When Your Life Feels Like It’s Falling Apart

[HPS Lydia]

There have been multiple posts lately from members who write about how their life is falling apart and they are struggling.

Just keep at it. Keep connecting to the Gods, keep trying your best. This is normal in life, nobody gets anywhere without struggling through the hard times. Even HPS Maxine was homeless for a while as a teenager. All through history, things happen. Natural disasters, heartbreak, abandonment, illness, injury, people losing everything, and so on. It really sucks, I know, I’ve had hard times too. But this is a part of human evolution.

We are not perfected yet, this world is not perfected yet, life is not perfected yet.

And if you ever wonder why other people don’t seem to be experiencing hard times, know that they went through them in their previous life, or perhaps will in some years from now or in their next life.

What you are experiencing is simply a part of being human. Clear out your karma, keep cleaning your soul, chakras, aura, and keep up your AoP. These go a long way, more than you currently know. Everything you do now will help to improve your life at the time when it is able to manifest.

Raise your energy daily through meditation, yoga, qigong, kundalini yoga, breathing exercises, whatever you feel drawn to the most. Do the FRTR and God Rituals when you can, and there are many magickal workings that can be done. Keep at it, and it will all be worth it. Stay strong mentally and this will get you through anything; know that you have all your SS comrades here rooting for you, myself included

Life does get better!

 

[666t666]

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There have been multiple posts lately from members who write about how their life is falling apart and they are struggling.

Just keep at it. Keep connecting to the Gods, keep trying your best. This is normal in life, nobody gets anywhere without struggling through the hard times. Even HPS Maxine was homeless for a while as a teenager. All through history, things happen. Natural disasters, heartbreak, abandonment, illness, injury, people losing everything, and so on. It really sucks, I know, I’ve had hard times too. But this is a part of human evolution.

We are not perfected yet, this world is not perfected yet, life is not perfected yet.

And if you ever wonder why other people don’t seem to be experiencing hard times, know that they went through them in their previous life, or perhaps will in some years from now or in their next life.

What you are experiencing is simply a part of being human. Clear out your karma, keep cleaning your soul, chakras, aura, and keep up your AoP. These go a long way, more than you currently know. Everything you do now will help to improve your life at the time when it is able to manifest.

Raise your energy daily through meditation, yoga, qigong, kundalini yoga, breathing exercises, whatever you feel drawn to the most. Do the FRTR and God Rituals when you can, and there are many magickal workings that can be done. Keep at it, and it will all be worth it. Stay strong mentally and this will get you through anything; know that you have all your SS comrades here rooting for you, myself included

Life does get better!

Sister Lydia, I'm going through tough times too, but I don't feel like I have the energy to cleanse or meditate. Every time I try to meditate for the last week, my whole body is bankrupting itself, and I don't feel like meditating in any way, and my body doesn't allow it either. I feel the fatigue and sadness filling all my cells. I can only do god rituals to maintain intimacy with our gods, but even while doing it, the negative thoughts that the gods don't care about me and don't help me even though I beg them for help haunt me. I was able to meditate without any problems until 1 week ago.

 

[InfraRedd88]

Thank you, Sister of Satan Lydia! I really needed to read this!

 

[Voice of Enki [JG]]

Beautifully written JG Lydia!

 

[Lightningsnake]

Thank you very much.

Actually, my case is complicated. At least for me.
I know that my mind controls the material. I see that my thoughts influence my life.
I just came out of a situation where it was ideal.

I don't have full control of my mind.
And that leads to bad things.
Many times I don't even know what the ideal mindset would be.
I am insecure because there is always a mistake.

One month earlier.
I invoked fire and that helped. But I stopped because I was afraid of losing the balance in my soul. I did it for almost half a year. I kept increasing it. I had negative complaints, but good things far outweighed them.
I would like to find a way where this works well for me. Or an alternative.

 

[Wotanwarrior]

I remember at the end of 2018 was when I started to feel this way and felt my life falling apart, in 2020 it reached its zenith when I started working with the RTRs and deep cleansing to free my soul and I saw all the layers of curses, traumas and karma that my soul had accumulated over many past lives, when I managed to remove a layer of curses, underneath came out more traumas and karma and only now I am finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I have never given up and have continued to work on my breakthrough, the RTRs, Munka works to keep removing the karma, the rituals of the gods to strengthen my bond and stay closer to them and the deep cleansing.

 

[WiseDragon]

Great post Lydia!

One thing I want to add is that looking at struggles as opportunities and not just horrible curses can be life-changing. Every problem gives you an opportunity to get stronger in that area, to learn new things that you can then share with others and to develop new skills.

All of these will stay with you forever once the problems will be behind you. If you prevail and win despite of the suffering you will be a much stronger and able human in the end. Stoicism talks about this as well.

