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[whenemmafallsinlove]

I was molested again today. Why? Is there really a God? I wonder. I want to die. I can't report due to reasons but my past and nightmares are coming back to haunt me.

 

[Hs666]

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Take responsibility and try to work to solve the problems in your life. Life's "challenges" are never "bigger" than you can handle or solve, thanks to the gods and meditation.

Focus on this, and you will succeed in improving your life.

 

[AFODO]

You need to get yourself together and solve these problems instead of searching for excuses.

Death is not an escape, and nothing is, you need to face this and solve it instead of anything else.

You can report this at any given time because it's a serious manner. Best if you have some sort of evidence.

 

[Lightning_Puma]

Besides meditating to build an aura of protection, ask your GD (if you know who they are) to keep you safe from the molester and once you are powerful enough you can curse them.

 

[Epiphany]

I was molested again today. Why? Is there really a God? I wonder. I want to die. I can't report due to reasons but my past and nightmares are coming back to haunt me.

You need to report it. You complained in this post that there is no justice, yet you refuse to do anything that will bring justice about. Don't allow yourself to be a victim. If you don't do something about this harm done to you and it becomes too late, you will never forgive yourself.

Some people live a sad life and die

I have been raped and groomed since the age of 4 by my mother's boyfriend. No one knows that except my friends. I even tried to tell my mother but she didn't believed it. I am scared about the society too. That man is also very powerful so my voice will be shut down. I feel nothing towards him...

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[whenemmafallsinlove]

It's not the first time and the person who done this is powerful and has connections in judiciary.

 

[Scorpio]

This is a serious matter and you must report it for your own safety! If you don't report it, the person who is hurting you will continue to do so or find other victims. I know this is difficult, and I am very sorry for you, but you must act now. Don't let this person get away with it. I don't know what your reasons are for not reporting this, but they cannot be used as an excuse for you not to report him. Do not be afraid of him. This person must pay for his actions. Fight for yourself.

You should report it immediately and it would be good if you had evidence. These may be, for example, written conversations (In my case, the abuser in the text he sent me admitted to committing a sex crime against me, so you can see what I mean. They can be also suggestive messages. Please keep such messages and make a copy of them), recordings, biological evidence, witnesses, etc. But if you don't have any evidences, don't worry. Lack of evidence is difficult, but not impossible. This happens and police investigators will know what to do or ask when interviewing you. Your testimony is already evidence. They will assess the way you testify, whether you speak spontaneously or calculatedly, and your body language to assess the credibility of your testimony. This procedure is necessary, because there are cases of false accusations. Yes, it will be overwhelming for you, because they will question you in detail, but it is necessary. The more detailed your statement is, the more credible it will seem. There may also be a situation where they will ask you the same thing twice and you will have to repeat your whole story again. They may formulate questions differently, but with the same meaning, for example about the date of events. They want to see your credibility. The interview will be videotaped for court purpose.

You wrote before that your friends know about it. If so, they may be called as witnesses. It doesn't matter if they weren't present during crime. However, investigators can ask witnesses about what happened to you, what you told them (checking whether the description of the situation matches your description), your relationship with them, why they think you told them about it and not someone else, and what emotional impact it had on you. As you can see, your health is also important. By observing your mental state, the witness can provide evidence to support your testimony. My friend talked about bruises on my wrists, neck and that I avoided any form of physical touch. The investigators pay attention to this stuff. The witness's testimony may also be repeated, even twice, because they write down a report of their testimony. If you are undergoing treatment (like therapy for example), it can also be used as another evidence.

A psychologist may also be present during your testimony and can also help in the process of assessing the credibility of your testimony. From what I remember, she was sitting on the side, observing and taking notes in a notebook. After the whole testimony process the case will most likely go to court and you will have to wait. There is a court hearing, although I was not present at it, I don't remember the reason why and it's hard for me to say whether your presence will be necessary there or not. However, if your presence is required, you can always use organizations that help victims of sexual crimes, which can provide you with a lawyer. The lawyer will support you during the trial. Unfortunately, I cannot tell you what such a court hearing looks like because, because as I mentioned above, I was not present. This is what it looked like in my case, but it may also look different in any other country.

