What makes a person Third Gender

[darkmonkey666]

Is it just being gay or bisexual or something spiritual. I know this has been talked about but I am having trouble understanding this. Also is there such a thing as a fourth or fifth or even more genders. I was reading that some ancient religions apparently believed this. Which gender am I personally from what you know about this or can I just identify as 5th gender or whatever. I'd like some clarification on this. I am white male bisexual with only a feeling more for women cause this was pushed on me probably I can be equally attracted to both.

I would like help getting over the feeling of a hang up for being attracted to the same gender or at my own gender what is a good meditation for this. I love who I am but I don't quite feel comfortable in human terms or fully here. I don't know how to describe it. I would like to be fully present and here but yeah this was something people made fun of me or I thought they would when I was younger so that's the hang up.

This is all a hang up. I know what I feel is probably messed up but I am unsure how to go forewards in this. I grew up in a strongly xtian home.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

Genders are two by nature. Male and Female.

There is also a rarity that happens biologically that is called a Hermaphrodite which falls between the two. This is not a mental state of belief, but a verifiable biological condition. This is biological and you are born with this. It is not opinion based. Some do classify as a the third gender in itself.

You are what you said you are. White male bisexual. That's it. Nothing bad with it. All good.

The rest is just BS entitlements and dancing around words for zero meaning but to feel special. The point lies not in renaming youself and complex norms, just personal self acceptance.

 

[JoS Forum Contributions]

Its stated in the ancient texts depending on what element is dominate at conception this causes such. In the case of the Third nature its the ether element that dominates. This also relates to dealing with soul groups and the fact many people are not Heterosexual or Homosexual.

 

[TimberWolf]

The most logical explanation for homo-/transsexuality would be gender switching upon reincarnation.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I have gotten a lot better but still have a little hang up on this. Not even my xtian family per say expected me to act in ways that were contrary to me in regaurds to gender when I was younger it was the fact people constantly made fun of me or were scared because they thought I was gay. I am not sure why but I have had crushes on both genders.

I dont know who the real person for me is but I am more of a person who want a connection spiritual and emotional than gender.

My hang up comes in when it comes to the same gender both relationships and friendships. I am not trans. I kid of do fit a new word people in my area started using that i have no idea where this idea came from. Gender fluid as in I am human and just who I am apparently.

A lot of the reason i was angry is I felt disconnected from who I was in this way. I want to just be myself and not be expected to be something I am not.

For awhile if people remember I thought even the idea that people had to be respectful of eachother was an oppressive Jewish communist idea based on male gender stereotypes and wanted to act the opposite of my gender.

The issue is not that I dont like myself it is that I dont fit in ever with other guys so I always had female friends. All guys tend to talk about is fucking this or that person porn sports things more porn and some silly tv show or movie.

Then add partying or drugs to this along with trying to act tough or hide anything creative.

This was my impression of my gender and why I feel still somewhat unhappy.

They dont look deeply into the meaning of life or realize there is much more to sex than just The materialistic act with no meaning.

 

[FancyMancy]

The most logical explanation for homo-/transsexuality would be gender switching upon reincarnation.

You're always a male or female.

 

[Gearshift]

Gender fluid as in I am human and just who I am apparently.

I believe this has been discussed before albeit it's kinda hard to discuss it without delving into social constructs of the enemy.

It's not wrong to believe in such things. But members like Lydia have stated that most likely this bicuriosity and bisexuality is merely 30% but easily half at 15%. That the prospect of 90% is exaggerated. Perhaps you are curious and because of centuries of sexual suppression and repression it's caused issues.

..sexuality of men...They dont look deeply into the meaning of life or realize there is much more to sex than just The materialistic act with no meaning.

I think this attitude you speak of is being maligned by the enemy in THEIR method of causing issues.

It reminds me of a person who wrote "My demon(guardian?) doesn't like my succubus, he states she is too open and free sexually". So he said that he asked him to "Talk it out" and he replied "I'll contact her and work it out".

To be honest and I apologize if I have this attitude. But I would like to have such lifestyle of banging everything that moves. Not because I'm an asshole albeit I do have wants and needs. But taking it further into astrology my aspects define me as a sex crazed person. In fact my astrological aspects and retrograde demands that I help mankind go from sex-negative to sex-positive.

Unfortunately despite thinking about sex since a toddler 3-4-5 years old and just being in school in my own world thinking about sex. I've yet to experience it, in fact it's gotten to the point whereby I have literally said to myself "Am I a xtian?", "Why do I think sex in such negative light", "How can I use my sex positive nature to make myself sex positive and sublimate my negativity and help others be normal sexual creatures".

I think your on the right track look at sex in a more serene fashion. But be honest with yourself and don't tell me "You've never thought about engaging in such sexual manners?"

Here is the thing they a xtians or athiest or wacked out people. Okay wrong, okay bad, okay deserving of help. But don't you think the fact they have experience and enjoy their lives as so-called normal people would. That they unto themselves aren't the problem not the solution but certainly not the problem. Isn't the problem deeper and whatnot.

In fact for all the xtian bullshit and hatred of xtianity that you, I, and the JoS have. Aren't on some level no matter how crazily indoctrinated to the Abrahamic cult at the very least they are enjoying their lives and putting themselves out there in the World.

I'm not saying your wrong in fact I don't fit with the stereotypical male despite my mind thinking that way. But something tells me to type this down that honestly it's best just to go with the flow in this world.

It's like an article I read drugs and alcohol are bad and do horrible things to your body and make you do bad decisions. But social isolation is the worst drug ever to exist. It's better just to get out there and do something than be socially alienated and not even going out.

Honestly I sound like a hypocrite typing this up trying to help when I can't help myself. Yes you heard right; I can help others but can't help myself.

Anyways Darkmonkey666 sounds to me like you understand being good but probably desires such experiences particularly if your such a time wise person who believes your wasting your time not accomplishing things and feel like your growing older and desperate to feel wanted and needed. Can't blame you as I'm the same perhaps worse due to my age and complete and utter non-existent sex life.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

The most logical explanation for homo-/transsexuality would be gender switching upon reincarnation.

You're always a male or female.

