i'm worried about my family

[Crystallized Mushroom]

my family today namely my parents and already 2 of my brothers and uncle got the covid shot because they had too and they might try to convince me to get it and my two youngest siblings might be forced to get it i guess its true my family are fucking stupid NPCs who do this cause they wanna travel the world i think something bad might happen to them now i don't know if they will survive the next years i refuse to take this shot i'd rather be homeless or just die instead of taking it. :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:

 

[NinRick]

my family today namely my parents and already 2 of my brothers and uncle got the covid shot because they had too and they might try to convince me to get it and my two youngest siblings might be forced to get it i guess its true my family are fucking stupid NPCs who do this cause they wanna travel the world i think something bad might happen to them now i don't know if they will survive the next years i refuse to take this shot i'd rather be homeless or just die instead of taking it. :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:

Don’t take it.

 

[Henu the Great]

my family today namely my parents and already 2 of my brothers and uncle got the covid shot because they had too and they might try to convince me to get it and my two youngest siblings might be forced to get it i guess its true my family are fucking stupid NPCs who do this cause they wanna travel the world i think something bad might happen to them now i don't know if they will survive the next years i refuse to take this shot i'd rather be homeless or just die instead of taking it. :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:

How are they going to convince you of taking it when you know it's bad for you? They can not hold you down and forcefully inject you either, or they would infringe your rights and free will by doing so.

You are legally an adult. Stand your ground.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

my family today namely my parents and already 2 of my brothers and uncle got the covid shot because they had too and they might try to convince me to get it and my two youngest siblings might be forced to get it i guess its true my family are fucking stupid NPCs who do this cause they wanna travel the world i think something bad might happen to them now i don't know if they will survive the next years i refuse to take this shot i'd rather be homeless or just die instead of taking it. :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:

How are they going to convince you of taking it when you know it's bad for you? They can not hold you down and forcefully inject you either, or they would infringe your rights and free will by doing so.

You are legally an adult. Stand your ground.

i know they can't force me cause i'm an adult i just feel bad for them i think something will happen and of course i told i won't travel with them due to the fucking vaccine.

 

[Mastermind]

Tell them that it's unwise that an entire family take a flight at the same time. One flight crash and the whole lineage is wiped out. Millions of years of hardship and evolution destroyed.
For the same reason, it's unwise that an entire family take the vaccine as the long term effects are not known.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

also earlier today my mom said i should just take it cause i have to cause of work i live in the united states btw.

 

[Henu the Great]

my family today namely my parents and already 2 of my brothers and uncle got the covid shot because they had too and they might try to convince me to get it and my two youngest siblings might be forced to get it i guess its true my family are fucking stupid NPCs who do this cause they wanna travel the world i think something bad might happen to them now i don't know if they will survive the next years i refuse to take this shot i'd rather be homeless or just die instead of taking it. :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:

How are they going to convince you of taking it when you know it's bad for you? They can not hold you down and forcefully inject you either, or they would infringe your rights and free will by doing so.
You are legally an adult. Stand your ground.

i know they can't force me cause i'm an adult i just feel bad for them i think something will happen and of course i told i won't travel with them due to the fucking vaccine.

That is understandable concern. However, you as a SS can give them leeway by personal advancement by extension (Gods helping you out, since you help them out by advancing) and by more direct approach by doing workings on them.

You should be less worried about all the bad stuff, and more focusing on the possibilities and opportunities this Path gives you and your family.

Having travelling restrictions is of course a let down, but at the same time we have important things to do aside from leisure and once these are done, we can travel as much as we want.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

How are they going to convince you of taking it when you know it's bad for you? They can not hold you down and forcefully inject you either, or they would infringe your rights and free will by doing so.
You are legally an adult. Stand your ground.

i know they can't force me cause i'm an adult i just feel bad for them i think something will happen and of course i told i won't travel with them due to the fucking vaccine.

That is understandable concern. However, you as a SS can give them leeway by personal advancement by extension (Gods helping you out, since you help them out by advancing) and by more direct approach by doing workings on them.

You should be less worried about all the bad stuff, and more focusing on the possibilities and opportunities this Path gives you and your family.