Now I must add, because unfortunately such situations do occur, your case may be discontinued. This is what happened in my case (despite the evidences and the perpetrator's confession), so I can understand why many women are hesitant and discouraged to report sexual crimes. It may depend on the country you live in, but in my case matters regarding rape or other sexual abuse are treated not seriously or with a light sentence. It may happen also due to lack of evidence. This doesn't mean that this will happen in your situation, but I need to warn you that such injustice do occur. However, that doesn't mean you shouldn't report it. You should deal with it as soon as possible and hopefully, in your case, the perpetrator will get what he deserves and won't hurt you or anyone else. If they dismiss your case, the best option is to distance yourself from him. Since he's your mom's boyfriend, they probably live together. I don't know how old you are, but if you are a minor, perhaps you would be able to move out to someone else in your family after explaining the situation? It would be good to isolate yourself from him for your own safety. Also, bring justice for yourself, if the court fail you. You are not helpless, you have the tools to do this:

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In addition to reporting, you can also:
- Get support from someone close to you. Your mom failed you and it's sad. Maybe you have someone else you trust in your family who could help you? It can be also your friends or trusted teacher. You need support and a sense of security, someone should be with you.
- You can also use a hotline for people experiencing sexual violence. These hotlines provide confidential and specialist help for survivors of sexual violence and can also offer therapeutic, legal, medical and support services. The support groups also exist.
- Healing and recovery takes time in the case of trauma. Therefore, you should focus on the healing process. Clean and empower your chakras, especially your sacral chakra. Build and clean your aura of protection daily.

Remember that sexual violence is a crime and you have the right to demand for the perpetrator be punished. You are not alone. The Gods are with you, whether you believe in it or not, and They want you to heal and be safe. Your life is precious, so don't let anyone hurt you. Bring justice for yourself. You will only suffer more by procrastinating and being passive, so it is important to act. There are many women and men who have experienced this and can help you too. If you have any questions or concerns, please write and I will try to help. I was in similar position as you before.

 

[whenemmafallsinlove]

I tried to report 2 years ago but nothing happened as I have told you. The government was on his side. In the end, I was to apologize.

 

[Ĥl·lĥæ]

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You should meditate deeply on your past traumas and problems, and calmly analyze your situation and look for alternatives to your problems in a calm and unhurried manner.

 

[AFODO]

I tried to report 2 years ago but nothing happened as I have told you. The government was on his side. In the end, I was to apologize.

Aren't we talking about a Jew?

Escape this environment. Do Baalzebul's, Andras's, Astarte's (if you are a female), Orobas, and Balaam's ritual for justice.
Let them hear your situation, and they will surely help. Again, try escape this environment.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I was molested again today. Why? Is there really a God? I wonder. I want to die. I can't report due to reasons but my past and nightmares are coming back to haunt me.

OK, with "molested" I assume you are talking about sex assault.
First of all : calm down. Yes there is God and is Satan himself!
You are listened, you are cared here. No reason to panic, escape, die or whatever. Observe.

Sexual abuse happens to much more people than we may even wonder, in this world. And this is indeed tragic, traumatizing. damaging, unjust, criminal, dense of negativity, insulting, not appropriate, shit, wrong, scaring, cold, mind blowing, hard to accept, social plague, and very sad. But would you like to know what this is NOT ? It is NOT your fault. Never.
Why I say this? As sexually abused people tend to blame themselves for what happened, and feel guilty. You are NOT guilty.
So it happens that sexual abuse repeats, because the victim is unable to self-defend and unable to say "no" due to temporary weakness (physical, emotional, psychological) and repeatedly falls victim due to karmic energies, or soul enslavement.

If you die, the offender will survive. If you survive and get stronger in Satan, and you curse the offender, the offender will possibly die.
Which one of the 2 possibilities is the most correct and appropriate ? Just choose.

You know, sexual abuse may come from past lives, problems in your soul, anything.
I have understood in a past life I have probably been in a sort of gulag, or similar prison (not sure about details yet). Can you imagine what happens to an SS soul in those places? This caused the abuse problems I had in this life and the person involved was already harassing me in previous lives. So NOW I have the knowledge and support from the Gods to free my soul from this very bad individual. It takes time but I CAN do it.
And if you came here and found Satan and found the courage (yes it requires A LOT of courage) to tell your problem here, you CAN DO THIS too!

Ask to Satan justice against your offender.
When I did it, I have been guided and helped to do this by myself. As it's very freeing, therapeutic, and just. Satan KNOWS I can do this! So in your case, you will be guided according to your abilities and power. If you are not in position to exert justice, I am sure a Demon will do this for you. Otherwise, slowly, you will be driven to freedom and justice by your own actions. And you will be PROUD of your actions!

