Hello,,
I don't want this to feel like a fellow 'Christian'(as you see it ) giving you a testimony to keep your Faith up merely because my Cow made a cup more milk today than yesterday or my neighbor's died mine didn't,so please bear with me and hope you can atleast get something useful from this,
I have been dedicated for quite some years now,
Meditation routine has been an on and off thing ,but for the last eight months it has been quite consistent and I can atleast get to see I see something different,
Satan has the ability of meeting anyone, anywhere anytime but you withstanding that presence is quite a gamble,
After my dedication, my life really took a very strange trajectory,one that was really enough of a reason for someone who's scares easily to think they made the single most terrible decision of their life,
I wasn't meditating,kept giving myself 'Justifiable' excuses like I need to find my own apartment first,I need to have a stable job for this to be consistent and things just really stagnated,
So by the time it really dawned on me to meditate(am not suggesting you don't, please bear with me) it was really to find myself at this point, and I did,and strangely enough a 'Satan' incident happened,and looking back I treat that as how most satanist would treat the planet Saturn,it exists there as a challenge for you to embrace change and self-improvement, stronger foundation begets stronger temples,
I used to think meeting Satan will automatically make everything 200% better but really didn't,I met a consciousness (lack of better words) that somehow suggestively or subconsciously registered to me as Satan on the astral,and the energy he/it had felt Shiva in some way,I was also introduced to my GD who didn't seem anything Nordic or any race that's on the website,the GD had something 'Grey' in her,
I strangely remember none of the conversation that happened during that meeting or even the GD name,and it quite literally threw me in a delusional state afterwards,I was increasingly paranoid of it being the enemy sort of abduction but am glad I still got the organs in my immediate vision
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No meeting ever followed and no voice told me not to be afraid or not to overthink about that event so It bothered for me a while,
really made me question a lot about the idea of it being just my imagination(it was so fucking detailed,the GD even had some type of thoughtforms around her that looked like those buddha statues with multiple arms and they would react to me if I tried to touch them, honestly even if it was the enemy,this was pretty cool to experience,)
But the idea of the memory of it feels like it's on mute still stresses me out,
That was my experience with a non Human intelligence whether Satan's or not,
And it opened me up tomorrow alot of things I had to do,
I realized how naked, vulnerable, childish and powerless we can be when in faced with real divine power whether subjectively evil or good.
We can be naive to just believe anything that's seems mind-blowing or out of our sense of understanding .
Maybe someday I will remember what really transpired but for now I really have to work on the invulnerability points I had,
It's no longer felt a case of what Satan had to offer to me,but exactly what I had to really offer,like it just felt like the firsts steps in JOS are really some grading or test system and Satan will definitely act in accordance to what's the best and productive approach,
If a meeting happens it will subconsciously affect you more than you will perceive physically,,
But this just me running theories as to what tf happened since I got no idea,,,,
And I really hope you get to experience something similar with Satan to when it's the right moment for you too
I know I didn't give you answers you need, but thought it was best to share my personal experience,