Having travelling restrictions is of course a let down, but at the same time we have important things to do aside from leisure and once these are done, we can travel as much as we want.

UPDATE: well i give up on my family they are lost causes they all except me took the vaccine cause of the travel thing even though i told them multiple times about the dangers of the vaccine and gave them mainstream examples of the damages but they won't listen they think anyone against the vaccine is insane.. and i had an argument with them about how evil religion is and told them this is the reason the people and culture keeps promoting wrong things like how people treat each other and how expensive things are and such then they called one of my younger brothers who said why do i care about these religions what have they done to me nonsense and i told him look at the state of the world and such i didn't bother getting into the fact that i'm circumcised or even tell them the whole why having having consensual sex is restricted cause of these fucking evil religions so i give up they are probably gonna die within a few years or decade over their dumb choices or be segregated when the National Socialists take over so i give up on them there is no point of talking to NPCs its pointless.

all i can do now is focus on myself and become independent as soon as possible to get away from this insanity at this point. sigh if only any job or career can make me independent and that it wasn't so expensive oh well guess i'll have to forcemyself to get a good skill even though none of them ever interested me and yes i looked at my astrology chart and there were alot of career options like make money off of art don't know how that'll work none anyway i'm done complaining i just wanna act and hopefully never see my family ever again i hate family love

 

[Henu the Great]

UPDATE: well i give up on my family they are lost causes they all except me took the vaccine cause of the travel thing even though i told them multiple times about the dangers of the vaccine and gave them mainstream examples of the damages but they won't listen they think anyone against the vaccine is insane.. and i had an argument with them about how evil religion is and told them this is the reason the people and culture keeps promoting wrong things like how people treat each other and how expensive things are and such then they called one of my younger brothers who said why do i care about these religions what have they done to me nonsense and i told him look at the state of the world and such i didn't bother getting into the fact that i'm circumcised or even tell them the whole why having having consensual sex is restricted cause of these fucking evil religions so i give up they are probably gonna die within a few years or decade over their dumb choices or be segregated when the National Socialists take over so i give up on them there is no point of talking to NPCs its pointless.

all i can do now is focus on myself and become independent as soon as possible to get away from this insanity at this point. sigh if only any job or career can make me independent and that it wasn't so expensive oh well guess i'll have to forcemyself to get a good skill even though none of them ever interested me and yes i looked at my astrology chart and there were alot of career options like make money off of art don't know how that'll work none anyway i'm done complaining i just wanna act and hopefully never see my family ever again i hate family love

Focusing on being independent and so on is to be expected from a man, no matter what, but to go to this kind of extreme due to enemy programming on your family is counterproductive. As far as you have shared here they are not abusive to you or anything like that. Worst aspect seems to be the (((programming))) they are under which can be totally avoided with working on your aura, steeling your mind and by doing spiritual warfare.

I would take a step back, evaluate the situation with more clear mind when the emotions have settled and go from there. They are your family after all, never mind the influence they are under.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

UPDATE: well i give up on my family they are lost causes they all except me took the vaccine cause of the travel thing even though i told them multiple times about the dangers of the vaccine and gave them mainstream examples of the damages but they won't listen they think anyone against the vaccine is insane.. and i had an argument with them about how evil religion is and told them this is the reason the people and culture keeps promoting wrong things like how people treat each other and how expensive things are and such then they called one of my younger brothers who said why do i care about these religions what have they done to me nonsense and i told him look at the state of the world and such i didn't bother getting into the fact that i'm circumcised or even tell them the whole why having having consensual sex is restricted cause of these fucking evil religions so i give up they are probably gonna die within a few years or decade over their dumb choices or be segregated when the National Socialists take over so i give up on them there is no point of talking to NPCs its pointless.

all i can do now is focus on myself and become independent as soon as possible to get away from this insanity at this point. sigh if only any job or career can make me independent and that it wasn't so expensive oh well guess i'll have to forcemyself to get a good skill even though none of them ever interested me and yes i looked at my astrology chart and there were alot of career options like make money off of art don't know how that'll work none anyway i'm done complaining i just wanna act and hopefully never see my family ever again i hate family love

Focusing on being independent and so on is to be expected from a man, no matter what, but to go to this kind of extreme due to enemy programming on your family is counterproductive. As far as you have shared here they are not abusive to you or anything like that. Worst aspect seems to be the (((programming))) they are under which can be totally avoided with working on your aura, steeling your mind and by doing spiritual warfare.