 

[Scorpio]

I tried to report 2 years ago but nothing happened as I have told you. The government was on his side. In the end, I was to apologize.

As I wrote before, such situations do occur. It's unfair, but don't let it destroy you. You are the victim here and it wasn't your fault.

Take into account the rest of my previous post. If you have a good relationship with another family member like for example your aunt or grandmother, ask her if you can move in temporarily after explaining the situation. You need to be safe and isolate yourself from this man.

If you don't have this opportunity, but have enough saved money and stable job then move out from your mother's home. If this is not possible either for other reasons, start thinking about working and earning money to escape your situation. I don't know what your options are, but if the justice system has failed you, your first thought should be to isolate yourself from him for your own safety especially since he is still molesting you.

Contact hotlines for victims of sexual abuse. They can provide you with support and information to what you can do in your situation and start to search for possible options for yourself. Ask the Gods for help and do everything in your power to escape from him.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

Escape this environment.

That's very important advice.

In a previous post, I said that sometimes a person has not enough power to escape a blocking situation like this.
If moving out is overpowering you, you may ask help to a person who can protect you. A friend, a partner. Just ask the Gods to send you the correct person, in case you are not strong enough to do this alone.
You might be grateful to this person, later on, and give something back. This may be life saving.
For example if the "protecting" person will have a very strong placement of his/her Saturn on the Sun or Mars or Chart Ruler of your abuser, this will be a big help to keep him far from you, and weak. As the protecting person will have a hard influence on your abuser, in case he ever tries to contact you.
This is just an example, but ask guidance to the Gods for a "way out". There is - always - a chance in this world, that the Gods see with wise eyes.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

It's not the first time and the person who done this is powerful and has connections in judiciary.

Somewhere in this world, there is someone most powerful than him, as I said. You can be guided to this solution if you ask.
You are not alone, with Satan. Never, even if you feel alone - and this will happen - you are not. Remember this in dark days.

 

[LiliumS]

What was my fault? Why me? And I know there are more miserable people like me in this world but my pain hurts me a lot too. Is the fate of life is to be sad and life is a constant cycle of pain amd we need to escape it by following the right path?

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Trying to fit into your situation is impossible for anyone here who hasn't lived anything comparable to what you've lived.
You had no faults. You were a child in need of protection. No one protected you and you became a victim of a monster.

Why do humans like him exist? Everything works according to God's plan right? Then why? I just feel hopeless in all matters.

You can't run away from your past and your karma forever. Gods are not puppet masters playing with people's lives and futures. We each have our own karma to deal with; yours is cruel and brutal. But you can overcome it but you can't do it alone.
In the past you tried to fight and it did not go well. That is no reason to stop. I don't know where you live and if things work the way they do in my country, but you should report it through an association for abused women, it can provide you with legal protection and psychological support (you need it badly).
Having terrible karma does not mean you have to deal with it alone. Ask the Gods for help, if you place the pieces well here in the material world and do your part, with their support you will be able to get yourself and your life back. Ask Lord Baalzebul for help so that He can help you get justice, for legal matters ask Lord Abigor for help (but, of course, you must first set the earthly justice machine in motion). Ask Lord Andras help too, as others have advised you.

The government was on his side

Again, let the Gods guide you. Does he have the government on his side? There is always someone who hates the government and its "friends," someone who is willing to listen to those who want to denounce someone who holds an important office.
The fact that he meditates and has a position does not mean that he has the support of our Gods. Such garbage is unworthy to even think of talking to Them.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

It's not the first time and the person who done this is powerful and has connections in judiciary.

I was just wondering, if you situation got better in any way.

 

[whenemmafallsinlove]

I was just wondering, if you situation got better in any way.

Thanks for asking. Recently I thought it git better but it started this month again and it's the end of the year. It's not that extreme like it was on that day... I used the word molested but I was raped... I didn't had the strength to say the word but now it feels like nothing... I feel used to it and I shouldn't... I don't understand why I attract only negative and cunning men into my life who took advantage of me. I turned 20 this year. So far the men in my life except some younger cousins and relatives... and my dad at some point... all men were trash. My dad isn't abusive but he was never someone who was present in my childhood and upbringing. So yea... I don't think I can ever find love or a guy and if I do... I don't have the courage to make someone I love settle for someone like me... even if sometimes when I feel attracted to a guy and want to kiss him and maybe sleep with him with my consent which I have never did so far... sometimes this thought makes me feel like a slut... I mean I do want to connect with someone like that... in that way but I had bad experiences. It's complicated to explain. I believe it's wrong to want someone if you love them and there is nothing wrong with wanting to be loved but I feel so doubtful that I need to do tons of things then someone will choose me... can't I just exist and live and then found someone who loves me? Seems impossible for now. Aside from love, everytime I get assaulted or anything, I hate myself more and feel disgusted from myself a lot.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

Thanks for asking. Recently I thought it git better but it started this month again and it's the end of the year. It's not that extreme like it was on that day... I used the word molested but I was raped... I didn't had the strength to say the word but now it feels like nothing... I feel used to it and I shouldn't...

