Stay or leave university - please help!

[DarkAries]

Hello Satanic Brothers and Sisters, I feel horribly.

I started the University (geology) four years ago, and now Im rather disgusted from this. It was very hard and unforgiving from the start, most of classes expected from you to dedicate your whole life for that one class, and learn about it every waking hour. I sooner or later somehow finished almost all classes, but now I feel rather trapped.

One is chemistry, and the amount of useless knowledge you should memorise is unreal! I tried everything, every memorising method, read so boring books, used different runic works, even asked Father Satan for help. He helped me, and I think thats the only reason I passed chemistry 1, but there is chemistry 2 and labor.
The other is writing a dissertation. Its close to complete, around 60 or 70 percent, but Im truly ashamed that I wrote that. A boring, dry and futile work without any space to creativity. I used to like to write short stories, now I am disgusted the idea of writing anything longer again. I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

So what should I do? As we have free will, yet we are not free from the consecvences. I have no motivation to continue, as uni took so much from me already. Spiritual works feel harder when I learn to uni, yet do I have a choice? I still failed, no matter how much I learned to that. Even if I succed I would just play with excel for days(I already worked as a geologist assistant, and EVERY FUCKING BODY just did paperwork and excel).

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

Sorry if I sounded like a drama queen, but I just had enough. Big failures and mental pain are almost daily, but I try to stay calm.

Thank you for reading it. Have better days than mine's.

 

[serpentwalker666]

Hello Satanic Brothers and Sisters, I feel horribly.

I started the University (geology) four years ago, and now Im rather disgusted from this. It was very hard and unforgiving from the start, most of classes expected from you to dedicate your whole life for that one class, and learn about it every waking hour. I sooner or later somehow finished almost all classes, but now I feel rather trapped.

One is chemistry, and the amount of useless knowledge you should memorise is unreal! I tried everything, every memorising method, read so boring books, used different runic works, even asked Father Satan for help. He helped me, and I think thats the only reason I passed chemistry 1, but there is chemistry 2 and labor.
The other is writing a dissertation. Its close to complete, around 60 or 70 percent, but Im truly ashamed that I wrote that. A boring, dry and futile work without any space to creativity. I used to like to write short stories, now I am disgusted the idea of writing anything longer again. I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

So what should I do? As we have free will, yet we are not free from the consecvences. I have no motivation to continue, as uni took so much from me already. Spiritual works feel harder when I learn to uni, yet do I have a choice? I still failed, no matter how much I learned to that. Even if I succed I would just play with excel for days(I already worked as a geologist assistant, and EVERY FUCKING BODY just did paperwork and excel).

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

Sorry if I sounded like a drama queen, but I just had enough. Big failures and mental pain are almost daily, but I try to stay calm.

Thank you for reading it. Have better days than mine's.

Consult the Gods on the best path forward for you.

However, I can share some of what I have had to deal with. I was late to the grind with many things. Took me a long time to even finish my high school equivalent education and college is out of my budget and I don't have the health to work and study at the same time, I have loved ones to care for.

I have much regret at what I could have accomplished earlier in life. Things get far more complicated as the years pass, and we often find out for ourselves that perhaps we should have just stuck in there and did what we had to do, or been smarter with our time when we had it.

I have jumped from shitty job, to shitty job for years. Gained a few skill sets and have alot of computer skills, yet here I am 3 to 4 years later with still no call backs and issues with finding better employment opportunities.

My advice to you is to complete your education. This world and the job market currently is a complete disaster and can leave people destitute if they are not careful. I have come far too close to homelessness and death in the past few years from this to not say this seriously.

Your best bet is to either finish this, or develop a different path to wealth and growth as a person. Things are really tough out here.

Be well and I wish you all the success in the world. May the Gods fill your life with the best of things, and may you reach the pinnacle of success in any of your future endeavors.

 

[Henu the Great]

I would recommend finishing what you have started. Have you extensively researched what jobs are available with said degree? Maybe you are missing out on some things..? Alternatively, maybe there are options for changing what you major in. It seems silly to go so far only to quit. Believe me, I have been there and done that. Later on, I had to finish the same sort of stuff to get forward...

 

[Crystal Lake]

You've been in university for four years, and if you quit now, you'll get nothing. You should at least get a degree.

If you don't get this degree, then you may not be able to find a job, or find a job that makes you more tired.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

You're almost done, so just finish it. It would be a horrible waste if you don't finish, and you spent years doing 98% of the work for nothing.

