Help with unnatural sexual urges. Please.

[Godmode2]

May as well add I actually used to be or maybe am still able to relate, lesser in the sense of furrydom and those mentioned and more regarding polygamy, inappropriate BDSM and weirder stuff like peanut butter and whatever else and yeah how I got around it was making normal sex including simple things like kissing a fetish in my mind again. I no longer want multiple partners or any goofy sexual activity that is dangerous or unrealistic. Inversely it is harder to pursue women and put the effort required in, despite having a much healthier libido, because I fetishize monogamy right off the bat now and dont want to lie to myself or other about how i feel. But its so so so so so much easier to just be alone. I used to not be like this but now Im like a woman and think foreplay and romance is actually a sexual thrill and amplifies sexuality. Well this may not work for all and especially not those addicted to porn and it isnt a replacement for sex but if you can learn astral sex then youll be golden. I honestly couldnt believe it could be so real until I first felt it but its just like the real thing and I came twice without even touching it and thats not an everyday occurance for me. Plus this way you can have sex with and release your emotions for anyone who simultaneously wants it with you in a real way without having to worry about consequences of any kind which is useful for maintaining an existing monogamy too.

 

[luis]

In my experience having sex with someone else can help get over some weird fetishes too, not watching porn helps too (i do understand that for someone that doesn't have a partner and has a high libido it may be difficult to not do).

See, that's the problem though :/ I don't quite know where to look for a women who would be interested in me, I'm not over weight, or ugly. Just in a moderately sized town about 1-2 hours away from the nearby city. All in all I'm not too worried, I can always do workings to attract a partner. But I also tried online dating, and found that's rigged.
I do understand your problems but even you don't have to find the perfect partner for you to have sex. Just someone to have sex with and that is it. The only way is magick, even with online dating magick will help. In a normal world we would have prostitute (for both sex and sexual orientation) but we have to do what we can. In this world right now i say to just use magick for sex or to find a compatible partner.

Thanks Luis Well, looks like I'll be doing a working soon anyhow. May as well make it for that. Will probably have to start hitting up the local bars too, but I'm sure it'll be worth the trouble to head to the city for a night to do that XD

I know this is old but another advice is to use the rune Thor (i personally prefer the more powerful version Thaur) to unblock your second chakra. It's a powerful rune and it works. This will help you out to make sure you have some normal type of sexuality. I've been using this rune on my base chakra to help me out for some health problem related to the chakra and literally in some few days the problem is much better and i'm not even doing a lot of reps, i really like this rune and i'm sure it can help you too!

 

[Dalacos]

So while this may be my first post I have sadly 'dabbled' in Satanism, for well years now. I was about 17 when I first found this group and honestly i can say to myself I haven't tried nearly enough. In fact I remember when Hp-Shannon first said hello. I've lurked, mainly out of a sense I don't have much to say. I have what i would consider good advice for people in my life yet I don't seem to be able to follow it myself. I'm trying to learn how to read my own astral chart though it is rather complex. A shout out to lydia and Hp-HoodedCobra for being willing to sell a proper reading. The stuff isn't easy imo.