 

[WiseDragon]

I remember at the end of 2018 was when I started to feel this way and felt my life falling apart, in 2020 it reached its zenith when I started working with the RTRs and deep cleansing to free my soul and I saw all the layers of curses, traumas and karma that my soul had accumulated over many past lives, when I managed to remove a layer of curses, underneath came out more traumas and karma and only now I am finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I have never given up and have continued to work on my breakthrough, the RTRs, Munka works to keep removing the karma, the rituals of the gods to strengthen my bond and stay closer to them and the deep cleansing.

Despite all of this you did so much work here, especially in the spanish section, thank you!

 

[SaqqaraNox]

Thank you very much for that. Life can get really hard sometimes, but you have to keep going and do your best.

I recently found myself going through a very difficult time. Now after some time I am slowly beginning to overcome it.

I have noticed that all the difficulties have changed me, changed my perspective on life; certain things that I used to consider important, I now realize are superfluous.

Negative periods always carry a lesson, which one must be able to grasp and accept, in order to transform and become better.

 

[Meneteu]

So you say that HPS Maxine was homeless for a while.How can this be possible?

Right now i'm confronting the darkest time that i ever lived and i will explain in detail.Something like 6 month ago i have seen a repetitive message from the Gods: "it's time".Basicaly i was thinking that it should be a great chapter of my life, but it wasn't..I had a terrible argue with my mother and she and my father made me move out.Now i'm in a situation where it is possible to be forced by circumstances to move back with them, but i think they woudn't be agree with that and also i rather suicide myself than living again with them.

Of course, i'm doing yoga and meditation on a daily basis, but what can i expect from Gods to tell me about that situation?

 

[bluefire07]

Thank you for this! Im trying my best to keep moving forward despite the karma that was brought on to me in this life. I seemed to understand that is all part of being human and it’s not easy. I hope the gods know that it’s not easy being human but we can’t forget what we are! We are Spiritual Satanists. I will never give up!

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

So you say that HPS Maxine was homeless for a while.How can this be possible?

Right now i'm confronting the darkest time that i ever lived and i will explain in detail.Something like 6 month ago i have seen a repetitive message from the Gods: "it's time".Basicaly i was thinking that it should be a great chapter of my life, but it wasn't..I had a terrible argue with my mother and she and my father made me move out.Now i'm in a situation where it is possible to be forced by circumstances to move back with them, but i think they woudn't be agree with that and also i rather suicide myself than living again with them.

Of course, i'm doing yoga and meditation on a daily basis, but what can i expect from Gods to tell me about that situation?

Are you in a country where you can get financial help of some sort or any other kind of help? Because you should try to contact those if you need it.

As for the argument with the family, I don't know what its about, but at least try to make up. Your parents are still your parents and I don't know to what extents they'll go but this is also excessive and shouldn't happen.
Perhaps you shouldn't talk at their house but ask to meet in a public place. Or write a letter or give a phone call.

I was almost kicked out on the street due to arguments before with my parents (especially my dad). And they're not the kind that want to talk things out. They'd rather be silent and act as if nothing happened.
Although my mom was a bit more lenient with that and she'd at least listen or try to and she was the one that actually talked to my dad that it was wrong to kick me out the one time..

However, my situation does not compare to yours.
I am definetely not saying, 'move back in' because sometimes space is what you need if you want to make those kind of relationships go well.

 

[Meneteu]

Thanks for this message.It appears that the pendulum and my reading astrolgical cards doesn’t lied.I’m safety with that situation and i will not come back with my parents.This situation show me that i don’t have to be at war with my parents because they will help me financialy to sustain that situation.Also it is true: we often times suffer more in imagination than in reality.

Thanks to Father Satan, my Queen Nephtys, and also the mighty Beelzebul because they paved this road to me.

I hope other SS to see this message if this will be necessary.

So you say that HPS Maxine was homeless for a while.How can this be possible?

Right now i'm confronting the darkest time that i ever lived and i will explain in detail.Something like 6 month ago i have seen a repetitive message from the Gods: "it's time".Basicaly i was thinking that it should be a great chapter of my life, but it wasn't..I had a terrible argue with my mother and she and my father made me move out.Now i'm in a situation where it is possible to be forced by circumstances to move back with them, but i think they woudn't be agree with that and also i rather suicide myself than living again with them.

Of course, i'm doing yoga and meditation on a daily basis, but what can i expect from Gods to tell me about that situation?

Are you in a country where you can get financial help of some sort or any other kind of help? Because you should try to contact those if you need it.

As for the argument with the family, I don't know what its about, but at least try to make up. Your parents are still your parents and I don't know to what extents they'll go but this is also excessive and shouldn't happen.
Perhaps you shouldn't talk at their house but ask to meet in a public place. Or write a letter or give a phone call.

I was almost kicked out on the street due to arguments before with my parents (especially my dad). And they're not the kind that want to talk things out. They'd rather be silent and act as if nothing happened.
Although my mom was a bit more lenient with that and she'd at least listen or try to and she was the one that actually talked to my dad that it was wrong to kick me out the one time..

