To understand why there is suffering:
There are certain realities and forces in the world (can be identified as 'Natural Laws') that just are what they are, the universe doesn't punish or feel emotions and it just is. Thankfully, the Gods have Blessed us with the ability to put these things into balance in our lives so we can overcome and master reality (through the daily study of philosophy/ethics, daily meditation, increasing our consciousness etc.).
To start to understand this, you can read the Virtues (and especially the Ethics section at the end) of the Temple of Zeus
https://templeofzeus.org/EthicsOftheGods
I also love to re-read these Sermons by our High Priest when I am feeling lost or confused:
Let's explain this Myth about Prometheus. Myth = Symbolism and coded divine information, and never literal events that transpired physically. Myths exist to illustrate ultimate realities and what the Initiate is supposed to do to enlighten themselves in the context of their spiritual processes...
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As one gets more psychic and one's awareness of the world grows, one might start increasingly feeling and understanding that a lot of people out there are plagued constantly by feelings of jealousy, malice or evil or anger. The list is very long here. That is not to say that everyone here is...
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The term "Heaven" from the bible is merely a stolen allegory for the Crown Chakra which, upon proper work and activation, and upon bringing the soul to a higher level, manifests positive sensations and a sense of wellbeing that has no 'end'. Residing on the top of the head, this is called...
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I highly suggest that you study the entire Temple of Zeus website, the Library of Thoth, and these Forums (you can start with the Posts of the Clergy, High Priest HoodedCobra and High Priestess Lydia)
You will have to study, read, and reread these and many others many times over to gain an understanding of true reality, and as you advance spiritually through meditation you will uncover new insights.
In addition to journaling what you learn/discover/wonder about -- do this meditation every morning and night to help you consolidate information and reality through an increased consciousness, many of your questions will be answered over time with dedication and perseverance:
In the Joy of Satan Website, there are a lot of power meditations. Power meditations work to increase your personal power, advance your soul, clean it and bring you to a higher level of power. There are other forms of meditation, that increase your power, by increasing your awareness and self...
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You are in the right place, asking the right questions! There are no easy answers. Time to do the right actions (meditations, studying the ToZ - daily) towards your higher self
