Aldrick Strickland said:Sinistra said:Aldrick Strickland said:I see what you are saying. That makes sense. Yes I was Given Gifts. Thats how Satan Himself brought me to the JOS. The psychic New age kid who stumbled upon Satan and his demons on the Astral. Psychic and weak. Pathetic fucking loser. Who struggled through life and let everyone take advantage of him. So I burnt the weakness out of me. I became the person I wanted to be. Is it perfect, no.
I am still so pathetic to who I want to become. At least now when someone tries to use me, I Beat the shit out of them. Although I sought after being strong so much I became it but not without becoming psychotic in the process.
Do I think zodiac mantras are the end all, ofcourse not. But how do you fix imbalances? Invocation of the opposite Element, not embracing the imbalance. Still I agree a working would be better. But guess what I cant keep consistency. I get home 8 o clock. I have to be up at 4:30. I have Raum at 108 Raum 108 EO 108 EA. 216 Surya. Hatha and kundalini Yoga. I pass out and back to square one we go. But im also suppose to have 15 workings in there for everything else.
Healing, Money, Confidence ect. I cant figure out why I would prefer visualizing a sign for 10 seconds and suddenly feeling different. But let me guess im suppose to be able to juggle all that. Well I cant. So I will be a kid playing with the zodiac mantras.
You should stop thinking yourself as how you were before and in terms of living up to possibilities. Think in terms of progress being made. And if you constantly dwell on toxic people and on beating up others that's what you will attract as well.
Instead of these zodiac mantras you can breath in elements daily followed by an affirmation for balancing in a healthy and positive way. It's not gonna take more time maybe less even.
Thats interesting. Im Naturally Shy and Sensitive. People abused this fact. So I became The opposite. But I did so Effectively. Its true I Fight my Natural Self which Is why I See Saw. But I could not just see Remaining Weak. Oh im Compassionate and Loving. That gets you nothing in this life. It Doesnt get you Money, A Girl, Respect or anything. People are Cunts. Every fuckin one of them. Self absorbed Losers. So I became a self absorbed Loser to join them. Although I am taking to heart what is being said here. I do value and care for my Satanic family. I apologize for being an ego Filled Cunt sometimes. It annoys me as well.
But Whatcha gonna do lol. I am trying To Transform. Like a Retarded Phoenix cawing at the wind burning himself. One day we shall eat apple pie together and it will be dandy. If you dont like apple pie then fuck you. You will eat it and enjoy it. I actually Hate Pie though, Its Gluten.
I hope we can build an environment where people can be themselves without that shit.
It's not a lie that people only seek to eat people like that. Because they are worthless wimps and abusers. One encounters this everyday living outside. Therefore, the loving and compassionate, and creative, are absorbed into the pool of shit which is called the 'modern world' and become dysfunctional individuals instead of life giving creatures.
However you do not have to be like that on the board as I do not believe, at least, the majority of people, want a beef with you or to abuse you. So there is no need to beef up with others.
As for the external world, guard your heart as you have been doing. And act as you must. However don't lose track of your own soul nature.