However, my situation does not compare to yours.
I am definetely not saying, 'move back in' because sometimes space is what you need if you want to make those kind of relationships go well.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Sister Lydia, I'm going through tough times too, but I don't feel like I have the energy to cleanse or meditate. Every time I try to meditate for the last week, my whole body is bankrupting itself, and I don't feel like meditating in any way, and my body doesn't allow it either. I feel the fatigue and sadness filling all my cells. I can only do god rituals to maintain intimacy with our gods, but even while doing it, the negative thoughts that the gods don't care about me and don't help me even though I beg them for help haunt me. I was able to meditate without any problems until 1 week ago.

Sorry to hear of your hard times. Have a look at other areas of your life, and see where you can cut back a bit, to ease your mind. And then try cleaning, try some breathing exercises to raise your energy. Perhaps you are not eating well, or are depleted in a vitamin/mineral.

As for the negative thoughts that the Gods don't care about you, keep ignoring those thoughts. They do care.

Great post Lydia!

One thing I want to add is that looking at struggles as opportunities and not just horrible curses can be life-changing. Every problem gives you an opportunity to get stronger in that area, to learn new things that you can then share with others and to develop new skills.

All of these will stay with you forever once the problems will be behind you. If you prevail and win despite of the suffering you will be a much stronger and able human in the end. Stoicism talks about this as well.

Thanks, and that is a good mindset to have. Stoicism (and pragmatism) are very good for the mind.

Thank you very much for that. Life can get really hard sometimes, but you have to keep going and do your best.

I recently found myself going through a very difficult time. Now after some time I am slowly beginning to overcome it.

I have noticed that all the difficulties have changed me, changed my perspective on life; certain things that I used to consider important, I now realize are superfluous.

Negative periods always carry a lesson, which one must be able to grasp and accept, in order to transform and become better.

Thanks for this additional input, it is very true about how perspective changes as we evolve.

 

[Yurei]

I've hit a rock in my path lately. I've been unmotivated and low on energy and depressed. I feel like the Gods directed me to see this post though. Thank you Lydia!

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

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good to hear

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

One month earlier.
I invoked fire and that helped. But I stopped because I was afraid of losing the balance in my soul. I did it for almost half a year. I kept increasing it. I had negative complaints, but good things far outweighed them.
I would like to find a way where this works well for me. Or an alternative.

Either use ether energy and affirm it to help balance, or use something like Sowilo and affirm it to be acting in a balanced and positive manner. Alternatively, use the breath of fire, or in conjunction.

You are not going to create any major instabilities if you use positive programming, especially also considering that you likely lack fire anyway. It is important to feel in control of yourself and your destiny.

Fire creates optimism and happiness, and should be worked on, especially the solar chakra. Although the Sun has exited Leo, perhaps you could still do a Sun Square before it enters Libra and affirm it to improve your confidence, energy, and optimism. Mars is in Libra currently and shouldn't be worked on, but it will soon be in Scorpio.

As for the mind itself, the thoughts themselves are Mercurial in nature, normally grounded by earth, but they are influenced by all elements, in their own ways. You can use Isa or other yin-based energies to calm your thoughts. Nauthiz or Eihwaz can also help establish control.

 

[Lightningsnake]

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One month earlier.
I invoked fire and that helped. But I stopped because I was afraid of losing the balance in my soul. I did it for almost half a year. I kept increasing it. I had negative complaints, but good things far outweighed them.
I would like to find a way where this works well for me. Or an alternative.

Either use ether energy and affirm it to help balance, or use something like Sowilo and affirm it to be acting in a balanced and positive manner. Alternatively, use the breath of fire, or in conjunction.

You are not going to create any major instabilities if you use positive programming, especially also considering that you likely lack fire anyway. It is important to feel in control of yourself and your destiny.

Fire creates optimism and happiness, and should be worked on, especially the solar chakra. Although the Sun has exited Leo, perhaps you could still do a Sun Square before it enters Libra and affirm it to improve your confidence, energy, and optimism. Mars is in Libra currently and shouldn't be worked on, but it will soon be in Scorpio.

As for the mind itself, the thoughts themselves are Mercurial in nature, normally grounded by earth, but they are influenced by all elements, in their own ways. You can use Isa or other yin-based energies to calm your thoughts. Nauthiz or Eihwaz can also help establish control.

Thank you for your thorough reply.

While I was thinking about what answer to write, I realised what was missing. I lack determination, that's why I'm unstable. The fire element added determination.

I will consider the options you offer.
I might start the fire invocation again if it does not cause instability. The previous time, I used it to boost my immune system and post-workout recovery. I have not been ill once. My muscle aches were also negligible.

A couple of weeks ago, I started a Sun Square to strengthen my will. Better, but not the same as it was. There are always instabilities with it. But I'll finish when I've started.

I like the possibility of Nauthiz to calm my mind, to guide it.

Thank you once again.