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lonley little girl

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hello everyone, i am new here and i am honored to finally write here. I have been reading and thinking about Satanism for months. I realized that Satan is the creator of humanity and the only true god to be prayed to. I have read a lot about meditations and I know that Satanism is not evil and that the goal of Satanism is to achieve immortality (magnum opus). I have learned something but there are many more things that are unclear to me. For months I have wanted to do a ritual of dedication, but insecurity holds me back. What worried me a lot was that I might have Jewish genetics in me without even knowing it. Others were also concerned about it. The very thought of it makes me sick. No one in my family I know is Jewish or gypsy, but I still worry ... I want to be 100 percent sure I don't have that dirt in me. I often think that I am not good enough, that I am weak, and that Satan will not accept me because of my flaws, weaknesses, and impurities (if I have them) and will reject me. I want to be better and work on myself, but I have so many problems and it’s really hard. I know that I truly want to be one of you and that Satan wants to be my god and father. My father died when I was little and most of all I want to have a father again. I want Satan, but I'm not sure he wants me. Last night I thought "what if Satan doesn't accept my ritual, what if he rejects me?" and I started crying. I realized I didn’t want to live without him. I am very scared and I am in total chaos at the moment. I am afraid of being rejected for any reason. I couldn't survive that. I apologize for the length of this post, but I wanted to write what is on my heart. If any of you would give me any advice I would be infinitely grateful to him. I will be very happy to fight for Satan if he accepts me. I apologize if my English is not good enough, English is not my mother tongue. Thanks in advance.
 
Everyone has doubts before they dedicate. Satan wants you to overcome them and show him you're brave enough to come to him. All these thoughts about having jewish or gypsy genes are nothing but obstacles you need to overcome. Satan doesn't reject any gentile who's willing to work on themselves and become better. Meditate on his sigil and ask yourself if you belong with him and us. When you dedicate you symbolically leave your old life behind, and that should include these doubts you're having. Be strong and learn to trust your intuition, reject any thoughts that bring you down and shape your life in a positive direction.
 
1. You are not jew, it is scam. Jew never worry because she is jew, and 99% jew know that she is jew. Especially when you do not look like jew. You need to overcome it.
2. Satan accept all Gentiles, even those who are weak.
 
Anyone who has such doubts would not be of jewish origin. Jews on average are far more certain about their origins that us Gentiles so I don't think you should worry about that. To start crying because you want to be with Satan... Is that not a sign good enough of your good intentions..? None of us before reaching Godhood are in perfected state, so we all have "impurities", but these can and should be worked on with the ultimate goal in mind always reaching for new heights.
 
lonley little girl said:
hello everyone, i am new here and i am honored to finally write here. I have been reading and thinking about Satanism for months. I realized that Satan is the creator of humanity and the only true god to be prayed to. I have read a lot about meditations and I know that Satanism is not evil and that the goal of Satanism is to achieve immortality (magnum opus). I have learned something but there are many more things that are unclear to me. For months I have wanted to do a ritual of dedication, but insecurity holds me back. What worried me a lot was that I might have Jewish genetics in me without even knowing it. Others were also concerned about it. The very thought of it makes me sick. No one in my family I know is Jewish or gypsy, but I still worry ... I want to be 100 percent sure I don't have that dirt in me. I often think that I am not good enough, that I am weak, and that Satan will not accept me because of my flaws, weaknesses, and impurities (if I have them) and will reject me. I want to be better and work on myself, but I have so many problems and it’s really hard. I know that I truly want to be one of you and that Satan wants to be my god and father. My father died when I was little and most of all I want to have a father again. I want Satan, but I'm not sure he wants me. Last night I thought "what if Satan doesn't accept my ritual, what if he rejects me?" and I started crying. I realized I didn’t want to live without him. I am very scared and I am in total chaos at the moment. I am afraid of being rejected for any reason. I couldn't survive that. I apologize for the length of this post, but I wanted to write what is on my heart. If any of you would give me any advice I would be infinitely grateful to him. I will be very happy to fight for Satan if he accepts me. I apologize if my English is not good enough, English is not my mother tongue. Thanks in advance.

Don’t make my eyes wet..
Why have you been waiting for months..?
You have deprived yourself from the most beautiful thing there is.

Due to enemy curses, constant psychic attacks, and overall the enemy matrix of energy and because of an entire life of brainwashing, most people are afraid of Satan. When I found the JoS, I felt such a strong attraction, an occult and magnetic pull.