I would take a step back, evaluate the situation with more clear mind when the emotions have settled and go from there. They are your family after all, never mind the influence they are under.

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

 

[Henu the Great]

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

It does not seen reasonable to throw family love in the trash because you still have the option of growing as a person and making your own family.

I am sure that you have not thought this over completely. All the worries you have can be fixed when you apply the correct solutions. You have a list of health related issues and financial hardship which all can be solved by working very hard on yourself for a few years.

US is a big country. The place where I am currently living could fit into one of your states and prices vary quite a bit from municipality to municipality. And you have fifty states... Prices vary from county to county and from state to state. I do not find your statement of expensiveness completely true.

If you are so serious about cutting ties with your family then how much of an effort you have made to research all the available options for work, school, housing, government grants and state legislature relating to these?

I think it is high time you show some initiative since your first Saturn return is knocking on the door and if you don't get up and answer the call you are going to be a 40 year virgin basement dweller. Or something else not quite nice. I am not making threaths here, just stating basic reality.

 

[NinRick]

UPDATE: well i give up on my family they are lost causes they all except me took the vaccine cause of the travel thing even though i told them multiple times about the dangers of the vaccine and gave them mainstream examples of the damages but they won't listen they think anyone against the vaccine is insane.. and i had an argument with them about how evil religion is and told them this is the reason the people and culture keeps promoting wrong things like how people treat each other and how expensive things are and such then they called one of my younger brothers who said why do i care about these religions what have they done to me nonsense and i told him look at the state of the world and such i didn't bother getting into the fact that i'm circumcised or even tell them the whole why having having consensual sex is restricted cause of these fucking evil religions so i give up they are probably gonna die within a few years or decade over their dumb choices or be segregated when the National Socialists take over so i give up on them there is no point of talking to NPCs its pointless.

all i can do now is focus on myself and become independent as soon as possible to get away from this insanity at this point. sigh if only any job or career can make me independent and that it wasn't so expensive oh well guess i'll have to forcemyself to get a good skill even though none of them ever interested me and yes i looked at my astrology chart and there were alot of career options like make money off of art don't know how that'll work none anyway i'm done complaining i just wanna act and hopefully never see my family ever again i hate family love

Focusing on being independent and so on is to be expected from a man, no matter what, but to go to this kind of extreme due to enemy programming on your family is counterproductive. As far as you have shared here they are not abusive to you or anything like that. Worst aspect seems to be the (((programming))) they are under which can be totally avoided with working on your aura, steeling your mind and by doing spiritual warfare.

I would take a step back, evaluate the situation with more clear mind when the emotions have settled and go from there. They are your family after all, never mind the influence they are under.

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

Not having a relationship at this point can also be due tio your astrology chart, look at it and see if this is the case.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Focusing on being independent and so on is to be expected from a man, no matter what, but to go to this kind of extreme due to enemy programming on your family is counterproductive. As far as you have shared here they are not abusive to you or anything like that. Worst aspect seems to be the (((programming))) they are under which can be totally avoided with working on your aura, steeling your mind and by doing spiritual warfare.

I would take a step back, evaluate the situation with more clear mind when the emotions have settled and go from there. They are your family after all, never mind the influence they are under.

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

Not having a relationship at this point can also be due tio your astrology chart, look at it and see if this is the case.

i have a few astrology aspects against having money and relationship and sex yes i don't know why did i do something to deserve this? it said if i have love i would remain in a bad relationship out of duty and have much misfortune with love and sex. i have enough problems as is and virtually no motivation to be independent due to how expensive it is to have a simple one bedroom apartment and i live in the US BTW unless i get like a section 8 housing or someting there is no way i can save enough to make it i can't give over 1000 a month plus utilities for a 1 bedroom apartment plus food of course with the two basic jobs i have so far and they won't give me full time despite saying how much they like me and all anyways its easy for me to make new friends just that no one cares about me sexually or romantically guess i'm not allowed....

