Gear88 said:
But what about people such as myself. Whom never propagated much and still live pretty much similar for years. I'll admit my life hasn't gone the way I wish it would have gone and on top of that I deal with a mental health illness.
Well it's not so much I deal with it, it's under control for a number of years now taking my medication. But for example I state for example in my head "Lord Satan would you please tell the cleansing demon from RCpt.1 to take the negative energy amplify it and return it to the senders. Thank you". And I always hear a voice or a sound reply "I appreciate the negative energies or Thank you my son". Not sure if it's a voice or the noise made by my environment turning into a sound. Many people report non-mental health illness hearing voices and sounds not there by environmental effects.
I performed several Sucubus rituals not because of multiple partners but because I'm not spiritually open to sense this person whom was sent to me. I've done clarification rituals to understand IF I have one not to send another. Just because originally I came to JoS out of said succubus thing. And apparently I'm not the only one.
I always contact Satan before contacting my succubus, in fact I feel like I'm bothering him with insignificant bullshit. And I hear a voice that is female upon contacting Satan to send her my way. And she speaks and it's not prominent but not silent. And I don't know if I'm speaking to an enemy or a Demon or just a fanciful creation of my own insanity.
I've been for the past month getting much more serious in Satanism performing vibration on my 7 main /3rd eye/pineal.
But even with my half-assed, pathetic schedule of meditations. I feel like I don't advance. I'm not an infiltrator because I'm not a bad person, I've been scolded before but not a malefic person. I'm not a dabbler as I have a deep disdain and loathing over xtianity always had.
But I just don't feel Satanic. Like I mentioned before I feel like an unspiritual couth. I like the NS that rolls with me but when it comes to even basic spiritual tenants like mindfulness(void) or trance or anything. It seems out of reach. Even my meditation schedule like I said isn't anything special.
What if you've said stupid shit like I'd rather wait 20 years for the Gods to come and help me out. I know I'm not a special snowflake not trying to be. But I just don't experience what others have experienced in a much shorter time.
You made a post in my other thread a long time ago but I didn't understand what you meant in some parts, but I feel we can kinda relate the same for the last part. Rationality should be the basis in which when we perceive experience, the process of inductive and deductive reasoning can help you conclude if what you've experienced is legitimate and put the mind at ease, and as well maintain a healthy mental state to move forward. I guess you could say it's rational to think what you've experienced is merely an imagination or hallucination, at least you're not afraid of being wrong & this way you're not fooling yourself. But remember that the occult/paranormal phenomena is a revolutionary breakthrough in a field still unknown to man, a subject modern society refuses to acknowledge. But as seen, it's slowly getting there with modern science.
Don't feel too overwhelmed with experiences of others and all that, mostly as you can't be certain who's truly legitimate or not, and has been an ongoing thing. Like if you get to know how some people really are, you may be surprised how they appear and how easily some are willing to accept who they are, they probably know they're despicable individuals, but this community needs to save face at some points so that's why I don't bring it up. What I'm saying is that it's wise to take everything with a grain of salt, this was a mistake I made when I was new and looked up to the wrong types people.
As a sect that promotes science, rationality is also our foundation, this means following the appropriate procedures of inductive/deductive reasoning as I mentioned, otherwise we'd be no different than some group of loonies. Even if you may not like the questions, or having ones boundaries pushed, it's always best to consider nevertheless, even when something doesn't seam so it's best to question, otherwise how do you know you're not fooling yourself? If you become biased or too eager to assume something is the case you may as well put your brain in a jar. Some users here have put me on track many times here.
Actually, one of the reasons I posted that story was my curiosity in the reception, to validate if I was in fact going through mental problems or not and why, and also get a better sense of someone else's perception to determine if what is literally the definitive experience of my life in the occult was just something else but I also felt that I was putting boundaries on myself in determining what may be the case. But at the time I started out I knew this was beyond my understanding, proven in my old posts, until I reached more maturity and knowledge to be comfortable in describing it here as I understood this more. If I was going to see a therapist just to get a perspective of the "normal view" it wouldn't be different than anyone else tbh, as they could not perceive it the way I perceived it, or consider the reality of supernatural phenomena first of all. Truth is this is a somewhat lonely road that will require your own judgement and reasoning in the end. I'll admit at some times I was fooling myself and delusional, and some times just to get a sense of fallacy, but I'm truly convinced that what I experienced was beyond what my being can comprehend. Like programmers, they find their class group and fit in with a group who "understands their language", same case here, but this phenomena is still a vague mystery.
Regarding enemy traitors and such, they know the problems of this community very well and thoroughly exploit this here. You will see the theme of problem and solution, and the problems of society and people in general aren't excluded here as well unfortunately. Honestly nothing in life is entirely perfect, but maybe there is a sense of "perfection in imperfection" here as we see this in nature, the important part is seeing the bigger picture. But we should not be like some people who just like to keep running out of fear, disbelief or idk... one can only keep their head held so high for so long until they fall into the hole that's in front of them and probably leading others in the process, and they probably still wouldn't realize they're in one. Satan needs warriors, but he needs ones who're wise and not just brain dead zombies who don't stop to think. The things I've said/done were always in the interest of the community in mind, with everything else last. To overcome (((them))) we have to overcome ourselves.
