levitation, flowing, airy feeling. I’ve had feelings of stiffness and mild pain around the area of my neck and shoulder blades.

Always wanted to roam since I was a child, always was fascinated with the sky and sky things.

Ditto. I used to daydream that I can fly, enjoying the Sun and beautiful clouds. Once I had a dream while asleep. I was in a beautiful forest. There was this gorge and I jumped off of it. At that moment I thought "Shit, I'm gonna drop and injure myself. Fuck, I'm in a dream, I can levitate." Then I slowly levitated down this almost vertical wall of sandstone and landed softly on ground covered in green moss and white flowers. I felt very positive when I woke up after that.

I just gave up when I realized it wasn't what I wanted to do

Do yourself a favor and don't engage in activities you actually don't enjoy/want to do. Don't ask me how I know this. lol.

Not for nothing GitM mentioned we're still sleeping while in the awake state.. we simple think we're awake, but we're not accessing our full awaked skills and all the goodies that come with them.

I love that idea. When I first tried a deep trance, I discovered that it is not like a deep trip or something. It's just... peaceful awareness. I should use it to figure out how to change my life around to be more gratifying.

She can be grey food, I don't give a fuck anymore. I chose godhood, she chose poorly.

Isn't it just lovely how the rotten people sometimes go the extra mile so you won't feel bad about ditching them? I’ve had that happen before on numerous occasions.

2.5 hours? After 11pm? Knowing how much you do I'm truly surprised you manage to do that much without falling like a rock, Brother. Hope you do get enough sleep, meditation sessions seriously deteriorate after poor sleep. What you should do, in my opinion at least, is making sure you STILL get some time to do anything you want. A hobby, a vice, whatever it is.. something that makes you "plainly enjoy yourself" after all this.

The sad reality is that I actually don't remember how to plainly enjoy myself. Some of the activities I have enjoyed in the past involve costs (really, what doesn’t). We wanted to get out of some debts so we needed to be frugal, for almost too long now. I also have admitted to myself that my relationship was a bit toxic at some point. I let the missus dictate the beat and I almost flew off the handle. This had to do with her expectations towards me as the Man. Back then, I worked a 9 to 5 desk job driving a 100 km round trip daily plus doing longer hours at the office every now and then for extra income. I remember driving home at 1 a.m. after a product photo shoot. We had bought a small ranch and everything needed DIY. So this meant that when "normal" people went out, enjoying the night, drinking beer or whatever, I spent my time building and doing other chores. Back then, when I got all exhausted, I usually sat at my computer, watching something interesting on j00tube or whatever. People usually get hangover after drinking. I was hung over from working late. She of course frowned upon it. This lack of sleep/rest/downtime got chronic at one point and ended with anxiety disorder. On top of that, for years I experienced problems with the quality of sleep. I always wanted to wake up feeling refreshed and ready to go. Finally I’m starting to get somewhere with it.
Actually no, I don't manage 2,5 hours after 11 p.m. It is more like one hour tops. Hence the importance of warfare. Since Yule time I've had way lighter load and I am really happy that I could go all-in with our group offensive.
Today I had planned a preventive maintenance on a vacuum pump plus the AC motor driving it. I guess I had anxiety over the job and the success of it so I slept poorly. This machine "told" me long time ago that it needed maintenance. Basically I had 7 hours to clean and disassemble everything between the times the pump is used, pull the ball bearings out, drive to the town, deliver our products, run some errands, buy new spare parts, drive home, lubricate and assemble everything back together. I experienced strong anxiety because I broke a V-belt pulley (light cast alloy, very fragile) and wasn't sure I was going to find a replacement. Luckily everything went smoothly. Together with all other duties and chores, I finished everything around 8 p.m. with a headache. After some food, I'm replying your post now. It's 10 p.m. soon and I still have my ritual regimen to do. Feeling kinda melancholic ATM.
Tomorrow I'll be taking it easy because the day after that is another busy day, driving around, delivering and running errands.
Also, keeping a balance is hard if your partner can work like a machine. Makes you feel you have to do the same.
I have asked the Powers for any hints about how to restore balance and feel good, positive and energized because, honestly, I don't remember that feeling. Maybe this is why they show me the ’444’ all the time. Maybe it’s not about the Elemental balance but the physical balance of my life. Kinda „eureka“ moment for me right now.

it doesn't mention 'Acqua' (Water) anywhere, just 'Terra' (Earth).

From Sacral chakra page on JoS: Its element is water and its metal is iron.
In the file Satanic Power Meditation volume I: Sacral Element is Water.

I've been also considering I might have a granthi in my sacral, but the JoS clearly states an orgasm is more than enough to make sure that granthi is taken care of. What's your take on it? Think an orgasm is all that's really needed to move up the spine and let the Serpent be one step closer to rising full power?

I actually read about it during the last two days. Based on what I read, I'm under the impression that this granthi needs a bit more energy work plus mantras/runes. In addition to that, you have to make sure you’re totally free of any sexual hangups. Just having an orgasm or two doesn't cut it. I don’t have any references for you, gotta dig some more because I’m interested in removing the granthis as well.

Not that there's not enough people ALREADY opposing or at the very LEAST questioning the safety of this particularly nasty, untested vaccine, but it's still very good news.

It is funny to consciously observe how many mistakes the enemy makes. There is a shitload of contradictory information available and I'm speaking only about the system (j00) media. I guess this is a sign of our warfare actually working
Love hearing from you. Take care.

 

[Henu the Great]

Also, keeping a balance is hard if your partner can work like a machine. Makes you feel you have to do the same.
I have asked the Powers for any hints about how to restore balance and feel good, positive and energized because, honestly, I don't remember that feeling. Maybe this is why they show me the ’444’ all the time. Maybe it’s not about the Elemental balance but the physical balance of my life. Kinda „eureka“ moment for me right now.

Satanama for 5-15 minutes a day, and physical yoga for however much you can squeeze in is pretty good for that.

 

[Apprentice]

Satanama for 5-15 minutes a day, and physical yoga for however much you can squeeze in is pretty good for that.

Thanks Bro.
I feel that I spend too much time working/thinking about work-related issues. I don't allow myself to just enjoy the day every now and then, to maintain balance. This aspect of my life needs serious overhaul.

 

[Apprentice]

PING

Miss you, dear Brother. You are obviously busy... Don't forget to read my previous reply to you in this thread.

The working to obliterate bad planetary influences obviously caused some of these bad things to flare up. During the last week I've been under serious anxiety/scatterbrain syndrome. Did Void and Returning Curses to help keep it at bay. Yesterday I felt it getting weaker. Oh boy, whatta mindjob. It almost feels like an enemy attack with the exception that Returning Curses doesn't do much. Somehow I felt that I have to see this through. So here I am, watching the situation in the world and trying to get myself back on track.
How are things down under?

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Water's great like that. It's the reason I always preferred to use it instead of Earth. Especially in the last year I've learned that Earth is just too much of a hassle when you let it accumulate. Blockages, problems become harder to solve, energy flow becomes poorer and slows down too much... just like you, I like airy thing, MUCH better than Earth. I fully know that we're supposed to balance our Souls using the lacking Element/s more, but something tells me this is a kind of "skippable" step one can take care of by using Quintessence instead (it DOES hold the lacking Element anyway, so..) and that by using that comprehensive one instead one has also a better chance at understanding how to deal with the lacking and the abundant together. Doing only one Element at a time, for a while now, has started to feel 'wrong' in my opinion.. like I'm limiting myself on purpose when I am supposed to do the opposite and be open to the beautiful possibilities that present themselves to me (when using macro-energies and not limiting myself to singular 'Elementalist' minded stuff... beautiful in anime and videogames, but in truth it sucks in reality).

(Quoting you like this before I fuck it all up again)
"Earth feels like still... but I don't want to be still. I like levitation, flowing, airy feeling. I’ve had feelings of stiffness and mild pain around the area of my neck and shoulder blades."

Same here, Brother. Hence why I feel Water is helping much more, contributing to the energy flow. Better yet, when I visualize it in the Kundalini form (or how "I" like to think of Kundalini), as while hot dense and vibrant liquid (which should have all the Element's features).

I extremely rarely have the chance to swim, the sea is a long drive away from here and there's always something else and pressing matters.. yesterday however I used the small pool in the backyard and for the first time felt successful/satisfied with a brief martial art training in there (using the water as a denser substance in which to practice quick Wing Chun punching). Felt like a god when I got out and found I could punch faster than I could before. This kind of makes you think limitations are only in the mind: if you can do something the same way under more difficult conditions, nothing suggests this process can't be applied as a constant stepping stone in order to reach unimaginable heights.

"I'm in a dream, I can levitate." Then I slowly levitated down this almost vertical wall of sandstone and landed softly on ground covered in green moss and white flowers. I felt very positive when I woke up after that."

I don't have much experience with lucid dreaming. There have been periods in which I would be more obsessed with the skill but other than a couple successful 'recognizing' moment and little manipulation of the environment afterwards, I haven't been able to do much with it. I don't really understand what makes one 'tick' in a dream, what triggers the whole understanding that the world around you is not the physical ones where 'laws' exist and you can't kill your boss or something... I suppose this would come more natural to someone who has had more astral experiences and can, therefore, recognize an altered state for what it is.. not limiting oneself to observe the world around but feeling it as either 'physical', energetic, oniric, or whatever it is, and choosing to obey or disobey what passes for 'laws' in it.
I should work more on this.

"When I first tried a deep trance, I discovered that it is not like a deep trip or something. It's just... peaceful awareness. I should use it to figure out how to change my life around to be more gratifying."

That's the thing I always got wrong. When I came to Spiritual Satanism and read about feeling energy and such, I wondered why I would not feel this obscene amount of flowing surges and shit. I guess when HP Maxine talks about it she involuntarily makes it sound like a Dragonball surge for the untrained minds. I don't know how else I would put it, though.
The awareness itself is the greatest thing. A surge of energy is just a surge, like an orgasm can be. Momentary, intense, easy to move forward with. Awareness is more like sensing a constant change, something subtle that suddenly isn't at all subtle anymore. In my case, I could always sense a lot of belonging to the Ancient Greek world, I could sense the energy that roamed that time, the vicinity with our Gods, the beauty of an existence that I want to go back to in the future.

"Isn't it just lovely how the rotten people sometimes go the extra mile so you won't feel bad about ditching them? I’ve had that happen before on numerous occasions."

Lovely indeed.. to be completely freed of something like that was simply something I needed. Glad she took the time to demolish my most remote expectations.

(I'm writing now after the PING, had to interrupt myself yesterday and couldn't finish in the early morning hours)

Looking at that last line I wrote, I'm also thinking.. what if it is the Gods or the Universe itself in some way that stimulate our growth, to flail around these people who deserve bad shit to happen to them in order for us to have a convenient training target? Not talking about my ex, just ..in general. Some bad people who show up out of nowhere, without a good excuse to exist in our lives, who end up causing damage unless we stop them in time. It's starting to look more and more like these leeches are simply asking to be grinded away with fire, much like you'd put out a cigarette on a leech sucking your blood.

Next thought (which somehow contradicts what I said before about going all 'Elementalist'..): what if more Elements can be used for the same purpose? Meaning, Earth grounds.. but you and I feel comfortable with airy things, you are even protected by lightning to a degree. Or Fire, which destroys, yes, but I can think of no better Element to heal. Somehow, something just suggests me that Water can kill. We're like 70% made of water after all, it would make sense to use the abundant Element already present against an enemy, wouldn't it?

Dunno, mate.. the Elements seem like a spiral, the more information you dig up the more features and possibilities become real as a consequence.
Another observation I just came up with... I was thinking of our Gods and how some of them are said to kill with one particular Element. Leraje can manipulate Air and the Sky, Vepar can do something similar and cause storms, Haures uses Fire, some can sink ships (so I assume they use Water), and others cause Earthquakes, killing by Earth. So, and here I say something very obvious, what if there isn't one killing Element (like Fire, that is famous to have been used in lodges to kill) but all of them can accomplish the same? What if the choice is merely that of the mage? Or if not a choice, little does it matter because the Element the mage is most comfortable with can still be used to do every task the others can?

Not meaning to say we shouldn't aim to use Quintessence whenever possible over one of the four, but when thinking of the distinction between them.. are they really so different? They include and explain 4 aspects of reality, every secondary feature reality presents can be explained by means of these four Elements. Maybe each of them is more than capable to do all the others can do? ...too far fetched?

