LaTe bLoOmErX
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- Joined
- Dec 9, 2023
- Messages
- 109
hello Satanic family!
bit of a sad day for me
i finally decided to take an honest look in the mirror and realized i temporarily lost gains (muscles)
i couldn't even take care of my hygiene too much these days as the doctor's instructions didn't allow me to, i feel a bit like a gypsy
all this shit makes me a bit frustrated
now, jokes aside
i allow myself one last post like this, the good thing is i don't even care anymore
for those who were wondering, this "bad accident" was nothing too dramatic, i just acted like a retard
long story short
i was sad and angry, hadn't eaten or slept, other bad circumstances
i mean, you get it
and i had the brilliant idea of getting drunk too
at some point i just fell, hit the floor or something and a piece of skin slipped away, then went to the hospital, waited 5 fucking hours and they put some stitches which will be removed in a few days
among other things you can imagine some of the reasons for my oversharing and dumbass behavior here
although i've always been able to remain somewhat "mentally clear" and "in control of myself"
the mental alterations due to all these things are strong, plus just last month i decided to drink alcohol every once in a while, dumb choice
(it's been years since i quit drugs, weed and alcohol on my own, i only smoke cigarettes now and i’m already gradually quitting as you know)
anyway, i’m sick of living like this and to exclude what would really be good for me, my fault or/and external fault
i worked out a plan and took several notes, i'm just missing the last few things
as soon as i'm healed i will proceed
i'd say that the "oversharing chapter - online journaling" can end here
i thank you once again for the support and everything else, i've felt alone for years and you changed this, i will show you that you haven't wasted your time on me
bit of a sad day for me
i finally decided to take an honest look in the mirror and realized i temporarily lost gains (muscles)
i couldn't even take care of my hygiene too much these days as the doctor's instructions didn't allow me to, i feel a bit like a gypsy
all this shit makes me a bit frustrated
now, jokes aside
i allow myself one last post like this, the good thing is i don't even care anymore
for those who were wondering, this "bad accident" was nothing too dramatic, i just acted like a retard
long story short
i was sad and angry, hadn't eaten or slept, other bad circumstances
i mean, you get it
and i had the brilliant idea of getting drunk too
at some point i just fell, hit the floor or something and a piece of skin slipped away, then went to the hospital, waited 5 fucking hours and they put some stitches which will be removed in a few days
among other things you can imagine some of the reasons for my oversharing and dumbass behavior here
although i've always been able to remain somewhat "mentally clear" and "in control of myself"
the mental alterations due to all these things are strong, plus just last month i decided to drink alcohol every once in a while, dumb choice
(it's been years since i quit drugs, weed and alcohol on my own, i only smoke cigarettes now and i’m already gradually quitting as you know)
anyway, i’m sick of living like this and to exclude what would really be good for me, my fault or/and external fault
i worked out a plan and took several notes, i'm just missing the last few things
as soon as i'm healed i will proceed
i'd say that the "oversharing chapter - online journaling" can end here
i thank you once again for the support and everything else, i've felt alone for years and you changed this, i will show you that you haven't wasted your time on me