I congratulate, well done! This is a step up in the process of healing. There's no shame in being raped. Shame is on the offender's account not your. If a person is robbed at the station, is the person's fault? Or the thief's fault? Now you feel nothing, later on you may feel rage by saying "raped", and it's a justified rage. You have been raped and I have been abused: we can't change this. Maybe we don't like to tell others, but we cannot avoid telling ourselves, so in time the mind finds the correct way to deal with the crime we suffered.

I don't understand why I attract only negative and cunning men into my life who took advantage of me. I turned 20 this year. So far the men in my life except some younger cousins and relatives... and my dad at some point... all men were trash. My dad isn't abusive but he was never someone who was present in my childhood and upbringing.

This is probably past lives karma, and spiritual links to the wrong people (those who abused you). When you are abused, strong links form from your chakras to the offender's soul, so that the abuser may suck your energy and feed his soul with your energy. This is why freeing the soul meditation is so important to heal yourself (Ansuz rune or THH mantra to cut astral cords). By cutting away all links to those criminal parasites, you won't be trapped anymore in their vortex of negative energies, linking abusers and abused people to that shit.
I am much older than you and I really wish I had found the truth, and the tools to heal myself, when I was 20, but it happened later. I would have lived a much better life, and this is what I wish to you, as you are very young and you can really adjust your life in time for living a meaningful and better life, from now on.

So yea... I don't think I can ever find love or a guy and if I do... I don't have the courage to make someone I love settle for someone like me... even if sometimes when I feel attracted to a guy and want to kiss him and maybe sleep with him with my consent which I have never did so far... sometimes this thought makes me feel like a slut...

Being abused causes deep feelings of being unworthy. You may be thinking you do not deserve a sane and decent partner, because you blame yourself for having been abused. THIS IS THE OPPOSITE INDEED, NO DEFENSELESS BEING CAN BE ACCUSED OR HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR HAVING BEEN ATTACKED BY A PSYCHOPATIC PREDATOR. IS A BUTTERFLY GUILT FOR HAVING BEEN CAPTURED BY A PREADATOR? IS THE BUTTERFLY GUILTY SIMPLY BECAUSE WAS FLYING BEAUTIFUL TOWARDS A FLOWER? NO THE BUTTERFLY IS NOT GUILTY. So, fly to your flower too. The sole fact you are here asking help to Satan and us Satanists, with good intentions, according to what I know of you, this makes you a worthy person. You need, to clean you feeling of being of no value.

I mean I do want to connect with someone like that... in that way but I had bad experiences. It's complicated to explain. I believe it's wrong to want someone if you love them and there is nothing wrong with wanting to be loved but I feel so doubtful that I need to do tons of things then someone will choose me... can't I just exist and live and then found someone who loves me? Seems impossible for now. Aside from love, everytime I get assaulted or anything, I hate myself more and feel disgusted from myself a lot.

Being unable to love both yourself and others, comes from having received the wrong kind of love in childhood. How can an abused kid discern between good and bad way to have an intimate relationship? The kid's mind is confused, as an adult, the person may keep looking for the wrong kind of relationship, and many people end up finding abusive partners, some become prostitutes, men become exploiters, so on. The logical mind can discern while the unconscious cannot, so you experience an inner fight.

I suggest you to read some good books, if you like reading, on search on the web for Bessel van der Kolk (mainy "The body hits the score") and Janina Fisher books. They helped me a lot and they are not too jewed, in term of contents.

I hope this can be of help.
Also, what I know for a fact, is that abused people NEED to talk about that, need to vent it out. I have been in therapy for long, this helps, even if therapist is not SS. If you want to vent out on here, feel free to do that.

It also seems to me you are on the path to enact justice, probably you guided.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I tried to report 2 years ago but nothing happened as I have told you. The government was on his side. In the end, I was to apologize.

I tend to think to your call for help sometimes, I don't know if it's me overworrying or there's sort of connection. I am full of resentment for un-manifested "justice" against those monsters, that I feel wrong in letting you feel like this in some years from now.