Anyways I can say i relate a lot to this. At one time I was into some rather depressingly sick porn. BBc cukolding and more. Oddly enough I am third-sex or well i believe myself to be. I remember a time when i was very young before i was sexual; talking around first grade; I mainly liked girls but I always had an interest in boys. However i was literally bullied everyday and called a fag and gay. The first porn I did look at was just some breasts. I loved seeing them it was awesome. Then it was mainly normal but once i found I could see boys it was all i wanted. I've only had sexual encounters while males, however only twice have I enjoyed it out of all the times. Honestly I just always said yes cause i was like "how could I pass it up no one ever hits on me". [Ok just something strange happening I meditated before making the account and coming on here but all of a sudden my neck feels coldish in the back I believe its behind my throat chakra and my back down my spine a bit hurts for no reason just out of the blue] Don't get me wrong I am not ugly. Well i used to believe I was. In fact once upon a time i hated my blue eyes. I thought they were 'dull'. I was young and watched full metal alchemist brotherhood and wrath was my favorite toon. Mainly cause he was a sword fighter which I've always been drawn to. I love it. Any time i've done it IRL it was so relaxing and fun. Through maybe it was just a way for me to relive aggression cause when I do it I just get sorta aggro. I dont hesitate and I just go for it. I kept a natural form i just picked up without ever trying and i just try to win. It's easy for I guess. Makes me feel good like I'm finally good at something. More to the point though [ugh this is turning into such a long post sorry HP ] his eyes enticed me. They felt sexy so I wished for them. I mean hard, and true to what they say watch what you wish for. I happened. I didn't care till I came here. Then i felt so sorry i had lost that color. I felt like i betrayed myself. Though I will say this. When ever I do stop being lazy my eyes seem to turn more blue. My eyes currently our more blue then they have been in many years. Still largish slivers of that light green color but dislike it; but I'm getting much better about loving myself. I think the only thing I've always loved was I was tall. Not overly so but i'm 6'0' and I love it. Whenever I meditate right I start walking with a stride in my step and I feel like I look down on everything. Not in a better then way just in a relaxed I look good feel good way. Like I'm peacocking to myself; but all this took years. I mean years, and I think it may be why I am the way I am. I mean I can get off on st8 porn but it is only cause of the guy. Yet I find Females beautiful as well as Males. I'd loved to have a child with a wonderful woman but I don't think I could be as involved in her sex life as she would deserve. Honestly I've felt like my perfect relationship would be with a fellow Aryan who is female with an incubus. Though I think I'd like me and her each to have one. Only cause well I literally can get off between 10 to 20 times a day. I mean when I don't have time it isn't that big a deal, but If i'm just home then I cant stop getting honry and in the mood. Though I doubt I'm anywhere near like a god. Ive seen that post were Hp-Maxine is like "He had to PUSH HER OFF she was so just active." Paraphrasing, but you get the idea. I don't know. Personality I want to help my races birth rates. It saddens me deeply. I was playing swtor and there was this massive discussion and this guy posted something like "its sad soon germany will only be 50% white then 30% then 10% then nothing, sad that such a great nation with a beauty culture and history will be erased" and it just made me angry and sad and hurt and just ugh on edge. I feel its my duty to have children but i also don't think third sex should have kids. I mean every home is better with a stable mother and father. I just am so unsure in life i guess.

Did I ever even ask a damn question? I don't think so. I mean I feel i've need to just talk about this forever so I'm gonna keep it all here. I guess if I had to ask a question it would be, Why was I seemingly able to change my eye color so easily? Can someone be made gay over being bullied about it ? [i mean it seems like it was just something to call me but they all seemed to really mean it almost like they either knew or were told some how but I didnt even know I was or could be at the time] When ,if ever, should I ask for an incubus cause I know right now I am not worthy of them. They feel so deeply and I cant even cry anymore really. The last time I did my , ugh, dad made me do it from being so mean. I felt it so deeply. Like a real cut deep in my emotional being. Well I also semi cried over my dog dying but by then I was getting into my depression phase in life and i couldn't feel much. I mean I have emotions. Like idk how to put it my brain knowns them, and like i feel happiness now more then ever thanks to Jos, but i dont have the ability to cry or get truly upset. Like my anger comes in a flash then leaves. Its one thing I've always tied to do with rtrs or anything. no matter what i read about or just to stoke my fire with it just seems to vanish. However there was one time I did get blinding flashing rage, and I am buzzing hot and it only happened when telling my dad off for how hurt me made me feel and how it was all his fault I am the way even though he blames my mom for everything, just typical xian BULLSHIT, but sadly it was over the phone. So idk if that even counts as getting it off my chest. I mean I guess after saying this I kinda have a revelation. I like bully porn, my dad was my first bully, I don't love him but at one time i every much did and i do got 'daddy issues' so could some how in a sick way it all be attributed to him. fuck i hope not. Ugh seem to any newbie trust me. I DONT CARE IF SOMEONE IS GONNA SHOOT YOU INT YOUR BELLY FUCKING MEDITATE DO IT NOW! Don't waste years Like I've dont. And fuck any and all drugs. Shit is horrible. I've chugged cough syrup. Amazing fucking 'high' best thing I used to loved to do; but know one it gave me? CON-tentment. Thats is all it does. Cons you into thinking your doing 'just fine' when your not. Handle your life is all I gotta say.

I have to say on a finally note about an incubus I've always loved the idea they could help me. They would be someone who could just slap me look me in the eyes kiss me and tell me the right thing to do and I wouldn't argue or fight it. I'd just feel loved and cared for.