 

[Ancestors666]

Hello Satanic Brothers and Sisters, I feel horribly.

I started the University (geology) four years ago, and now Im rather disgusted from this. It was very hard and unforgiving from the start, most of classes expected from you to dedicate your whole life for that one class, and learn about it every waking hour. I sooner or later somehow finished almost all classes, but now I feel rather trapped.

One is chemistry, and the amount of useless knowledge you should memorise is unreal! I tried everything, every memorising method, read so boring books, used different runic works, even asked Father Satan for help. He helped me, and I think thats the only reason I passed chemistry 1, but there is chemistry 2 and labor.
The other is writing a dissertation. Its close to complete, around 60 or 70 percent, but Im truly ashamed that I wrote that. A boring, dry and futile work without any space to creativity. I used to like to write short stories, now I am disgusted the idea of writing anything longer again. I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

So what should I do? As we have free will, yet we are not free from the consecvences. I have no motivation to continue, as uni took so much from me already. Spiritual works feel harder when I learn to uni, yet do I have a choice? I still failed, no matter how much I learned to that. Even if I succed I would just play with excel for days(I already worked as a geologist assistant, and EVERY FUCKING BODY just did paperwork and excel).

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

Sorry if I sounded like a drama queen, but I just had enough. Big failures and mental pain are almost daily, but I try to stay calm.

Thank you for reading it. Have better days than mine's.

Hello there, I suggest you Focus on completing your college degree first...Be patient and study hard, then Satan will assist you without you knowing!!

 

[AFODO]

You have put 4 years into this for nothing?? Don't be fool, finish it!

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Hello Satanic Brothers and Sisters, I feel horribly.

I started the University (geology) four years ago, and now Im rather disgusted from this. It was very hard and unforgiving from the start, most of classes expected from you to dedicate your whole life for that one class, and learn about it every waking hour. I sooner or later somehow finished almost all classes, but now I feel rather trapped.

One is chemistry, and the amount of useless knowledge you should memorise is unreal! I tried everything, every memorising method, read so boring books, used different runic works, even asked Father Satan for help. He helped me, and I think thats the only reason I passed chemistry 1, but there is chemistry 2 and labor.
The other is writing a dissertation. Its close to complete, around 60 or 70 percent, but Im truly ashamed that I wrote that. A boring, dry and futile work without any space to creativity. I used to like to write short stories, now I am disgusted the idea of writing anything longer again. I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

So what should I do? As we have free will, yet we are not free from the consecvences. I have no motivation to continue, as uni took so much from me already. Spiritual works feel harder when I learn to uni, yet do I have a choice? I still failed, no matter how much I learned to that. Even if I succed I would just play with excel for days(I already worked as a geologist assistant, and EVERY FUCKING BODY just did paperwork and excel).

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

Sorry if I sounded like a drama queen, but I just had enough. Big failures and mental pain are almost daily, but I try to stay calm.

Thank you for reading it. Have better days than mine's.

Do you have any alternatives or options to fall back on?

 

[HPS Lydia]

How many years do you have left? If you are over halfway done, then use that as motivation to stick with it and see it all through.

Also, check if you can take one of the classes through distance education at your own pace during the summer, this will free up your school year a bit, which will make it easier.

 

[LightBringer]

i was able to put my on a kind of pores, delay the year, one module left, meaning i can with mine, do it say 5 years later and immediately be in the last year with only one module left. i just put down on CV i have the degree, there not gonna ask and if they do just lie. after proving im great at the job, if they did fire you bad company, especially when you can take the degree anytime. its really no more then, saying ill work for one week for free if dont like my work dont higher me. that people that care dont matter the ones that matter dont mind, and you can avoid bad company there for too long, there forced to revel there nature. but your doing i dont know much about chemistry thats different me thinks, like a license type degree if want to work in a drug shop. you should be able to delay the year and continue later, work travel then finish it. you'd have to find out on your end with the university worse case. but dont pull out all togender

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Hello Satanic Brothers and Sisters, I feel horribly.

I started the University (geology) four years ago, and now Im rather disgusted from this. It was very hard and unforgiving from the start, most of classes expected from you to dedicate your whole life for that one class, and learn about it every waking hour. I sooner or later somehow finished almost all classes, but now I feel rather trapped.