What I think is. Did you report before dedicating or in your first days as SS ?
I would seriously report again. This time it is possible you'll have more support and energies to carry on justice. You had strong and bold courage once, you may have it twice with a small "boost". I encourage you to act.

 

[whenemmafallsinlove]

I tend to think to your call for help sometimes, I don't know if it's me overworrying or there's sort of connection. I am full of resentment for un-manifested "justice" against those monsters, that I feel wrong in letting you feel like this in some years from now.

What I think is. Did you report before dedicating or in your first days as SS ?
I would seriously report again. This time it is possible you'll have more support and energies to carry on justice. You had strong and bold courage once, you may have it twice with a small "boost". I encourage you to act.

I tried reporting but he has connections so it never reaches and he has a reputation. When I told about it to my mom she made me apologise to him. I was 17 years old back then. I felt horrible since it was my fault as she said and aside from her the others who know are powerful people who support him.

 

[whenemmafallsinlove]

I tend to think to your call for help sometimes, I don't know if it's me overworrying or there's sort of connection. I am full of resentment for un-manifested "justice" against those monsters, that I feel wrong in letting you feel like this in some years from now.

What I think is. Did you report before dedicating or in your first days as SS ?
I would seriously report again. This time it is possible you'll have more support and energies to carry on justice. You had strong and bold courage once, you may have it twice with a small "boost". I encourage you to act.

I will try to be okay. I am trying to start meditation again. I think it will be the road to my healing and somehow getting justice later on. I need to make myself strong. That's what I believe. I don't know how I feel in words. I am in between as I have told you. But I am journaling about my past and feelings these days and re editing my book. So it's helping too. Do you think if I can use the name of any God or Goddess in my book as a positive character so that the enemy won't know. I want to dedicate something somehow and if there are names that are of the enemies, I would like to use them as negative characters.

 

[ᥫ᭡. Echos ৻ꪆ]

I was molested again today. Why? Is there really a God? I wonder. I want to die. I can't report due to reasons but my past and nightmares are coming back to haunt me.

First of all, it is NOT your fault. He took the decision to molest you.

It's something hard to deal with as a woman and, more often than not, those in your circles will make you feel as if it's your fault. Or that you provoked him. Or other bullshit.

It's not. You're not anything less because you went through this experience. You're not less valuable or less worthy of happiness because of a bad man that did this to you.

Try to seek justice in any way you can. And even if you can't do anything know, it's important to know that he will be punished one day.

Most importantly, you need to take steps in actively avoiding any interactions with him from now on. Is he someone you must be around? If not, just try to completely avoid him and keep away.

I would also look into any opportunity to move away, given that your sad excuse of a mother also blamed it on you when you were just 17 and still a child in so many ways.

 

[whenemmafallsinlove]

I am 20 years old now. I interact with him once or twice a year since he is a distant relative. He does blackmail me from time to time since I had this boyfriend when I was 15 and my dad doesn't know about him. He caused trouble in my life in a bad way. He was a catfish, we met online and i sent him nudes... he was my first love... it was stupid of me... one more reason for me to hate myself... My dad doesn't know about it but that man... the one who is doing bad things to me can tell my dad and my dad will get angry at me... dad can kill me or get me married... so yea... I need to run away from my country but I also need to run away from these circumstances that surround me... sometimes I feel like that man creates issues to manipulate me into submitting which i do... it's a crime in my country to exchange nudes so that too is used as a way to blackmail... when I tried telling the law about the abuse and molest and almost rape... they judged like the police... based on what I sent to my ex who was a criminal who sent my nudes to others... so basically I have been treated like a slut all my life by the people who are supposed to help and save me... sometimes I feel so tired of things from my past coming back because they do like on a break of 6 months and I feel like killing myself again. I had therapy and was on pills and observation for sometime before I was able to start again but there is never a fresh start... somedays I just wait for something to happen so that I can kill myself again... I gave failed 3 times... idk how to succeed 4th time but I wish to... sorry for being so depressing... I hate myself too... things were my fault at some point...

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I will try to be okay. I am trying to start meditation again. I think it will be the road to my healing and somehow getting justice later on. I need to make myself strong. That's what I believe.

Well done! Don't let negative facts and experiences stop you, even if unfortunately are bad.
Regarding justice, as I said I think you are guided by the Gods so you will know when the right moment comes. In the while you can collect proofs or testimonials or anything that will be of use in future, if you want justice. But preserving yourself and putting yourself in a safe situation come first.
In any case you need to distance yourself from that man who raped you. They want to keep victims around for "next use".