I'm thinking of Brother GitM's cryokinesis.. Water and Earth are magnetic and they both seem to 'act' as a condenser. "Making energy slower", "making energy freeze to a halt", and killing in the process as energy needs to flow to live, like blood.
On the other hand... Fire and Air 'excite' energy, make it more volatile and hot and agitated. It kills someone by creating chaos and speeding something up to the point it can no longer sustain the life in him.

In the end, it looks to me like the only real choice in how to apply 'Elementalism' to kill is to choose the method considering the Magnetic nature and the Electric nature. In your case, I would say it's pretty obvious that the Electric seems overpowered, Brother. Not sure how well you feel your Fire, but the Air (and the electricity that comes with it) certain can be felt and used.

On a side note... yesterday I found a few minutes to meditate in the open during the day and the sky seemed to finally take a darker color (it's pretty hot here lately, can't wait for Autumn). While sitting, at some point I became aware of some 'line' in my spine, and it was obviously electric. Like an arc between two points, so to speak. I might say it went between the Sacral and around the heart chakra, but I'm not too sure, this was too quick and unexpected to precisely pinpoint it. For a moment I thought of Kundalini lol.... I wish. It didn't hurt or anything, just seemed to electrically connect the dots in my spine. I'll try to pay attention to this and feel if it does more.

"The sad reality is that I actually don't remember how to plainly enjoy myself."

I guess I can relate to that somehow. I used to be an avid videogamer back in the day. Now it doesn't give me anything above a feeling of fakeness and futility. Drawing.. I feel a little satisfaction when it looks the way I meant, or better, but it's not like I consider this any use in evolution.
Truth be told, I WISH I could find meditation and working with energy a LOT more pleasurable. I do it mostly out of a sense of duty to our Father, and because I know it's the only way I'll ever reach something of true value, power, infinitely extended lifespan, and the ability to correct the things that hurt me in this world, mostly coming from ignorance and fear.
This is probably one of the reasons, other than the obvious loneliness and inability to think of a human partner as a partner for me, I always thought the Succubus deal was something I had to go for.
I don't know if GitM or the others who said that were right saying that if you're not 'ready' for a Succubus you're not given one, but I have sensed and seen this amazing female at times. I don't know if she's the one, I can tell in the last visions she looked pretty similar in all of them, and it doesn't feel like she's of the enemy at all. Not that I'm an expert at telling who's who yet, but I think I can tell. No one of the enemy would do something to benefit me without asking for something in return or driving me to something that will improve me in any way, right? Besides, she kind of looks like Astarte... that beauty is only Demonic. I don't know if you've ever seen Astarte, but to me it was like looking at a female version of Satan.. golden vibrant blonde, strong fierce and the kindest blue eyes, a middle sized athletic body and, Greek goddess outfit (in my case, the last of them anyway) and that super vibrant energy that says "all jews in a radius of 666 light years will burst in fire". The Succubus doesn't get anywhere near THAT energy, but I can feel it's extremely gentle and still strong. I even found a piece of videogame art the day after I last saw her and it almost perfectly portrayed her, shoulder length golden blonde hair, strong eyes, ruby lips....

A-ehm....

Point is... perhaps you would find it pleasurable to mingle with an astral partner? Not to forget, if you're giving this enough time and patience it could help you grow a lot astrally, making you much more aware of your astral surroundings and perhaps 'doing the trick' in unlocking your senses and making you no longer a stranger to the astral realm altogether?

Personally, I feel that whatever I will accomplish in the physical life, I won't be as satisfied as when I unlock myself to the astral and make true spirituality 100% of my existence.

Speaking of costly things.. sure, you can do some of them when you feel you really want to. Last thing I did that costed was going to the shooting range.. a darn expensive one, but it was a good experience. You like trekking, no? Nothing better to me than to walk on mountains and in forests.. been a while since I did that. I should really make this a habit and find a place close enough to reach with a short drive. Some of the best thinking I've done was in a forest.

You remind me of the JoS' description of Himmler, lacked Earth but worked the hardest one can work. I wonder if that's what I do too, when I work I'd never even stop. I need to find something to do for money that I enjoy doing regardless of time and effort. You're not looking to hire, Brother, are you? :lol:

"I actually read about it during the last two days. Based on what I read, I'm under the impression that this granthi needs a bit more energy work plus mantras/runes. In addition to that, you have to make sure you’re totally free of any sexual hangups. Just having an orgasm or two doesn't cut it. I don’t have any references for you, gotta dig some more because I’m interested in removing the granthis as well."

Sexual hangup sounds about right. There's been dross I've been working on removing for a while and for the most part I think I'm done cleansing myself. There's still another part but now, without the dross to obnubilate my sight, I'm learning how I can use it for opening my senses somehow, the touch, mostly. This is where training with the Succubus will really come in handy. Can't wait to learn more about her and ask her name, like I did with Haures.

On the jooish media... there's actually a LOT of doctors and experts with degrees who are finally speaking up after always fearing going to be the next scapegoat. They all make very valid points and although this isn't reaching the jooish news yet, it is possibly seen even more online where everyone can share it. The obvious problem there are the idiots that 'check' facts and censor the truth, for now.. but it won't be enough very soon, there's too many in the know and too many are questioning. There's obviously the sheep, but sheep will be sheep, there's no 'saving' them, no matter what you show them. We'll get rid of them when they willingly go get the lethal shot at the local GP. Perhaps a few deaths here and there will make the rest of the sheeple see things first hand and maybe SOME won't call it covid death, proving to be dumber than a bag of hammers.

"Love hearing from you. Take care."

Sorry it's taking so long lately, hope after the first week of February I'll have more time to myself. Can't wait to put the past in the past. I hate having stuff to deal with for too long. You know I'm Air, right?

Take care, Brother. Speak soon.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

but something tells me this is a kind of "skippable" step one can take care of by using Quintessence instead

Actually, IIRC, it was suggested to use the Quintessence to fix imbalances. Working with individual Elements is great in that you can learn its properties and/or increase your capacity towards it. At the end of the day, it still boils down to the balance of 'em all.

I guess when HP Maxine talks about it she involuntarily makes it sound like a Dragonball surge for the untrained minds.

Actually, many things (excercises, meditations) I've read from her do give me certain expectations. The sensations I feel when I do them are totally different or not present at all. You wrote that psychic people have sometimes abundant Earth. Maybe Earth people, since Earth is still, do feel Energies from meditations etc. with more intensity? We both are Air people, all charged up and sometimes unpredictable.
I do not doubt the meditations or magick in any way. I KNOW it works because I've witnessed it. It's just that if you are a beginner and don't experience the feelings as described, this can be a real dealbreaker or just a general letdown.

what if it is the Gods or the Universe itself in some way that stimulate our growth, to flail around these people who deserve bad shit to happen to them in order for us to have a convenient training target?

I've been wondering for a long time along those lines. All the thieves, thugs and other MFs - I've a feeling that the Universe sometimes uses these to enforce the "you reap what you sow" principle. I'll explain: about 22 years ago, when I was an idiot normie, I did a bit wrong to an older man who didn't want to pay me for services rendered (I worked for his small business as a financial consultant helping him pay up his debts). His company was going south anyway and since he refused to pay me so I decided to take some computers and a printer from his office. About two days after that some punk broke the window of my car at nighttime, stole a CD-player radio and my day planner. I immediately knew I did wrong and that I was punished. I knew that the things I took from him were property of a leasing finance company so I returned these to them. Right after that a dude I knew shows up and he needs a homie to run business errands together. I had a car, he didn't. He also found me a cheap replacement door glass and even paid for it! There was also police involved. This man who didn't want to pay me, reported me. After a long conversation with the head of criminal department, I walked out from there with a job offer! I hope you see the connection here. Goes around, comes around.
Anyway, I can't say I exactly believe that the Universe positions some rotten people into your life in order for you to test your newly acquired skills. This is a sort of general shit that just happens (if you let it). It's up to you how you decide to handle these. I have mentally banished such experiences from my life. I also banished police officers from my life.

Dunno, mate.. the Elements seem like a spiral, the more information you dig up the more features and possibilities become real as a consequence.

This is called your own personal evolution. I believe that all of the Elements can be used both for good and bad. However, my knowledge of them is extremely limited ATM. I believe, you just select one of them that feels like your own.
You have to have time to experiment with them, meditate on them etc. Currently I feel unhappy because the workload is up again and I somehow have to make time for current group offensive starting today.

it's pretty hot here lately, can't wait for Autumn

LOL. And we have like 15 inches of snow and -4°F.
BTW, I've felt electrical connections between random points in my body. You pinch an area on your skin and you feel light electric shock go through your body to another area.

You like trekking, no? Nothing better to me than to walk on mountains and in forests.. been a while since I did that. I should really make this a habit and find a place close enough to reach with a short drive. Some of the best thinking I've done was in a forest.

Deep forests are like within 5 minute walk distance from my current residence.
You hit the nail on the head: I had exactly shooting in mind when I talked about costs. Even the venerable .22LR costs something to fire. Also 4x4 adventures. You gotta pay to play.
Concerning Himmler, actually, my Elemental situation suggests that Earth and Water are present in similar quantities. I'm low on Fire. Air, of course, takes the cake.

Point is... perhaps you would find it pleasurable to mingle with an astral partner? Not to forget, if you're giving this enough time and patience it could help you grow a lot astrally, making you much more aware of your astral surroundings and perhaps 'doing the trick' in unlocking your senses and making you no longer a stranger to the astral realm altogether?

You know what? I've been thinking along those lines. I would love it. The thing is, I don't know where to start. It's been said that you have to attain astral hearing/vision for this to function.

Sorry it's taking so long lately, hope after the first week of February I'll have more time to myself. Can't wait to put the past in the past. I hate having stuff to deal with for too long. You know I'm Air, right?

Don't worry, dear Brother. It took me several days to write this reply to you. Some days I just didn't have the time to sit down and finish it. Today I have some time but feel low on energy. It also appears that my libido has taken a nosedive. This is overworking for you.
Yeah, I know you're Air. Waitaminute, I'm too! When I want something, I want it yesterday.

Persevere, have faith and show trust!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Actually, IIRC, it was suggested to use the Quintessence to fix imbalances. Working with individual Elements is great in that you can learn its properties and/or increase your capacity towards it. At the end of the day, it still boils down to the balance of 'em all.

I'm making a little time to quickly respond to you Brother, as something regarding Elements is happening and it's kinda curious, so I want to tell you and document it at the same time.

There seems to be an undying duality between "use Quintessence" and "use single Elements" going on for me. The moment I choose to act one way, something tells me the opposite should be used instead. So fuck it, I'll use both as much as I can.

Speaking of Quintessence..
I'd be lying if I told you I never felt its power and usefulness, and as of today I finish every ritual and RTR visualizing the affirmation entering the Quintessence and making it cause the effect I'm after.
Regarding my lack of Earth, I've been trying and trying with the single Element but every time I just felt like I was either overdoing it or simply not doing it properly.. I don't want to develop the same shit I've already developed 3 or 4 times already, so I'll go with the safer Quintessence option in order to fix that imbalance, and anyway I'm not absorbing shitloads of Earth again knowing what it does in the long run. It's not like I can't stand it, but it's another distraction that I don't need to be worrying about.

This is called your own personal evolution. I believe that all of the Elements can be used both for good and bad. However, my knowledge of them is extremely limited ATM. I believe, you just select one of them that feels like your own.

I've been looking for this part as you said something that stuck with me since I read it. "You just select one of them that feels like your own"... if I had to take a breath and be blatantly honest about it in a matter of seconds, my lips would mutter "Water". I've always, as far as I can remember, been fascinated with Water and Ice. I was barely 12, I think, the first time I realized this obvious preference. Lost count of the times I fantasized about cryokinesis as my trademark ability. Last year, since I found out about Air being my dominant one, I put myself into it, studied it, and realized it's much cooler and interesting and potentially useful than I had been believing for years.. it can lead to electricity, to telekinesis, to manipulating polarity and machinery.... but it still loses the comparation with Water to me. Even without the 'cooler' Ice power (no pun, I swear lol), I always was fascinated with Water.. almost to the point of obsession. I'd look for streams, torrents, images of pools and lakes, and if I found the slightest running water stream in a forest after a rainy day I'd sit there and stare at it for a lot, admiring its beauty and perfection.

