AskSatanOperator
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I don't know what to do. I think I'm lazy, but I can do very important tasks... sometimes...
I'm trying to do many things like reading books, learning languages, martial arts, learning absolutely new things for me (e.g. mechanics, chemistry, psychology... and so on) meditatoins, spiritual improvement
but i can do nothing.
Goddamn, I'm so fucking fed up already. I just don’t get what I’m supposed to do. It felt like, yeah, things were kind of okay, and my relationship with my parents was fine, but nope, I’m constantly fighting with my mom. I really want to move out. Today I was thinking I shouldn’t have quit my job, it was really good to work just twice a week and make some money. Recently, the manager texted me asking if I could come in for a shift tomorrow to help... and I got my hopes up, like, maybe tomorrow she’ll ask me to stay, that’d be awesome! But on the other hand... I wanted to do copywriting, and later on, design and video editing... plus, I was also thinking about tutoring, since it’s related to the education I’m getting... ( I'm future teacher) My uni is annoying me too. i have a lot of study debts. fuck...
Also this stupid army shit. I don't want to go there, but if I quit my uni, obviously i would to have go there (then die in ukrainian fields)
Everything is complicated. So, I don't know what to do.
maybe it's mental disorder
I'm trying to do many things like reading books, learning languages, martial arts, learning absolutely new things for me (e.g. mechanics, chemistry, psychology... and so on) meditatoins, spiritual improvement
but i can do nothing.
Goddamn, I'm so fucking fed up already. I just don’t get what I’m supposed to do. It felt like, yeah, things were kind of okay, and my relationship with my parents was fine, but nope, I’m constantly fighting with my mom. I really want to move out. Today I was thinking I shouldn’t have quit my job, it was really good to work just twice a week and make some money. Recently, the manager texted me asking if I could come in for a shift tomorrow to help... and I got my hopes up, like, maybe tomorrow she’ll ask me to stay, that’d be awesome! But on the other hand... I wanted to do copywriting, and later on, design and video editing... plus, I was also thinking about tutoring, since it’s related to the education I’m getting... ( I'm future teacher) My uni is annoying me too. i have a lot of study debts. fuck...
Also this stupid army shit. I don't want to go there, but if I quit my uni, obviously i would to have go there (then die in ukrainian fields)
Everything is complicated. So, I don't know what to do.
maybe it's mental disorder