I don't know how I feel in words. I am in between as I have told you. But I am journaling about my past and feelings these days and re editing my book. So it's helping too. Do you think if I can use the name of any God or Goddess in my book as a positive character so that the enemy won't know. I want to dedicate something somehow and if there are names that are of the enemies, I would like to use them as negative characters.

I think using the Gods' names is excellent idea. Me and many here will be happy to read your book once written!

I would also look into any opportunity to move away, given that your sad excuse of a mother also blamed it on you when you were just 17 and still a child in so many ways.

I think this is very good advice. It seems your mother did not believe or even protect you in any way, so it's of no support. Also she seems to attract negative people in your life.
Relocating, moving, is of help.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Are you from an islamic country? That could explain why you are having problems in reporting him. Some of the advice others gave is for our countries, not yours.

Do what you can to change your situation. Bind him first off, then do cursing. You might not be able to get him arrested for what he is doing to you in an islamic country, so go at him in a general cursing way, and he can be ended another way, arrested for something else, or anything that will stop him from harming you any more.

Have you contacted any Gods regarding this? Bad things do happen in life even after dedication, but there are ways to lessen them and prevent a lot.

You said the rapist is blackmailing you. It's a fact that many of these types use manipulation to get what they want, but don't actually follow through, like pedophiles who tell kids they will kill their parents if the kid tells anyone. Perhaps he won't tell your father after all.

Do what you can to change your life. Ghost him, because what is he actually going to gain by telling your father? Nothing, he is doing it to get at you. See what you can do to move away somewhere else. You're a young women, there are organizations that help with victims of rape. Start a new life somewhere else.

 

[Friday13thx]

I believe what you are going through is fear of your father... I understand but if you do not let him know about the leaked online nudes you'd keep being a sexual slave to this rapist... if you're a dedicated by blood Satanist then this should disgust you totally... why would an unworthy foul smelling bastard who is an outsider subject a spiritual satanist as yourself for slavery... even Father Satan would be disgusted if you allow such from an outsider who might probably even be a jew.. disgusting!!!... ****... spiritual satanist are not weaklings... Satan is justice.. we create and destroy as needed... black magic is here... curses are here... ****... Spiritual Satanism isn't for the weak... if you would dedicate your soul at the greatest risk of burning in eternal fire forever and ever... why would you then fear a common blackmail?... I don't understand

 

[Karnonnos [JG]]

HPS Lydia is right. First, the best thing to do in this situation immediately is to dedicate and heighten your defenses. Cleansing your Chakras and using Returning Curses 1 & 2 daily without fail, are very helpful in this. Void will help clear your mind. Yoga done daily will help you become strong and unblock issues related to all of this, the crimes done to you will also start to reverse.

This man in the judiciary, if possible, you need to build up your spiritual power slowly through these methods and then curse.

Do not rely on 'at some point or another he will be punished', this is a serious crime that needs retribution. This is not some stupid boy with animal instincts (who would still deserve punishment or cursing, but stll). There is a massive weight to being a legal figure with links to the government, being a verified rapist in that role is profoundly abhorrent, civilization wrecking.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I need to run away from my country but I also need to run away from these circumstances that surround me...
there is never a fresh start

I read, your country and situation are worst than I thought. Sorry for your situation Yes, manipulation leads to do things you don't want to do. Again it's not your fault, being psychologically subdued is like being physically forced, same result. Don't blame yourself.

There are many jobs where people are strongly needed and there's lack of workers, depending on where you live. Working for hotels, cruise ships, hospitals, institutions for elders etc. may give you accommodation, food and a job so you can have your money and freedom. If you choose this way, ask guidance to Satan to find a good place, not to fall in the hands of other exploiters. Opportunities exist.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I am 20 years old now. I interact with him once or twice a year since he is a distant relative. He does blackmail me from time to time since I had this boyfriend when I was 15 and my dad doesn't know about him. He caused trouble in my life in a bad way. He was a catfish, we met online and i sent him nudes... he was my first love... it was stupid of me... one more reason for me to hate myself... My dad doesn't know about it but that man... the one who is doing bad things to me can tell my dad and my dad will get angry at me... dad can kill me or get me married... so yea... I need to run away from my country but I also need to run away from these circumstances that surround me... sometimes I feel like that man creates issues to manipulate me into submitting which i do... it's a crime in my country to exchange nudes so that too is used as a way to blackmail... when I tried telling the law about the abuse and molest and almost rape... they judged like the police... based on what I sent to my ex who was a criminal who sent my nudes to others... so basically I have been treated like a slut all my life by the people who are supposed to help and save me... sometimes I feel so tired of things from my past coming back because they do like on a break of 6 months and I feel like killing myself again. I had therapy and was on pills and observation for sometime before I was able to start again but there is never a fresh start... somedays I just wait for something to happen so that I can kill myself again... I gave failed 3 times... idk how to succeed 4th time but I wish to... sorry for being so depressing... I hate myself too... things were my fault at some point...