When I read those words you said, my mind said "Water" right away, I didn't even temporarily switch to Air. Also, this may very well have to do with my phobia of large bodies of water, deeper lakes, water caves and the ocean... this is definitely some issue I need to solve in better terms as I've been dealing with it but not completely yet.

Today, I felt once again very attracted by the whole concept of cryokinesis, lost count of the times I've been seeing that idea suggested everywhere by now. Initially I thought it was one of the many things I would notice "because I wanted to notice", but it kept insisting and at some point I became aware of something else.

The weather here is rather weird at the moment.. heatwaves leave the way to unexpectedly cold days and colder nights (to the point of using two blankets, so to speak), yet during the day I've been wearing just a sleeveless shirt and still felt hot, almost unable to stand it. This got so bad that when I finally went for a shower (normally I like scalding hot showers even in Summer) I turned the cold water way over the usual limit before I regret it. But nothing, I kept feeling it more than warm. I increased the cold water again, to make sure I was actually doing so, and the water still felt warm and absolutely not uncomfortable or 'cold' in any way.
Weirded out, I held my upper arm in my hand, and while my hand was warmer, I felt cold coming from inside me.. I was colder than the water and by now I'm pretty damn sure it was below human warmth.

That's where I finally started to put the pieces together. I don't know how it's possible to have done it this quick, but I have ...'tuned myself to Water Elementalist' in a matter of hours and (this the important observation) I experienced Water absorption NOT by feeling cold myself, but by feeling hot... I tried to cool myself down with physical water that was colder than the average human body and I still felt it as warmer than me.

Now I am indeed considering to choose this Element and see if I can't learn some cryo...

Anyway, sorry for the overly detailed explanation... if I weren't a SS I'd say I'm a little freaked out lol. Even now, it's gonna be like 53 Fahrenheit tonight and I'm feeling hot with a shirt.. won't be using blankets for sure.

Observation (that I MUST make here): we have just started the Kundalini RTRs again and today I felt again that 'hum' I had been feeling a lot in November/December. This MIGHT have something to do with this... :/ could this possibly be my Soul telling me with CAPS that I need to go for cryo and Water/cold related skills? Nevertheless... this is truly fascinating. No discomfort whatsoever... I feel like Mr Freeze from Batman lol.

Kundalini RTRs aside though... I do believe this has a lot to do with my accepting that I COULD go over the limit and accept cold as a skill. (Kind of feel like I'd be crowning my childhood dream too... I'll try not to overdo this but the signs I'm getting are easily telling me to go this direction.)

Goes around, comes around.
Anyway, I can't say I exactly believe that the Universe positions some rotten people into your life in order for you to test your newly acquired skills. This is a sort of general shit that just happens (if you let it). It's up to you how you decide to handle these. I have mentally banished such experiences from my life. I also banished police officers from my life.

No police is a good deal indeed. I'd like to hear more on how you did that one, not that I've had problems or anything, but as times get harder and the sheeple become more fierce in proving their stupidity it might be wiser to avoid them entirely in the future.
As for your story, that does indeed sound to me like one of those examples we hear from people who weren't even dedicated yet, and were just about to find Satan in their lives. Maybe he guided you in order to teach you a worthy lesson and you did well treasuring it.

You have to have time to experiment with them, meditate on them etc. Currently I feel unhappy because the workload is up again and I somehow have to make time for current group offensive starting today.

LOL. And we have like 15 inches of snow and -4°F.
BTW, I've felt electrical connections between random points in my body. You pinch an area on your skin and you feel light electric shock go through your body to another area.

-4... wait.. Fahrenheit? Let me convert it lol... -20 Celsius???? Where the fuck do you live? Siberia?? XD Damnit, now I wanna go there... wherever it is ahahah! I do wonder if that 'spark' I felt in the spine has unlocked something that is changing me in some way.
I did try a few times that stimuli/electrical effect somewhere else thing you mentioned but nothing too notable comes up to me... I'm trying to limit the physical stimulation to a minimum though, even masturbation of course.. not denying it, but I want to increase my sensitivity to energy and eventually a Succubus.

Concerning Himmler, actually, my Elemental situation suggests that Earth and Water are present in similar quantities. I'm low on Fire. Air, of course, takes the cake.

Yeah, fuck me if I know how to really read our Elemental imbalances anymore... sometimes things seem so obvious and when you accept that data and investigate more suddenly something screws up and you're back at square one, much like I did with Air and ignored everything else for months... even my greater attitude with Water should be the same with Fire as they have the same amount, but it's different.. if I use it for too long I can't stand Fire, it becomes more of a burden and I feel like switching Elements again and again.. fucking spiral.

You know what? I've been thinking along those lines. I would love it. The thing is, I don't know where to start. It's been said that you have to attain astral hearing/vision for this to function.

I heard so many times about Succubi not being sent to people that don't have serious enough astral senses, and yet again some others that don't seem to have any skill find themselves having strong experiences out of nothing... I kind of stopped worrying about "not being good enough" because this sick mental stagnation in the end causes one to fail even at the things he/she could easily succeed at, creating an obstacle where there's no need for one. I'm sure you've seen and heard something by now.. just use those experiences to tune your senses and hone them into skills. The moment you say you can't, you can't. So say you can do this and allow new possibilities in your life. You may call it wishful thinking lol, but I'm starting to see results with this, either in cryo and TK. One thing is to believe oneself 'a god' and not being one, another is to limit oneself out of inability to picture yourself as anything greater than what you think you are.

A stupid hint I got today while doing rituals: don't just TALK to your Serpent... LOVE it. It's going to stay with you for a long, looooooong time. Might as well become extremely close already, no?

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

It's already late but I still want to take the time to reply to your post, dear Brother.

Awesome, Brother. You reminded me of something! As a child, I used to play for days in thick forests. These days seemed like endless. I played with the Water! Small creeks, larger puddles of Water from all the snow melting in the spring etc. There was a natural spring surrounded by vertical sandstone walls. I spent days there, playing. I even didn't feel any hunger. Once I cleaned a very small rivulet in a valley from leaves and twigs, during spring time. The snow was melting and the Water was finding a way. The Water was freezing cold but I felt none! All this took place not even a mile from my parents country cottage.
Water! And charming scenery on top of that. Amazing. BTW, I have no issues or fears towards Water.

I felt again that 'hum' I had been feeling a lot in November/December. This MIGHT have something to do with this... :/ could this possibly be my Soul telling me with CAPS that I need to go for cryo and Water/cold related skills?

Dunno, Bro, you have to look inside yourself. No one outside of you can tell you this, except the Gods of course, I guess.
I myself liked the movie character Frozone from The Incredibles (2004).
BTW, for some years now, I can not sleep under the same blanket my missus is using because I feel it's just too damn hot! I'm using much thinner blanket.

No police is a good deal indeed. I'd like to hear more on how you did that one

This was just a powerful wish and energy from inside me (before even dedicating and becoming an SS). No rituals involved. Just a strong wish, pure intent. I wished that me and the police would forever be in opposing phases: I'm not where they are and vice versa. So far it has worked wonders. Traffic cops do not stop me (I see them rarely) and I always seem to drive within limit when they stalk. Even some weeks ago, I was at a supermarket buying something at a counter when the so-called covid patrol (police) walked in. My back was turned towards them and I walked out without them seeing me. I didn't see them. My missus was the one who noticed them and told me about it later. I wasn't wearing a face diaper and this is why they harass and humiliate people over here (and everywhere, I guess).

Where the fuck do you live? Siberia??

Not even remotely. If you read some of my first posts, you'll get a pretty good idea where I'm from.

The moment you say you can't, you can't.

Good reminder. Many of our abilities are uncharted but then again it is really easy to become delusional. I feel that you are right in that I'm limiting myself, every now and then, out of inability to acknowledge my real abilities (even I don't know what they are to begin with).

don't just TALK to your Serpent... LOVE it.

Long time ago, when the fRTR was published and I started doing it seriously, my missus had visions of snakes before falling asleep. Lots of snakes. She had this strong feeling like there are snakes under our bed or house floor or smth. She said that she is afraid of the snakes in real life but these visions weren't exactly frightening. Go figure.

I guess it's finally time for me to try out the Water. I've never invoked it before, only into the Sacral so far. The reason I postponed it was that Water can cause depression. Not long ago I was already experiencing it so... it's only natural, I guess, that I'm a bit wary.

Looking forward to your posts, dear Brother.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Water! And charming scenery on top of that. Amazing. BTW, I have no issues or fears towards Water.

That is VERY much like I always felt about Water. I can't stress enough how close I've always felt to the Element, let it suffice to say that when I discovered I was an Air person I was very surprised.. even now part of me screams "investigate more" as there's something that clearly tells me I have to get to the bottom of this. I'm also a Water sign (and as far as I can say it's THE most water sign of the zodiac.. I feel Scorpio's got too much fire in it and Cancer too much Earth perhaps.. only one left), so I've always thought this Element was my Element for more than a couple reasons. Maybe you and I are supposed to go down this path and see what it holds in store for us?
As you know, I've always "chosen" one Element and stuck with it for as long as I could before changing either my mind about it or how I felt about it. Say I chose Fire, I'd be super confident about it.. until I would feel it as I was just pushing myself to get higher and would end up feeling the Element itself as kind of 'dull', therefore looking immediately for something else, not necessarily its opposite every time.

With Water, I know very well my limit. I, perhaps stupidly, always found that Invoking Water MUST lead one to cryokinesis, so Ice.. but 'Ice' doesn't equal 'Water', does it? I assume it's about the cold, but Water is more than just that. Emotions, flow, ability to adapt, sexual drive even... and fears. Irrational fears, more like, stuff we have to deal with at some people for sure, whether the fears one has within come from Water or anything else.
With the 'cold in mind', I know that my limit with Water arrives when I start feeling something like a quite literal brain freeze effect. I feel like the Element starts inhabiting the limbs, then the torso, chest, neck, but the head is almost like it's off limits territory. When I feel this effect, I fear my Water training isn't going to last long...

Over the last few days, I've decided to push this more and forget about my fears. Not in the obvious overcharged irresponsible way, but in the sense that I know I can overcome my limit by adapting myself to the Element like I haven't done before.

Yesterday I had a weird effect again...
I was starting to go through with this mentality, determined to prove myself that I can do this, when I felt something like a brain surge. It was almost like all my spine's bioelectricity was suddenly conveyed in my head and it felt pretty discomforting, to say the least.
Thinking in hindsight, I know that earlier in the same day I had felt 'moments' in which this was strong enough to make me alert... not so intense, but enough to alert me of something about to happen to me.

This 'surge' lasted only a few seconds, but the overall impression I got from it was that it was something 'Airy'. Electrical, even.
Let me put it this way... it was almost as if Air wanted to let me know it can be just as dangerous as Water and Ice. Makes sense?

Immediately I thought of Leraje and how she's said to be dangerous thanks to Air, and even though I normally think of this as something difficult to understand, that "Air can't be THAT powerful" UNLESS the Air creates Electricity, I received somehow the answer.
Air is known to create overthinking, which in turn comes from an unstable ability to focus and calm the energy down (like Earth people who seem better than others at astral senses and divination, in my opinion at least).. too much Air creates overloaded brain, overwhelming bioelectricity, it unbinds blockages, it stimulates and excites, and ultimately it creates 'bioelectrical surges'.

The point here is (or at least the lesson I learned): Air can be fucking dangerous. Fire burns, Water messes with emotion and sickness even, Ice freezes, Earth slows down and theoretically causes the heart to stop... but Air in good enough amount can 'zap one senseless'. I'm not finding the exact medical term right now.. but I think that "bio-shock" is pretty close to the effect Air can have on a target.

Now, why did I feel this while mingling with Water (in a serious enough way)? :/

I remember the early months of last year when I was at work and felt kinda the same type of surge while I was determined to go all the way with Earth.
Honestly, I can't think of a reason other than my Soul or the Gods themselves telling my in a way I can understand that I'm going in a wrong direction and need to change the course ASAP. Pretty sure by now that if I did this with Fire I would meet the same even once again.

The "need" for more air that I had lately (not cold, just air on my skin, to the point of taking off almost all clothes during the day) made me realize the moment the surge had gone that I wasn't 'needing' Water, I just needed to embrace Air.

