Well to be honest I'm just pretending to listen to her. Not actually listen. Only reason I go is because I got nothing better to do with my time.
She told me to stop meditating I told her no. She immediately just said okay then just come back next week and we'll discuss some of your goals in life and what we can do to help.
To be honest I already told her beforehand that I wasn't gonna say anything cause it'll just get me on a hit list. To be honest I'm already on so many hitlists from going on this site on various devices and whatnot. I wouldn't be surprised if some of you guys even with VPNs and whatnot are already fingerprinted to hitlists.
Alright you guys state things like laziness and not doing and this and that social stuff. Non of that interests me in fact judging from the situation.
The only reason why I even bother with meditation, Nazism, and all this stuff at this point in time is just mental curiosity. I only care because it's the only thing that exists. I'm just curious mentally. Oh immortality after doing Yoga for 20 years by activating the telomerse and telomarese. Oh okay neat "Takes mental picture" okay moving on what is next. Oh pyrokinesis after doing the fire element and compressing it to this chakra by doing it 10 or 15 years into your meditation. Oh okay neat interesting.
I've gotten to the point all of this is just mental curiosity. Does it exists who knows but at least I know the truth and at least I state the truth and am righteous for it. If I were to talk to people they'd probably asked if I achieved that the answer is no just curious facts I picked up on what meditation can do. Can I do it, nope, but it's possible you never know.
HP. Hoodedcobra666 said:
....even less Satanists who are deep in Satanism, as after a point, this is controllable..
It's funny HP Cobra I've been doing this since before you. When I found the JoS when I was 12 years old compared to most people they didn't even think of such things. I think the average age of youngest people was hitting the 15-16 mark right before their adult hood. The only others who did it at such young age the people who are not average where mistreated by their religion. The only others who do such things are people who are in such Hindu religions or some alternative religion like buddhism something meditation-wise but wanted to deeper their resonance.
Now your probably wondering why I worded the beginning of my paragraph in such way. Because I clearly remember you coming in sometime late '05, early '06 and you just POPPED out of the blue. I don't recall when you entered the JoS but explain to me how you became a high priest in such a short period of time?
The only possible capability of you being a high priest if you from the original clergy of the black rose group or member of the black rose group and then you came in and perhaps performed a ritual to free the demons at the time. Meaning you would not just be OG pre-JoS but your OG-JoS of the original clergy.
So how am I not a deep Satanist. Despite the fact I was not meditating for years of my life I did spend years upon years upon years thinking and researching about Satanism and Nazism and WW2 throughout my years since the dedication. In fact the dedication simply made me deepen to the truth. Despite the fact I never once had a desire or conscious desire of xtianity in my fantasies.
So again how am I not deep. What is deep? who is deep? are you "HP Cobra" deep? You type up all these sermons and all it states is your deep in whatever subject or subjects you peruse through but I don't see some spectacular occult information that is light-years ahead of people and whatnot. In fact in my opinion you downgrade the occult into such digestible manner that it loses that bon fle'vure or whatever french word exist that states it lost it's flair.
In fact judging from the situation HP Cobra your so realistic you kinda kill the occult spirit.
I'm not stating what your doing is wrong, malefic, or evil. You just state the occult is nature packaged in an everyday manner.
At the end of the day I don't know why your stating I'm not deep. I think deeply in such subjects everyday, how am I not deep. If it weren't for my Satanism and Nazism what would I be. I'd literally would have spent 16 years doing something else. For example I like video games but video games don't like me, funny growing up as a kid I would do poorly. I remember for years trying to advance through the races of Diddy Kong Racing, hard game, at the end I never completed the game or Banjo Kazooie.
In the end if I never found the JoS I'd probably be a hardcare daily gamer doing 12-15 hour runs throughout my day. In the end I got nothing better to do Nazism and Satanism are just a way of life. There isn't anything better to do or say or whatever.
Who knows if this something from my past life? or hell maybe it's a symptom of dying and spending my time in some limbo with National Socialists, spending years and years just talking as souls. Though I don't want to state any of that as it sounds delusional. But whatever it is I never grew up like other people.
You guys blame me for some things. Okay sure that is how I am, I am lazy, I don't want to live my life or do anything with my life. My life doesn't interests me, the only thing I care about is sex. Just like how I used to think during childhood-teenage years before just even a few years ago upon discovering the old Prophp forums. I would literally just think about WW2, Alternative History scenarios, Sex, Killing people, Creating school shootings; basically columbine the school, and whatever other times I thought perhaps just random stuff.
In reality school just made me realize that life is a COMPLETE and UTTER waste of time and serves no purpose. Your nation, your people, your society, your family defiles and corrupts you. With utter non-sense, I literally realized life is completely purposeless and serves absolutely no value.
You guys are lucky that I'am a reasonable person and can change and did change. Because for me most of the time I would just think about killing and murdering people as well a torturing. I realized most people need to die and be killed in brutal sadistic ways cause they express such worthlessness. Like for example at my clinic I saw a latina woman mid-late 30s early 40s with a child. Maybe hers or something and the only thing that popped into my head is "My god you just need to fuck and get that fucking frustration out of your pathetic piece of shit life". All her problems could have been solved with a nice tumble in bed.
But most people are just brain dead idiots that serve no purpose. Sometimes I would think is a 3 cent bolt action rifle full sized rifle round good enough to waste on someone. I mean it's 3 cents these 3 cents are more valuable than this person.
So guys remember my past this is the kind of person I was.
If you want I can post my astrological information or if you guys have a email and wish for me to drop it off. I'd do it to be honest if something happens to me well that just shows how pathetic and worthless life is.
What can I say guys not everyone is a nice person. I might seem nice on the outside and liked by people but considering myself I think evil inside.