TanzanianGod
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Greetings.
I will explain everything necessary so that I can get the desired help. I don’t know if i am the only facing this, But I really need your help.
I have been silent for a while. Not posting anything. My Chakras are all fully open and no blockages at all. My initial serpent rising happened months. This is just to let you reading know that i have no energy blockages at all.
Something else is hurting me. Something that i started noticing maybe 6months ago. Whenever I meditate for sometime I start feeling weak and unresponsive, low sex drive, lack of motivation, laziness and lack of emotional expression.
The first time I noticed this was when it became too much that I couldn’t understand what was happening. I had no desire for sex or life. Though I wasn’t depressed at all. I decided to stop meditating for a while like 2months. And it did help me a-lot.
When I stopped meditating, Had a lot of physical energy, sexual desire was back. And i was working harder than ever. It was the time that I made the most amount of money in a very short time. But then after three months or so, I started feeling like shit and had to get back to my meditation.
Once I got back with meditating. I don’t do too much at all. I only do 150 reps of my workings. And i try to be physical. I go to the gym. I never sleep during the day. The first 10days of meditating were amazing. Sex drive all high. Passion for life amazing.
But then things started going the same way as last time. Low energy. Low life drive, low sex drive, and so many weak stuff. I feel very disappointed. I tried reducing my reps but nothing is changing much. I am so confused right now. I hate this state. Sometimes I feel like I would rather die. I am actually typing this with tears on my eyes.
What I desire is to get back the thrill of life i had. I am just at the prime of my life. Why is this happening to me? Why the low energy? I did stop doing the RTR’s because they would also give me the low buzz. I never thought I would ever be afraid of meditating.
I don’t mean to be selfish and egoistic about myself, by throwing my problem out there. But i guess it’s natural and a good thing for me to want to live a good and satisfying life. What should i do? Please help me. HP; anyone.
I will explain everything necessary so that I can get the desired help. I don’t know if i am the only facing this, But I really need your help.
I have been silent for a while. Not posting anything. My Chakras are all fully open and no blockages at all. My initial serpent rising happened months. This is just to let you reading know that i have no energy blockages at all.
Something else is hurting me. Something that i started noticing maybe 6months ago. Whenever I meditate for sometime I start feeling weak and unresponsive, low sex drive, lack of motivation, laziness and lack of emotional expression.
The first time I noticed this was when it became too much that I couldn’t understand what was happening. I had no desire for sex or life. Though I wasn’t depressed at all. I decided to stop meditating for a while like 2months. And it did help me a-lot.
When I stopped meditating, Had a lot of physical energy, sexual desire was back. And i was working harder than ever. It was the time that I made the most amount of money in a very short time. But then after three months or so, I started feeling like shit and had to get back to my meditation.
Once I got back with meditating. I don’t do too much at all. I only do 150 reps of my workings. And i try to be physical. I go to the gym. I never sleep during the day. The first 10days of meditating were amazing. Sex drive all high. Passion for life amazing.
But then things started going the same way as last time. Low energy. Low life drive, low sex drive, and so many weak stuff. I feel very disappointed. I tried reducing my reps but nothing is changing much. I am so confused right now. I hate this state. Sometimes I feel like I would rather die. I am actually typing this with tears on my eyes.
What I desire is to get back the thrill of life i had. I am just at the prime of my life. Why is this happening to me? Why the low energy? I did stop doing the RTR’s because they would also give me the low buzz. I never thought I would ever be afraid of meditating.
I don’t mean to be selfish and egoistic about myself, by throwing my problem out there. But i guess it’s natural and a good thing for me to want to live a good and satisfying life. What should i do? Please help me. HP; anyone.