Blitzkreig [JG said:
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Yes thank you Stormblood's basic meditation guide helped me. I do notice after doing Pranayama even if I'm just sitting there doing the activity but not different is that it energizes me to a degree or at least wakes me up.
Sheer fact is since the beginning of my journey here Trance and Void were my biggest issues. I practice void 2-5 minutes more so 5 minutes. And I'm voice shut down but the background music and voices are playing.
I've read of Mindfulness of people you know the basic Buddhist/Hindu meditation. And people have state I've been doing it for XYZ period of time months or years and I do have moments of thought suspension, blank.
I know void is different we are actively blanking our mind. But I sit here on the chair for 5 minutes staring either at the wall or eyes closed. And no accomplishment, like I said in a prior thread if I spend 0.1% x 2 or 0.2% of my day working on Void how does that measly 4minutes to 10 minutes translate into working blank minded and voiding.
I know like you said Blitz, void isn't to mush you mind or destroy the logical male thinking side. It's to lull it to sleep and alternate to the female side.
But like one member said my superabundant mental energy means even during meditation I'm just thinking random or speaking random or wanting to just think and contemplate. Like I said I'm a thinker, I use my mind a lot.
But I guess I'm not using my mind correctly nor properly. I'm merely acting out on my thoughts.
I'd love nothing more than to Astral project as it requires trance another issue. As recently there is a thread that merely states trance = relaxation. For example Maxine's main website JoS states breath in till you can't feel your body. That sounds extreme it's like someone spending their time deep breathing for 45m-1h trying to numb their body up. I always feel my body.
I guess that yeah doing basic stuff but as meditation progresses it becomes a huge chore. I've had good results with breathing in shiny black energy into my aura and program for temporary a few hours for meditation. I still meditate but I notice more and more it's becoming a chore waiting till mid-day or the end of the day to meditate.
I think I might be one of those people that prefer to meditate late or later at night. And might be more linked towards dark meditations.
Who knows maybe I should go to sleep at 7PM right at night and wake up at 3AM, 8 hours later, and begin a night session.
I don't know I just I want to get up and stop being bored. Boredom is my main issue I'm so bored that meditation even if engaged to remove boredom as it's supposed to be a happy activity to improve the life. It seems difficult to meditate first thing in the morning. For me I'd like to get up and use the internet a bit and wake up after my coffee and just entertain myself.
I guess I gotta listen to my friend and do some activity like play a video game for an hour or have silly stupid fun as it's needed. He is a Saturn machine and I can organize myself but my activities are chaotically set. I can in general configure my life but in the actual case I do it chaotically. Or for example if I played video games I'd probably play them 12-15 hours like earlier in the prior decade before I quit gaming.
Sheer fact is I understand doing 45-60 vibrations of Algs or for example 72 vibrations of Bjarkan takes like 8-10 minutes. Some might state I vibrate too fast I do use 70-80% of my lungs and I vibrate to the best of my abilities.
But it's like if I've been around for years and I'm so lazy and lackadaisical to meditate deeply and advance myself. Then I'm going no where and then I have atheistic thoughts or processes like spirituality and religion is a life long preoccupation to do good so people are controlled or limited in what to do. A learned helplessness.
I just once want to experience that breakthrough point whereby from now on I'm focusing on spirituality. Like that member in 2017 or early 2018. They have a succubus and he astral projects, always gets scared and returns close to his body. But his succubus has shown them things and they stated, something along the lines of I understand and relish for this to come I can't believe what I saw and how motivating it is.
I'd like a motivation effect so that I can and will continue. But again that is my issue the lack of drive and lack of time I put into meditation. I mean I recall doing the 6-Month Spiritual Warfare Guide and it's like this is just out of hand. I'm certainly not cut out for spirituality even if everyone can do it.
Small steps I'm just re-beginning with a basic schedule and activity. But still this small 15-20 minute window is difficult for me. I guess I just gotta instill it as a habit and do it.