Noteworthy... (and now that I'm done writing it and coming back I feel so stupid for not noticing this before lol)... that same morning I had (after a too long time) another one of those "sudden heat" energy on my left foot while driving, and I learned to associate this to Leraje trying to make me aware of her. This has been happening like 20 times already, but yesterday I decided to doubt this and asked her to give me a stronger sign, I clearly stated "even if it is painful, I need to know this is you". Hours later, this happens and here I was wondering whether or not Water was the way to go.... fuck my stupidity.

Soooo.....

Long story short, Brother, I had a VERY clear demonstration (haha! "Demon"-stration... :lol: ) of how my dominant Element (and yours) CAN be used against someone else. How overcharging someone with Air can have a really crazy effect... no different at all than literally giving them an electrical shock. I have to keep this in mind very well... tattoo it on my skin if necessary.

I can almost hear Brother GitM's voice telling me I'm obsessed with electricity lol. Guess it was for a good reason that I started getting so into it.

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Another thing that I really feel like sharing after this last couple of days, and it's something that (as I just learned) has a lot to do with the concept of having a 'dominant' Element. I don't know how it works for the Gods, how they can have an Element when their Souls are perfectly balanced already, I just assume that the Element is their personal choice, possibly much like someone's favorite Element... can't be sure, but maybe it's not so important right now and it will make sense later.

After deciding to go all the way with an Element (in the case of Water and me becoming very tolerant of the cold, which I normally really can't stand) something became very obvious:
when we learn from the Elements and have in mind to become 'Elementalists', we probably often think that we can just summon an Element outside of our body and direct it to someone else, a target. HP Maxine stated that the more we become capable of tolerating the Element ourselves, the more of that Element we can direct and (in the case of Fire, as that's what she made the example with) even incinerating a victim of a black magick spell.

After I became tolerant of the cold in a measure I had never felt, I became very aware of the fact that when our bodies don't feel fearful/submissive/endangered by an Element anymore, we can use it simply by putting it (enough of it and long enough) into an enemy and know that a result will be accomplished. What I now know, is that HOLDING that Element for us is supposed to be a joke, easy as fuck, so much that we feel absolutely normal, but the trick is that we apply OUR NORMAL to the VICTIM'S NORMAL. This causes a rather noticeable change and the victim suffers from whatever it is we're causing them to feel (in the case of an Air Elementalist, the victim will more than likely be "bio-shocked").

My mistake for all this time was to consider an Elementalist as someone who can not hold their Element, and only tries to manipulate it with a very limited capacity to hold it himself/herself, ultimately causing the only damage to himself/herself in the attempt of damaging someone else. (Think "shooting someone with a gun held by the toes and shooting yourself in the foot as a result".)

Brother, I have a feeling I messed that up badly enough to make it difficult to understand.. I hope you get the meaning of this because now that I realize it I know it's really going to help me when I do Elementalist shit. If you don't get it, tell me and I'll try to re-explain it differently.

In my particular case, it seems the only Element I really suck at using is Earth (so lots of rebalancing meditation is needed, Quintessence primarily), but even so, the one I feel strongest in my Soul is Air. So fucking glad now I know how to use it. Suddenly a lot makes more sense.

I myself liked the movie character Frozone from The Incredibles (2004).
BTW, for some years now, I can not sleep under the same blanket my missus is using because I feel it's just too damn hot! I'm using much thinner blanket.

I loved Frozone too. Cryokinetic characters always fascinated me.. too bad there's never too many who manipulate Air. Thankfully a couple years back I finally made up my mind and said "fuck it, I'm gonna watch the Avatar series and see what it's all about", and that was it.. fell in love with "Airbending" lol. Too bad it was also the one art I felt I wouldn't be able to replicate in this reality. Felt too damn advanced... also, they imply Firebenders can evolve their skills into shooting electricity, but in truth lightning comes from Air manipulation.. Fire I use for healing, Water for emotions and dealing with fears.. and now to deal with cold weather.
By the way, I read your first posts... shiiiit, that's gotta be cold! Pretty sure I'd love to live in that country though. I'd also love to hear what your English accent sounds like.

Good reminder. Many of our abilities are uncharted but then again it is really easy to become delusional. I feel that you are right in that I'm limiting myself, every now and then, out of inability to acknowledge my real abilities (even I don't know what they are to begin with).

This whole Water and Air experience has taught me something related, I think. This is also something that HP HC pointed out in one of his last posts on people that feel like gods when they're not so advanced at all. In brief, you have to bang your head against your own limits. If you asked me to take a cold shower two weeks ago, I'd have said 'fuck that thought', now I have no problems with it, because I raised my ability to stand the cold. I pushed the limit further and can do something I couldn't before. I think in the case of all four Elements, if one didn't want to use Quintessence not wanting to limit the ability to learn from each, one at a time, I'd say it probably works by pushing the limit one Element at a time, further away from you, until you can manage to hold them all in a decent way, EACH MORE than you can normally/averagely hold your current dominating one. That sounds to me like a decent goal to start with, and probably you should test your abilities once you're that much freer from your limits. Personally, I'm going to start using Air skills and even (as Brother GitM did in one of his last reported sessions here) 'measure' my electrical charge. This is where appliances and Volt counters can be useful. Think of the "potato battery clock" thing.. use yourself to charge a clock. I think GitM was doing the opposite, holding the charge of a charging phone at the same level. You're good with machines, that should easily give you ideas.

And yeah, you did mention your partner seeing snakes before.. I don't know if you visualize Kundalini the same as I do, but I think you should definitely use snakes as a very useful image to prompt your Serpent to rise. Question: what's your missus' dominant Element? Earth by any chance? If she's able to see to a degree she should definitely work on it and cleanse her Soul... I find the "Removing the curse from the Serpent" RTR to be probably the best I could feel.

I guess it's finally time for me to try out the Water. I've never invoked it before, only into the Sacral so far. The reason I postponed it was that Water can cause depression. Not long ago I was already experiencing it so... it's only natural, I guess, that I'm a bit wary.

I think you really should, yes. Just go slowly, as always. Overcharging really doesn't help, I can tell you that by now. Besides, chances are you'll unawarely absorb the Element even just 'because you made your mind up about it', and will have unawarely programmed yourself to do so, so go more than slowly just in case.

Best of luck, my Brother, let me know how it goes!

SIEG HEIL!

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

Dear Brother, you sound so much more experienced concerning the Elements. I'm still a total n00b. I'm an Air person under an Air sign.
Anyway, yesterday I went for a swim and while hanging onto a rail, invoked Water. Today I don't feel anything out of the ordinary/different, except that I'm trying to recover from intensive working days and don't exactly appreciate the fact that the working to obliterate bad planetary influences is causing them to actually flare up. Totally fucktarded clusterfuck of a chart I have, I kid you not. I must've been a real asshole in the previous life to get such a chart. This is seriously fucked up. Anyhow, I'll get over it in the end.

I've had these brain surges you talk about. Many times it happened right before I was about to fall asleep. I'm floating around somewhere almost in the dreamland and ZAP - I feel an electrical charge within my brain AND hear a sound of long arc (like this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GMbN9nb3qyk) at the same time. Intimidating. It shocked me back to the awake state every single time. This was years ago, before dedicating.

I love reading your reply. To me it seems that you're full of optimism, eager to try out new approaches. Don't lose that attitude, no matter what.
ATM I feel frustrated, disappointed. I'm looking to solve some problems like a bad birth chart. I feel that this is the master key to every good thing that is to come in my life. This disappointedness is limiting my good mood and optimism ATM.
It's actually harassing that I can't share much more information with you because of obvious security reasons.

To experiment with the Elements, to learn and measure things in a nearly scientific way, this sounds like an really exciting project.

I'm still trying to figure out what did the Powers have in mind showing me 444 all the time. If this number means balance, then what balance? Work/play balance? Elemental balance? In my life, so many things are far from being optimal.

With the Serpent RTRs I once felt an area around my tailbone get hot. After that, nothing.

Question: what's your missus' dominant Element?

According to those astrology sites that calculate Elements, my missus is even more Air than me despite being Earth sign! This sounds like un-fucking-believable. Earth is her second. Fire and Water can be found in trace amounts. If I'm passionately agitated, emotional or angry about something, she usually finds it overwhelming.

So, it's 10 p.m. now, gotta hit the sack. It seems that tomorrow is another "do or die" working day.

Wish you all the best, mein Brother. Talk 2 U soon.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Thanks for your thought but I don't feel so experienced at all. I guess I'm not a noob in that I understand better than most how the Elements feel, and how each one (or almost each one, perhaps) could be used either in warfare and to gain some advantage, physical advantage first and foremost I guess, but I'm FAR from successfully using an Element in a physical way such as in pyrokinesis and so on. Besides, I've been thinking so many times about 'going all out with an Element' and then I'm stuck either choosing one (I ended up on each of them, preferring the logical Air because I know I can stand more without effects such as the one I described to you, the surge effect) or facing my strong withdrawal for the opposite (often happened in the case of thermal forces, pyro and cryo), or even reaching a limit that doesn't physically stop me (cuz I could continue) but that my senses tell me wouldn't be a wise thing, fully understanding I'm not ready to try and resemble an Elemental...
Long story short, I think I realize only now how the Akasha was always there to prevent me from fucking myself up and my training, that needs more basics and preparatory exercises to be mastered, like breathing and voiding the mind, and now also understanding how to use properly the Runes (sound in general) and affirmations as powerful methods for reality changing.
So the Elements will have to wait until I'm done mastering these other things. I CAN by all means develop skills like cryo, like our Brother GitM did, but like him I stop feeling the urge to take this to the next level, knowing there's more important things to be done before that.

(PS. this novel was only in response to your first line. XD :lol: imagine how much it'll take me to finish this message lol. I'll try to be more brief, there are things I need to say and others I need to get done with today.)

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Regarding your chart, I can't say much as I really don't understand much about either astrology and nasty planetary alignments. More than a few times I did wonder if my own chart would easily suggest to any decent astrologer how I have zero understanding of these things, and how it's easy for me to forget their importance, or even the other option... that whatever the chart looks like, I can't 'go back and change it', but I can choose to solve my problems in the here and now, today and for the future, so that the things that I've been dragging along that hold me back will be solving themselves as I better myself in the long run.
I don't know what kind of fucked up chart you got, but you're a successful and determined man, you have a family, you own a business, you're physically fit from what I gather and you're very in tune with nature and natural forces. PLUS, you managed to dig and realize enough in your life that you made it and understood Satan is our Father and that being a Spiritual Satanist is the only path for you.
If you ask me, I'd say everybody else needs to worry about their chart.... You're already here. Plus, I know how fierce of a spiritual warrior you are, unlike all those morons who so proudly call themselves SS but don't do spiritual warfare, thinking they're above all this, that there's "already enough people doing it", and so on. You're much more than you think you are, Brother. Don't let a nasty looking planetary location lead you to think you're not. You're more. Sure, you may lack the ability to clearly see in the astral and clearly hear your Guardian's voice. I'm not that advanced either, just had a few lucky days over a 20 years span... but it's definitely been increasing the last couple of years, when I seriously committed to this path and didn't stray from it to believe other sources could hold better knowledge.
From what I understand about your life, the only real enemy is your limited time due to all the work, which in turn causes more stress and fear you won't have enough time. Plus, if you're motivated to do even more because your partner is a machine and won't stop, and maybe will loom above you waiting for you to do more 'as the man', well... that's not helping either. You need to slow down, seriously.
I read of HP HoodedCobra and how he (and HPS Maxine obviously) dedicate every waking moment to our path. Also meaning, no other life whatsoever. I guess anyone that expects to be juggling big families, careers, watching Netflix series, spreading antivaxxer memes on facebook and walk the dog twice a day ISN'T going to find much remaining time to do proper warfare.... let alone take the needed time out of one's life in order to meditate, fall asleep, wake up, meditate more, change meditation, do some breathing, do some chanting, do another FRTR for fuck's sake, and so on and on.

The SS life is hard and it takes up a LOT of time, in my opinion. This is why I was foolishly aiming to 'make it big on jootube' and then retire in a cabin in the woods to meditate and to nothing but rituals. The hard part is, WE SS find a lot of resistance from the enemy whenever we do something good, either for warfare and for ourselves only. I guess this means that in the beginning (which could very well be 20 or more years since one dedicates) one's going to have the HARDEST time, depending on how much one is already prone to learn quickly perhaps... you and I both know there are people here who haven't been SS for more than 10 years but have already accomplished so much more than we did, and I know how frustrating that sensation can be. Nevertheless, I think one should be smart about it...

