Abyssos said:
I cannot, and will not, support your agenda. What you're suggesting is not only wildly immoral, the very fact alone that
these are the people who agree with me, combined with my own conscience and the continual stream of facts, I think it's time I apologize for wasting everyone's time.
It's Eostre today, The Mother-Goddess seems to have "gotten through" to me. I can see that my thinking was not only fundamentally flawed, it was so opposite to reality that it is miraculous that I have made it as far as I have now.
The beautiful, life sustaining, truly compassionate and motherly entity of femininity, and yet for so long, I have regarded it as 'evil'. I have not only spoken such nonsense against it, I wrongly credited my self-improvement to misogyny, when it should've ironically gone to femininity, because it is from here the motherly and compassionate qualities needed for half of all my Self-Improvement, the "rest and digest" fundamental to any self-improvement, happened.
If you must be my worst nightmare, than let it be. You and I both need extensive therapy. I declared you my friend once, and I will not back on that. Therefore, I will lead the way and heal myself, and encourage you to do the same.
To the women, not only in JoS, but of this world:
I apologize dearly for my words and actions. I'm sorry that I was this stupid or evil enough to say such things. Femininity, this great feeling of happiness and piety, only a truly brutal, evil, and heartless, individual could see, such a beautiful fairy prancing, or The Great Warrior-Mother-Goddess caring for every last one of her children, or the inquisitive pious soul, and declare it as 'evil'. As such, I must work hard and ceaselessly to excise this evil of myself.
To The Goddesses: May you forgive me for the slander I have committed against you. For too long, The Supreme Divine has been put upon the worst insults. It hurts that this must happen, it hurts more when it comes from someone who claims to fight for Dharma. To Lakshmi Mata, as a Vaishnavite, I apologize that I have slandered you so. You have always cared for all with such motherly compassion. It's time that you be recognized as the Supreme Mother you are, who provides Her Children with everything needed not only to survive, but to thrive. You are The Goddess of Money, not only literal, but of all things 'wealth'. I apologize that I associated you with such opposites. I can, will, and must, fight my battles in the name of Piety and ensure Dharma wins.
To the Clerics and Laity here: I'm sorry that I wasted your time as such. There's a million problems we face, and I shouldn't have added onto them. Nonetheless, I thank you for having the Supreme Patience you did, and providing invaluable resources for me. Don't get me wrong: You're by no means perfect. But many of you still have beautiful hearts, and must live to see a Satanic Future. To people such as Britkreig, Jrvan, Lydia, etc, you have my thank-you from the deepest part of my heart. I by no means see you as perfect, but I see you as Satanists worthy of The Satanama Name, even if flawed.
I plan on going on a path of Self-Healing. It seems that I am of dire need of it, and so are many Brothers and Sisters. If I plan to lead, I must lead the way.
It is Eostre, and despite my incessant slander, I have seen the true nature of femininity today, as something Supremely Moral and Righteous. I used to think of femininity as the "elusive gremlin coming to take my life", now I know it as "the mother-sun which shines under any condition to provide nourishment for all of her children, including her little baby fairies, which in their own works, contribute to Dharma". Don't get me wrong: There's bad women and men out there. But not only do both of them form a minority, both Femininity and Masculinity I argue are not defined as "fundamental evil", but "fundamental good". Both men and women are beautiful beings, and we must ensure the moral happiness of both.
Again, I thank all of you for your supreme help and support. It is now time that I contribute equal in turn to the great amount given to me.
Ave Satanas, Jai Shri Hari!
Ave Lilith, Jai Mata Di!