One is chemistry, and the amount of useless knowledge you should memorise is unreal! I tried everything, every memorising method, read so boring books, used different runic works, even asked Father Satan for help. He helped me, and I think thats the only reason I passed chemistry 1, but there is chemistry 2 and labor.
The other is writing a dissertation. Its close to complete, around 60 or 70 percent, but Im truly ashamed that I wrote that. A boring, dry and futile work without any space to creativity. I used to like to write short stories, now I am disgusted the idea of writing anything longer again. I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

So what should I do? As we have free will, yet we are not free from the consecvences. I have no motivation to continue, as uni took so much from me already. Spiritual works feel harder when I learn to uni, yet do I have a choice? I still failed, no matter how much I learned to that. Even if I succed I would just play with excel for days(I already worked as a geologist assistant, and EVERY FUCKING BODY just did paperwork and excel).

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

Sorry if I sounded like a drama queen, but I just had enough. Big failures and mental pain are almost daily, but I try to stay calm.

Thank you for reading it. Have better days than mine's.

These are valid criticisms, but you could be basically forced to finish. I would use energies like Kenaz or Sowilo to create motivation to finish. Jupiter in Taurus as a Square may be ok, especially as you are studying natural science.

Since you are close to being finished, then you should do so, but if you had asked this question when you were only 1 year in your studies, it would've been a harder question to answer.

 

[Hellenic SS]

You're getting there. Just keep going and you will enjoy freedom soon. You didn't spend all these years for nothing. It's obvious you can't find time for meditations and RTR's, but at least pray to Satan and any of the Gods you wish. Use runes like Sowilo, Raidho, and Wunjo for willpower, endurance, and reward. Wish you the best.

 

[Wotanwarrior]

Finish it and get the title, the more things and experience you get now the better, that does not happen to you the same than me, when I was young and lazy and now I regret not having used those years in doing more useful things and improving my skills.

 

[The Alchemist7 [JG]]

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

As everyone said above the most logical thing to do is to finish the degree and get the diploma. Do you want to pursue a career around geology or are there other reasons for studying a geology degree? Do you like geology or is it just the domain you felt the most attracted to compared to all the other ones?

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

There are many very valuable jobs you could get with this degree. Like with the oil industry.

 

[Abraxas666]

Hello Satanic Brothers and Sisters, I feel horribly.

I started the University (geology) four years ago, and now Im rather disgusted from this. It was very hard and unforgiving from the start, most of classes expected from you to dedicate your whole life for that one class, and learn about it every waking hour. I sooner or later somehow finished almost all classes, but now I feel rather trapped.

One is chemistry, and the amount of useless knowledge you should memorise is unreal! I tried everything, every memorising method, read so boring books, used different runic works, even asked Father Satan for help. He helped me, and I think thats the only reason I passed chemistry 1, but there is chemistry 2 and labor.
The other is writing a dissertation. Its close to complete, around 60 or 70 percent, but Im truly ashamed that I wrote that. A boring, dry and futile work without any space to creativity. I used to like to write short stories, now I am disgusted the idea of writing anything longer again. I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

So what should I do? As we have free will, yet we are not free from the consecvences. I have no motivation to continue, as uni took so much from me already. Spiritual works feel harder when I learn to uni, yet do I have a choice? I still failed, no matter how much I learned to that. Even if I succed I would just play with excel for days(I already worked as a geologist assistant, and EVERY FUCKING BODY just did paperwork and excel).

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

Sorry if I sounded like a drama queen, but I just had enough. Big failures and mental pain are almost daily, but I try to stay calm.

Thank you for reading it. Have better days than mine's.

Hello Satanic Brothers and Sisters, I feel horribly.

I started the University (geology) four years ago, and now Im rather disgusted from this. It was very hard and unforgiving from the start, most of classes expected from you to dedicate your whole life for that one class, and learn about it every waking hour. I sooner or later somehow finished almost all classes, but now I feel rather trapped.

One is chemistry, and the amount of useless knowledge you should memorise is unreal! I tried everything, every memorising method, read so boring books, used different runic works, even asked Father Satan for help. He helped me, and I think thats the only reason I passed chemistry 1, but there is chemistry 2 and labor.
The other is writing a dissertation. Its close to complete, around 60 or 70 percent, but Im truly ashamed that I wrote that. A boring, dry and futile work without any space to creativity. I used to like to write short stories, now I am disgusted the idea of writing anything longer again. I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

So what should I do? As we have free will, yet we are not free from the consecvences. I have no motivation to continue, as uni took so much from me already. Spiritual works feel harder when I learn to uni, yet do I have a choice? I still failed, no matter how much I learned to that. Even if I succed I would just play with excel for days(I already worked as a geologist assistant, and EVERY FUCKING BODY just did paperwork and excel).