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Do you remember that post I made a while ago about how to unblock yourself if you don't feel energy?
https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=196968#p196968

Truth be told, part of me consciously wrote it so "I" could help "myself" in the future to come.
Being so much Air and so little Earth (although I do feel some Earth now in me to a degree) I know how easy it can be for me to have a good idea yesterday and be wasting my time foolishly tomorrow because a butterfly flapped her wings in Japan lol. So I knew that while others could definitely have found that post and surely benefited from it, I needed to make sure I would find it and benefit from it.
ESPECIALLY since the Spiritual Warfare has been attracting so much unwanted attention.

In this post I included EVERYTHING I feel is "definitely of power", meaning everything that has in some way produced an effect in me (the one who couldn't feel ANY energy in the past).
The exercises spam from physical Hatha Yoga and 5 Tibetans to mental exercises and vibrations.

Do you by any chance know what each of the 8 Fold Paths are? HP HC mentioned it and it made me think a lot. I realized I don't know what ALL the paths here are, and while I realize that (like he and HPS Maxine said) there's more paths leading to Godhood, I can only think of a couple.. three is the biggest number of categories I can think of at the moment.

Knowing this, I understand that there is probably a lot I'm not yet doing to advance, which in turn proves I'm only limiting my own ability to progress.

If you don't already do at least 5-10 minutes of each of these exercises or more that you can think of, I suggest you try them for a while and see if something doesn't stick out and suggest you more on how to progress, or if something gives you an unexpected reaction that's going to prompt you forward on the path.

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I've had these brain surges you talk about. Many times it happened right before I was about to fall asleep. I'm floating around somewhere almost in the dreamland and ZAP - I feel an electrical charge within my brain AND hear a sound of long arc (like this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GMbN9nb3qyk) at the same time. Intimidating. It shocked me back to the awake state every single time. This was years ago, before dedicating.

I would try to get these surges to repeat, consciously. Have you ever read about Gopi Krishna and how he managed to get his Kundalini activated, but suffered the pain that it's said to come with it for those that haven't properly opened the energetic pathways? From what I remember (couldn't find the link right now in the JoS Library) he was meditating and suddenly had this 'liquid spark' which flared up and felt extremely painful to him. It came out of nowhere and he wasn't expecting it. This pain went on and on for quite a while, like one year if I remember correctly (I read this a LONG time ago) and in the end he managed to unblock himself and this energy changed, becoming a whole lot more calmer and pleasurable and the pain was gone.

This to say... what if our surges have a similar nature? What if this is simply a way our stronger bioelectricity is trying to show us what to work on and where to focus the attention?
I remember this starting at the base of the cranium and raising to the head. The first time I did the RTRs for removing the curse on Kundalini I felt a 'jolt' that could have definitely meant there is a blockage in my pineal gland, being slightly on the right side from the center of the head.

Now that I think of it again, it's the same exact spot I felt a tingle or spark when I made up that thoughtform months ago, which had the purpose to help me unblock myself.... I feel that maybe it's about time I get ready to write Thoughtforms Part 2.
You asked about Thoughtforms a short while ago, Brother, didn't you? Ever tried working with them? I guess this is what some would call my "Siddhi" as I've been naturally developing this way before reading about them, but I've been thinking for a few years about using them like a pro, to unblock myself, and then never did for one reason or another. I really feel I should now.

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With the Serpent RTRs I once felt an area around my tailbone get hot. After that, nothing.

Heat around the 1st chakra may be a good thing, it might have meant that it was effectively "removing the curse" from there. Was the heat lasting or momentary?

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According to those astrology sites that calculate Elements, my missus is even more Air than me despite being Earth sign! This sounds like un-fucking-believable. Earth is her second. Fire and Water can be found in trace amounts. If I'm passionately agitated, emotional or angry about something, she usually finds it overwhelming.

Air and Earth as the first two more numerous in Planets may mean she's pretty balanced in this dichotomy, and the same could be said about Fire and Water being the other pair of opposites in the Soul. This may mean that while she probably does zero astral work now, she may have done good enough in past lives to retain some astral skill now, which would explain why she was seeing snakes around the house back then. Too bad she's not a SS, I feel you'd both have incredibly more to share and grow with.

Gotta run too, now, Brother. I've been finding it difficult to make time for rituals lately, finished at 2am yesterday.

PS. I got this supercheap "prayer beads" from an Indian shop... (I have thread and stones to make my own but somehow never found the proper time to make it, I will soon though), and I've been using it to do either RTRs and vibrate Runes. Somehow I find it 'easier', less of an effort to do scheduled RTRs and I've been doubling them in repetitions without feeling the bite. As for Runes, I've only done one 108 repetitions of WUNJO so far, but I could already summon visions multiple times while doing the entire Tibetan rosary (108 beads is the original number of course, 54 is the stolen xtian fake one with NO power whatsoever).
I'd suggest you give this a try... you can ask Father to bless it and use it 'like a cellphone' to reach the Gods. Come to think of it, I don't see why we shouldn't have one of these for each Demon/Demoness we work with, each blessed by them. Like the idea? Come on, I know you're into it now! XD

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

PS. Just came across this again.

https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Transformation.html

Read a couple lines after point 5, where it starts with "Kundalini/bioelectricity". You might be onto something good, Brother. Remember what you did and see if you can repeat that.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

Whatta week it's been, dear Brother. Finally I have the time AND the energy to finally answer you properly. Anyway, here I go.

I really don't understand much about either astrology and nasty planetary alignments.

You can do it just as easily as I did: get your chart and main aspects from an astrology site (I liked Astroseek - gives a nice overview). Then Open Azazels astrology page in JoS and find the meanings for all the planets AND aspects. First is the planet in a sign (Sun in Virgo for example), then planet in a house (Neptune in II for example) and finally all the conjunctions, squares and oppositions.
I suggest you use the astrology pages on JoS online because I discovered that the astrology pdf file in library is missing some chapters.

I can choose to solve my problems in the here and now, today and for the future, so that the things that I've been dragging along that hold me back will be solving themselves as I better myself in the long run.

This is exactly the reason I undertook the Munka working. After getting some clarity I felt the push from the Powers that this is the only way. The situation with my chart is complicated enough, no wishful thinking nor therapist can help here.

You're much more than you think you are, Brother.

Your kind words actually made me feel a bit better. Thank you.

I guess anyone that expects to be juggling big families, careers, watching Netflix series, spreading antivaxxer memes on facebook and walk the dog twice a day ISN'T going to find much remaining time to do proper warfare.... let alone take the needed time out of one's life in order to meditate, fall asleep, wake up, meditate more, change meditation, do some breathing, do some chanting, do another FRTR for fuck's sake, and so on and on. The SS life is hard and it takes up a LOT of time, in my opinion.

This is exactly what I experienced. Ideally, the SS life takes hours daily. My ideal dream life would be 5 to 6 hours of work. The rest I could spend on spiritual affairs. Currently I'm working basically from 8 am to 9 pm. There are so many different meditations, chakra workings and yoga excercises I would love to do besides warfare... but I have to spend my waking hours working to make ends meet. This is driving me friggin' nuts!
I actually even can't imagine how does the life of an average western normie look like. I know that I basically don't have time for TV except sometimes on weekends maybe twice a month. I don't watch netflix because this seems useless waste of time to me. Endless boring series, from ze joos to the goyim.
Of course we have to be smart about our development. Every flower blossoms in due time. I've been contemplating a lot about it. Like why on Earth didn't I discover this path like 20 years ago? I also keep forgetting that I'm in a middle of a serious personal working that has really nasty side effects and I feel that I'm not moving forward. Too much Air, I guess, lol. Anyway, these side effects I mentioned are well described in my chart. They are caused by negative planetary aspects I'm trying to obliterate.
Lydia wrote in her thread: Many people over the years have posted their experiences with this working, and most say that the problem often gets worse in one way or another before it gets better, as it's the problem rising to the surface before being eliminated. But after the initial problems, we all experience permanent improvement.
It can sometimes be mentally challenging to cope with this shitstorm to put it mildly, especially because I decided to tackle all the negative aspects in one sitting. Brave or foolish? Go figure.

Do you by any chance know what each of the 8 Fold Paths are?

From JoS: In truth, the Eight-Fold Path is the observance and practice of the following, which greatly amplifies the powers of the mind and soul:

1. Asanas - Physical positions of the body such as in Hatha Yoga, Kundalini Yoga, the Five Tibetans, and Tai Chi. One must work on and strengthen the physical self through gentle stretching, and manipulation of the spine to facilitate the safe ascension of the serpent. The physical body must be free and flexible, otherwise energy may become trapped. When one consistently performs power meditations, one raises extreme amounts of energy that must be properly directed and above all, free.

2. Pranayama - Breathing Exercises

3. Dhyana - Meditation

4. Mantras - Vibration of words of power to obtain certain goals and/or personal powers

5. Yantras - meditation upon sigils and certain symbols [used along with vibration of mantra for maximum effectiveness]

6. Mudras - Certain seals such as hand positions which activate the vril [chi/witchpower]

7. Bandhas - Energy locks which stimulate and direct the serpent

8. Maithuna - Sexual activity, either with a partner/s or alone. Orgasm is very necessary in both activating and in amplifying the life force. This is why the Christian Church and Muslim program, in an attempt to remove all spiritual knowledge and power, are always condemning, and placing restrictions on sexual activity.

By practicing all of the above, one will greatly enhance and amplify his/her powers and shorten the time in achieving the godhead.

This to say... what if our surges have a similar nature? What if this is simply a way our stronger bioelectricity is trying to show us what to work on and where to focus the attention?

Back then when I had them pretty regularly, I was just an overworked normie. I remember accelerating my brain with willpower at my desk job, to get everything done by 5 p.m. Later, nervousness and anxiety appeared. The surges were the aftermath. Imagine just entering sleep and then feeling a high voltage discharge within your brain, accompanied by a loud electrical arc sound. I've also experienced frequent foot and leg twitches and muscle cramps right after entering sleep (despite taking more than adequate dose of chelated magnesium daily).

You asked about Thoughtforms a short while ago, Brother, didn't you? Ever tried working with them?

The answer is a sad No. Because of time constraints, I haven't been able to practice it yet.

Heat around the 1st chakra may be a good thing, it might have meant that it was effectively "removing the curse" from there. Was the heat lasting or momentary?

The heat lasted until I finished my rituals on that day. Before that, I once felt this area get really hot while I was doing opening meditations for root chakra.

Too bad she's not a SS, I feel you'd both have incredibly more to share and grow with.

She said that she doesn't feel drawn towards Satan but she might take up meditations if she sees that these help me in a positive way. She's a much younger soul than me so, just to be realistic, she may never get to that.

I've been finding it difficult to make time for rituals lately, finished at 2am yesterday.

To be honest, this week I barely managed a personal working, AC+AoP and a couple of times the FRTR pair. Couldn't do the group rituals because I just had tons of work to do from am to pm. And when I finally finish it around 9 pm or whatever then I'm exhausted. Pushing myself would just burn my brain. (I suspect that the sudden change in workload might have something to do with this personal working.) Lately I find it impossible to push myself past 10 pm.

I got this supercheap "prayer beads" from an Indian shop...

I made my own rosary using natural Lapis Lazuli round beads. I just don't find myself using it because every ritual has a custom number of repetitions and the 108 was considered not so positive number to use IIRC.

Read a couple lines after point 5, where it starts with "Kundalini/bioelectricity". You might be onto something good, Brother. Remember what you did and see if you can repeat that.

Repeating that would just drive me farther from my goal. Back then I just overclocked my brain by willpower. Add the stress of daily life of a salary slave and you have a recipe for spectacular meltdown. Won't do it again. I need to be mentally way calmer and slower to actually start feeling things. Unfortunately, the overabundance of Air sometimes comes with general entropy.

BTW, I just feel that you should really relax and void yourself concerning the Elements. Give it some time to settle, a month or so. Then try probing the topic again mentally, try to feel, making yourself void (without our typical, left-brain Airy blabber).