i don't know what kind of job i'll need to be independent what with all the shit happening in the world it seems too late to even try to be independent and of course all my family but me took the fucking corona jab and probably won't be alive for many years so i ahve no choice or end up on the street... well at least i'm learning the road rules to drive and all right now and my parents said they'll help pay for my first apartment partially so its not all bad

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Focusing on being independent and so on is to be expected from a man, no matter what, but to go to this kind of extreme due to enemy programming on your family is counterproductive. As far as you have shared here they are not abusive to you or anything like that. Worst aspect seems to be the (((programming))) they are under which can be totally avoided with working on your aura, steeling your mind and by doing spiritual warfare.

I would take a step back, evaluate the situation with more clear mind when the emotions have settled and go from there. They are your family after all, never mind the influence they are under.

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

Not having a relationship at this point can also be due tio your astrology chart, look at it and see if this is the case.

you probably feel that i'm pathetic what with how i don't feel happy about anything even though i know my life is getting better at this point and as i said in my reply to you my astrology is against me as far as money and relationships are concerned

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Focusing on being independent and so on is to be expected from a man, no matter what, but to go to this kind of extreme due to enemy programming on your family is counterproductive. As far as you have shared here they are not abusive to you or anything like that. Worst aspect seems to be the (((programming))) they are under which can be totally avoided with working on your aura, steeling your mind and by doing spiritual warfare.

I would take a step back, evaluate the situation with more clear mind when the emotions have settled and go from there. They are your family after all, never mind the influence they are under.

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

Not having a relationship at this point can also be due tio your astrology chart, look at it and see if this is the case.

so what should i do if i feel its wrong for me to have sex and relationships after all i know i would be required to go on "dates" and those can get really expensive which seems pointless especially waiting ten fucking dates to have sex for the first time and having to put as my parents and therapist put it EXTREME WORK to get a relationship to work which seems pointless since i don't want to travel due to lockdowns and covid and nothing makes me happy anymore even taking care of myself which i do but am starting to fail due to still being fat and all and as i said doing stuff by myself feels pointless why does society make it very difficult to have a relationship or even get sex these days hell a woman can get it very easily due to male desperation but a man is "expected" to put in extreme effort plus make a ton of money which i don't have much money at all.


also what is required to make a relationship work anyway?

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Focusing on being independent and so on is to be expected from a man, no matter what, but to go to this kind of extreme due to enemy programming on your family is counterproductive. As far as you have shared here they are not abusive to you or anything like that. Worst aspect seems to be the (((programming))) they are under which can be totally avoided with working on your aura, steeling your mind and by doing spiritual warfare.

I would take a step back, evaluate the situation with more clear mind when the emotions have settled and go from there. They are your family after all, never mind the influence they are under.

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

Not having a relationship at this point can also be due tio your astrology chart, look at it and see if this is the case.

also i forgot to add i feel so down with how my life and how the stuff in the country i'm in United States is going i'm not sure i could be independent in a year if thats even possible if society allows at this point i feel like giving up and dying cause the facet i feel no motivation toward anything or even happy except having weird dreams and thinking they are more real than reality is really sad and i lost any love i have toward my family depite them wanting to help me so much due to the past and how i don't trust parents or authority figures in general....

 

[Blackdragon666]

Crystallized Mushroom you need to stop having this self-pitying attitude. Or at least work towards getting over it. Most of us haven't had it too smooth either and much struggle was needed to better our lives. When you pity yourself too much, you are subconsciously accepting that you can't get over your situation which works to keep you stuck where you are.

Getting control over your emotions is of extreme importance. They can be your undoing. People have been having sex since time immemorial and they will into the infinite future so don't let it get to you. It's really nothing new and you can fix this in a short while.

The Moon is almost full and in Taurus which is a good time for a money working. You can attract better paying jobs.

You need to stop pitying yourself. Look at it as someone else analyzing your situation and giving objective advise with feelings put aside.

 

[Blackdragon666]

Crystallized Mushroom you need to stop having this self-pitying attitude. Or at least work towards getting over it. Most of us haven't had it too smooth either and much struggle was needed to better our lives. When you pity yourself too much, you are subconsciously accepting that you can't get over your situation which works to keep you stuck where you are.

