--- [/IMG]Satanicgaycommunity @yahoogroups. com, "hazel" <hazelnutty@ ... wrote:
Hi
No you're not scarred for life, you just have loads of healing to do on yourself. One day you'll be a much stronger person for all you've been through.
Lots love to you Sister, you're not alone.
Hail Satan
--- [/IMG]Satanicgaycommunity @yahoogroups. com, "Heavenraiser" <mayeshakpah@ wrote:
Yeah, man, I know what it's like to have a shit childhood. When I was a little kid, my mom used to hit me with a belt for stupid reasons. When I got older, she replaced that with mental abuse, calling me names like "dumb", "stupid", "fat", and other stuff on a near daily basis. It only got worse as I got older. But what REALLY put me over the edge was last year when I got kiddnapped and raped by a stranger. When I told the police and my mom, she was like "you could've prevented this" , "I hope you learned a lesson", "If this happens again it'll be your fault", and "why are you attracted to every guy who calls you pretty?". When my dad came to visit me for my high school graduation, he didn't say much about me getting raped; instead he spent an hour talking about how women should cook and clean and I shouldn't have white( I'm black) friends. Get this. When I told my mom what she said was basically blaming me for what happened, she wasn't hearing it and her POV was right. I called my dad and he was like "Just get over it", "Your mom has the right to say whatever she wants", and shit like that. Combined with the fact I've been bullied by alot of people in middle and high school, I'm mentally scared for life. Sorry, but I don't plan on forgiving my parents and especially not my rapist. Well, that, and my parents said that if I was gay, they'd kick me out the house and they'll pretend that they never had a daughter. Talk about love, huh? Well, HP Jake, I'm glad your parents actually classify as parents. Thanks to Xianity and company( my rapist was a Xian,too; after he let me go, he said I should call him after church. That right there made me dump Xianity), I'll NEVER know what it's like to have a decent childhood. Xianity and company NEEDS to be destroyed. The only "good" thing I have to say 'bout my childhood is it gave me good inspiration to be the first black lesbian psychological horror author. I already have about a dozen ideas and I started writing one of 'em. It's sick, I tell ya what. I might talk about it in another forum. Look out for it! Oh, HP Jake, I'm glad you didn't commit suicide; I wanted to do that( or commit heinous crimes on others)so many times too. Well, we gotta pull though! Hail Satan!
--- [/IMG]Satanicgaycommunity @yahoogroups. com, "High Priest Jake" <hammerofthegods_ 666@ wrote:
On the Yahoo! front page, there was an article that I didn't have the patience to read. It was a study that said that today's youth have more mental health problems. Gee, I wonder why. In most cases, this is still coming from both secular and religious indoctrination, to this day. This is nothing new.. The youth deserve much better. We all do. Satan provides for those of us who are dedicated, as well as those who will end up dedicating, who is destined to be accepted by him.
666/88!!
High Priest Jake Carlson
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