Much love and respect to you, dear Brother. Looking forward to hearing from you.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Whatta week it's been, dear Brother. Finally I have the time AND the energy to finally answer you properly.

Yeah, same here, been postponing my reply for two days but now I feel lighter. Got at least some answers from my former employer and this stressful shit is over, I had been thinking about it for too long without being able to put a stop to it due to the 'conciliation' having been set only this month. Now it's gone and I can focus on things that I want and need to do.

I suggest you use the astrology pages on JoS online because I discovered that the astrology pdf file in library is missing some chapters.

I'll have to make more time and understand this thing properly as I know that if you misread something it could mean something completely different and that would take me a step backwards, last thing I need right now.

This is exactly the reason I undertook the Munka working. After getting some clarity I felt the push from the Powers that this is the only way. The situation with my chart is complicated enough, no wishful thinking nor therapist can help here.

That makes a lot of sense. Personally, I have chosen to try a 'different approach' to things. For one thing, I know that if I get stuck with the "MUST choose Element" mentality, I'll never be truly satisfied with my choice or training, as I'll always lack that either opposite or balancing half (or three quarters, or more, of it) to be really done finding what I seek.
I'm stepping back a little from meditations too specific and focusing on the 'easy and basic', so to speak. Like when a meditation says something like "Ok, now first relax until you can't feel your body, than imagine yourself in light, now move the light up your spine, done? Ok, now circle it back. Next add this mudra. Next add this mantra. Next focus on this sigil. Etc" ..and I'm still TRYING to relax my body and not being overrun with involuntary thoughts and memories of the day or stressful problems that I can't get rid of.
Meaning: it's pointless to run and trying and to acrobats when I'm not even able to stand up from the ground. I HAVE to sharpen my mind to the point that my relaxation will simply be the easiest of consequences from my training. With this I'm not saying I will occupy my mind harder with heavier thoughts, quite the opposite.. I'm focusing on the easiest possible relaxation and visualization techniques ('visualization' referring also to the summoning of sensations, like tactile ones, which have helped before when average attempts have failed miserably... told you about that time while using one of these I nearly astral projected.. that would be something phenomenal for me, been dreaming and daydreaming of it so many times).

Your kind words actually made me feel a bit better. Thank you.

Glad I could help, Brother. The only thing that's ultimately going to do every trick for you is 'you doing the trick yourself'. Sometimes the mind won't 'get it' no matter what you say to it. It just has to decide that it's ready by itself. In other words, unless you make up your mind and decide you're ready for something (an example being "ready to open up your astral eyes enough to see visions on command") you never will. So choose to do it.

Of course we have to be smart about our development. Every flower blossoms in due time. I've been contemplating a lot about it. Like why on Earth didn't I discover this path like 20 years ago? I also keep forgetting that I'm in a middle of a serious personal working that has really nasty side effects and I feel that I'm not moving forward. Too much Air, I guess, lol.

Too much Air thinking there indeed, Brother. You know how it is. When (Air) people like us start worrying about something and overthinking it, there's almost guaranteed no need for that in the first place. Like you said, every flower blossoms in due time. So just erase from your mind the concept of time constantly ticking away and you not accomplishing what you wish to. The more you focus on that the more you'll make it into your own little reality, and you don't want that, of course.
Think the Gods worry about what skills they still need to master that other Gods have already as part of their office? No, they are confident of their own skills and understand that their long life and experiences brought them to understand better than anything THAT particular office (which still must have taken its own time to understand, experience and master).
And just to give you a pretty depressing example: I DID discover this path 20 years ago (well, 19, technically.. I wouldn't be that surprised if one day HP Maxine told me that I was among the first 10 people to ever find the JoS website in 2002), and look where I am. It took me pretty much 18 years JUST to learn who my Guardian Demon was (I had been almost sure one year before Brother GitM would be contacted my Leraje and used him to give me the confirmation that she was the one), I have JUST now started to be aware of and feel a little energy, I have JUST now used one of my skills in a decent enough way that I managed to stimulate my pineal gland and feel it, and so on and on. Not to mention how just one year ago I learned I was Air dominant and that my Earth was absolute nil, so that's where many problems I hadn't been aware of started to be more obvious to me.

20 years is a long time for us, but sometimes I feel like a total freaking failure in the eyes of Satan. Only now I have only just begun to grow a little...

From JoS: In truth, the Eight-Fold Path is the observance and practice of the following, which greatly amplifies the powers of the mind and soul:

1. Asanas - Physical positions of the body such as in Hatha Yoga, Kundalini Yoga, the Five Tibetans, and Tai Chi. One must work on and strengthen the physical self through gentle stretching, and manipulation of the spine to facilitate the safe ascension of the serpent. The physical body must be free and flexible, otherwise energy may become trapped. When one consistently performs power meditations, one raises extreme amounts of energy that must be properly directed and above all, free.

2. Pranayama - Breathing Exercises

3. Dhyana - Meditation

4. Mantras - Vibration of words of power to obtain certain goals and/or personal powers

5. Yantras - meditation upon sigils and certain symbols [used along with vibration of mantra for maximum effectiveness]

6. Mudras - Certain seals such as hand positions which activate the vril [chi/witchpower]

7. Bandhas - Energy locks which stimulate and direct the serpent

8. Maithuna - Sexual activity, either with a partner/s or alone. Orgasm is very necessary in both activating and in amplifying the life force. This is why the Christian Church and Muslim program, in an attempt to remove all spiritual knowledge and power, are always condemning, and placing restrictions on sexual activity.

By practicing all of the above, one will greatly enhance and amplify his/her powers and shorten the time in achieving the godhead.

Dude, I love you. Can you link me the page? I've been looking everywhere, and I suspect it's somewhere so easy to find I must have overlooked it entirely somehow. I am not even too sure that I have ever seen a page with this stuff on it, that's way when HP HC mentioned it I felt completely ignorant about it.

At least I have to say I have been keeping up with almost everything in there, regardless of knowing what the list included.
The only one I haven't really used much are the Mudras. Perhaps because HP Maxine made them an optional part in the chakra awakening exercises, or because I never felt that damn sensation in the thumb for the Third Eye mudra (the very first one) and decided it simply wasn't for me. I don't really know how much they help, haven't memorized the names, but the only one I use is the one to calm your mind, the "right hand inside the left hand, palms up, tip of the thumbs touching, perfect for the simple crossed legs or the butterfly asana.

The others I have almost all figured out by myself... only the Yantras I never used much in the years before, I started it when I found out the name of my GD and anyway I used Satan's sigil.

You asked about Thoughtforms a short while ago, Brother, didn't you? Ever tried working with them?

The answer is a sad No. Because of time constraints, I haven't been able to practice it yet. [/quote]

So far I have pondered using them again but haven't really had the time to focus on that. I will these days for sure though. I was pretty surprised with the effect I had last time, and want to make sure it wasn't just a one off. Thing is, I'm trying to give proper time to all 8 Fold Paths (now that I realize this branching) and I hope that doing so I will progress faster, covering all the basis and skipping nothing important.

Also, I restarted including martial arts in the physical path as I feel I let my body soften up too much.

On that matter... I don't remember if I told you already, I think not.
Ever since restarting daily Yoga (not even as much as I promised myself, gotta fix that) but more than anything Kundalini Yoga, I have observed a strange change in my body. First of all, my back is slightly larger. You know those guys who crowd gyms thinking they got the biggest biceps ever? Yeah, suddenly I feel like I have a similar body. Don't know how or why... it's actually been pretty sudden, last week I think. I wonder if the little Wing Chun training I've been doing (way too little for THESE results) had a way of adapting my muscles for a faster "chain fist" (it's one of the trademark moves).
Also, the other thing is speed. I was training this "chain fist" and made a short video of it to see what it looked like and how to improve it, but I couldn't count the number of fists I threw to the bag. I did the same again but had to lower the speed to 1/10th just to count them. Turns out my "upgraded" back came with a gift in speed, and I threw 55 fists in 10 seconds.

I've been doing martial arts all my life, but I was never big or THAT fast. I also find it strange how I'm picking up skills I didn't have with more ease than ever before, not that I didn't already learn quickly, it's always been a perk for me, but this level of absorbing information and being so much stronger and faster than before kinda feel like "cheating" in a way.

Long story short, I came to believe that this ...whatever this 'transformation' is, is due to my Earth finally being displayed in my Soul. I don't know if that's the best or only explanation I can give to what happened, but it does feel pretty legit so for now I'll ride with it.
I'll see if my body reacts to the training I just started as quick as the back and arms.

Ever noticed something like that before? A sudden physical change? :/

To be honest, this week I barely managed a personal working, AC+AoP and a couple of times the FRTR pair. Couldn't do the group rituals because I just had tons of work to do from am to pm.

Well, don't feel too bad, Brother, because I've been reading a few other times on the forum of people who had a seriously hard time doing the rituals and focusing, being harassed etc. I'm pretty sure the fucking astral leeches have been more active, there's also been again videos on people who saw ufos left and right. They know they are losing the war and are obviously trying to fuck with us harder.
I had the hardest time too doing rituals this time. Some days I would do one more just because I felt like I had to get back at them after making me skip the day before.

PLUS, now it seems we're entering (or already entered) retrograde Mercury, which isn't good news, so there's new shit to be aware of.
Truth be told, however, I feel pretty positive now.
I got rid of this work stress that was haunting me, I feel physically stronger and better, I'm pretty confident I am slowing things down with good reason and that by doing so I will definitely succeed.
Also, I'm still seeing 444 but it feels more like a confirmation... maybe a confirmation that says I have connected with Earth and must nourish this slowly, with time and practice.

As for the 108 number (from the Tibetan rosary), I never really had a bad vibe from this number.. read something before but I haven't felt anything bad from it, plus it is associated with a lot of examples in martial arts history, being usually the number of 'branches' in which a school or art developed, so it's been a familiar number so far.

I also made a stone rosary but the energy felt a little too stagnant for the moment, so I kept using the smaller wooden one, just as I am getting started for the first time in forever with so many repetitions.

BTW, I just feel that you should really relax and void yourself concerning the Elements. Give it some time to settle, a month or so. Then try probing the topic again mentally, try to feel, making yourself void (without our typical, left-brain Airy blabber).

You're not wrong, and I have done so. There are obviously periods in which I feel a stronger connection with the Elements and analyzing this feels either more natural and right, but then there are other periods in which I feel the Elements are kind of a prison and that I will be stuck doing the same mistakes over and over unless I get rid of this closed-box mentality.
It's probably always better to just use Akasha instead, and feeling them all at once.

It probably pays off more to listen to them as a song than 4 single notes.

Alright, a quick Yoga routine and I gotta go to sleep now. Talk to you soon Brother, take it easy and when in doubt, pay attention to the feeling of your breathing. Usually helped me more than anything else in Void meditation.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

Oh my, dear Brother. Another crazy week. I'm not even sure anymore what is wrong with me. Am I being harassed by the enemy or is it just me (the greatest enemy of all).

I assumed you had tried all Elements by now, Brother.

Well, I finally felt the push to get myself into trance and invoke Water. After that, the same night I saw a dream in my sleep. There was this beautiful big pond surrounded with trees. Above that pond was a thunder cloud and several arcs resembling spider lightning were hitting that pond rapidly. There was also a man swimming in that pond. Nothing seemed dangerous or frightening, though.
The next day I felt great but after that, Fire came back with a revenge. Irritability, restlessness, verbal outbursts of rage while working alone, severe dislike of routine chores etc.
I'd hazard a guess that this turmoil is a mixture of the Munka working (the shortcomings in my chart), Elemental imbalance and maybe some interference from the enemy. I sincerely wish this to be over.
I will continue invoking Water until I feel otherwise.

Got at least some answers from my former employer and this stressful shit is over

Did you get your job back or at least a fat cheque?

I'm stepping back a little from meditations too specific and focusing on the 'easy and basic', so to speak.

That seems a reasonable thing to do. Master the basics first. I really should do the same but lately I'm having a hard time finding enough energy to do the FRTR.

So just erase from your mind the concept of time constantly ticking away and you not accomplishing what you wish to. The more you focus on that the more you'll make it into your own little reality, and you don't want that, of course.