Yea the sex of the person can't ever possibly switch to the other one. That never happens. Your body and soul are the same thing, and your sex is one of the absolute deepest things about the structure of you. Whatever sex you are, you have been forever and will be forever. What actually happens that makes people feel more like the opposite sex is astrological alignments that fill the soul with energies related to that other sex. So a man with a lot of female energies, or a woman with a lot of male energies. Maybe feels for them like they have more energies of that opposite sex than the one their body is. But they are always the same sex they have always been. We all need both energies anyway so it's not really a bad thing.

 

[Jack]

I have gotten a lot better but still have a little hang up on this. Not even my xtian family per say expected me to act in ways that were contrary to me in regaurds to gender when I was younger it was the fact people constantly made fun of me or were scared because they thought I was gay. I am not sure why but I have had crushes on both genders.

I dont know who the real person for me is but I am more of a person who want a connection spiritual and emotional than gender.

My hang up comes in when it comes to the same gender both relationships and friendships. I am not trans. I kid of do fit a new word people in my area started using that i have no idea where this idea came from. Gender fluid as in I am human and just who I am apparently.

A lot of the reason i was angry is I felt disconnected from who I was in this way. I want to just be myself and not be expected to be something I am not.

For awhile if people remember I thought even the idea that people had to be respectful of eachother was an oppressive Jewish communist idea based on male gender stereotypes and wanted to act the opposite of my gender.

The issue is not that I dont like myself it is that I dont fit in ever with other guys so I always had female friends. All guys tend to talk about is fucking this or that person porn sports things more porn and some silly tv show or movie.

Then add partying or drugs to this along with trying to act tough or hide anything creative.

This was my impression of my gender and why I feel still somewhat unhappy.

They dont look deeply into the meaning of life or realize there is much more to sex than just The materialistic act with no meaning.

This might be because of psychological issues due to the abuse you suffered from your xian parents. Have you tried a Healing psychological damage working ? If you haven't I highly recommend you to do that. You might have some severe trauma that's confusing your gender identity, making you suffer in other areas of your life, and building inside day after day. If you leave trauma without doing anything about it, hide from it or try to run away from it its going to get bigger in time. The way to release the trauma is accept it happened and to not identity with it anymore(getting over it). The psychological healing working can help. Search here in the search bar for that .
Another thing that can solidly confirm your sexuality or where you lean towards is checking your attraction levels to different stimulus. Go out and talk to random cute girls and try to flirt with them. Girls are very receptive to homosexuals and bisexuals for reason i don't know .Tell them they're cute. What I want you to know is that your not trying to get something out of them or even get with them. What your trying to see is if you get more attraction towards girls as compared to the guys. See what feels better and then decide where your sexuality lies. Without direct experience mental models may mislead you. You might discover you feel raw animalistic sexual tension towards that girl compared to the guys. Which tells you where you should lean towards. Experience it first then decide.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I am sorry guys I think something happened to my account darkmonkey666. I cannot log into it anymore I am using the password I always had but it says its wrong and it wont send a reset email to my address.

If you guys got any strange attempted posts in my account they are not me. I believe my other phone was not secure and I had a lot of experiences that tell me someone had access to it somehow my password was saved on that phone so this is how this happened. I do not know who the individual messing with that phone was They could even type stuff in my texts and apparently send it. What was typed was nonsensical stuff though that makes no sense.

There was then this person who emailed me and claimed to have my photos and knew stuff about my living situation and what my dad did for a living etc

All that info was on my other phone. They were doing this to try and scare me I hope the newer ones are more secure. I wonder if I could report this person because he was threatening me I should not keep conversations going with the enemy I realize that now I should have ignored them. This strange stuff with my phone only started when I recieved the email. So he or she did something to gain access to my phone.

The only reason I kept this up was I believe in freedom of speech and it made me mad this person keeps saying I will die if I dont leave Satanism or take down my channel on youtube. I guess its a waste of my time to talk to people like that and stuff like what happened to my phone can happen.

I have bought a new phone and will no longer be using that one for anything.

I do like this user name cause it goes along with the usernames I often use on other websites when doing spiritual warfare online. I dont need the other account but I for awhile will remind people of my old user name. I dont know if I can get my account back if they changed email to it as well.

Just wanted to let you guys know what happened.

I am going to change password to all my accounts I guess.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I have gotten a lot better but still have a little hang up on this. Not even my xtian family per say expected me to act in ways that were contrary to me in regaurds to gender when I was younger it was the fact people constantly made fun of me or were scared because they thought I was gay. I am not sure why but I have had crushes on both genders.

I dont know who the real person for me is but I am more of a person who want a connection spiritual and emotional than gender.

My hang up comes in when it comes to the same gender both relationships and friendships. I am not trans. I kid of do fit a new word people in my area started using that i have no idea where this idea came from. Gender fluid as in I am human and just who I am apparently.

A lot of the reason i was angry is I felt disconnected from who I was in this way. I want to just be myself and not be expected to be something I am not.

For awhile if people remember I thought even the idea that people had to be respectful of eachother was an oppressive Jewish communist idea based on male gender stereotypes and wanted to act the opposite of my gender.

The issue is not that I dont like myself it is that I dont fit in ever with other guys so I always had female friends. All guys tend to talk about is fucking this or that person porn sports things more porn and some silly tv show or movie.

Then add partying or drugs to this along with trying to act tough or hide anything creative.

This was my impression of my gender and why I feel still somewhat unhappy.

They dont look deeply into the meaning of life or realize there is much more to sex than just The materialistic act with no meaning.

This might be because of psychological issues due to the abuse you suffered from your xian parents. Have you tried a Healing psychological damage working ? If you haven't I highly recommend you to do that. You might have some severe trauma that's confusing your gender identity, making you suffer in other areas of your life, and building inside day after day. If you leave trauma without doing anything about it, hide from it or try to run away from it its going to get bigger in time. The way to release the trauma is accept it happened and to not identity with it anymore(getting over it). The psychological healing working can help. Search here in the search bar for that .
Another thing that can solidly confirm your sexuality or where you lean towards is checking your attraction levels to different stimulus. Go out and talk to random cute girls and try to flirt with them. Girls are very receptive to homosexuals and bisexuals for reason i don't know .Tell them they're cute. What I want you to know is that your not trying to get something out of them or even get with them. What your trying to see is if you get more attraction towards girls as compared to the guys. See what feels better and then decide where your sexuality lies. Without direct experience mental models may mislead you. You might discover you feel raw animalistic sexual tension towards that girl compared to the guys. Which tells you where you should lean towards. Experience it first then decide.

