Is there any hope for someone like me?
The right question should be: "What makes me think that there is no hope and that even if I tried hard I could not improve my condition?". Nothing can make you think that. Your burden of problems is heavy only as long as you have to lift it.
The fact that you are in an improvable condition does not automatically mean that your condition will never improve in any way regardless of how much you work for it. That is a wrong conclusion: you have taken too many steps. Stick to logic: yes, there is something that needs to be solved. You can solve it, it is not a question of "can I?", it is a question of "do I?".
It is true that many things are beyond our control, and these situations exist, but it is not a binary switch 1 or 0. Situations can be improved. You may not become a famous pop star, but you will be able to attract some friends who are suitable for you. And that is exactly what you really want. You just need the knowledge of how to do it and the doing.
I don't know why I'm alive, I should be dead.
Instead, you are alive precisely because you can use this life to improve yourself and your very existence. You are alive not to waste your life. Otherwise you would be directly unborn.
Gyms exist to allow people to improve physically. It is not expected that a person is already physically trained, otherwise there would be no gym. But it is there to be exploited for these purposes. This is true in all things. Every situation is an opportunity, but no one who hopes to mature and grow because everything is going well for him is realistic. We improve because we are driven to improve.
Nobody's ever gonna want me
Using terms like "never" is unrealistic because it means you don't understand the concept of working for yourself. Improving something is the goal here, and as I told you, it's why you're alive. "Never" is unrealistic. It's not a real thing. If you're chasing after non-things, you'll miss the time you should be using to think about things.
The gods couldn't help me if they wanted to.
Here ALL OF US, Satanists and Gods, are rooting for you. And we believe that you can do it, that you can improve yourself and your life. That is why Satan reincarnated you.