A Sagittarian emphasis, depending on exact placements, can result in an element of travel that may result in a looser connection to one's current surroundings. However, that may not be the same as feeling disconnected. Beyond this, it is possible for your past as an SS to create alienated feelings, especially if this resulted in trauma or other negative karma in a past life. On top of all of this, simply being raised differently can lead to less of a bond with another culture.
Berkano pertains to family and emotions, Othal pertains to ancestry in a broad sense, and Wunjo pertains to joy (which involves community-based happiness and harmony). All of these present different options you can use. Wunjo is probably the best all-purpose rune here. Astarte's Ritual would also be relevant and useful.
In my opinion, the priority would be reducing personal feelings of alienation and unhappiness with those around you. Although related, you don't necessarily need a deep understanding or connection; Wunjo would work on all levels necessary to create happiness, whereas something like Berkano would be more restricted to nurturing and emotions.
Now, my question would be if you are trying to connect with the culture of India, or with British Indians, as these are two different cultures. If you are a British Indian and do not have any future plans to travel to, or integrate with India itself, it may not make sense to invest a lot of time beyond creating personal comfort with your existing situation.
There's so many constant factor's such as below which contribute to an overall disconnect from my race that I don't even know where to begin with to address these issue's nor where the rabbit hole ends, as it pertain's to my entire chart.
Because of this, I apologise in advance because this response has become quite bloated, as I wanted to give as much information as possible so that I can find specific solution's to address these specific issue's.
QUESTION'S:
- How can I develop national pride?
- How can I become less discriminatory with who I associate with?
- How can I begin to build a genuine love and appreciation for Indian culture?
- How can I be less interested in foreign culture's, and more rooted in my own?
- How can I become more attracted to, or attract friend's/lover's of my specific tribe?
MAIN:
I am trying to connect with and eventually integrate into India because the country is a wreck and I want to get into politics in order to address these issue's, as my chart is very well suited to this objective, and not in a slimey way, but because I have a strong Virgo/Aquarius/Cancer nurturing bent to my personality.
Lillith Dark Moon, Mars and Pluto are conjunct within Sagittarius in the 3rd house, but there's also a very heavy Uranus/Aquarius/11th House emphasis connected to the 4th House, which make's me want to break away from tradition.
I find Indian culture extremely stifling because it's traditional to the point of feeling archaic/primitive, at least compared to the West, or countries such as Japan, which have the best of both world's... I can appreciate traditional culture, but my own seem's to be the exception here, at least beyond a surface level interest.
And yes, I am quite alienated as a whole which add's to the issue. I don't have much interaction with people in general let alone my own race.
However, it's quite strange because I have a lot of planet's which pertain to a tendency to socialise with other's as well being charming and charismatic, yet I can't help but feel disconnected from everything... I feel distant from my own race, but I have always been aware of the degeneracy of "diversity" and race-mixing, and so I feel I cannot connect with the other races either. And this has left me socially isolated.
Additionally, I look White-Iranian + Oriental (e.g., Keanu Reeves), so they don't even treat me as Indian until they find out afterwards, nor do I find them naturally compelling because they do not "look like me" to begin with. It almost feel's as though I'm mixed-race because of how rare it is to find my specific genetic makeup, and I hate this about India in general, because I do not feel "represented" there, but I still want to cultivate a sense of belonging.
RELATIONSHIP ISSUE'S:
Jupiter is in the 7th House, and the ruler of this House is Mars in Sagittarius... foreign women, whether it's black, white, asian etc., alway's try to flirt with me and start a relationship, but my own race totally ignores me, and because of this I have remained a "bachelor".
My Venus being in the 11th only make's this worse, because if they're not after a relationship or I decline then they want to be friend's. And thing's can naturally escalate from there, so even if my racial instinct's prevented me initially, eventually certain inhibition's can give way, and so now I deliberately have to sabotage the friendship to avoid this. This seem's to happen even if I make clear my boundaries. And a huge portion of my soul is oriented toward's relationship's, so it's an insufferable cycle, with how rare it is to find compatible genetic's.
I grew up Muslim, and the ugliness of the Hijab further made me perceive my own race's women as "invisible," so that my attraction to them was never able to naturally cultivate, because they would never interact with boy's and it was prohibited to both gender's.
The majority of my family has unironically model-tier genetic's, and are probably the prime example's of their race, so it's not like I don't know there are other attractive people out there, but I am "indifferent" to their appeal the same way a normal person can understand a foreigner is objectively attractive due to common sense, but not want to have sex with them or something.
And honestly, in my case the same process has occurred in relation to almost everything else on the topic of Indian culture, as it's closer to an overall indifference rather than dislike.
RANDOM/OTHER:
I don't like British Desi's because the majority of them act like hoodrat black's and they ass lick rap culture, or else they're very nerdy. Not that there's anything wrong with nerd's, but I prefer the branch of "scholarly athletes," and I have an 11th House Venus in Virgo as the chart ruler which make's me very discriminatory with who I associate with.
I believe if the British/Jew's didn't destroy India my issue would be far less, as it has a lot to do with national pride and a certain inferiority complex that has developed due to being exposed to Western culture for so long... And I fudking hate the fact that India is a "diverse" (mixed) country, where the majority of people don't even look like me. There's an automatic disconnect.
I really like to read, but there doesn't seem like a very rich literature at least that hasn't been destroyed compared to what is available elsewhere, and I don't know Sanskrit/Hindi... Outside of the Vedas and various religious text's it all feel's very mediocre compared to what is offerred through my Western studies. Indian people seem to be more oriented toward's Science and Mathematic's rather than my artistic and philosophical interest's. The Indian aesthetic's and taste's look really shitty to me, except the North-eastern branch... The cultural style of other countries has evolved and changed over time, what once looked good is now considered goofy and old fashioned. But Indian styles have remained the same for 10 trillion aeons and I really wish they'd outgrow this. I prefer the Gen Z/western clothing style as it's what I've grown used to and like. It does seem like the Gen Z of India is making this shift tho, although I also dislike the mass globalisation of every country becoming westernised. So I'm conflicted there.
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