Back after long time and confused

[Nordicsupreme]

Hello everyone

I have made this new account recently after I made a donation and decided to start getting active on the forums again. It has been over 4 years now since I have visited the forums and honestly I am utterly confused. I understand the renaming of the website to show our historic roots but Satan and beelzebul being the same persons and what not is getting exhausting.
Previously I went under the username Usthepeople666 and after a lot of spiritual warfare and losing loved ones I had given up on this God “Satan”. As I had mentioned in my previous accounts also I have a succubus and I am grateful to her for keeping me meditating through the years.
Again I do not mean to cause any problems or commotions given I still have my own problems to deal with just like everyone else. All this rebranding and knowledge against donations has me confused. I will give an example here with my own life, I remember being very young during the original period of Covid and spamming rtrs right left and centre for more than 2 years even after I had seen my entire family be cursed again and again. I was advised against this many times by many SS and our HPs also since it would eventually burn me out like it did. I kept fighting even after losing people in my life and have always had a very “ warrior like” spirit for lack for a better phrase. Since this doesn’t amount to anything in monetary terms it has me confused as to the value of these rtrs itself. Again this is not to undermine donations made by others or work done by others but a part of me just can’t accept this cash for knowledge exchange. What pushed me to fight through the years was the fact that our HPs had provided us with knowledge that worked and was freely available and somehow made everything more “real”.

Honestly if I keep ranting on my questions won’t end and maybe I will end up confusing other initiates as well and that is not something I plan to do. Also HP I truly hope you can post a ritual on reverse succubus ritual or a reverse dedication ritual or take off the possibility of reversing a succubi relationship from our website altogether. In the years that I have been dedicated to this being Zeus/Satan I cannot truly say if I love has increased for him. I know writing these things can open me up for a lot of bashing on this site but I honestly just want my answers.

Also I feel it best personally if I stick with the Laveyan philosophy ( atheist school of thought). I know it’s not truly atheistic but meh. I know I honour the Gods but ever since I had a succubus and lost my parents and a series of misfortunes or bad events I don’t feel I have the emotional capacity left to know these beings. Like I said it had been long since I have returned back to the forums and these Jews not being aliens, enki being enlil is catching up to me. All I feel I can wait for now is that the Greys were nothing but thought forms post coming around. And all the pain I and my family had to endure goes down the drain, making us feel like shit.
The descriptions of enlil as mentioned by HPs then are they not accurate?
I once again apologise for ranting on and on but what I feel now is years of my life being dedicated to a being I don’t even know. I know what the energy feels like, but that is something a powerful Wicca too can make right? I have propethic dreams too post my rituals which has helped me a lot in my life. Again I do not wish to berate or demean any god or the forums. But let’s just say I haven’t “lived” like a normal fucking human be it because of a succubus or being cursed or just meditating and feeling different and having some “power”. I honestly don’t feel like being a Zevist is for me. I also like normal human beings want to be a piece of shit who never meditated. I end up alone without a human family either ways ( I have done the reverse succubus ritual multiple times to no success). Idk how much of this rant even means to anyone. Honestly, I am not even sure I want the magnum opus anymore. But where else do I go? Christianity, Islam is a lie. Hinduism or other ancient religions always end up as a sub set of Zevism in terms of knowledge upon personal research. I don’t even know what I want. I am really confused and miserable. My life since my parents passed has been down the hill. I regret each rtr I ever did, every enemy I ever cursed. I don’t even know if I trust this Satan/Enki/Enlil/Zeus being anymore. I have seen CEOs who worship Jesus richer and more powerful than this (me) SS ( Zevist or any other name we decide to go with in the future) will ever be even with the blessings of our Gods.

It’s been more than 8 years since I dedicated all I have now is a clean aura I guess. All my friends who cursed Satan on a daily basis are much more successful than I can ever be. Maybe I was too stupid spamming the rtrs and saving the “White Race”.