To be honest, at first, I was also very afraid of Satan and the Demons, however, reading about them, and actually experiencing them, made my soul glow up in incredible joy and happiness. I was afraid for my strong and positive feeling for Satan and his Demons.

I still dedicated, I was not 100% sure what to think of everything, however, I dedicated, with the serious intent to stay with Satan for all eternities, no matter what would happen, or what would be true or not.

Similar story with my sister, I had to kinda urge and force her to do the dedication ritual, as she got cold feet right before it.

Both of us, are so glad we found this place and came to Satan. We both are incredibly happy now.

And I am stronger than I was ever before! Muhaha! >:D

This path is truly amazing, Trust me, Satan will accept you.

When I dedicated, I didn’t really felt anything in the start, I just dedicated. This is because I am spiritually speaking a rock and my soul was entirely sealed up.

When my sister did the ritual, recently she actually felt Satan, and he gave her inner strength and will to life. I have never seen a person change this much within 5 minutes, she looked like a different person, she was all of a sudden, very vibrant and positive and stronger.
I was behind her as she did the ritual in my room and I was sitting on my bed maybe 1.5m behind her.. Also I felt Satan‘s energy in my Aura.

That being said, just do the ritual.
Don’t let fear get the best of you.
Only strong people can become Satanists, as you have to fight your fear, many people can‘t do this.

Btw, change your Username, you won’t be lonely from now on, trust me.
 
I would say that Satan is calling you. You took it upon yourself to do deep research into your spirituality. You could have blindly conformed to a parasitic slave "god's" agenda. You have a free mind and Satan listens to your heart. If the thought of life without Satan made you cry, then your love for Him must be immense. If I were you I would send Him all the love I had to give. Father would never turn away a Gentile who has so much love for Him.
I know that before coming to Satan I had the same worry about Him deeming me weak and unworthy. I studied JOS website and started the foundation meditations to increase my chi to make myself worthy in my own mind. After the meditations helped build my confidence and love for His gifts and power, I knew He wanted me in His family. I then dedicated by blood. I think it's natural for someone to be nervous. It's a real and personal relationship with a living God. He is an all powerful immortal God and He empowers us because He loves us so much. I'm sure He loves you too. I wouldn't worry about being jew. If you were you wouldn't have been interested in delving into the truth like you did. You would've been after shekels and dominating anyone weaker than you. Abundant luck on your path! Heil Father Satan!
 
throwaway88 said:
Everyone has doubts before they dedicate. Satan wants you to overcome them and show him you're brave enough to come to him. All these thoughts about having jewish or gypsy genes are nothing but obstacles you need to overcome. Satan doesn't reject any gentile who's willing to work on themselves and become better. Meditate on his sigil and ask yourself if you belong with him and us. When you dedicate you symbolically leave your old life behind, and that should include these doubts you're having. Be strong
and learn to trust your intuition, reject any thoughts that bring you down and shape your life in a positive direction.
Thank you very much for the advice. You helped me a lot.
 
Kurat said:
1. You are not jew, it is scam. Jew never worry because she is jew, and 99% jew know that she is jew. Especially when you do not look like jew. You need to overcome it.
2. Satan accept all Gentiles, even those who are weak.
I assumed it was just deception and delusion, but I was still worried. You calmed me down. Thank you very much for that.
 
Kurat said:
1. You are not jew, it is scam. Jew never worry because she is jew, and 99% jew know that she is jew. Especially when you do not look like jew. You need to overcome it.
2. Satan accept all Gentiles, even those who are weak.
I assumed it was just deception and delusion, but I was still worried. You calmed me down. Thank you very much for that.
 
Henu the Great said:
Anyone who has such doubts would not be of jewish origin. Jews on average are far more certain about their origins that us Gentiles so I don't think you should worry about that. To start crying because you want to be with Satan... Is that not a sign good enough of your good intentions..? None of us before reaching Godhood are in perfected state, so we all have "impurities", but these can and should be worked on with the ultimate goal in mind always reaching for new heights.
You are absolutely right when you say that none of us is perfect (until he reaches magnum opus). I need to work on myself and become stronger and better. Thank you so much for reassuring and encouraging me.
 
