Hello brothers and sisters.
I wanted to ask for a complete routine or regiment to heal sexually. (Not looking to do workings or spells regarding this at the moment.)
I have no option to actually have sex and barely any sexual encounters or dating right now.
I have a hypersexual sex drive and I care about sex a lot it means so much to me to me and is on my mind often.
I struggle with chronic excessive masturbation that I sometimes cause injury, numbness, or general weakness.
I don’t feel sexually satisfied in any way and there’s probably no current partner to explore sexual themes at the moment.
I also seriously struggle with nurturing my masculine energies.
I think the chakra that is struggling the most right now for me is my sacral, which is hindering my spiritual growth.
I’m going to the gym consistently now, building muscle and losing weight which is helping.
But on a side note, the reason I’ve been overmasturbating to the point of numbness, is I’m subconsciously afraid of having a high and healthy sex drive that can’t be satisfied with partners at the moment so I try numb it, if that makes sense.
To me, it sounds like a problem that you haven't acknowledged, is how you seem not to accept this part of yourself, even hate this part of yourself and you feel guilty over it, which causes you to develop harmful habits as a form of punishment for these things you hate about yourself.
Masturbation, even often or very much, is actually not much of a real problem. It becomes a problem when it leads to self destructive behaviours or tendencies.
Masturbation, even multiple times a day, every day, while excessive and definitely too much for most men, still doesn't need to be a problem.
Ask yourself, does it matter if I masturbate a lot? Does it matter if I need to pleasure myself in order to relieve my drive and sexual urges?
It doesn't matter at all. And contrary to what most would advice you, porn by itself is not necessarily something that must be cut out of your life at all.
You can be fine even if you watch porn. There is countless different porn available online, there are plenty of normal things as well, things that aren't jewish or jewed, just sexual people expressing their sexuality because they want to. There's nothing intrinsically wrong with that, or with using that to relieve sexual urges and managing your drive.
A bigger problem is if you do this, but you blame yourself on this and hate yourself on this, causing you to do this compulsively and without pleasure because you don't allow yourself to be pleased. This is what is keeping your drives built up and preventing any form of relieve. You aren't allowing yourself to relieve your drives, you are compulsively trying to dull them, and you masturbate not as a means of pleasure and release, but as a means of punishment and control to your body and mind that is always horny.
There are few men who have as much of a drive as myself. I understand what it is like to feel insatiable, even perpetually aroused. Trying to numb or suppress your drive is not the answer in such a case, as this doesn't help at all, it only makes things worse. Feeling guilty over this doesn't do anything either. In fact, you should take that with a sense of pride instead, as it shows a strong virility and sexuality, which over all is a good thing.
Rather, you need to allow your sexual energy to be liberated. Allow it to be free, and allow yourself to orgasm with great pleasure and release. Allow yourself to enjoy this.
You said you feel like your sacral chakra is stuck. Think about what the Sacral chakra represents. Part of what it represents and rules, is the sexuality and sexual nature, energy of your being. If you don't accept your sexual nature, and actively work to destroy it, or numb it/constrain it, because you hate your drives, what do you think this does to your sacral chakra?
When you start liberating your sexual energy, and letting it be free, allowing yourself to fall into realms of pleasure and sexual relieve, do not care what you are watching or what you use to stimulate yourself. There are very few things that absolutely must not be crossed. Basically, bar anything illegal or inherently nonsexual and harmful (Depicting injury and such), there is in fact little harm to anything else.
After you have learned to release yourself and accept your drives, and allow yourself to feel pleasure, you can then start gaining control over them, you can learn to manage these better and derive pleasure/stimulation from calmer/softer things by doing so.
One good orgasm counts for a hundred empty orgasms.
First you use the visual and auditory stimulation that you need, then you close your eyes and focus on yourself, use your mind, keep the energy within yourself and don't let it fly into the void, and don't let yourself be dragged into the thing you watch, separate what you watch from the orgasm you have at the moment of it, then no ties are made between yourself and with what you used as stimulation.
Eventually this will lead to you being able to mostly derive the pleasure you need for managing your drives with your mind, but even if that doesn't happen, it is not something you need to punish yourself for.
Not all people are the same. Some people require a different approach to these issues. One thing may work for one person, but does not work for another. In case of sexuality and sexual needs, there are great differences between people, thus vastly different needs must be met with vastly different solutions.
Besides that, you are right that true satisfaction will only be had when you have a partner to satisfy both yourself and her. Your situation in that regard is more complicated than most.
For this, you have to be realistic and adapt to the situation you find yourself in. There are ways for you to get a partner, but they might not be what you would want ideally, however, if you completely close yourself off to the possibility, then nothing will ever come or happen.
Where you live, there are mostly negatives to all this, but you need to look carefully and find that you have options and possibilities you can use to your advantage.
The place you live has a trash system, but others make things work even in that system. There are men who are having sex or having partners.
An SS can gain advantages over others and use the system he finds himself in to his advantage in order to get ahead, because you have access to blessings and to abilities that others can only dream of.