I dont have an idea, what else could I do in life. In the past four years I had to build my life around this, and it feel hopeless. If I continue I may broke, if I leave I may regret it, and go without purpose. I know I would not endure a fully phisycal work.

Sorry if I sounded like a drama queen, but I just had enough. Big failures and mental pain are almost daily, but I try to stay calm.

Thank you for reading it. Have better days than mine's.

I would recommend void meditation and lots of it, it helps you focus and clears the mind. It also instills a sense of calmness and relaxation as when we are stressed it's very difficult to memorize and learn new concepts and information. I find this helps me.

All the best, believe in yourself and you will succeed!

 

[Alexandros Iowno [JG]]

This question is very late 4 years into your studies and most importantly it comes from a place of needing rest, clarity and detachment. How much of this is truly unbearable or bearable and uncomfortable? Show your mind that you can do it.

Finishing what you started will add to your internal satisfaction once all is finished. I know sometimes things appear extremely purposeless, many times they are, yet you have to stop this maze running of your mind and emotions. Detach and look calmly at the situation. University and all schools in this world, are just a set of rules and steps to follow. You play these rules and succeed in your purpose here. Your purpose is to have a well equipped and prepared start in your life. Even when a diploma doesn't suit you in the future, etc. Take this as a journey of testing and bettering yourself. Patience, discipline, effort, turmoil: self-efficacy. Your image of your power to execute anything in this world is very important. Only for this very simple reasoning, you should finish and succeed no matter what. Then the next time, use this as a proof of your ability, and again and again.

 

[Aureus]

(...) I try to force myself to finish it, yet I want nothing more to just end it.

Have a courage to do what you truly desire in your life and have faith in Gods.

Yes, from rational point of view quitting might seem like a foolish move but it's possible that behind that decision a great journey awaits you. Years ago I quit conventional style of living, two-thirds way through university. Times were tough, times were wonderful. Sometimes I have regretted, but even if I could I wouldn't change anything. It has been and still is the greatest, most unexpected, life unveiling journey. Gods will take care of you.

 

[WiseDragon]

This question is very late 4 years into your studies and most importantly it comes from a place of needing rest, clarity and detachment. How much of this is truly unbearable or bearable and uncomfortable? Show your mind that you can do it.

Finishing what you started will add to your internal satisfaction once all is finished. I know sometimes things appear extremely purposeless, many times they are, yet you have to stop this maze running of your mind and emotions. Detach and look calmly at the situation...

I heard from Jocko once, retired Navy officer, very tough man, something along the line of "never decide to rest on the spot or in the moment, plan your rest". Many times we are not as tired as we think we are, and pushing through it will show us just that. We had much more in us than we thought. Deciding to rest on the spot, and immediately resting is a form of laziness, so I prefer to have my rest already planned and scheduled. Of course if one is truly exhausted and feels like he's done he should rest, this is just some general advice. Common sense is always important.

Anyways, like you said, resting once you got it done feels much better too and like you also said these kind of situations are an opportuity to improve your character. This added strength of character will carry over to other areas of your life and also in the future.

 

[DarkAries]

You guys are wonderful, I knew you could help

I'll finish it for sure, just maybe take more time than I planned to not get too exhausted. I was also able to ask the assistance of some teacher there(one for chem, one for dissertation), and maybe I make it for next year instead of this one.

I still like feology, the problem is these classes only made to make geologists suffer. The dean personally hate geology, so he made sure that geologist fail as often as possible. Already cursed that bastard a few times, unlikely to come back to teach in a while.

Truth be told, I'm still able to meditate, do the FRTRs, but I just cant make myself do more than my usual meditation rutine, even I know well how could I improve it. Its still great, just not as great as I would like to.

Anyway, thanks the help from everyone

 

[General Yeager]

Bro working ANY job is cringe anyway. If a Geologist gets paid by just doing Excel then that's great. Imagine with all that free time you can invest your time is Reading about Spirituality and Practicing it. Most of us have no time because our Jobs demand many hours of us.

Ask yourself
1)Can I provide for Family and Kids with this job ?
2)If not I have to supplement this in some way by doing Online Work of some kind.

 

[Henu the Great]

Bro working ANY job is cringe anyway. If a Geologist gets paid by just doing Excel then that's great.

A valid point. However, people also thrive under pressure and seek challenges. Something that does not provide adequate mental stimulation would be dull for some people.

 

[AFODO]

Bro working ANY job is cringe anyway.

