MercuryWisdom
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*Vent, kinda.
Saturn is hitting a very sensitive area for me (+ a personal planet stellium) that’s honestly ruining my life.
Funny enough Saturn passing through my 1st house was the best time of my life.
But this one I can’t handle by any means and I don’t know what to do about it…
+ Saturn’s not leaving that house until 1-2 years from now.
I’m struggling and have been struggling for a while for a good couple of years.
I don’t know what to do anymore. Whenever I try to improve the situation again I’m blocked in a way I’ve never experienced before in that area of my life. And it’s sapping my lifeforce, willpower, confidence, fire, passion.
I just keep trying and failing that’s the constant, I guess.
And I FUCKING HATE IT!!
It hurts like ass to want and need something and not get it, I’m not used to it since I had a great relationship with that area of life and it was the only thing that kept me surviving and thriving when I was all alone and had no one to lean on.
I fucking hate how I have no father to lean on and I had to build everything for myself since I was 15. And still managed to end up with NOTHING!!!
I fucking hate this. What am I working so hard for I don’t understand anything.
Saturn is hitting a very sensitive area for me (+ a personal planet stellium) that’s honestly ruining my life.
Funny enough Saturn passing through my 1st house was the best time of my life.
But this one I can’t handle by any means and I don’t know what to do about it…
+ Saturn’s not leaving that house until 1-2 years from now.
I’m struggling and have been struggling for a while for a good couple of years.
I don’t know what to do anymore. Whenever I try to improve the situation again I’m blocked in a way I’ve never experienced before in that area of my life. And it’s sapping my lifeforce, willpower, confidence, fire, passion.
I just keep trying and failing that’s the constant, I guess.
And I FUCKING HATE IT!!
It hurts like ass to want and need something and not get it, I’m not used to it since I had a great relationship with that area of life and it was the only thing that kept me surviving and thriving when I was all alone and had no one to lean on.
I fucking hate how I have no father to lean on and I had to build everything for myself since I was 15. And still managed to end up with NOTHING!!!
I fucking hate this. What am I working so hard for I don’t understand anything.