Getting control over your emotions is of extreme importance. They can be your undoing. People have been having sex since time immemorial and they will into the infinite future so don't let it get to you. It's really nothing new and you can fix this in a short while.

The Moon is almost full and in Taurus which is a good time for a money working. You can attract better paying jobs.

You need to stop pitying yourself. Look at it as someone else analyzing your situation and giving objective advise with feelings put aside.

*advice

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Crystallized Mushroom you need to stop having this self-pitying attitude. Or at least work towards getting over it. Most of us haven't had it too smooth either and much struggle was needed to better our lives. When you pity yourself too much, you are subconsciously accepting that you can't get over your situation which works to keep you stuck where you are.

Getting control over your emotions is of extreme importance. They can be your undoing. People have been having sex since time immemorial and they will into the infinite future so don't let it get to you. It's really nothing new and you can fix this in a short while.

The Moon is almost full and in Taurus which is a good time for a money working. You can attract better paying jobs.

You need to stop pitying yourself. Look at it as someone else analyzing your situation and giving objective advise with feelings put aside.

thank you for the advice your right i do have a self pity attitude also what is an estimate that i can fix my money and lack of love/sex problems? like how many days months years?

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Crystallized Mushroom you need to stop having this self-pitying attitude. Or at least work towards getting over it. Most of us haven't had it too smooth either and much struggle was needed to better our lives. When you pity yourself too much, you are subconsciously accepting that you can't get over your situation which works to keep you stuck where you are.

Getting control over your emotions is of extreme importance. They can be your undoing. People have been having sex since time immemorial and they will into the infinite future so don't let it get to you. It's really nothing new and you can fix this in a short while.

The Moon is almost full and in Taurus which is a good time for a money working. You can attract better paying jobs.

You need to stop pitying yourself. Look at it as someone else analyzing your situation and giving objective advise with feelings put aside.

also i forgot to add one detail in the previous post i'm not upset or bothered by others having sex i just want to experience it myself before i turn 35 in 6 years. i'm sure you understand.

aslo one more thing what kind of paying job would i need to be independent?

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

It does not seen reasonable to throw family love in the trash because you still have the option of growing as a person and making your own family.

I am sure that you have not thought this over completely. All the worries you have can be fixed when you apply the correct solutions. You have a list of health related issues and financial hardship which all can be solved by working very hard on yourself for a few years.

US is a big country. The place where I am currently living could fit into one of your states and prices vary quite a bit from municipality to municipality. And you have fifty states... Prices vary from county to county and from state to state. I do not find your statement of expensiveness completely true.

If you are so serious about cutting ties with your family then how much of an effort you have made to research all the available options for work, school, housing, government grants and state legislature relating to these?

I think it is high time you show some initiative since your first Saturn return is knocking on the door and if you don't get up and answer the call you are going to be a 40 year virgin basement dweller. Or something else not quite nice. I am not making threaths here, just stating basic reality.

i have a question is the reason i've been upset and complaining way more than usual due to some planetary transit like a Saturn return like you said ?
cause i was sorta feeling suicidal for some reason and i threatened suicide in another post

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

UPDATE: well i do feel strangely better and more calm now and more motivated to get my life moving even if its just exercising and eating better i have no idea what made me go loony tunes the past few weeks on here and with my family what with all my complaining and stuff. my therapist gave me some more advice and shes right i need to stop worrying about the future and all which i do for some reason :roll: :roll: :roll: :roll: if bad things happen outside of my control like the United States which i live in goes into chaos then i'll just adjust and survive in the meantime i'll better myself and get rid of my hangups over relationships/sex and money and the lack of self-esteem i have and also cope more like i have been doing

also anyone have good spells and physical ways to obtain the stuff mentioned and what is the best one i should work on first the self-esteem issue or the money issue?

also one more question how much would it cost to start a cleaning business or a metaphysical supply store? i'm interested in one day starting one of these two

 

[Henu the Great]

i have a question is the reason i've been upset and complaining way more than usual due to some planetary transit like a Saturn return like you said ?
cause i was sorta feeling suicidal for some reason and i threatened suicide in another post

First Saturn return is about maturation process. Look it up online from various sources to get some sort of an idea.