This is where one of my hangups is probably hiding. I can't help but notice the sheer volume of man-hours this business here demands... but I'd prefer much calmer, more spiritual life. This contrast is painful and especially so because I don't see a way out yet. Finding just another 9-to-5, dead-end job isn't going to solve anything either. I also can't just leave everything that has to be done to my family and meditate happily away. BTW, "Success through hard work" is in my chart. So is "Dislike of routine". So is "Restless finances". Also, "high-strung" is mentioned for more than one time. I'm very controversial.
I'd love to finally feel at peace with myself and my life, some quiet happiness and contentment, proudly engaging in warfare for our SS party.

Dude, I love you. Can you link me the page?

Here you go, dear Brother:
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/ASHTAR.html

The only one I haven't really used much are the Mudras. Perhaps because HP Maxine made them an optional part in the chakra awakening exercises, or because I never felt that damn sensation in the thumb for the Third Eye mudra (the very first one) and decided it simply wasn't for me.

LOL, I didn't feel that damn sensation either but it didn't keep me from using them. Just because you don't feel anything from them, doesn't mean these aren't helpful.

Ever noticed something like that before? A sudden physical change? :/

Yes, after I started a full-body lifting regimen. Suddenly the pains in my lower back were gone and I could lift heavy objects without feeling that I'm going to break into two parts. Suddenly I also could do farmers walk with 40 kilos for long distances. A chainsaw weighing 10 kilos feels like a toy. Before gym, all this felt excruciating. I felt that going to the gym and actually working with weights trained not only my muscles but also my mind. It's like your "software" has "limits" and "rules" and when you increase the limits or break the rules, awesome things happen. This has nothing to do with wishful thinking, though. You can't bench press 100 kilos if you struggled with 50 kilos a few days ago, you have to build yourself to that level organically, gradually. Somewhere there you may meet the limit of your body, the muscles, the joints. Unless it's a "fight or die" situation, you have to be reasonable in order to sustain.
BTW, I don't exactly consider myself to be physically fit. I'm more like a beginner strongman with a dad bod, lol. Then again, I'm fit in comparison with all those sedentary keyboard warriors.
Although a visible sixpack and 6% body fat (the body of a young Greek God) would be lovely, I can't see this happening considering my current lifestyle. This is also impractical because the diet would be seriously regulated both in what you eat and when. In my life currently, I sometimes must cope with 8 hours between meals. This, as you may know, creates compensatory overeating.

Well, don't feel too bad, Brother, because I've been reading a few other times on the forum of people who had a seriously hard time doing the rituals and focusing, being harassed etc. I'm pretty sure the fucking astral leeches have been more active, there's also been again videos on people who saw ufos left and right.

Thanks for the confirmation. The thing that makes me seriously unhappy is that, in my case currently, it's not only about my mental feeling of turmoil. On top of that, I feel like I don't have any energy left at the end of the day. Yesterday evening I passed into sleep when trying to invoke Water.
And then, when I have some free time, like today (Saturday), I like to do nothing. Really nothing. Is it a balancing act of sorts?

Anyway, I have about one week left of the Munka working. It will be over soon. I hope the turmoil will quiet down.
It was about -18 Celsius this morning and we have about 50 cm of snow. The Sun is shining. I think I'm going snowtubing with my child.
Take good care of yourself, Brother.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Oh my, dear Brother. Another crazy week. I'm not even sure anymore what is wrong with me. Am I being harassed by the enemy or is it just me (the greatest enemy of all).

Not surprised, Brother, I don't know how much exactly they're constantly muttering against us but the leeches must be working like crazy for this 'feeling of something being wrong' being so constant over the last ..month? Do keep up the FRTRs and of course do include the Tetragrammaton destruction as it really doesn't make it much longer. I finally memorized also the three last affirmations, I had to read them before.

I'll try to keep this reply shorter as I have little time today and not much to say honestly, although I had a familiar breakthrough.

Well, I finally felt the push to get myself into trance and invoke Water. After that, the same night I saw a dream in my sleep. There was this beautiful big pond surrounded with trees. Above that pond was a thunder cloud and several arcs resembling spider lightning were hitting that pond rapidly. There was also a man swimming in that pond. Nothing seemed dangerous or frightening, though.
The next day I felt great but after that, Fire came back with a revenge. Irritability, restlessness, verbal outbursts of rage while working alone, severe dislike of routine chores etc.

I'm thinking you're onto something working with Water in your sacral chakra, like when you were in the pool. The lightning may signify that Water stimulated your spark in order to help raise Kundalini. This is how I see it at least.
The Fire coming back after that tells me you've actually done Water absorption and it was simply reacting to that Water abundance. I'm not saying "overflow yourself with Water Element" of course, but do work with it. Find a gentleness about it and make it your own. I'm thinking Water is possibly the key you need to undo your bonds. ....Just had to go back and find the reply where you explain your Elemental situation. Water doesn't seem to be an Element you lack, Fire is.. yet it seems you work well with Water instead, Fire being more or a nuisance.
This reminds me of my situation with Earth.. I have no problem with Air, and Water and Fire seem to attract me in similar quantities, but Earth has been the 'silent one' for so very long.

I'll just be as brief as I can be on this, but I want to tell you about this week's experimenting.

YES, I did say I was laying low with the Elements, and I did start off with the right foot, but when I did do a...'comprehensive check', getting reacquainted with each Element one at a time, something amazing happened when I reached Earth.

I was merely testing my Soul's reaction to each one, and the idea of 'filling the room with the Element' (I was reading something on Evoking them on the JoS as I was unsure about the right color for visualization) I 'IMMEDIATELY FELT' the connection with Earth.
Or better yet, the connection Earth provided.

The color/substance suggested in the JoS is some clay like substance, grayish, clay colored. I believe because of how much Earth is needed in my Soul, that explains how much and immediate I felt it either filling the room and, for a lack of better word, 'bridging me outward'.

This happened before and the thought/idea repeated itself in the form of easy signs later. It was a few years back, I had felt the "kindgom of plants" (I guess it's easier to think of this as a dimension where plant life exists in all forms) and it was inviting me to join it. I can't really describe it better than this. It was almost as if this dimension of bountiful connection with the spirits was a bubble that MIGHT have absorbed me IF I had let it.

In the example of a couple days ago instead, the 'filling the room' provided my Soul with plenty of roots, almost infinite tendrils, that reached out and I just knew that I could mingle with the astral. I just know that Earth is the key here, not for nothing I wrote about Earth being "the most spiritual of the Elements". It's not that it is the most spiritual, it's that it can bridge me.

Honestly, I have no idea why this only happens on very rare occasion. I assume it could be that we naturally tend to avoid the lacking Element, not knowing what to expect or fearing it will cause too much turmoil or difference, but it's really a necessity. The surge I felt when setting my mind on Water/Ice, and me feeling Air/Electricity as something powerful and negative in some (comfortable) measure might have been Leraje's answer, telling me I was not to follow Water and cold at all. She's not mad at me, as far as I can say, when I dwell with Air, but I have a pretty clear idea that she's pulling me towards this bridging Element, so I can finally start a strong spiritual relationship with our Gods.

I hope that something can inspire you to understand what your best options are in your Elemental situation. I know that Akasha is great and all, but I still feel it can't let me obtain that extreme I need. I just have to go for Earth. Actually, today I even felt that raising my Earth is severely needed if I want my magick to be manifested in a serious way (and I know I've had this limit for as long as I can remember, so I need to fix this).

One thing I'll definitely do, like Brother GitM suggested and explained (I should re-read that post tomorrow), is take my time in SERIOUSLY creating my astral temple, a very natural looking, earthy one inside a huge forest. Leraje has indirectly been guiding me enough, now the next step is up to me. I'm just glad I realized this in time before I'd lose my mind in some useless pattern of thought, as I often have done. Maybe you should try that too, building an astral "niche" where you can go whenever you want?

Did you get your job back or at least a fat cheque?

Nope, I just got an explanation and the name of the actual culprit for this fucked up situation, so when I'm ready to strike, I know EXACTLY who I'll experiment on (one of many that seriously deserve it, at least).

That seems a reasonable thing to do. Master the basics first. I really should do the same but lately I'm having a hard time finding enough energy to do the FRTR.

I've been reading that late post on Void meditation and it actually inspired me to want to give my very best. To me, that is the hardest meditation there is and I intend to master it before I excel in anything else. Coupling that with the astral temple creation will be a magnificent thing, when I get the hang of it. I'm sure this will give me A LOT.

I'd love to finally feel at peace with myself and my life, some quiet happiness and contentment, proudly engaging in warfare for our SS party.

Other than "try to get a lesser workload and make time for yourself" I can't suggest much more that will work. In this life we have the choice to create what we need with the spare time (any time that we're not doing something merely material, eating, working, etc), so the more you make of that the better the chance to make it big spiritually. Maybe you should focus part of your time by working on bettering your current lifestyle, using spirituality to make your life freer to be more spiritual? I'm not nearly as good as others who can "produce a wad of cash in a day or two", so I don't know how to really help you there, but you seem more experienced in this kind of thing.

Here you go, dear Brother:
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/ASHTAR.html

Thank you so much. I don't know how I managed to skip that page for so long. Sure I read it at some point, but I wasn't easily getting that far down in the JoS Homepage, I often get stuck in the Demons, Sorcery and Meditations pages, and they are VERY time consuming.

LOL, I didn't feel that damn sensation either but it didn't keep me from using them. Just because you don't feel anything from them, doesn't mean these aren't helpful.

"When I want something I want it yesterday" to quote a certain someone. So when I noticed I wasn't feeling a thing with that mudra I just didn't use them much anymore. I guess I should periodically re-test everything I've done as things MAY give unexpected results (like the Earth feeling).

Regarding the physical change... yes, very familiar thing. I noticed the back pain was completely gone only after I asked myself about it many weeks after. Yoga is bloody fantastic, it helps on so many levels it's unbelievable. Also, don't forget your great physical strength means your body is more capable than most people to work on higher energy levels, meaning stronger aura and spiritual defense. I'd try some TK if I were you, just to test yourself every few days, see if you feel anything you didn't feel before.

And then, when I have some free time, like today (Saturday), I like to do nothing. Really nothing. Is it a balancing act of sorts?

You know, you COULD dedicate your Saturday or day off to doing "nothing". Only, if you do nothing then do it big time. Meaning, dedicate your day to emptying your mind and being aware of your Guardian Demon, for one thing. Speak with Satan, build your astral temple, whatever you want, as long as you get to train your mind silence. (We should still do that EVERY day not to waste precious progress, but you could use one specific day to do just that).

Do enjoy your time with your family anyway, there's probably little else that feels that good.

Talk soon, dear Brother.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!

 

[Apprentice]

Well, dear Brother, the following is a writeup done on three different days. I hope it isn't too confusing.

Not surprised, Brother, I don't know how much exactly they're constantly muttering against us but the leeches must be working like crazy for this 'feeling of something being wrong' being so constant over the last ..month? Do keep up the FRTRs and of course do include the Tetragrammaton destruction as it really doesn't make it much longer. I finally memorized also the three last affirmations, I had to read them before.

Cobra mentioned somewhere that there are certain groups of these that do it 24/7 in shifts. Then there are the grey thingys that make sure to harass any aspiring Satanist. Let them be cursed, really.
All the RTRs are simply paramount, at least for me. The Tetra is no exception here.
However, I took the liberty of tapering down on the reps to leave time and energy for personal meditations.

Friday was a nasty and long workday. Also, my vehicle stuttered after a warm startup and gave me a check engine light which may point to a possible lifter/camshaft failure (expensive). To rule out spark plugs and ignition coils, I switched them between two cylinders. Well, the next day there were no errors. The engine runs like a sewing machine and makes good power. I can't help but suspect Mercury retrograde messing with electronics. The other vehicle had an idler pulley ball bearing go bad of which it actually told me months ago. All these problems on top of existing duties and chores was just too much for me. I really don't need any more costly breakdowns and/or other problems. This was already a second day in a row I had to pull long hours from 8 am to 8 pm. So in the evening, after having crawled under the vehicle in snow, my mind went into a frenzy (like a runaway diesel engine) and I felt totally powerless, angry and overwhelmed by my own uncontrolled thoughts. Totally irrational, strong anxiety and helplessness. How amateur of me. An SS should know better, right?

I'm thinking you're onto something working with Water in your sacral chakra, like when you were in the pool. The lightning may signify that Water stimulated your spark in order to help raise Kundalini. This is how I see it at least.

