Hey everyone!
Well, i have a bit of a problem. I recently started the 6 months training program and am currently in the middle of visualization training. Unfortunately, I dont seem to make any progress. The Black Sun was pretty hard I thought, but the triangle is even worse, and I dont think i can move on to the next images.
When I try, I can see the object for a while but then, even when I am focusing on it with my whole might, it simply drifts apart and I cannot bring it back afterward. I suspect that my astral vision might be blocked in some way.
This has been getting to me for quite a while so I began thinking about what could be the cause. I started tracing back all the stuff that happened to me during my adolescence and I stumbled upon something very interesting. I was brought up in a xtian family and at around age 14, I stopped having dreams. It was about the same period when my parents were pushing me to attend church more often and all the bull crap that comes along.
I stopped having dreams. For a long while, it was just an empty void in my mind every morning. A patch of black without any memory or reminiscent feeling to indicate a dream. It was simply a blackout. Later on though, as I started to distance myself from the church, I began feeling some changes. There were mornings when I'd wake up with a strong feeling in my heart and in my head, like happiness or excitement. This reminded me of the dreams I used to have as a kid, intense and wild, except these were only feelings. When I would try to remember what the dream was about, I would hit a black wall, a true void in the place of any possible visual memories.
Now, could it be possible that while I was being dragged to church nearly against my will, some xtian filth somehow was able to block my astral vision? Is it possible the the rotten xtian god sabotaged my vulnerable teenage spirit in order to shut down my astral senses all together?
I understand that visualization is crucial in spiritualism, and it seems to me that vision is pretty much the only thing blocked, since I can sometimes nearly smell my dreams just as I wake up.
Does anyone have any ideas or advice on how I should proceed? Perhaps some extra exercise that could trigger my astral vision?
Anything is welcome, please help me out.
Thanks a lot
HAIL FATHER SATAN
Well, i have a bit of a problem. I recently started the 6 months training program and am currently in the middle of visualization training. Unfortunately, I dont seem to make any progress. The Black Sun was pretty hard I thought, but the triangle is even worse, and I dont think i can move on to the next images.
When I try, I can see the object for a while but then, even when I am focusing on it with my whole might, it simply drifts apart and I cannot bring it back afterward. I suspect that my astral vision might be blocked in some way.
This has been getting to me for quite a while so I began thinking about what could be the cause. I started tracing back all the stuff that happened to me during my adolescence and I stumbled upon something very interesting. I was brought up in a xtian family and at around age 14, I stopped having dreams. It was about the same period when my parents were pushing me to attend church more often and all the bull crap that comes along.
I stopped having dreams. For a long while, it was just an empty void in my mind every morning. A patch of black without any memory or reminiscent feeling to indicate a dream. It was simply a blackout. Later on though, as I started to distance myself from the church, I began feeling some changes. There were mornings when I'd wake up with a strong feeling in my heart and in my head, like happiness or excitement. This reminded me of the dreams I used to have as a kid, intense and wild, except these were only feelings. When I would try to remember what the dream was about, I would hit a black wall, a true void in the place of any possible visual memories.
Now, could it be possible that while I was being dragged to church nearly against my will, some xtian filth somehow was able to block my astral vision? Is it possible the the rotten xtian god sabotaged my vulnerable teenage spirit in order to shut down my astral senses all together?
I understand that visualization is crucial in spiritualism, and it seems to me that vision is pretty much the only thing blocked, since I can sometimes nearly smell my dreams just as I wake up.
Does anyone have any ideas or advice on how I should proceed? Perhaps some extra exercise that could trigger my astral vision?
Anything is welcome, please help me out.
Thanks a lot
HAIL FATHER SATAN