UPDATE: well i do feel strangely better and more calm now and more motivated to get my life moving even if its just exercising and eating better i have no idea what made me go loony tunes the past few weeks on here and with my family what with all my complaining and stuff. my therapist gave me some more advice and shes right i need to stop worrying about the future and all which i do for some reason :roll: :roll: :roll: :roll: if bad things happen outside of my control like the United States which i live in goes into chaos then i'll just adjust and survive in the meantime i'll better myself and get rid of my hangups over relationships/sex and money and the lack of self-esteem i have and also cope more like i have been doing

You need to be in control of yourself at all times first and foremost. It's part of the process of being a Man. You can't reach far when you are not under control.

also anyone have good spells and physical ways to obtain the stuff mentioned and what is the best one i should work on first the self-esteem issue or the money issue?

You should use search and learn what JoS has to offer.

also one more question how much would it cost to start a cleaning business or a metaphysical supply store? i'm interested in one day starting one of these two

Realistically, you should be able to take care of yourself first before you go on to business venture because then you are also accountable to make the business work, and possibly accountable to the people you hire if you are not working alone. Once you have your life under control in a way that you can handle your day to day life without any problems, it is time to expand. First things first, you know.

And also, please study. No one should spoon feed you at this point. You are grown up, and should be able to find out about stuff without needing others to give you easy to digest for every thing.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

your right they are not abusive to me although i can no longer except any kind of love at this point in my life except ROMANTIC LOVE AND SEXUAL LOVE i tried giving family love a chance but after years of stupid bullshit from my family with restricting me from certain things like getting a girlfriend when i was in high school cause of fear of getting a girl pregnant has left me to this day feeling not allowed to ever have sex and relationships at all period alongside shitty experiences from people growing up and from the first two jobs i had except the two current jobs i have where i made all my friends from and have received nothing but good experiences but lets be real for a second i should have experienced way more by now due to being 29 now and should have had a couple of relationships by now but nothing happened the only people who might care about me that way are the matches i got on tinder but that i didn't realize you have to pay for tinder.



also i used to care about family love brotherly love etc when i was a kid and before i found out i was circumcised due to islam but after finding out about that i literally lost all my respect for my parents period. sure they are nice to me and all but after shitty experiences and that and never having sex and relationships i gave up on appreciating just about everything even traveling which i wanted to do now i don't care anymore all the good stuff currently happening to me like the three male friends i have one of which i hangout with once a week or once every two weeks feels fucking pointless to me completely i can't even enjoy nature like i used to i feel so fucking broken at this point even food i eat too fast for the most part feels pointless evn though i need it and sometimes i don't even breathe as much i feel like with how expensive it is to be independent and how not every job can make you independent and how life is mostly just working makes me feel like a slave and it feels pointless cause like i said before in a National Socialist society i could make wealth way more easier be with my Race the Arabs without islam and its evil laws have more affordable housing and if i can't find a relationship at all then at least go to a Arab Brothel and experience at least at this point losing my virginity and sex at least once just to know what its like if anything cause i'm not confident i'll get a relationship or feel attracted to anyone at all period

sorry for the rant i hope you have a better view why i feel so empty to all the good things happening to me i don't think i can be independent in this country the United States the prices even for just a 1 bedroom apartment are just too expensive for me to afford not counting utilties sand gas of course

It does not seen reasonable to throw family love in the trash because you still have the option of growing as a person and making your own family.

I am sure that you have not thought this over completely. All the worries you have can be fixed when you apply the correct solutions. You have a list of health related issues and financial hardship which all can be solved by working very hard on yourself for a few years.

US is a big country. The place where I am currently living could fit into one of your states and prices vary quite a bit from municipality to municipality. And you have fifty states... Prices vary from county to county and from state to state. I do not find your statement of expensiveness completely true.

If you are so serious about cutting ties with your family then how much of an effort you have made to research all the available options for work, school, housing, government grants and state legislature relating to these?