It is easy to fall into a trap of accepting too much blame. Yes, things can always be improved or different somehow, but in this case you are accepting these crimes done to you as if your are guilty of them. You must remember that other's criminal actions do not mean you are broken.

It is known in psychology that humans can second guess themselves based off their interaction with their environment and how they perceive whether they are successful or not. However, it is possible for our judgement to be skewed. Even in the case where we performed the right action, someone telling us we failed could make us second guess ourselves unless we guard against this.

I believe that is happening here where you are subconsciously accepting too much blame for what happened, and this leads to feeling broken, destroyed, unhappy, unable to resist, powerless, and so on. You have to remind yourself that at your core, this is not who you are. Even if mistakes were made, you did not want this and you did not ask for these actions to be done to you. These are not your fault; they were crimes done to you as a child. It does not matter even if you had felt confusing feelings of attraction or did not defend yourself well, because this is still not consent.

Furthermore, your potential as a person and in your soul is much higher than this. You will regenerate and grow past this in due time. It may not feel like this, but doing your meditations and other actions for yourself does lead to victory over these criminals. The fundamental exercises of cleaning, protection, yoga, etc give you a basis of health and security, then you can start doing workings and Gods' Rituals to start turning the tide on these problems, which can all be fixed in time.

The Gods who pertain to justice and protection will be your ally here and help you both defend yourself, as well as redevelop a healthy relationship with masculine energy, such that you feel inner power and happiness, nor feel that your outcomes with men trend towards negative ones. There may be an aversion towards them and this is understandable, but they will protect you and heal you. You should do their rituals and/or meditate on their sigils and ask for help.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Thanks for asking. Recently I thought it git better but it started this month again and it's the end of the year. It's not that extreme like it was on that day... I used the word molested but I was raped... I didn't had the strength to say the word but now it feels like nothing... I feel used to it and I shouldn't... I don't understand why I attract only negative and cunning men into my life who took advantage of me. I turned 20 this year. So far the men in my life except some younger cousins and relatives... and my dad at some point... all men were trash. My dad isn't abusive but he was never someone who was present in my childhood and upbringing. So yea... I don't think I can ever find love or a guy and if I do... I don't have the courage to make someone I love settle for someone like me... even if sometimes when I feel attracted to a guy and want to kiss him and maybe sleep with him with my consent which I have never did so far... sometimes this thought makes me feel like a slut... I mean I do want to connect with someone like that... in that way but I had bad experiences. It's complicated to explain. I believe it's wrong to want someone if you love them and there is nothing wrong with wanting to be loved but I feel so doubtful that I need to do tons of things then someone will choose me... can't I just exist and live and then found someone who loves me? Seems impossible for now. Aside from love, everytime I get assaulted or anything, I hate myself more and feel disgusted from myself a lot.

These are generally solar problems, as they pertain to your self-identity and self-value. A lack of this can make you feel like you must make painful sacrifices to have positive outcomes in your life, because this is a reflection of your inner "value creation" onto the environment around you.

There is pain attached to your "sexual channels" and that is why you have conflicting feelings when you go to engage this same part of your soul even under environments of your choosing. It is understandable that your soul will remember and recall the trauma that happened there, and it is also understandable why you would believe it is wrong for this same reason.

As you grow and heal, you will find that you do have the inner strength to get the results you want without a negative "stab" attached to it. You must start rejecting this idea in your head, because it can erode the sense of inner authority that helps you navigate life securely and able to enforce boundaries.

Imagine it like you have a fence or wall that should be there, but because others had violated it, it not feels broken, unsafe, and hard to enforce. As you grow in inner strength and develop the fire energies of your soul, you will relearn how to enforce this both mentally and physically, then this will problem will stop manifesting.