NinRick said:
lonley little girl said:
hello everyone, i am new here and i am honored to finally write here. I have been reading and thinking about Satanism for months. I realized that Satan is the creator of humanity and the only true god to be prayed to. I have read a lot about meditations and I know that Satanism is not evil and that the goal of Satanism is to achieve immortality (magnum opus). I have learned something but there are many more things that are unclear to me. For months I have wanted to do a ritual of dedication, but insecurity holds me back. What worried me a lot was that I might have Jewish genetics in me without even knowing it. Others were also concerned about it. The very thought of it makes me sick. No one in my family I know is Jewish or gypsy, but I still worry ... I want to be 100 percent sure I don't have that dirt in me. I often think that I am not good enough, that I am weak, and that Satan will not accept me because of my flaws, weaknesses, and impurities (if I have them) and will reject me. I want to be better and work on myself, but I have so many problems and it’s really hard. I know that I truly want to be one of you and that Satan wants to be my god and father. My father died when I was little and most of all I want to have a father again. I want Satan, but I'm not sure he wants me. Last night I thought "what if Satan doesn't accept my ritual, what if he rejects me?" and I started crying. I realized I didn’t want to live without him. I am very scared and I am in total chaos at the moment. I am afraid of being rejected for any reason. I couldn't survive that. I apologize for the length of this post, but I wanted to write what is on my heart. If any of you would give me any advice I would be infinitely grateful to him. I will be very happy to fight for Satan if he accepts me. I apologize if my English is not good enough, English is not my mother tongue. Thanks in advance.

Don’t make my eyes wet..
Why have you been waiting for months..?
You have deprived yourself from the most beautiful thing there is.

Due to enemy curses, constant psychic attacks, and overall the enemy matrix of energy and because of an entire life of brainwashing, most people are afraid of Satan. When I found the JoS, I felt such a strong attraction, an occult and magnetic pull.

To be honest, at first, I was also very afraid of Satan and the Demons, however, reading about them, and actually experiencing them, made my soul glow up in incredible joy and happiness. I was afraid for my strong and positive feeling for Satan and his Demons.

I still dedicated, I was not 100% sure what to think of everything, however, I dedicated, with the serious intent to stay with Satan for all eternities, no matter what would happen, or what would be true or not.

Similar story with my sister, I had to kinda urge and force her to do the dedication ritual, as she got cold feet right before it.

Both of us, are so glad we found this place and came to Satan. We both are incredibly happy now.

And I am stronger than I was ever before! Muhaha! >:D

This path is truly amazing, Trust me, Satan will accept you.

When I dedicated, I didn’t really felt anything in the start, I just dedicated. This is because I am spiritually speaking a rock and my soul was entirely sealed up.

When my sister did the ritual, recently she actually felt Satan, and he gave her inner strength and will to life. I have never seen a person change this much within 5 minutes, she looked like a different person, she was all of a sudden, very vibrant and positive and stronger.
I was behind her as she did the ritual in my room and I was sitting on my bed maybe 1.5m behind her.. Also I felt Satan‘s energy in my Aura.

That being said, just do the ritual.
Don’t let fear get the best of you.
Only strong people can become Satanists, as you have to fight your fear, many people can‘t do this.

Btw, change your Username, you won’t be lonely from now on, trust me.
Your answer proved me that there are more good people in this world. I don't know how to thank you for sharing your experience with me and encouraging me. I don't know you but from this answer I can conclude that you are wonderful person (like everyone else who took their time to help me). I wish you and your sister all the best. May the gods bless you.
 
Zaqîêl3 said:
I would say that Satan is calling you. You took it upon yourself to do deep research into your spirituality. You could have blindly conformed to a parasitic slave "god's" agenda. You have a free mind and Satan listens to your heart. If the thought of life without Satan made you cry, then your love for Him must be immense. If I were you I would send Him all the love I had to give. Father would never turn away a Gentile who has so much love for Him.
I know that before coming to Satan I had the same worry about Him deeming me weak and unworthy. I studied JOS website and started the foundation meditations to increase my chi to make myself worthy in my own mind. After the meditations helped build my confidence and love for His gifts and power, I knew He wanted me in His family. I then dedicated by blood. I think it's natural for someone to be nervous. It's a real and personal relationship with a living God. He is an all powerful immortal God and He empowers us because He loves us so much. I'm sure He loves you too. I wouldn't worry about being jew. If you were you wouldn't have been interested in delving into the truth like you did. You would've been after shekels and dominating anyone weaker than you. Abundant luck on your path! Heil Father Satan!
You are right. I love Satan with all my heart. I know that without him my life will be terrible. That's where my fear comes from. It's a little weird that I love so much someone I've never seen, but I'm glad about it. I am aware of the importance of all this and I am nervous because it is the most important thing I will do in my life. Thank you for your encouragement and kind words. Mey the gods bless you.
 
