So, 2 years ago I saw a girl on Instagram and I kind of liked her. I sent a follow request to start a conversation but unfortunately she didn't accept it. I tried with my other profile but nothing changed. Last year I met a senior boy in my school and we gradually became good friends. Near about in December of last year when we were talking on phone he randomly mentioned her name and I was surprised. I still wanted to talk to her. I found that they were friends but not that close. He told me that she has a boyfriend who is his good friend. I tried to move on and even liked another girl but unfortunately the girl liked someone else. (I know my love life sucks.....) So just a few days back when I reading the chats on class gc (with nearly 80 boys), they were spamming each other's awkward pictures and suddenly someone began spamming pictures of there ex's and girls they had crush on (on view once) and then I saw her picture.. (That picture wasn't in my context because no one knew that I liked her.) After seeing the picture I had a strange feeling that I cannot explain. No matter how hard I try to forget her, her thoughts, her pictures, her name come to me from sources I don't even expect from. I want to talk to her once and for all. But she won't accept my request. She doesn't know that I exist, she doesn't know that there is someone who loves her.
I need help about what I should do. Love magic didn't work cause she doesn't know about me. I just want to start a conversation with her. I thing it would be better if I could meet her in person through my senior friend, without letting him know that I always wanted to meet her. But I don't know how to do that.
I really rambled out the beginning of an essay to this, then deleted all of it hahahahaha.
The simple answer is if she does not know you, and you know there is all sorts of talk around, drama, about her being someones ex this and someones ex that. Do not even bother. She is not worth your time, no matter how pretty she is. There are many other beautiful gentiles on this planet, and if I could go back, I might not have pursued all of the relationships that I have up to this point. I likely wouldn't have learned so much that would bring me to that point, as I very much would enjoy relationships with groups of people with all the included intimacy if I had learned to focus more on myself earlier, but that is a bit aside the point. You might not be the same there, but moving on from her is pretty important, hopefully you have done it already.
Focusing on the material for advancement in the Temple of Zeus is very important, maintaining a solid workout schedule that covers all of your muscle groups, diet routine that you can augment to gain muscle and lose fat in a cycle. That is aside from the 480432804328 other things out there we can do to be happy, at least for ourselves if not to help contribute to others as well. I'm building a car and taught myself tuning on my own time, then used that to learn how to tune other cars and develop a certain philosophy for building cars, at least something I roll around in my own mind with.
I recommend going to the "Our Ethics" section on the ToZ homepage as well. I think understanding and beginning to implement those into your personality/lifestyle feels like a huge leap forward in itself.
Loving yourself when you wake up in the morning, loving yourself when you fall asleep at night is pretty important, and knowing we have ourselves every time we do that. Every breath we breathe, every step we take where we go, everything we eat, digest, and so on. It is a gift of Zeus to us. It is all precious, our own life. We are all lucky to have eachother here in the Temple of Zeus, and as much as we might want everyone else around us to as well, we have to learn tact with that and know that that it coming. Eventually that will happen, I really look forward to those days. Try to focus on you. There are quite a lot more folks here and more engagement than there was when is was the Joy of Satan, that is extremely exciting as is.
I'm going to say this, and maybe you will think I am crazy, but, having a whole lot of attention from people intimately can be really bad as much as is might be really good. Like any situation it depends. I've been through alot of bad relationships, some of them because of the other, some because of myself. Practicing moderation of whether or not you feel or think you even should be in a relationship. Also knowing when someone really isn't harmonizing with you, and giving you what you're giving them, someone that just takes and does not give back due to what they perceive as hardened social norms instead of choosing to just be a decent human being. It can get very disappointing when you are locked into a situation like that and is difficult to get out of. Maybe I should write an actual post on relationships that isn't all over the place like my response is here. Formatting really helps a ton. All of this is just scratching the surface haha, one day we will all be able to sit around and share our stories I'm sure.
Love yourself! And give yourself good reasons to! Don't worry about her, someone else will come along or you'll go find someone, and if you aren't ready you'll wonder why you didn't improve yourself in the meantime so it actually might of worked. Don't walk in my shoes for that one
Take Care
HAIL LORD ZEUS
HAIL LORD ABRAXAS