Good idea I might start that when moon in Aquarius. I have for a long time had that hang ups. I want to work on this which is why I posted this.

For those that say Astrological aspects yeah thats part of it. Moon Cancer Mars Libra that is not very manly per say that is part of this.

I have sexual aspects that are supposed to make me very sexual too and I do think about sex a lot. The difference in my attitude is I want a deeper connection along with it as it doesnt feel as good just doing it. Yeah I have thought about it but its not as fun to do this in the purely material sense. Its hard to "get off" like that. Even in fantasies there is always the idea of a connection to a person for me.


I dont know about trauma but I can try the working. I have done many freeing the soul workings based upon xtianity. My dad was a pastor. It seems to take a long time to become more normal in thinking.

This feeling of being uncomfortable with my gender isnt related to me wanting to be a woman though. I dont feel great about the other gender either. I am hung up about being human and not fully comfortable with it I guess. Not sure how to describe this but yeah it makes me not like my gender as well.

 

[JoS Forum Contributions]

Society represses the feminine to repress the feminine aspect of the soul its the sympathetic magic ritual the enemy put into society by Xianity.

The situation is in our society we are told biological sex equals the gender of the psyche if you are male you only have male psychological traits. Biological sex does not make one only one gender in the psyche, the human is both masculine and feminine within the psyche. Just as you have a left brain and right brain. So if you have more feminine traits in you as biological male, people get confused and think they must really be a women and then they want to turn themselves into a biological women. Because they are taught that psychological traits equals the biological sex.

When in reality some men are just more feminine in their psyche and some women more masculine in their psyche, its not a big deal and is part of the dualistic nature of the human psyche.

This is the reason Feminism got a lot of support from some women who are more masculine and don't want to be assigned to a ultra feminine life role, they want to run a business instead or such. Its better to teach people the truth the psyche is both male and female in its psychic qualities and it expresses this across a wide range. A lot of men in society are exhibiting traumatic behaviours from being forced to repress their feminine psychic traits to the point they are not even allowed to feel emotion the worst thing a man can do is cry because having feelings makes them gay. Men are expected to behave robotic and emotionally repressed.

If your a man and you enjoy painting, playing music and anything of the such, you are automatically "gay" in this society which means feminine, its an insult which means you are weak. This is part of the neurotic defense behaviour patterns of this unconscious trauma that Jewish society places on men to repress them.

 

[HPS Lydia]

It's not wrong to believe in such things. But members like Lydia have stated that most likely this bicuriosity and bisexuality is merely 30% but easily half at 15%. That the prospect of 90% is exaggerated. Perhaps you are curious and because of centuries of sexual suppression and repression it's caused issues.

I typed in my name and this came up... I don't believe people who are truly bi is as high as 30%. I agree with what HP HoodedCobra wrote recently, that bi/gay people are not as high as is promoted. I believe that true 3rd sex people are much less than claimed by (((studies))) done and promoted by jews.

Many people think they are bi due to centuries and lifetimes of repressed sexuality, so now everyone is going crazy trying to fuck anyone in sight. People, both men and women, need to have a healthy sexual outlet. Have as much sex as you need, with the suitable partner/s you need, and get over past hangups and repression.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I am not sure my other post went through or it wasnt approved (Mods if you didnt see it yet you dont have to approve it I think this post is better explaining things) but rest assured I am trying hard to overcome all enemy and xtian like hang ups. I done 3 to 4 full freeing the sould workings on this so far and other workings on things related to this.

Thanks for the posts to this I dont personally think the idea of gender fluid is of the enemy maybe the term is but not the idea in the way I am referring to it. I mean its my goal to be myself and accept myself and my gender but not follow unneeded expectations. In astrology I do have some more feminine placements that would hard if I were to try to conform to my gender in the way society expects it.

I never did conform to the way a guy is supposed to act because I could not even if I wanted to its not my nature I am actually more nice than most people not agressive pushy. I am more agressive in an intellectual and spiritual way. If people wrong me its not like I always do nothing I love to use my mind play psychological and or spiritual warfare. I can even act with over agression in this way and destroy someone who did little bad to me. I feel my mind is my strength I never cared for physical confrontation but bring it on mental wise. This is not like most guys people say I am very intelligent that is my strength and why I have always felt alone except a few times why I love my Capricorn friend who understands me some what so much (for those who remember my posts the last year) and talk about her so much cause well most dont even try to understand me.

So far as my sexuality I too have aspects that indicate I have a strong sex drive I think about sex a lot. I just dont go for it in a materialistic way. I know what animalistic sex drive is I felt it for both genders at one point but the thing is most people dont know how to do this. I like playful fun carefree a certain style thats what gets it for me.

I feel a lot better tonight I am slowly overcoming this. It used to be like I dont like my gender that much strangly not the other one either I had a hang up at being human sigh. If you know what I mean. I felt it debased my soul with the way most people act.

Hope this helps you understand what I am saying I want a real person to love deeply not just sexuality.

 

[Scion of Atlantis]

I am sorry guys I think something happened to my account darkmonkey666. I cannot log into it anymore I am using the password I always had but it says its wrong and it wont send a reset email to my address.

If you guys got any strange attempted posts in my account they are not me. I believe my other phone was not secure and I had a lot of experiences that tell me someone had access to it somehow my password was saved on that phone so this is how this happened. I do not know who the individual messing with that phone was They could even type stuff in my texts and apparently send it. What was typed was nonsensical stuff though that makes no sense.

There was then this person who emailed me and claimed to have my photos and knew stuff about my living situation and what my dad did for a living etc

All that info was on my other phone. They were doing this to try and scare me I hope the newer ones are more secure. I wonder if I could report this person because he was threatening me I should not keep conversations going with the enemy I realize that now I should have ignored them. This strange stuff with my phone only started when I recieved the email. So he or she did something to gain access to my phone.

The only reason I kept this up was I believe in freedom of speech and it made me mad this person keeps saying I will die if I dont leave Satanism or take down my channel on youtube. I guess its a waste of my time to talk to people like that and stuff like what happened to my phone can happen.

