Meteor said:
Wouldn't you still want me to have been aborted just for having an extra chromosome? Or do you not care about that, as long as it doesn't cause serious symptoms?
My disorder is most likely neurological in nature (similarly to schizophrenia) rather than psychiatric, as the psychological reasons appear to be secondary and often caused by deeper underlying issues. Not that it really makes a difference; it's still objectively a mental disorder regardless, and my conviction that it's my body that's wrong instead of my mind, is either a sign of a strong will, or simply a disordered mind's inability to see its own faults.
But in the end, subjective reality shall surely prevail: even if I maintain that my mind is correct and change my body accordingly, rather than attempting to solve it the other way around, the axiom that I was never able to shake out of my head ("I should be female") will be sufficiently true for it not to cause any issues for me anymore. In other words, neither my body nor my mind will be wrong anymore, as they'll be in harmony, even if pedantics who believe in immutability disagree.
The ethical questions raised by the fact it can be solved both ways, are not for me to deal with. I'll simply take advantage of the contemporary liberties and manifest my will for my own peace of mind.
Meteor, I think it is very unfortunate that you are facing such a harsh response from the community. People need to be supported while they are resolving their problems. In this way, it is a failure of those who are trying to communicate to you when they are overly aggressive.
However, you must understand that many are also becoming increasingly concerned and therefore frustrated with your thoughts on the matter; nobody wants to see you make a decision that could be very harmful. Even if certain individuals do not show it, the reason passion arises is because of the desire for success and prosperity, so they are not truly trying to threaten you, instead, they want the world to be great, including you.
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You would be very wise to heed the knowledge of Naked Pluto and HPHC towards the issue of transgenderism. The idea of transitioning is proposed as the solution to identity issues, however,
the surgery or hormones do not truly resolve the underlying identity crisis, and can actually inflame it (especially when it results in community backlash). That is why we know gender transitioning to be a meme created by the enemy, not by Satan.
Therefore, the solution comes through resolving your identity issues at the soul level, and not through physical endeavors, as we discussed beforehand. For your whole being to be in harmony, as you strive for, you must resolve the issue on all levels, which gender transitioning does not do.
The above is why this is not an issue merely of pedantics or irrational immutability and is also why people are getting so heated. Nobody wants to see you destroy yourself, nor let this Jewish meme retain any more influence in society.
This is the key element to focus on: does your proposed solution resolve your issue? The answer is no because we know the body manifests as the gender of the soul. The identity issues that may make you think otherwise may be due to trauma pertaining to your naturally androgynous appearance (and Jewish attacks against it).
Perhaps you lived many lives where it would've been much easier to simply become female instead of dealing with the stress of feeling different.
It is now time for you to become comfortable with being Meteor, not with the idea of a perilous and inefficacious physical modification.
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Feeling that you should be something, even when it is irrational is not unique just to your case, but all mental imbalances or conflicting energies. Someone who has high fire thinks they "should" yell even when it is not appropriate, and so on. This sort of mental stress is simply a part of dealing with our problems, so you cannot let it unduly influence you.
As NakedPluto described, the base chakra pertains to identity. A weakened or attacked base chakra would therefore through everything else out of balance and cause someone to seek solace in their upper chakras, perhaps by dreaming or thinking their problem away.
We also know the earth element from the base grounds all the other elements. As HPHC described, Neptunian aspects to the 1st house can also create identity confusion, and earth is one way to balance out this water.
Hopefully, you can see the relation here to what we discussed earlier with Nauthiz.
Don't beat yourself up about having trouble with this issue, but understand that a grounded soul can more easily make sense of reality around it, in its own way. This is a key element that your mind may be lacking in regards to your perception of your identity.
I do not think it is a coincidence that people like Jack and Aquarius, who I perceive to be higher in earth, are the ones who are trying to make you understand what they see clearly. For them, concepts of gender are set in stone, perhaps even too much. Unfortunately, earth is not always known to be communicative, and so they can come off as too blunt.
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My desire is for this message to get through to you, out of a sea of hatred, and hopefully resolve this issue. Nobody wants to see you, out of desperation for relief, go through with actions that will severely damage yourself and your advancement.
At the same time, the fact that this issue has not yet been resolved has caused panic among everyone here. This then results in frustration and anger, but it is the type that arises out of concern and not true hostility. If someone did not want you to get better, they would not spend their time typing anything to you.
I truly hope that are able to understand everything going on, with both the primary identity issues, but also all the secondary issues it is causing.
I do not want to see you feel forced to switch accounts, rather I would see you retain yourself as Meteor and be comfortable with that. Is that not the heart of this problem?
Much love and until next time.