MercuryWisdom
Well-known member
Hello brothers and sisters.
I’m aware I’ve been posting much recently about similar situations. I hope I’m not bothering anyone with this, and also be aware most of the time these are vents, I want to hear direction, advice, or just feel understood hopefully.
Right now I’ll be talking about my country’s extremely deteriorating economic situation, my lack of a father or financial support, shit jobs with unlivable wages, etc.
This might be a long post as it’s not a direct question.
So I already live in a third world country, the situation was livable until circa 2022 and has got extremely worse at the moment. I think many people know what my country is as I’ve mentioned it before but I don’t feel it’s wise to say it rn.
Our currency has lost 220% of its value since 2020 only. Prices has easily went up 1000x.
Then came other shit due to this not even related to skyrocketing prices. We had power outages on the daily by the government for 2-4 hours because we couldn’t afford gas.
The banks have already completely banned buying anything online in USD or in any foreign currency because we’re having a foreign currency crisis. I haven’t been able to donate to the JoS for 2+ years because of this.
I feel like I’m stuck and having serious financial blockages because the highest paying job in my country pays $300/month while the average wages don’t even exceed $150.
I also feel much worse because I really don’t know what the fuck to do. I don’t have a strong and reliable father. My father is a piece of shit, he and my mother are divorced he’s married to another woman and he wasn’t paying shit for me or my brothers for more than 5 years now he even sold one of our properties so he can get married and wanted to sell our home that we live in but my mom blocked him from doing so since my brother is under age. If he sold our home we could easily have nowhere to go and end up in the streets.
Me and my mother struggle every year to make ends meet she works extremely hard and I do as well. The Gods bless us and we survive.
But I can’t help feeling extremely poor. I feel extremely hungry (in a metaphorical sense), rageful, and in survival mode often.
Sometimes I wish I was so extremely filthy rich that I can destroy any one I fucking want and that I honestly don’t mind doing ANYTHING and fuck over anyone to get there. (Nothing against the Gods or Satanism as that’s not my nature.)
I see people in my country that are rich kids from rich strong families and I want to be like them but I also get extremely envious. I wish I just didn’t have to destroy myself over just to survive. I wish I could just enjoy my life have fun, have partners, travel, live in luxury compounds like the people I know in my country.
I feel so fucking desperate all the time about this, I don’t have enough energy or passion to hustle and work like I used to in my youth but I fucking hate and can’t stand that I can’t do whatever the fuck I want because of finances.
I have done money spells before, but they didn’t make me wealthy they just helped getting money from work or freelance projects.
I’m aware I’ve been posting much recently about similar situations. I hope I’m not bothering anyone with this, and also be aware most of the time these are vents, I want to hear direction, advice, or just feel understood hopefully.
Right now I’ll be talking about my country’s extremely deteriorating economic situation, my lack of a father or financial support, shit jobs with unlivable wages, etc.
This might be a long post as it’s not a direct question.
So I already live in a third world country, the situation was livable until circa 2022 and has got extremely worse at the moment. I think many people know what my country is as I’ve mentioned it before but I don’t feel it’s wise to say it rn.
Our currency has lost 220% of its value since 2020 only. Prices has easily went up 1000x.
Then came other shit due to this not even related to skyrocketing prices. We had power outages on the daily by the government for 2-4 hours because we couldn’t afford gas.
The banks have already completely banned buying anything online in USD or in any foreign currency because we’re having a foreign currency crisis. I haven’t been able to donate to the JoS for 2+ years because of this.
I feel like I’m stuck and having serious financial blockages because the highest paying job in my country pays $300/month while the average wages don’t even exceed $150.
I also feel much worse because I really don’t know what the fuck to do. I don’t have a strong and reliable father. My father is a piece of shit, he and my mother are divorced he’s married to another woman and he wasn’t paying shit for me or my brothers for more than 5 years now he even sold one of our properties so he can get married and wanted to sell our home that we live in but my mom blocked him from doing so since my brother is under age. If he sold our home we could easily have nowhere to go and end up in the streets.
Me and my mother struggle every year to make ends meet she works extremely hard and I do as well. The Gods bless us and we survive.
But I can’t help feeling extremely poor. I feel extremely hungry (in a metaphorical sense), rageful, and in survival mode often.
Sometimes I wish I was so extremely filthy rich that I can destroy any one I fucking want and that I honestly don’t mind doing ANYTHING and fuck over anyone to get there. (Nothing against the Gods or Satanism as that’s not my nature.)
I see people in my country that are rich kids from rich strong families and I want to be like them but I also get extremely envious. I wish I just didn’t have to destroy myself over just to survive. I wish I could just enjoy my life have fun, have partners, travel, live in luxury compounds like the people I know in my country.
I feel so fucking desperate all the time about this, I don’t have enough energy or passion to hustle and work like I used to in my youth but I fucking hate and can’t stand that I can’t do whatever the fuck I want because of finances.
I have done money spells before, but they didn’t make me wealthy they just helped getting money from work or freelance projects.