I have bought a new phone and will no longer be using that one for anything.

I do like this user name cause it goes along with the usernames I often use on other websites when doing spiritual warfare online. I dont need the other account but I for awhile will remind people of my old user name. I dont know if I can get my account back if they changed email to it as well.

Just wanted to let you guys know what happened.

I am going to change password to all my accounts I guess.

A crying shame about your darkmonkey account. I never keep any passwords on my phone, computer, or other electronic devices personally. It is a good idea to write all passwords down on paper and keep the paper hidden.

As for this scum emailing you, you should block all emails from them with a filter and curse and bind them as needed even without their name or a photo. I do not want to say openly how that is done over the internet as the enemy still reads these forums, but it's possible. This trash emailing you needs to be crushed like the kike bug it is.

Also make sure to protect yourself twice as much, especially if you suspect the enemy has your photos. Also ask Satan or your GD for aid if things seem very dire.

 

[Taol]

I have gotten a lot better but still have a little hang up on this. Not even my xtian family per say expected me to act in ways that were contrary to me in regaurds to gender when I was younger it was the fact people constantly made fun of me or were scared because they thought I was gay. I am not sure why but I have had crushes on both genders.

I dont know who the real person for me is but I am more of a person who want a connection spiritual and emotional than gender.

My hang up comes in when it comes to the same gender both relationships and friendships. I am not trans. I kid of do fit a new word people in my area started using that i have no idea where this idea came from. Gender fluid as in I am human and just who I am apparently.

A lot of the reason i was angry is I felt disconnected from who I was in this way. I want to just be myself and not be expected to be something I am not.

For awhile if people remember I thought even the idea that people had to be respectful of eachother was an oppressive Jewish communist idea based on male gender stereotypes and wanted to act the opposite of my gender.

The issue is not that I dont like myself it is that I dont fit in ever with other guys so I always had female friends. All guys tend to talk about is fucking this or that person porn sports things more porn and some silly tv show or movie.

Then add partying or drugs to this along with trying to act tough or hide anything creative.

This was my impression of my gender and why I feel still somewhat unhappy.

They dont look deeply into the meaning of life or realize there is much more to sex than just The materialistic act with no meaning.

Sounds like you're mostly just longing for normal happy relationships with people, not necessarily dealing with sex.

That doesn't really make you third sex though.

And to be honest, I think most people here want that .

However, I remember reading something about that to some people relationships need to be intimate, emotionally or whatever too.
This in itself can be problematic..

Question.. have you ever known what it feels like to know what your friend or partner is feeling 24/7 ?

There was someone that I spoke to for a long time, and even about my hobby. Over time I felt less and less inclined to do my hobby. Didn't want to do it. But then suddenly that person walked out of my life and this feeling went away.
Basicly, this is the kind of stuff that you'd have to put up with.. If the above case is what you want.

In regards to that, I have one thing to say. The person you should be that close with.. you have to be able to trust them with your life.

 

[Gearshift]

Many people think they are bi due to centuries and lifetimes of repressed sexuality, so now everyone is going crazy trying to fuck anyone in sight. People, both men and women, need to have a healthy sexual outlet. Have as much sex as you need, with the suitable partner/s you need, and get over past hangups and repression.

What if your not sexually repressed in any way due to the life you grew up i.e. thinking about sex since about 3-5 years old. As Darkmonkey666(Slyscorpion) stating a very sexual person but in my case because I never experienced it, it just soured me and created some negative viewpoints. I'll admit for someone like me I do have a fear of opening up my mouth and asking for sexual activities due to a number of issues.

I'm aware many will state just go out there and whatnot. I'll admit I'm a very sexual person and my astrological chart does state it, Mars/Saturn/Pluto and being a Pluto in Scorpio person, you can see it pops up. It's funny perhaps I'm exaggerating but my mind(mental is very horny) but sometimes I'm not desiring it physically. My mind dominates a lot so mentally yes I desire it but perhaps my soul and the physical aren't wanting it. I feel disconnected between the three sectors.

But for someone who can't seem to find a way to get any with a partner. How would it help me if you can be specific?

(Yes I can readily admit my mind has delved into negatives of sex and it almost makes me a disgrace to be a Satanist. Having very xtianistic thoughts. In fact it made me feel like I'm a xtian and not a Satanist. I have tried to limit the negative thoughts and feelings but I always have it there due to my lack of experience. It's like a person told me I grew up skipping over phases of life that are normal activities for others in their past.)

(Aside from not experiencing a relationship. I'll admit and yes I have read the search before in Health A-F section, that a virile member size doesn't really matter much unless it's medically a problem. Though to paint it colorfully: I went through puberty and the one area you expect to grow never grew. So what if you got hangups regarding not just size wise but performance wise. I've never had sex but from masturbating I can quickly get myself off in a very short period of time. Under 20-25 seconds, almost like if I'm at full mast, it doesn't take much stimulation to get me off)

(And I'll admit the lack of sexual experience or even the lack of at least communicating with a woman in that way has soured my confidence. Like I said I never had the confidence fucked into me. Plus my fantasies, desires, kinks, and fetishes haven't been delved into and it just makes me feel awful.)

(And yes I'm doing a 216 Munka working with the anti-karmic relationship like the JoS version on Munka page. Just in case since April for 90 days till about June or so if I'm not mistaken.)

 

[darkmonkey666]

I am sorry guys I think something happened to my account darkmonkey666. I cannot log into it anymore I am using the password I always had but it says its wrong and it wont send a reset email to my address.

If you guys got any strange attempted posts in my account they are not me. I believe my other phone was not secure and I had a lot of experiences that tell me someone had access to it somehow my password was saved on that phone so this is how this happened. I do not know who the individual messing with that phone was They could even type stuff in my texts and apparently send it. What was typed was nonsensical stuff though that makes no sense.

There was then this person who emailed me and claimed to have my photos and knew stuff about my living situation and what my dad did for a living etc

All that info was on my other phone. They were doing this to try and scare me I hope the newer ones are more secure. I wonder if I could report this person because he was threatening me I should not keep conversations going with the enemy I realize that now I should have ignored them. This strange stuff with my phone only started when I recieved the email. So he or she did something to gain access to my phone.