I think it is high time you show some initiative since your first Saturn return is knocking on the door and if you don't get up and answer the call you are going to be a 40 year virgin basement dweller. Or something else not quite nice. I am not making threaths here, just stating basic reality.

i really don't care or want FAMILY LOVE OR BROTHERLY LOVE NEVER AGAIN FUCK THAT BULLSHIT PERIOD. i know the three things i want to obtain out of life but first i need to be independent and make a "career" to even have a chance at what i want and no i don't want to start a family i'm too old to start one it should of happened years ago its too late i would need to have a wife and lose my virginity to have a "family" which no one is interested in doing that with me right now and as i stated before i'm a virgin also why would i want a family i have a problem being responsible unless i write it down on a list i could never handle a family i see nothing good about having children especially a son cause as my dad stated i'm allowed to have a wife of "any race" and also the its okay to circumcise my son if i had one and the stupid monotheistic faiths fuck them hell even my dad last night brought up how he found this website and thinks your all "lunatics" and calmly and neutrally answered his questions about the forums and the answers were what i expected he said how could Satan lose if hes God and how can you create energy when science says you can't and then he started with aliens existing is a conspiracy and that well muhammad predicted people would turn on kikes and religion and i just went along with it to not start a fight ....


but since i live in the united states i can't just take any job and be independent cause housing is very expensive and all i was told by my therapist to get an entry level job just to afford a one bedroom apartment........

look i have to many hangups and feelings telling me i'm not allowed to do this and that etc. so even if i was independent i wouldn't feel allowed to get what i want out of life at all just instead spend hard earned money on not being homeless.

 

[Henu the Great]

I think you should do a solid 365 days non stop cleaning and freeing the soul workings minimun before you claim any wants from life. Things clear up when obstacles are removed.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

I think you should do a solid 365 days non stop cleaning and freeing the soul workings minimun before you claim any wants from life. Things clear up when obstacles are removed.

sounds like an excellent idea will this remove my hangups though cause i want them gone i want to feellike i'm allowed to do what i want and not feel like a sense of fear or punishment over thinking against abrahamic shit.

also like i said fuck family love and brotherly love i will never trust my parents or siblings again period they are too far gone

 

[Henu the Great]

sounds like an excellent idea will this remove my hangups though cause i want them gone i want to feellike i'm allowed to do what i want and not feel like a sense of fear or punishment over thinking against abrahamic shit.

Yes, this will help you grow and evolve in a beneficial way for you. Considering the energies around you where you live the cleaning aspect should be consistently done, and mastered. Same with aop. You should not let anything negative let you bring you down, nor make you waver.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

sounds like an excellent idea will this remove my hangups though cause i want them gone i want to feellike i'm allowed to do what i want and not feel like a sense of fear or punishment over thinking against abrahamic shit.

Yes, this will help you grow and evolve in a beneficial way for you. Considering the energies around you where you live the cleaning aspect should be consistently done, and mastered. Same with aop. You should not let anything negative let you bring you down, nor make you waver.

aww good good and yes negative things for the past few weeks have been bringing me down for some reason i even told 2 of my friends how i was thinking of severing contact with all my friends and family period and possibly getting rid of my two jobs due to not getting a livable wage and cause i don't really value friends and family and money anymore i know what i want from life its simple just three personal things alongside National Socialism and its Romantic Relationship, losing virginity and getting a foreskin nothing else seems to make me wanna live at this point sorry.... also i like my dreams when i sleep better than reality i hate my reality just the same shitty routine either i feel like doing nothing or go on walks or sit at the PC or eat something and take a supplement or just interact sometimes with friends by texting them or interacting with family it all feels pointless....

also how do i know i'm visualizing right?

also iwanted to add i felt so bad about not having a relationship i used to feel like cutting off my penis and commiting suicide

 

[Blackdragon666]

Crystallized Mushroom you need to stop having this self-pitying attitude. Or at least work towards getting over it. Most of us haven't had it too smooth either and much struggle was needed to better our lives. When you pity yourself too much, you are subconsciously accepting that you can't get over your situation which works to keep you stuck where you are.

Getting control over your emotions is of extreme importance. They can be your undoing. People have been having sex since time immemorial and they will into the infinite future so don't let it get to you. It's really nothing new and you can fix this in a short while.

The Moon is almost full and in Taurus which is a good time for a money working. You can attract better paying jobs.