Just ignore this post it’s not going to help you in any way. These are my personal rumblings and I am not sure who I can share this with in the non-ToZ world. You can call me neurotic or having a breakdown or whatever. I am tired of this religion emotionally.

 

[Deep Darkness]

I recommend you to take time down on spirituality and focusing on material world. There is nowhere to leave from Zevism/Spiriual Satanism because christianity/islam is lie like you say and paganism is incomplete version of our religion. You can still be part of our faith even if you don't practice spirituality for personal reasons.

 

[GoldenxChild1]

I am answering in an overall sense rather than focusing on any particular question or statement you made.

Based on the post, you seem to have lost faith not only in yourself but in God (Zeus Satanas), the Gods, and existence in general. I notice that you equate your own personal misfortune with a lack of attention from the Gods and your lack of success, spiritually and materially. Essentially, you are not taking responsibility for your life, which is something that every Zevist must do to rise existentially.

I am sorry that your experiences have negatively impacted your expectation of what it means to be a Zevist, and I hope that you understand in the future that your successes and failures are your own. The death and misfortune of friends and family are a part of the Laws of Nature.

I think you are using our transformation into the Temple of Zeus as an excuse to be confused and avoid the real problems that occur inside you. You need to follow the instruction set out by the Temple of Zeus, which is not spamming RTRs—that is warfare and does not have the same effects as meditation, yoga, and witchcraft. You have potential, so do not squander it and blame Gods and Men for your own misunderstanding. The Gods bless those who bless them. We give so that they may give.

Do not think I am harsh. I have the best of intentions and wish to see you become better.

HAIL ZEUS

 

[Rocca]

nobody here wants to criticize you.
but i want to refer to one thing that may help you.

you said all i have is a clean aura. while what you are telling and the timeline of your life and inner feelings says the exact opposite!

it's not wise at all to keep blaming the Gods or a succubus for your existence or your karma.
on this path all you may found is mutual respect, unlike abrahamic methods of spiritual abuse!

 

[Henu the Great]

I just want to touch on these subjects quickly.

Since this doesn’t amount to anything in monetary terms it has me confused as to the value of these rtrs itself.

There's withcraft for monetary purposes. There's literally a tool for everything we need. Please use the correct tool for the task at hand before making such judgments.

Again this is not to undermine donations made by others or work done by others but a part of me just can’t accept this cash for knowledge exchange. What pushed me to fight through the years was the fact that our HPs had provided us with knowledge that worked and was freely available and somehow made everything more “real”.

Every donor perk is a bonus, not a necessity, for advancement. That being said, not everything is for public consumption as there are layers and hierarchy in this Path. Everything that one needs to advance is readily available for free; just like before, this has not changed and will not change. It is only right that those who give their finite resources also get something in return. There is no false entitlement here, but an exchange of resources with the aim of growth and evolution around those who partake in these processes.

but ever since I had a succubus

If you really had such an advanced being on your side, you would not be as confused and lost. They would help and guide you. The following sermon is quite fitting here: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/succubi-incubi-cowardly-bunk.93101/

I have seen CEOs who worship Jesus richer and more powerful than this (me) SS ( Zevist or any other name we decide to go with in the future) will ever be even with the blessings of our Gods.

There's definitely more depth to being financially well-off than worshipping this or that.

All my friends who cursed Satan on a daily basis are much more successful than I can ever be.

It could be because you did nothing to improve your life when they did.

Maybe I was too stupid spamming the rtrs and saving the “White Race”.

Maybe. There's more to this Path than doing RTRs, you know. https://templeofzeus.org/ASHTAR That being said, when you help yourself to grow, you indirectly help those around you just by mere existence as your vibrational level rises and so forth. You can not really be successful when you do things very one-sidedly and take no responsibility for your own actions and expect results from outside of yourself.

I am tired of this religion emotionally.

Perhaps it is time to take another approach since clearly what you have done has not worked out. It is madness to keep repeating the same thing while expecting different results.
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Instead of "reverse rituals" that are not based in reality, we can help you overcome your obstacles in other ways. Are you willing to evolve?