The only reason I kept this up was I believe in freedom of speech and it made me mad this person keeps saying I will die if I dont leave Satanism or take down my channel on youtube. I guess its a waste of my time to talk to people like that and stuff like what happened to my phone can happen.

I have bought a new phone and will no longer be using that one for anything.

I do like this user name cause it goes along with the usernames I often use on other websites when doing spiritual warfare online. I dont need the other account but I for awhile will remind people of my old user name. I dont know if I can get my account back if they changed email to it as well.

Just wanted to let you guys know what happened.

I am going to change password to all my accounts I guess.

A crying shame about your darkmonkey account. I never keep any passwords on my phone, computer, or other electronic devices personally. It is a good idea to write all passwords down on paper and keep the paper hidden.

As for this scum emailing you, you should block all emails from them with a filter and curse and bind them as needed even without their name or a photo. I do not want to say openly how that is done over the internet as the enemy still reads these forums, but it's possible. This trash emailing you needs to be crushed like the kike bug it is.

Also make sure to protect yourself twice as much, especially if you suspect the enemy has your photos. Also ask Satan or your GD for aid if things seem very dire.

I know the enemy has my photos they emailed me a pic with several destruction runes that is indeed me. I do feel the last few days I have been cursed however at leset I am able to clean most of it it is just a pain to deal with this.

I will just ignore them from now on. I didnt know kikes could use runes though. They keep sending me a bunch of emails in hebrew with You will die you are uprooted etc so I know these individuals are kikes I believe there are several.

Doesnt our magick hurt Jews hence why they created their own system. Runes are gentile created.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I have gotten a lot better but still have a little hang up on this. Not even my xtian family per say expected me to act in ways that were contrary to me in regaurds to gender when I was younger it was the fact people constantly made fun of me or were scared because they thought I was gay. I am not sure why but I have had crushes on both genders.

I dont know who the real person for me is but I am more of a person who want a connection spiritual and emotional than gender.

My hang up comes in when it comes to the same gender both relationships and friendships. I am not trans. I kid of do fit a new word people in my area started using that i have no idea where this idea came from. Gender fluid as in I am human and just who I am apparently.

A lot of the reason i was angry is I felt disconnected from who I was in this way. I want to just be myself and not be expected to be something I am not.

For awhile if people remember I thought even the idea that people had to be respectful of eachother was an oppressive Jewish communist idea based on male gender stereotypes and wanted to act the opposite of my gender.

The issue is not that I dont like myself it is that I dont fit in ever with other guys so I always had female friends. All guys tend to talk about is fucking this or that person porn sports things more porn and some silly tv show or movie.

Then add partying or drugs to this along with trying to act tough or hide anything creative.

This was my impression of my gender and why I feel still somewhat unhappy.

They dont look deeply into the meaning of life or realize there is much more to sex than just The materialistic act with no meaning.

Sounds like you're mostly just longing for normal happy relationships with people, not necessarily dealing with sex.

That doesn't really make you third sex though.

And to be honest, I think most people here want that .

However, I remember reading something about that to some people relationships need to be intimate, emotionally or whatever too.
This in itself can be problematic..

Question.. have you ever known what it feels like to know what your friend or partner is feeling 24/7 ?

There was someone that I spoke to for a long time, and even about my hobby. Over time I felt less and less inclined to do my hobby. Didn't want to do it. But then suddenly that person walked out of my life and this feeling went away.
Basicly, this is the kind of stuff that you'd have to put up with.. If the above case is what you want.

In regards to that, I have one thing to say. The person you should be that close with.. you have to be able to trust them with your life.

Yeah I do know this with my friend I sometimes talk about on here. She is quite advanced even more so than me right now.

I kind of know what shes thinking and her experiences as does she with me. Its not a negative experience though cause just about anyone who is not enemy and advanced is going to be a lot more kind and helpful.

She is the exception though most people its very shallow where as often we are talking about energy and concepts and things. They just talk about superficial trends or mundane things. I dont know how to say it I want all my relationships to be like that. We are kind of in the same boat I was just talking about this with her not long ago most people are just empty and bring people down. They will turn on you in a moment.

So yeah I know what a more healthy relationship is but unfortunately only one person I know knows how to do that.

I wanted to have more than one person to talk to though and shes not SS so there is a lot of stuff I dont bring up with her I respect her though as do the Gods she sometimes sees them and they get rid of the evil things around her. We both want friends if you can say something on here to solve this you will not only be helping me. I know its sad if not for this I may have been gone by now to suicidal feelings even now I still feel alone. So does this individual.


I actually wanted to be a part of a community to have a whole bunch of friends but every time I try to I get taken advantage of or not understood with exceptions like the above.


So yeah I experienced a healthy relationship and I still feel completely alone.

 

[darkmonkey666]

It's not wrong to believe in such things. But members like Lydia have stated that most likely this bicuriosity and bisexuality is merely 30% but easily half at 15%. That the prospect of 90% is exaggerated. Perhaps you are curious and because of centuries of sexual suppression and repression it's caused issues.

I typed in my name and this came up... I don't believe people who are truly bi is as high as 30%. I agree with what HP HoodedCobra wrote recently, that bi/gay people are not as high as is promoted. I believe that true 3rd sex people are much less than claimed by (((studies))) done and promoted by jews.

Many people think they are bi due to centuries and lifetimes of repressed sexuality, so now everyone is going crazy trying to fuck anyone in sight. People, both men and women, need to have a healthy sexual outlet. Have as much sex as you need, with the suitable partner/s you need, and get over past hangups and repression.

I dont believe its as much as 30 percent either. I do not know if its more a result of being balanced in the soul or if its an orientation to be honest. I can feel attracted to and truly love both genders I lean towards women more but I have had plenty of same gender experience. Id have to get over my hang up with my gender to know if the attraction is equal or not. I truly am working on it though. I think xtianity and my parents did instill this.

 

[Jack]

Society represses the feminine to repress the feminine aspect of the soul its the sympathetic magic ritual the enemy put into society by Xianity.

The situation is in our society we are told biological sex equals the gender of the psyche if you are male you only have male psychological traits. Biological sex does not make one only one gender in the psyche, the human is both masculine and feminine within the psyche. Just as you have a left brain and right brain. So if you have more feminine traits in you as biological male, people get confused and think they must really be a women and then they want to turn themselves into a biological women. Because they are taught that psychological traits equals the biological sex.

When in reality some men are just more feminine in their psyche and some women more masculine in their psyche, its not a big deal and is part of the dualistic nature of the human psyche.

This is the reason Feminism got a lot of support from some women who are more masculine and don't want to be assigned to a ultra feminine life role, they want to run a business instead or such. Its better to teach people the truth the psyche is both male and female in its psychic qualities and it expresses this across a wide range. A lot of men in society are exhibiting traumatic behaviours from being forced to repress their feminine psychic traits to the point they are not even allowed to feel emotion the worst thing a man can do is cry because having feelings makes them gay. Men are expected to behave robotic and emotionally repressed.

If your a man and you enjoy painting, playing music and anything of the such, you are automatically "gay" in this society which means feminine, its an insult which means you are weak. This is part of the neurotic defense behaviour patterns of this unconscious trauma that Jewish society places on men to repress them.

This is a very good and concise explanation Reverend Mageson.

 

[Jack]

I am not sure my other post went through or it wasnt approved (Mods if you didnt see it yet you dont have to approve it I think this post is better explaining things) but rest assured I am trying hard to overcome all enemy and xtian like hang ups. I done 3 to 4 full freeing the sould workings on this so far and other workings on things related to this.

Thanks for the posts to this I dont personally think the idea of gender fluid is of the enemy maybe the term is but not the idea in the way I am referring to it. I mean its my goal to be myself and accept myself and my gender but not follow unneeded expectations. In astrology I do have some more feminine placements that would hard if I were to try to conform to my gender in the way society expects it.

I never did conform to the way a guy is supposed to act because I could not even if I wanted to its not my nature I am actually more nice than most people not agressive pushy. I am more agressive in an intellectual and spiritual way. If people wrong me its not like I always do nothing I love to use my mind play psychological and or spiritual warfare. I can even act with over agression in this way and destroy someone who did little bad to me. I feel my mind is my strength I never cared for physical confrontation but bring it on mental wise. This is not like most guys people say I am very intelligent that is my strength and why I have always felt alone except a few times why I love my Capricorn friend who understands me some what so much (for those who remember my posts the last year) and talk about her so much cause well most dont even try to understand me.

So far as my sexuality I too have aspects that indicate I have a strong sex drive I think about sex a lot. I just dont go for it in a materialistic way. I know what animalistic sex drive is I felt it for both genders at one point but the thing is most people dont know how to do this. I like playful fun carefree a certain style thats what gets it for me.

I feel a lot better tonight I am slowly overcoming this. It used to be like I dont like my gender that much strangly not the other one either I had a hang up at being human sigh. If you know what I mean. I felt it debased my soul with the way most people act.

Hope this helps you understand what I am saying I want a real person to love deeply not just sexuality.

You might also start a love spell for the perfect partner while going out and searching for cute girls and the spell will direct you towards that particular girl who you will have connection and animalistic sexual tension with. There are dates for a Venus square but it won't stay for long so check the calendar for your area.

 

[HailVictory88]

@Gear88-I don't know your situation, but as a suggestion, have you ever thought that your chart might indicate an interest/skill in sex magic? It's possible that you could use a somewhat obsessive relationship with sex to become good at sex magic, which is something you could do solo.

 

[Scion of Atlantis]

I am sorry guys I think something happened to my account darkmonkey666. I cannot log into it anymore I am using the password I always had but it says its wrong and it wont send a reset email to my address.

If you guys got any strange attempted posts in my account they are not me. I believe my other phone was not secure and I had a lot of experiences that tell me someone had access to it somehow my password was saved on that phone so this is how this happened. I do not know who the individual messing with that phone was They could even type stuff in my texts and apparently send it. What was typed was nonsensical stuff though that makes no sense.

There was then this person who emailed me and claimed to have my photos and knew stuff about my living situation and what my dad did for a living etc

All that info was on my other phone. They were doing this to try and scare me I hope the newer ones are more secure. I wonder if I could report this person because he was threatening me I should not keep conversations going with the enemy I realize that now I should have ignored them. This strange stuff with my phone only started when I recieved the email. So he or she did something to gain access to my phone.

The only reason I kept this up was I believe in freedom of speech and it made me mad this person keeps saying I will die if I dont leave Satanism or take down my channel on youtube. I guess its a waste of my time to talk to people like that and stuff like what happened to my phone can happen.

I have bought a new phone and will no longer be using that one for anything.

I do like this user name cause it goes along with the usernames I often use on other websites when doing spiritual warfare online. I dont need the other account but I for awhile will remind people of my old user name. I dont know if I can get my account back if they changed email to it as well.

Just wanted to let you guys know what happened.

I am going to change password to all my accounts I guess.

A crying shame about your darkmonkey account. I never keep any passwords on my phone, computer, or other electronic devices personally. It is a good idea to write all passwords down on paper and keep the paper hidden.

As for this scum emailing you, you should block all emails from them with a filter and curse and bind them as needed even without their name or a photo. I do not want to say openly how that is done over the internet as the enemy still reads these forums, but it's possible. This trash emailing you needs to be crushed like the kike bug it is.

Also make sure to protect yourself twice as much, especially if you suspect the enemy has your photos. Also ask Satan or your GD for aid if things seem very dire.

I know the enemy has my photos they emailed me a pic with several destruction runes that is indeed me. I do feel the last few days I have been cursed however at leset I am able to clean most of it it is just a pain to deal with this.

I will just ignore them from now on. I didnt know kikes could use runes though. They keep sending me a bunch of emails in hebrew with You will die you are uprooted etc so I know these individuals are kikes I believe there are several.

Doesnt our magick hurt Jews hence why they created their own system. Runes are gentile created.

The kikes aren't using our runes, but still they can direct the disgusting energies of their alphabet your way and using your picture. As I said in another post a few days ago, do a quick Final RTR each time you see hebrew letters or open an email with them. I have noticed that even when kikes post on a YouTube video for example in hebrew, it's generally curses against Gentiles commenting on that video and reading the comments as well.

Returning Curses Parts 1 and 2 are very effective against any curses, after you finish a session of Final RTRs make sure to do it so Satan can send a demon to help you deliver the death energy back to these jews.

 

[HPS Lydia]

What if your not sexually repressed in any way due to the life you grew up i.e. thinking about sex since about 3-5 years old.

Thinking about sex from that young age, is an indicator of being sexually repressed in your past life. As you said you've never had sex in this life, you are still carrying out that repression. Sexual repression isn't about never thinking about sex, it's about not having it. Sexual repression causes unhealthy issues, such as obsessing over it from a young age when the person is reincarnated.

You might need to do a working to attract a partner into your life, not necessarily a relationship, but mainly just sex, in order to work this out. All sorts of people can find sex, there's no reason why an SS can't

 

[luis]

What if your not sexually repressed in any way due to the life you grew up i.e. thinking about sex since about 3-5 years old.

Thinking about sex from that young age, is an indicator of being sexually repressed in your past life. As you said you've never had sex in this life, you are still carrying out that repression. Sexual repression isn't about never thinking about sex, it's about not having it. Sexual repression causes unhealthy issues, such as obsessing over it from a young age when the person is reincarnated.

You might need to do a working to attract a partner into your life, not necessarily a relationship, but mainly just sex, in order to work this out. All sorts of people can find sex, there's no reason why an SS can't

This makes so much sense. Thank you Lydia for your knowledge, this helped me out understand myself more!
I always thought it was not natural that a young kid always thought about sex and i always had a huge libido and its probabily like you said sexual repression from past lives...and being gay in a past life (and a bit even now) didnt probabily helped with realising it...fucking jews :x

 

[Taol]

....
They dont look deeply into the meaning of life or realize there is much more to sex than just The materialistic act with no meaning.

Sounds like you're mostly just longing for normal happy relationships with people, not necessarily dealing with sex.
...
And to be honest, I think most people here want that .

However, I remember reading something about that to some people relationships need to be intimate, emotionally or whatever too.
This in itself can be problematic..

Question.. have you ever known what it feels like to know what your friend or partner is feeling 24/7 ?
...
In regards to that, I have one thing to say. The person you should be that close with.. you have to be able to trust them with your life.

Yeah I do know this with my friend I sometimes talk about on here. She is quite advanced even more so than me right now.

I kind of know what shes thinking and her experiences as does she with me. Its not a negative experience though cause just about anyone who is not enemy and advanced is going to be a lot more kind and helpful.

She is the exception though most people its very shallow where as often we are talking about energy and concepts and things. They just talk about superficial trends or mundane things. I dont know how to say it I want all my relationships to be like that. We are kind of in the same boat I was just talking about this with her not long ago most people are just empty and bring people down. They will turn on you in a moment.

So yeah I know what a more healthy relationship is but unfortunately only one person I know knows how to do that.

I wanted to have more than one person to talk to though and shes not SS so there is a lot of stuff I dont bring up with her I respect her though as do the Gods she sometimes sees them and they get rid of the evil things around her. We both want friends if you can say something on here to solve this you will not only be helping me. I know its sad if not for this I may have been gone by now to suicidal feelings even now I still feel alone. So does this individual.

I actually wanted to be a part of a community to have a whole bunch of friends but every time I try to I get taken advantage of or not understood with exceptions like the above.

So yeah I experienced a healthy relationship and I still feel completely alone.

I see.

To be honest, I do not want to talk about that stuff with everyone either, simply because it gets borderline new agey and sometimes you're just not having a ton of experiences for quite some time.

As for friction with other people, aside from non shared interests, there can be aspects that cause this, or even just bad placements in your own natal chart.

Something to solve the problems regarding friendship? Hm.. I heard a few things about Hypersensitivity the other day. The descriptions are very close to being an empath, taking on the feelings of different places and such.
It can very well be that there are communities out there that have people with this stuff that stick together.
As for other places to meet people.. do you know about the 'outside of school activities' ? That could be visiting a free yoga class, in example.
If you really want friends in the real world, find them through shared interests. You may not agree with everyone on everything (I don't either) but that doesn't mean that you have to shove them aside entirely. That means that you need to accept them for some part, and some you just shouldn't (in example getting drunk every weekend or day and stoners being stoned out of their mind way too much.. aka potheads). Make your choices wisely.

Also, do you think she's not a good candidate to be SS then? It has been suggested before that to bring certain people to SS that you could drop an anonymous message to them with the link in there or something..

I know this may sound harsh.. but in the world you are alone. You need to be able to carry yourself as far you can, and sometimes, yes you do need outside help. But first and foremost you stand on your own two legs.
As for the 'taken advantage of' or something with the (friend)ships.. maybe you should do a freeing the soul regarding these issues, then do a working to attract good people into your life.

.. I do not have a lot of friends.. never had in fact, not in this lifetime at least, and sometimes I do miss talking to people a bit longer. However, I do try to do things that I find joy in.
And I do like to spend some time alone, plus that you can do a lot of stuff that you want to do without anyone interfering or being a problem.
Sending an email just to talk sometimes also helps to not feel so super lonely.

By the way, I like your new account name much better than your old one.

 

[Gearshift]

Thinking about sex from that young age, is an indicator of being sexually repressed in your past life. As you said you've never had sex in this life, you are still carrying out that repression. Sexual repression isn't about never thinking about sex, it's about not having it. Sexual repression causes unhealthy issues, such as obsessing over it from a young age when the person is reincarnated.

You might need to do a working to attract a partner into your life, not necessarily a relationship, but mainly just sex, in order to work this out. All sorts of people can find sex, there's no reason why an SS can't

What you state is true and even though I'm trying to change myself. I'll admit I've never really made anything happen with magic. Your talking to a person that's never been in a trance or focused solely on one thing to generate an effect. In other words I merely meditate and do it because I got nothing better to do. So I can genuinely state not sure if things have happened.

The only love spell I'm doing is breathing in red energy into aura/soul, affirming x18 my aura is attracting my perfect sexual/love partner from the Aryan race. The next thing that I'm doing since the May 17th Venus square till July 4th[49 days]; affirmation x13 "I am constantly, continuously, and eternally attracting sexual intercourse with love and affection to myself in the most happy, positive, beneficial, and best way for me.

