A really embarrassing question

[Proshat]

Greetings Zevist brothers and sisters
I have an embarrassing question about love and I hope no one takes this personal or try to make it political or chaotic or gender war
I can't ask anyone else this question because I need a religious perspective on this not personal opinions.
I don't want to sin.


I love both men and women.
By this I don't mean I love all men and all women and I'm a 304,I mean I sometimes love a man and then I forget about him and start loving a woman and vice versa.
I never tell them and try to forget and move on.

I also have serious plan to one day become a mother if God is willing to give me that chance.
My concern is how will I stop wanting a child if I love a woman?
Most of the times I love a girl and it's so rare for me to love a boy.
It's not like I choose people I love based on their gender.
I have almost destroyed my social life with girls because I always end up loving one of my friends so I just don't hang out with them too much.

Why does this chaos exist and how am I going to deal with this situation?
I understand that adopting children is wrong if one is married to a same sex person but I can get pregnant myself and all women could get pregnant,we don't need adoption,we have wombs.

I also won't be able to guess my next love's gender so if I get pregnant with the wrong person and then fall in love with a girl what will I do?

I don't want to be this way and there's no cure for this I have tried everything.
I was like this since I was 4!

I even have thought of completely forgetting about love and marriage and children altogether.

 

[DarkPagan666]

You are simply experiencing a human need for connection, love, and meaning. This isn't a "defect" in you, it's part of how human beings are created; to love, to form bonds, and to dream of things like family and care for others.

If you are a woman and lean more towards women, and wanting to be with a woman, it is best for you not to have children. A child or children should have an upbringing with both a father and a mother.

The chaos you feel is your soul seeking completion by seeking to heal or fulfill old, unresolved connections. You may carry what is called Samskaras (deep impressions) of relationships from past incarnations, some with men, some with women, and those emotional patterns are still echoing inside you. This needs to be addressed.

The above can be addressed by Freeing the Soul, gradually cleaning and purifying your chakras, and seeking consolidation with Zeus, your GD, and our Gods. You can combine the Grand Ritual of Zeus with a Purification Working, which many of us have done and found to bring great results. Hatha and Kundalini Yoga will help tear down walls in the mind, which will make things clearer for you. Though this may take some time, but it sure will bring immense rewards, greater self-knowledge, spiritual strength, and true freedom of the heart.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

If you are attracted to both men and women, maybe it is just more common for there to be women who have the type of personality traits that match you better. You can find a high quality man with the correct type of personality and be attracted to him.

Not everybody is required to have children. But at the same time, our people are facing a purposeful planned extinction. It is important for the people who are meant to be parents to be in the situation where they can have children. And if you have a need in your soul to be a mother, this is something that you will never forgive yourself for if you end up never having children.

Try to find a high quality man who is a perfect match for you, and have a family. This is what would most likely be the best thing for you.