lonley little girl said:
Zaqîêl3 said:
I would say that Satan is calling you. You took it upon yourself to do deep research into your spirituality. You could have blindly conformed to a parasitic slave "god's" agenda. You have a free mind and Satan listens to your heart. If the thought of life without Satan made you cry, then your love for Him must be immense. If I were you I would send Him all the love I had to give. Father would never turn away a Gentile who has so much love for Him.
I know that before coming to Satan I had the same worry about Him deeming me weak and unworthy. I studied JOS website and started the foundation meditations to increase my chi to make myself worthy in my own mind. After the meditations helped build my confidence and love for His gifts and power, I knew He wanted me in His family. I then dedicated by blood. I think it's natural for someone to be nervous. It's a real and personal relationship with a living God. He is an all powerful immortal God and He empowers us because He loves us so much. I'm sure He loves you too. I wouldn't worry about being jew. If you were you wouldn't have been interested in delving into the truth like you did. You would've been after shekels and dominating anyone weaker than you. Abundant luck on your path! Heil Father Satan!
You are right. I love Satan with all my heart. I know that without him my life will be terrible. That's where my fear comes from. It's a little weird that I love so much someone I've never seen, but I'm glad about it. I am aware of the importance of all this and I am nervous because it is the most important thing I will do in my life. Thank you for your encouragement and kind words. Mey the gods bless you.

The God's and Enki have blessed me by allowing you to gain positive energy and encouragement from my words. May the God's and Father Enki evolve you to Godhood!
 
lonley little girl said:
I think you should make a new account with a new name.

Because you are not lonely. You are our sister! :)
 
lonley little girl said:
Kurat said:
1. You are not jew, it is scam. Jew never worry because she is jew, and 99% jew know that she is jew. Especially when you do not look like jew. You need to overcome it.
2. Satan accept all Gentiles, even those who are weak.
I assumed it was just deception and delusion, but I was still worried. You calmed me down. Thank you very much for that.

Now again, let me explain more.

It is NOT a coincidence that you think that you might be jewish. This is the ENEMY. I mentioned the Matrix of Energy, they use this to direct effective but yet simple psychic attacks on people who are interested in Satan.

Everybody here has wondered whether or not they were a jew (me included), or dreaming about the enemy, then waling up in the night, unable to move and feeling their energies. Or to play with your fears.

You said you love Satan, I was the same like you. Thr very same, I loved him, but I did not know him at all. This was the first time I read something about him and yet, I had so strong feelings for him.

You are the same. This alone is a sign that you have been with him in past lives.

Please do me the favour and just do the ritual... TONIGHT!

Tonight is a very holy day for us Satanists, we can feel Satan, our Goddesses and Gods much closer today. Also I will do a Ritual to our beloved Gods.

So please, dedicate your soul tonight.
All you need is a clean an blank paper, a dry pen a candle (black, blue or red) and a sterile needle to prick your left index finger.

To get the blood out:

1) move your entire arm and Hand, in pumping movements for a while. You do this to get the blood pumping in your arm.

2) Massage your entire hand firmly, then massage your left index-finger firmly. You do this to get the blood EVERYWHERE, in your finger.

3) now prick the tip of your left index-finger.

4) No blood is comming out? I know.
Now, grip and sqeeze your finger at the shaft, and squeeze the blood in your entire finger towards your fingertip - repeat this movement firmly to squeeze the blood up to the little hole you made.

Now you have a nice drop of blood, where you can dip your dry pen in.

Regarding being „weak“. Satan‘s only condition is, that we Satanists, are at all times completely honest to our FATHER. You can not hide anything from him, he knows you in and out. But we have to be honest to him, this is very important to him, I am speaking of personal experience here. No matter what, Satan is so incredibly understanding, and considerate, you can not compare him to anything you have experienced and known until now.

He is our Father, literally. He is always there for us, no matter what. As long as we approach him in all honesty. He is very understanding, so no matter what, he will always understand and actually help you. Oh man, my eyes are wet again.

Good luck!
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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