None of this is your fault, but ultimately it is up to you to fix. You are not alone here, either, as many victims had gone through this same path. I would urge you to research the stories and health paths of rape and assault victims and understand how they felt and how they overcame these situations, because that will give you insight for yourself.

In the next months, the Sun will be in Aries, and Mars will be in Leo. Some runes that pertain to the Sun and Mars are Raidho, Sowilo, and Thurisaz, respectively. You can use these runes or the planetary squares in these signs to help you develop inner power, happiness, and a sense of authority and control over your life. Similarly, the rituals of masculine Gods will also help and you can do these even at reduced rune counts if needed, like 5 or 1.

You can use the Warfare Specific AOP to both guard and return any damage that has been inflicted upon you. Even if you did not feel strong enough within one moment of your life to defend yourself, you can do this and restore justice.

Good luck!!

 

[whenemmafallsinlove]

I don't understand. Like whenever I try to practice meditation... I can't last more than a week... I get fever... sick or my roommates are awake so distraction... sometimes it's just me not waking up and nightmares... it was easy to meditate when I dedicated my soul to Satan 5 years ago... I was successful in meditating... I tried summoning a God and saw something beautiful but then things fall apart. I don't want to be weak. I don't want you all to hate me. This place gave me courage during pretty hard times in my life. I am training to be a psychologist and I work well with rape victims but just not myself. I am a hypocrite. I give them advice but I can't take mine. I will begin again with meditation and this time... I won't back down...

 

[SomewhatCoherent]

Are you from an islamic country?

Your roommates might have some negative entities around them. If they are muslim they could be surrounded by enemy entities or thought-forms. Try to do 1 simple meditation practice everyday, something that only takes 5-10mins. If you have more time you can do more. Just try to set a absolute minimum that you will do no matter what. You can build it into your routine in the morning. This way if you are having a bad day or week you at least got something done.

I am training to be a psychologist and I work well with rape victims but just not myself. I am a hypocrite. I give them advice but I can't take mine. I will begin again with meditation and this time... I won't back down...

Don't feel bad about this because the girls you help are also going to experience this. Saying one thing and doing another its part of the healing process. Don't back down... is the only attitude, don't let small missteps get you down. Everyone here is rooting for you.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I don't understand. Like whenever I try to practice meditation... I can't last more than a week... I get fever... sick or my roommates are awake so distraction... sometimes it's just me not waking up and nightmares... it was easy to meditate when I dedicated my soul to Satan 5 years ago... I was successful in meditating... I tried summoning a God and saw something beautiful but then things fall apart.

I think your programmed mind is turning against meditation and Satanic stuff. Also your reapist mind can wortk against it, as connected to yours.
Reading may help a lot, it worked for me by "preparing" the mind to meditate better by knocking down the enemy programming inside us or the abuser's will. Like reading exposing christianity or exposing islam or either exposing communism part 1 and part 2; even if your previous religion or belief is different, it works to remove mental blocks towards Satan and the Gods. On the positive side you can read again all the JoS site. I think I read them even 7-8 times in full, sometimes I read parts again as my mind tends to forget.

I don't want to be weak. I don't want you all to hate me. This place gave me courage during pretty hard times in my life.

I do not hate you, why should I hate a person striving to Satan and the truth?

I am training to be a psychologist and I work well with rape victims but just not myself. I am a hypocrite. I give them advice but I can't take mine. I will begin again with meditation and this time... I won't back down...

I am not so skilled but I studied some books and it happens the same for me. I can see patterns in others, while it's very hard to fix mine and even acknowledge this due to internal struggle. I do think this happens to many others, not only you.

See it this way, if you will become a psychologist, you will be able to add Satanic knowledge to psychology that is a giant boost. I wish you the best of success in this, don't give up!

I give an example, psychology talks about that "inner child" theory on abuse survivors. This truly exists, I have proof on myself, like a "fragmented" part of the mind. But this you already know much better thank me.
What astonished me is, while contacting this part, a very evident thoughtform manifested close to me while meditating. It came from the astral like a flying entity! I am not the best in visualization but I could perfectly sense and feel it, it was even able to talk to me with basic thoughts. What psychology does not know is, this "child" was connected to my soul and even to my abusive father's soul, sort of trapped. This caused an emotional "bridge", even detaching chakra links was not enough, I still was under the abuser's mind control.
Solving this required me to accept the child I was, without blaming myself anymore, so that I stopped connecting to this thoughtform that eventually faded (or is still fading) because I don't feed it anymore. Now that I tell this, it seems easy. But I needed many months to even understand this in myself.