DreamWeaver
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After long reflection, I now know I am an Asian soul. I just used to strictly define Asian as directly and recently descended from Asia. But then it dawned on me: my native American ancestors descended from Mongolians and Manchurians, as my 23andme showed.
I also love any and all Asian cuisines, always been obsessed with Japanese culture in all of its aspects. I also have had martial art-like reactions when half-asleep (when waking from a night terror). When I sleep, my legs are crossed up as I lay on my side. Almost like a monk still in lotus position or semi-lotus position while asleep. India and Hinduism also have always fascinated me. I sometimes wonder if I would feel more at home in an Asian country, but I am better off remaining in my birth country as my native status holds many benefits.
Now, as for why I am here... Joy of Satan is the closest to my own decade-and-half attempt at reunification of most spiritual beliefs and the "alternative" history censored by the enemies of Earth's humankind. This forum reassures me I am not the only one who questioned and questioned, and sought truth.
I just feel sort of socially isolated still. I always wanted to feel I belong somewhere, especially here. But sometimes as I read through threads, I intuitively sense, hmm, harsh attitudes, I guess is the best way to put it. But oh well. I am cool with it, as I am always working on my hypersensitivity (thanks, Mercury sign).
I also made a post in the general subforum, about wondering whether I am a White or Asian soul. This is due to me having several great-grandfathers from European countries. My romantic partner is a "50/50" mix of an Asian race and an European race as well. But I am moreso 1/8th European and the rest of my DNA is Indigenous North American.
I also assure that I am not a Jew, because I am not repulsed by what it is that they hate (Paganism), and my 23andme only says 0.1%. I have bad feelings when I am around brainwashed Judeo-Christian followers and I frown upon the oppressive control and abuse of women in Islam. I always cried in church because of confusion of how worthy or worthless I am to the Abrahamic god. I also realize some dreams that "guided" me, were the enemy's way of tricking me into following a dark path.
I have a powerful intuition that has always saved me from a lot of trouble. But last year was a horror show with my health, because I was trying to rectify a few issues in my real life. But alas, I live, and thanks to Lilith (or maybe Astarte, as their appearances are similar).
Anyway, namaste, my Asian spiritual kin.
I also love any and all Asian cuisines, always been obsessed with Japanese culture in all of its aspects. I also have had martial art-like reactions when half-asleep (when waking from a night terror). When I sleep, my legs are crossed up as I lay on my side. Almost like a monk still in lotus position or semi-lotus position while asleep. India and Hinduism also have always fascinated me. I sometimes wonder if I would feel more at home in an Asian country, but I am better off remaining in my birth country as my native status holds many benefits.
Now, as for why I am here... Joy of Satan is the closest to my own decade-and-half attempt at reunification of most spiritual beliefs and the "alternative" history censored by the enemies of Earth's humankind. This forum reassures me I am not the only one who questioned and questioned, and sought truth.
I just feel sort of socially isolated still. I always wanted to feel I belong somewhere, especially here. But sometimes as I read through threads, I intuitively sense, hmm, harsh attitudes, I guess is the best way to put it. But oh well. I am cool with it, as I am always working on my hypersensitivity (thanks, Mercury sign).
I also made a post in the general subforum, about wondering whether I am a White or Asian soul. This is due to me having several great-grandfathers from European countries. My romantic partner is a "50/50" mix of an Asian race and an European race as well. But I am moreso 1/8th European and the rest of my DNA is Indigenous North American.
I also assure that I am not a Jew, because I am not repulsed by what it is that they hate (Paganism), and my 23andme only says 0.1%. I have bad feelings when I am around brainwashed Judeo-Christian followers and I frown upon the oppressive control and abuse of women in Islam. I always cried in church because of confusion of how worthy or worthless I am to the Abrahamic god. I also realize some dreams that "guided" me, were the enemy's way of tricking me into following a dark path.
I have a powerful intuition that has always saved me from a lot of trouble. But last year was a horror show with my health, because I was trying to rectify a few issues in my real life. But alas, I live, and thanks to Lilith (or maybe Astarte, as their appearances are similar).
Anyway, namaste, my Asian spiritual kin.