A society can't go without jobs. Things may be out of place in this era, but still almost every job is essential and have it's place in society. And while they could be done differently, to completely benefit humans, they are still needed as they are.

 

[LightBringer]

This question is very late 4 years into your studies and most importantly it comes from a place of needing rest, clarity and detachment. How much of this is truly unbearable or bearable and uncomfortable? Show your mind that you can do it.

Finishing what you started will add to your internal satisfaction once all is finished. I know sometimes things appear extremely purposeless, many times they are, yet you have to stop this maze running of your mind and emotions. Detach and look calmly at the situation. University and all schools in this world, are just a set of rules and steps to follow. You play these rules and succeed in your purpose here. Your purpose is to have a well equipped and prepared start in your life. Even when a diploma doesn't suit you in the future, etc. Take this as a journey of testing and bettering yourself. Patience, discipline, effort, turmoil: self-efficacy. Your image of your power to execute anything in this world is very important. Only for this very simple reasoning, you should finish and succeed no matter what. Then the next time, use this as a proof of your ability, and again and again.

im gonna recconmated this, due your duty but do so unattached, i get lots dont understand the jest of the unattached thing,

context

 

[LightBringer]

Have a courage to do what you truly desire in your life and have faith in Gods.

Yes, from rational point of view quitting might seem like a foolish move but it's possible that behind that decision a great journey awaits you. Years ago I quit conventional style of living, two-thirds way through university. Times were tough, times were wonderful. Sometimes I have regretted, but even if I could I wouldn't change anything. It has been and still is the greatest, most unexpected, life unveiling journey. Gods will take care of you.

i found the reasoning is what adds up more so then the temperaly results that appear, after that thinking as if, its like a repetitive of some sort. in other words know try self you know deep down whats good for you. fear is evil, dont listen to that, final battle after making a choice is geting out of your fucking own head, you know what i mean, and like that dont over complex it ant end of world kids relax life will bless you wether you like it or not,, cause it a wonder

 

[LightBringer]

These are valid criticisms, but you could be basically forced to finish. I would use energies like Kenaz or Sowilo to create motivation to finish. Jupiter in Taurus as a Square may be ok, especially as you are studying natural science.

Since you are close to being finished, then you should do so, but if you had asked this question when you were only 1 year in your studies, it would've been a harder question to answer.

i want to understand for him as well as self, please explain how this works in turns of effects to welbeing lets say, and what does that mean, energies like etc, repeat the mantra so 7 times when waking up? the sound resitating it? please expain in clear detail, tk

 

[Henu the Great]

i want to understand for him as well as self, please explain how this works in turns of effects to welbeing lets say, and what does that mean, energies like etc, repeat the mantra so 7 times when waking up? the sound resitating it? please expain in clear detail, tk

Have you read what JoS has to offer? This, and more is clearly explained.

Powers of the Mind and Soul

The Three Steps of Witchcraft

The Runic Kabalah

Magickal/Kabalistic Squares: How to Correctly Use These

Satanic Meditation

Satanic Witchcraft

 

[serpentwalker666]

Bro working ANY job is cringe anyway. If a Geologist gets paid by just doing Excel then that's great. Imagine with all that free time you can invest your time is Reading about Spirituality and Practicing it. Most of us have no time because our Jobs demand many hours of us.

Ask yourself
1)Can I provide for Family and Kids with this job ?
2)If not I have to supplement this in some way by doing Online Work of some kind.

Many jobs are terrible. Yet many jobs are not.

Looking at the ancients shows they each had a profession and role in society alongside their spiritual, intellectual and all around advancement.
The beauty of labor within our civilizations is to be properly understood for what it is. Nothing would exist if work was largely removed from human civilization, or if our people here did not participate in this.

We are here to shift and change the world. This goes for the labor system as well, and in time things will better reflect the ideal satanic world each of us long for.

The only way through this is to walk towards this, accepting all aspects of life and working our way into jobs that we are best suited for and give us enough time to develop spiritually, takes care of our needs, lets us save and build a future, along with just enjoying life.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

i want to understand for him as well as self, please explain how this works in turns of effects to welbeing lets say, and what does that mean, energies like etc, repeat the mantra so 7 times when waking up? the sound resitating it? please expain in clear detail, tk

Read here: https://satanisgod.org/ThreeSteps.html

You chant the energy that solves your problem, then apply it in accordance with the steps of magick. Since Kenaz pertains to studying motivation and Sowilo is general motivation, that is why I chose them.

The number of times you chant depends on how much power you want need, as well as the numerology involved. Certain numbers produce certain effects.