Question #5249: Love

[AskSatanOperator]

I think I'm addicted to love. (?) I don't know how to explain this, but if I give an example: I had my first boyfriend when I was 12 and I couldn't forgot him until I turned 15. I can't relax without thinking that I'm in a relationship with someone, but I don't really want a relationship. I just love to fantasize about it. I know this, because when I'm in a relationship with someone that I think I'm in love with or when I think I'm in a actual relationship with them, I don't enjoy it that much.

I love the chemistry of love. I don't like a serious relationship, taking responsibility and trying to get on someone's good side to maintain the relationship. This is just not for me. This side of love attracts me, like, if I were a princess, I would carry a knife with me to protect my prince charming. The person I love must be the one for me, and I have to be the one for him. I look for this in people, but even if I don't find it, I can't get rid of loving that person. It takes me to 1 or 2 year and eventually, I suddenly forget the person I love. Just because of a stupid, little detail. It's like I'm looking for an excuse to forget, but no. I really love them. I also know that my love is too much, so I usually try to hide it. When I don't, the person blocks me like 12 times, and when I forget, he texts me. The people I went through this with still texts me even after years.

In order to overcome this obsessive love situation, I created an imaginary partner for myself and I pretend that I am in a relationship with him. So that, I can leave people alone. I am an extremely Venusian person, I don't know if this has an effect on this situation, but it probably does. I have done a lot of work for this before, I can say that it has eased, but it still didn't work completely. Can you suggest me a solution? I really need the thoughts and ideas of my brothers and sisters on this subject.

 

[Ayssid]

Bumping this thread, I have no answer to your question, I just want to see what others propose lmao.

 

[Maelstorm]

Don't you think that creating an imaginary partner makes the problem worse?

Probably the best thing you can do is to continue to work on improving the situation. As this is an extreme behavioural trait, it will take time to resolve.

 

[Elenor]

You can't escape people by creating an imaginary boyfriend. It will only push you further back and after a while you may not be able to talk to men. Worst of all, you might even become schizophrenic. Keep working on improving this. From what you write, you don't seem like an adult. In the future, as your character gets established, you will find the right partner for you. I think the important thing for you is not to worry so much about it. If your Venus is working harmful for you, you can do Venus square.

 

[Ĥl·lĥæ]

I think I'm

You lack attention and don't even know what you want.
Like a confused young man

This is largely just your mind and body, it doesn't make sense and frankly it's not even possible to imagine a scenario in which it makes sense.

You need to start meditating, doing the basic meditation that everyone knows.

Meditate on the breath

Meditate on a higher consciousness

Observe your mind deeply and discover what creates this confusion

Or do Falun dafa and other forms of Taoism.
It's recommended that you do other forms of Taoism, because falun dar creates a lot of Jing and not much Chi. In fact, this isn't the fault of the practice, it's more due to the fact that falun dar is complicated to control.


When I did falun dafa I didn't know how to make my soul create chi and DAO instead of jing, and I ended up releasing a lot of libido (sneezing) and secretions.

 

[Lightning_Puma]

You can't escape people by creating an imaginary boyfriend. It will only push you further back and after a while you may not be able to talk to men. Worst of all, you might even become schizophrenic. Keep working on improving this. From what you write, you don't seem like an adult. In the future, as your character gets established, you will find the right partner for you. I think the important thing for you is not to worry so much about it. If your Venus is working harmful for you, you can do Venus square.

Sun Square would work best as it helps get rid of negative aspects in one's chart.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

What you describe, sounds very Plutonian as Pluto is extreme obsession. There are chances Pluto is in strong aspect to your Venus or has a Libra/7th house heavy influence.
Not only the planets but also mind attitude may change our behavior, and I studied we tend to love and seek love in the same form we received (or lacked) love when we were kinds below 5/6 years old. This creates your unconscious attitude towards love (of course the planets has an influence in childhood so it's all connected), this lasts for life and beyond if not corrected.
Munka meditation may help to get rid of unwanted mental schemes.
I also studied that perpetually seeking new stimulations is due to an excess of dopamine production in brain, so that the person is never satisfied and always seeks new experience (in whatever, may be love, work, money, shopping, drugs, etc).

I would analyze in deep personal love patterns learned in childhood and then build a Munka meditation (even repeated) with correct affirmations in view of what you found out.