Prior to seeing that dream with the pond and the lightning, I invoked Water into my whole being. I haven't invoked Water into Sacral for many days. Gotta repeat that someday.
According to the birth chart I lack Fire. Earth and Water are there in similar quantities with Air being a full half of me. I wonder, what can change the Elemental composition of a normie person who doesn't meditate? What depletes some Elements or increases others? Tragic life events, stress perhaps? I'm sure as fuck that the Elemental situation changes over the years.

In the example of a couple days ago instead, the 'filling the room' provided my Soul with plenty of roots, almost infinite tendrils, that reached out and I just knew that I could mingle with the astral. I just know that Earth is the key here, not for nothing I wrote about Earth being "the most spiritual of the Elements". It's not that it is the most spiritual, it's that it can bridge me.

This is my time to say this: You're onto something. We both could use some slowing down/grounding. All electrical circuits need ground to function.
BTW, there was a time over two decades ago when I really was into growing plants. During recent years, the plant kingdom somehow seems unreachable. I feel like I haven't been able to calm my mind effectively enough to interact with them. My mind is mostly preoccupied, obviously trying to live up to the expectations of the missus (which in itself is laughable and as wrong as one can get).
Concerning the astral temple, I have contemplated creating it. You see, the problem with me so far has been the fact that my nerves are always tense. This is also a thing from the birth chart. I remember a keyword from a sermon: uncontrolled mind.

"An uncontrolled mind can drive one to unnecessary worry, stress, disturbing thoughts and in the worst cases, insanity. Weak people suffer more from this in the long run. Fears, insecurities, and uncontrolled emotions are free to torment us day and night."

So I'm the one allowing the tormenting of myself, really. Gotta stop that. At first it seems like a mount Everest of fucking problems. Then there is sometimes a lack of privacy for meditations and rituals when I happen to have time. I don’t know, Brother, I sometimes feel so lost. Recently, I also tend to doubt everything I feel and do. Thankfully Cobra adressed this with a really good sermon.
On the other hand, I know I have what it takes to clear this mess. So I better start in this direction NOW.

You know, you COULD dedicate your Saturday or day off to doing "nothing". Only, if you do nothing then do it big time. Meaning, dedicate your day to emptying your mind and being aware of your Guardian Demon, for one thing.

Living in your own country house means you can't exactly do nothing. There is still a household to run, gotta cook some food, heat the house, walk the dog etc.
Another problem that I became aware of now is that I actually do not allow myself enough chances to shut my mind off and feel TOTALLY free. Some call it stopping the world. During daytime, there’s always something waiting to be done so I just do my RTRs if I have a chance and off I go. I’m unable to get anywhere near a trance state when I know that I have to be doing something else in the physical world in about 45 minutes or so. This constant tension/anxiety is debilitating. The only time I feel at peace is at the end of the day when I KNOW I don't have anything to tend to. And then, I can easily nod off.
I HAVE to make more room/time for deep relaxation.
Well, today, on Sunday, I went ahead and did just that! I started my day with a nice cup of latte and meditations. Foundation meditation in a trance state, RTRs, Returning Curses and finally invoking the Elements, Earth and Water. I really took my time, spent like 3 hours alone in the office. This was top quality SS time right there. I love such days. I also love your encouraging words. Thank you for that, Brother.

Other than "try to get a lesser workload and make time for yourself" I can't suggest much more that will work... I'm not nearly as good as others who can "produce a wad of cash in a day or two", so I don't know how to really help you there, but you seem more experienced in this kind of thing.

Lesser workload. Yeah, this one is painful to experience. You hope, you plan, you expect... and all of a sudden things are running you, not vice versa. You're like stuck between railway cars and you either move your ass or get squashed. Or is it just me who doesn't see something obvious?
I've had my moments in the past, producing cash basically out of thin air (in exchange for some efforts, of course). The problem was that these moments are very rare and you certainly know the adage: easy come, easy go. I mean, I used the money to buy things I needed but couldn't afford otherwise (I never loved installments). I never frittered it away.
As far as using magick to free up my life is concerned, this is a tough one. Things have somewhat improved but they're nowhere near where I'd love them to be. On top of actual life, there's also opposition from my birth chart I have to overcome. So, additional work is needed.
So here I am, whining like a little bitch, discovering my own dirty depths while being under fire in a war.
With the help from our correspondence here and the recent events, I'm slowly but surely disentangling myself.
I do hope the Mercury Rx doesn't fuck up the meaning when you read it.
Thank you, dear Brother. Wish you all the best. Stay strong and persevere.

 

[Apprentice]

Just wanted to give you a quick and short heads up, Brother.
Since that Friday, something serious changed within me. I've known it in the past that sometimes I have to be pushed hard enough to stop finding all kinds of excuses and to get on with it. So yeah, I am able to evolve. I was just trying too hard.
It appears that now I've got deliberate control over feeling high-strung/anxious and Void has never been easier.
Invoked today ten hits of Water and Earth. I'm curious, what will it change. I've got nothing to lose, I don't want to be flapping around like a rag in the wind. I need ground.
Gotta go. Wishing you the best, Bro.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Well, dear Brother, the following is a writeup done on three different days. I hope it isn't too confusing.

It's alright, Brother. I'll try to be quick(er than usual) as today we start the new ritual schedule and I must make sure I don't skip anything.

Cobra mentioned somewhere that there are certain groups of these that do it 24/7 in shifts. Then there are the grey thingys that make sure to harass any aspiring Satanist. Let them be cursed, really.
....
However, I took the liberty of tapering down on the reps to leave time and energy for personal meditations.

It's been going around a lot. People have been complaining about this left and right and in the last year I have never see this more active. Means the enemy is really panicking, or they wouldn't be at DEFCON 1.

As for less reps, I've been doing the same lately. Pretty sure it was Astarte who gave me the hint, and I had more time for myself to do Void and experiment with the effects of Elements.

Speaking of this, I don't think I'm that ready for working with Akasha yet. I will anyway, to get myself used to it some (it did feel like something in the past few months), but I naturally feel more drawn to working with sheer Elements, knowing they are the 4 most possible different things we can use (and for this also probably the most powerful, at least in my opinion. I have wondered about them all my life and they were always the one thing that felt 'pure and natural' to me, along with everything natural, plants and animals).

In particular, I am trying to determine which one I'm being directed towards by my Guardian. I felt that "local heat" she used on my before to let me know it was her but on another part of my body, almost as if to say I'm expanding my awareness somehow. Which, limited as I do, I feel has started happening. That last thing with the "getting very used to the cold" I told you about, I know I ONLY stopped because I suddenly felt an enormous Air overload (the surge) in my head, and thought it was a way to let me know (from her) that I should have gone a little easier on that, OR that I should have switched Element and picked up Air again.
I've had Air signs a lot lately, actually "Air and Electricity". This is me realizing how Air is much more than just wind currents and levitation. I'm starting to understand what Leraje's powers are about (at least the "wind manipulation" part, not the healing and love affairs yet.. maybe that's why she's my Guardian, cuz I've always been attracted by the sky and clouds and basically the weather and storms; I just can't think of another Element as much as this and see extreme beauty and power).

As for the balancing thing, I'll RErecall that thing about Himmler. When it's about the Soul, I don't think Elements are to be thought in a necessarily "chart way". I'm similar to him in that regard, trying to work harder, do more physically, even if it gets me tired and spent in the end (which it won't). Also (this is probably a funny 'coincidence'), I'm looking into getting myself into the 'earthmoving' business, meaning excavators and shite. Everyone in my family knows I've been wanting to get myself an excavator since I was like 4. Now, this losing one job to pursue my childhood dream career doesn't seem like an odd event at all. That's one way of looking at me "balancing" the Earth, literally working with it. I've been doing a lot of work in the garden as well and felt plants closer, like I mentioned before.

So the question is....

I know that Air is strong in me (apparently not as strong as you if you have one more Planet in there ), but does that mean, when speaking of abilities, that Air is also the one where I can excel the easiest?

I've been experimenting with this, and everything points me to believe I'm not wrong believing that. The Air signs also have definitely been showing me the way and whenever I trust Air and air related techniques (breathing and such), I get some more 'something' to keep me doing it.

Think I'll keep this up and see if I'm not simply looking at my balance without seeing it right in front of me.

The other vehicle had an idler pulley ball bearing go bad of which it actually told me months ago.

"which it actually told me"..... I love it when people speak my language lol. Apparently my mother does this with plants and her gardening skills are great. You sound really savvy with machines and engines. I love to explore these possibilities and different abilities that start from one only Element and branch in different directions, it's fascinating.

According to the birth chart I lack Fire. Earth and Water are there in similar quantities with Air being a full half of me. I wonder, what can change the Elemental composition of a normie person who doesn't meditate? What depletes some Elements or increases others? Tragic life events, stress perhaps? I'm sure as fuck that the Elemental situation changes over the years.

Thought about that too, and you're probably right. I guess "life events" shape someone's mind and pushes them to do more of something and less of something else, changing their habits, the environment they put themselves in, the skills they hone and the skills they ignore, and ultimately which Element becomes more 'cultivated' instead of the others, becoming possibly the new dominant in the next life. I wonder how I got myself this lack of Earth... gotta admit, the first time I saw my chart I said What The FUCK!?!? ...thought I'd have no missing Elements, it just seemed absurd. To this day I'm pretty sure, if that chart was right AT THE TIME of birth, then I MUST have more than that by now.
Technically, that even makes sense. Himmler did something very Earthy all his life, so it's natural to think that in the next one he's got more Earth in the chart at birth. :/ Mmmmh.

At some point I'll have to ask the Gods to help me figure this out, and understanding how they have the Elements distributed in their Souls, if they have a dominant or how it works.
I don't think overthinking this is going to lead very far. Logic can help, but can logic be applied here?

This is my time to say this: You're onto something. We both could use some slowing down/grounding. All electrical circuits need ground to function.

Well, fuck. You're right. Reminds me of how I suddenly did have a TK effect when I connected all of my chakras in the effort, not just focusing on the hands.
I KNOW this stuff, then why can't I just apply it to my training? Habit? TK seems to be a very 'Air skill', yet there has to be Earth connection or it will be very weak.

I do wonder what it will feel like to feel all the Elements balanced when using powers. Shit. Maybe you're right about Akasha and I should just stop working so much with EACH Element like it's leading me to something I haven't seen before. I must say also, "Aside from Earth". That 'rooting' exercise has been really effective when I did it and I can't believe it's not leading me to more. Dwelling in the same Element over and over.... sure, you get to feel it and understand it more, but you can't eat rice all the time. You need fucking meatballs.

I need to run a few experiments before I can say more about this without sounding nuts.

A little something I read the other day in a book about crystals and gems (the geological way, not 'occult'):

when a rock over time turns to a crystal (like a quartz), this means that its atoms become geometrically very tight and follow a linear order. This it thought to be the most perfect state of a rock.

....or something. The point is, crystals having tight, ordinated atoms and molecules made me think of how the Sushumna can be thought of a perfect crystal column, and how Kundalini can run through it far easier than if it were not so 'perfect' and compact. Maybe it's just me, but I thought of my Earth lack and how I need to fix it. Just a thought, though. BTW, 'crystals' are one of the things I never stopped loving from childhood, always out looking for one in the ground lol.

Well, today, on Sunday, I went ahead and did just that! I started my day with a nice cup of latte and meditations Foundation meditation in a trance state, RTRs, Returning Curses and finally invoking the Elements, Earth and Water. I really took my time, spent like 3 hours alone in the office. This was top quality SS time right there. I love such days. I also love your encouraging words. Thank you for that, Brother.

Glad you got to do that. Pretty sure your improvement depends from that good session as well, do more as soon as you can. Also, it's great helping you cuz I also end up getting real introspective and realizing things I don't reach when I speak to myself, so thank you too.

So here I am, whining like a little bitch, discovering my own dirty depths while being under fire in a war.
With the help from our correspondence here and the recent events, I'm slowly but surely disentangling myself.
I do hope the Mercury Rx doesn't fuck up the meaning when you read it.
Thank you, dear Brother. Wish you all the best. Stay strong and persevere.

Give yourself time and train. Between personal training and Spiritual Warfare I've never seen more advancing in myself, and I'm quite possibly one of the worst (yet serious) SS we have in here. If I could see improvement, so can everyone else.

Talk soon, Brother.

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!