You need to stop pitying yourself. Look at it as someone else analyzing your situation and giving objective advise with feelings put aside.

also i forgot to add one detail in the previous post i'm not upset or bothered by others having sex i just want to experience it myself before i turn 35 in 6 years. i'm sure you understand.

aslo one more thing what kind of paying job would i need to be independent?

In every occupation, there are people who earn a lot. Whatever your line of work is, you can definitely earn more be it through better paying clients, employers and so on.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Crystallized Mushroom you need to stop having this self-pitying attitude. Or at least work towards getting over it. Most of us haven't had it too smooth either and much struggle was needed to better our lives. When you pity yourself too much, you are subconsciously accepting that you can't get over your situation which works to keep you stuck where you are.

Getting control over your emotions is of extreme importance. They can be your undoing. People have been having sex since time immemorial and they will into the infinite future so don't let it get to you. It's really nothing new and you can fix this in a short while.

The Moon is almost full and in Taurus which is a good time for a money working. You can attract better paying jobs.

You need to stop pitying yourself. Look at it as someone else analyzing your situation and giving objective advise with feelings put aside.

also i forgot to add one detail in the previous post i'm not upset or bothered by others having sex i just want to experience it myself before i turn 35 in 6 years. i'm sure you understand.

aslo one more thing what kind of paying job would i need to be independent?

In every occupation, there are people who earn a lot. Whatever your line of work is, you can definitely earn more be it through better paying clients, employers and so on.

that makes sense okay i'll do what i can more MONEH :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen:

 

[Henu the Great]

aww good good and yes negative things for the past few weeks have been bringing me down for some reason i even told 2 of my friends how i was thinking of severing contact with all my friends and family period and possibly getting rid of my two jobs due to not getting a livable wage and cause i don't really value friends and family and money anymore i know what i want from life its simple just three personal things alongside National Socialism and its Romantic Relationship, losing virginity and getting a foreskin nothing else seems to make me wanna live at this point sorry.... also i like my dreams when i sleep better than reality i hate my reality just the same shitty routine either i feel like doing nothing or go on walks or sit at the PC or eat something and take a supplement or just interact sometimes with friends by texting them or interacting with family it all feels pointless....

All the more reason to begin establishing a steady meditation routine.

also how do i know i'm visualizing right?

You are visualizing, and that's that.

also iwanted to add i felt so bad about not having a relationship i used to feel like cutting off my penis and commiting suicide

Don't give up. It's always worse choice than struggling to improve and to overcome obstacles. You are here, which means many things. You have the opportunity to improve with this great community here. Use this opportunity wisely. Not everyone gets this.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

aww good good and yes negative things for the past few weeks have been bringing me down for some reason i even told 2 of my friends how i was thinking of severing contact with all my friends and family period and possibly getting rid of my two jobs due to not getting a livable wage and cause i don't really value friends and family and money anymore i know what i want from life its simple just three personal things alongside National Socialism and its Romantic Relationship, losing virginity and getting a foreskin nothing else seems to make me wanna live at this point sorry.... also i like my dreams when i sleep better than reality i hate my reality just the same shitty routine either i feel like doing nothing or go on walks or sit at the PC or eat something and take a supplement or just interact sometimes with friends by texting them or interacting with family it all feels pointless....

All the more reason to begin establishing a steady meditation routine.

also how do i know i'm visualizing right?

You are visualizing, and that's that.

also iwanted to add i felt so bad about not having a relationship i used to feel like cutting off my penis and commiting suicide

Don't give up. It's always worse choice than struggling to improve and to overcome obstacles. You are here, which means many things. You have the opportunity to improve with this great community here. Use this opportunity wisely. Not everyone gets this.

i won't give up i just have moments where i feel like it though i never go thru it also i changed my mind recently i do value my friends at the very least and it feels more important to me now my family and money not really i've given up on really interacting with my family outside of routine behavior i'm too distant from them at this point oh well....as for money its okay though the reason i don't quit my two low paying jobs is because thats where my friends are at.

also i feel convinced if i was wealthy i wouldn't be happy at all cause of the fact i lost interest to travel and own alot of possesions 1 to 2 bedroom apartment is better for me anyhow less cleaning :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: