Hello,
I might have to take Paroxetine HCL at around ~10mg. Could I still do the Opening of the Soul/Chakra meditations? The main website mentions that no one taking psychiatric medications should attempt them. What about Power meditations and FRTR/ Demon Rituals in general? I'm a young man in my 20's.
In my previous posts I mentioned that my parents have tried to make me take antidepressants- in this case, paroxetine hcl. I am back to my old tricks again, pretending to take them, though I do not know how long this could last, as eventually they might want to see for themselves that I am indeed taking them. However, I have done things to gain their trust quite a bit. Also, my living situation is going to change, so they won't be able to monitor me on the daily, but then, what if they ask me for a video of me taking the pill?
So, taking them for real might sadly have to be an option soon.
They can't really institutionalize me, legally speaking, but I feel like that is besides the point. The point is, they want me to be taking these pills, and if I don't, there will be consequences for me. Not sure what, but there will be. I live with them, and they pay the bills, my education, my car, everything.
I'm trying to be an adult in this world, and I think what I've learned is that life isn't all about getting what you want. I can't be playing games anymore, that's not how mature people do things. Or perhaps this is 'soyboy' thinking? Was I right in pretending to take them? Are they truly tyrants who have no respect for my autonomy? Or am I being childish about things?
I could try to reason with them, but I don't know how things will go.
The more I think about things, the more angry and discontent I get. The strategy I see for myself, is to gain my parents approval by taking them for now. And for the rest of this year, I will work towards gaining part time employment somewhere, and from there, work towards becoming somewhat independent. Things will be tricky if I can't do certain meditations/workings, but I will try anyways.
I might have to take Paroxetine HCL at around ~10mg. Could I still do the Opening of the Soul/Chakra meditations? The main website mentions that no one taking psychiatric medications should attempt them. What about Power meditations and FRTR/ Demon Rituals in general? I'm a young man in my 20's.
In my previous posts I mentioned that my parents have tried to make me take antidepressants- in this case, paroxetine hcl. I am back to my old tricks again, pretending to take them, though I do not know how long this could last, as eventually they might want to see for themselves that I am indeed taking them. However, I have done things to gain their trust quite a bit. Also, my living situation is going to change, so they won't be able to monitor me on the daily, but then, what if they ask me for a video of me taking the pill?
So, taking them for real might sadly have to be an option soon.
They can't really institutionalize me, legally speaking, but I feel like that is besides the point. The point is, they want me to be taking these pills, and if I don't, there will be consequences for me. Not sure what, but there will be. I live with them, and they pay the bills, my education, my car, everything.
I'm trying to be an adult in this world, and I think what I've learned is that life isn't all about getting what you want. I can't be playing games anymore, that's not how mature people do things. Or perhaps this is 'soyboy' thinking? Was I right in pretending to take them? Are they truly tyrants who have no respect for my autonomy? Or am I being childish about things?
I could try to reason with them, but I don't know how things will go.
The more I think about things, the more angry and discontent I get. The strategy I see for myself, is to gain my parents approval by taking them for now. And for the rest of this year, I will work towards gaining part time employment somewhere, and from there, work towards becoming somewhat independent. Things will be tricky if I can't do certain meditations/workings, but I will try anyways.