From: beaumontelliott <beaumontelliott@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 16, 2012 10:24 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] help
my name is elliott.
for a while i have been reaserching into spiritual satanism and am drawn to the ideas of self advancment and of a god that does more for his folowers than the other ""gods""
i was raised as a johovas witness and decided a long time ago to leave the religion because i felt enslaved by a bunch of outdated laws and felt like a prisoner. i didnt believe it one bit and i knew i shouldnt be goin to church, praying to a god i dont believe in.
i want to know more about satanism. i have joined this group before and asked quite a few questions, admittidly ignorant ones and was met with agressive seeming replies by one member which i feel was justified due to the fact i should be reaserching this for myself.
my problem is this. im 22 and although i was living out of home, circumstances and finacial hardship along with terrible self esteem and a long history of depression ( which im beggining to overcome through believing in myself a bit more) i have had to move back home with my mum, and arent able to move anywhere else anytime soon . she is still a practicing jehovas witness and although she does not push any of her beliefs on me it is still very difficult to do my reaserch and get the answers or information i need to understand properlly the true meaning of satanism and how to be a satanist. ive done as much reading as i can on the joy of satan website but due to working so much to get my self out of debt i dont always have the time or chances to sit on the computer and keep looking.
is there any way i can find a hard copy of informaton, like whats on the joy of satan website that i can read in the privacy of my own room. i want to make the commitment but i want to know what im doing so its not just a half assed thing, i want to take it seriously.
if anyone knows how i could get the information i need a bit easier it would be greatly appreciated.
or if there is anyone in perth that is a true satanist i would love to get in contact with them and maybe meet up with them to talk a bit and have someone to help me understand what i cant.
i apologise if anything i have said is offensive or ignorant or just plain stupid, but please dont grill me like the last time. and for anyone who says im one of the enemy who might be trying to infiltrate you and bring you down they are WRONG. i want to know more, ive always been an inquisitive person and i believe whats said about christianity being a tool to enslave the masses and give power to the few. all im looking for is a chance to get the answers i need and do my reaserch so i can advance myself spiritually and get closer to satan which from what i have read so far is the true god.
thank you for your time
elliott . .