And also a 216 munka working with the JoS love life affirmation doing it since the Moon in Aquarius that last occurred April 27th I believe. But here is the thing I don't even know if I'm vibrating Munka correctly. Aldric vibrates it as a normal N for the enyay but that isn't the proper vibration. Plus my vibrations are short I can probably vibrate 216 vibrations in about 8 minutes or so. I merely do it, vibrate and affirm, and hope for the best.

I don't think genuinely JoS has improved my life or even reduced my life it just something I'm obsessed with and it is just neutral no bearing on my life. I did do a ritual for a succbus not even a full day into being a Satanist back when I was 12 years old. Like I mentioned to a member I'm discussing over email.

Succubus situation: When I ask for an orgasm this started happening a few months back she provides me this breathing orgasm, deep inhale, hold breath, and eye rolling. At this point in time when I ask for an orgasm not only do I hump the air wildly but repeatedly. In fact funny enough I asked her if my succubus is manipulating my internal muscular area and she said yes to simulate ejaculation. So I told her do that when I ask for an orgasm. So whenever I ask she does both an orgasm and a ejaculation. I'm probably making it sound good but it's just an effect it's not pleasurable like real life.

I find it strange as I hardly meditate well like others and yet the effects she produces on me became stronger. Makes absolutely no sense.

As for finding sex, I do live in a major city, and your right I can find someone. But being my age and no experience not even dating someone is difficult. There is a neighbor of mines that I like but it's not so much she rejected me just simply she has her own life and is busy.

Plus I'll admit when it comes to diseases and whatnot I want to avoid that. I'm also intimidated by women with experience perhaps it's me wanting a relationship to understand what is it like as I never been with anyone. But I've had the thought of "Wow! guess everyone has had more enjoyment in their lives than me". So I really don't know what to do at this point.

Honestly, at this point I already gave up a long time ago. It's like no matter what, nothing happens.

Yes as a sex crazed person I only care about sex. I'm probably making myself sound like a wannabe pick-up artist but the reality is I consider it VERY important. Even astrologically speaking from Saturnian aspect perspective I consider it like a sense of duty. Albeit that is just one astrological aspect I read about on a blog.

I genuinely don't know what to do with anything really. I've been so pre-occupied with sex, that I've literally had the thought; because I never had sex does that mean that I never did anything with my life nor educate myself nor do nothing at all. I'll admit the amount of times that's popped into my mind is quite a lot. Because of not having sex I didn't do anything with my life.

And it gets to the point of lets say I do have sex. What next or what is my next action my kinks, desires, fetishes, and fantasies.

I hate to sound like Tyler Durden from Fight Club simulating a phone call to his father. But what next? I accomplished my most important goal, what next?

 

[Wotanwarrior]

What if your not sexually repressed in any way due to the life you grew up i.e. thinking about sex since about 3-5 years old.

Thinking about sex from that young age, is an indicator of being sexually repressed in your past life. As you said you've never had sex in this life, you are still carrying out that repression. Sexual repression isn't about never thinking about sex, it's about not having it. Sexual repression causes unhealthy issues, such as obsessing over it from a young age when the person is reincarnated.

You might need to do a working to attract a partner into your life, not necessarily a relationship, but mainly just sex, in order to work this out. All sorts of people can find sex, there's no reason why an SS can't

Do not feel any interest in having sex with any woman that are not SS is also being repressed? This has always happened to me and it is impossible for me to avoid it.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I agree with Lydia but I wanted to add people have to be careful who they have sex with. You are sharing something very intimate with a person and connecting with them. Some people have very strong ties to the enemies of Satan. This same connecting on the soul level is why race mixing is so bad too (it confuses who you are) I am not saying be repressed at all or that you can only do it with an SS. What I am saying is just be aware this can change your behavior and thoughts even over time.

This is the reason I looked down on the fuck everything that moves do what you want concept in society its not that I am repressed. Look I used to have one night stands and believe in the freedom I even at one point posted in defense of those ideas to the groups years ago. I believed in that freedom till I became more aware spiritually. Then I realized its not even freedom but emptiness and slavery.

Plus Jews take advantage or this culture as well along with anyone of Jewish blood.
That is the only thing worse than Gentile race mixing in my book.

People have to understand with sexuality it is something special you are sharing with someone a soul connection. You have to be sure you want to share this with a person.

If your sexuality is not what I describe above then I have no clue how you can even be satisfied.

This is why I wasnt even able to orgasm on a lot of the experiences I had.

I know we are not toghether like this but I stick to my one partner till anyone else comes along that is advanced or worthy.

Materialistic Sex is meaningless and boring.

 

[Taol]

I wanted to have more than one person to talk to though and shes not SS so there is a lot of stuff I dont bring up with her I respect her though as do the Gods she sometimes sees them and they get rid of the evil things around her. We both want friends if you can say something on here to solve this you will not only be helping me. I know its sad if not for this I may have been gone by now to suicidal feelings even now I still feel alone. So does this individual.

I actually wanted to be a part of a community to have a whole bunch of friends but every time I try to I get taken advantage of or not understood with exceptions like the above.

So yeah I experienced a healthy relationship and I still feel completely alone.

...

I was thinking, in regards to the suicidal feelings.. why do you have them?

I can't give exactly a reason as why to or give proper suggestions.. though..

If it has to do with lack of self esteem or confidence, work on that. If you still live at home, you could in example take up some household tasks, to learn responsibility for yourself and feel a bit confident in the things that you have learned and accomplished.
If you already have to do those, or this does not apply to you, then maybe look into things like martial arts.
Doing something you like can ease the negative feeling that you're having.
(Also meditating can help in increasing confidence along with working on the solar chakra).

As for the issues.. you could just silence your mind as in void meditation, then go into a slight trance and let the issues that are on your mind drift up and deal with them accordingly. Write them down, burn it, whatever works for you. If turning on the sound loud and singing along with some songs helps you, then do that.

Just remember if you do the above or a negative feeling comes free from the problem that you need to do aura cleaning. It is a must.
Negative feelings can increase the suicidal feelings and problems around you. You must not let it manifest into actual something.

When working with the mind, kicking out things that hurt, can also change your mindset. In case you have a negative thought (and Im sure you already know this) do void, then make a neutral or positive thought after.

As for feelings of not being wanted, being useless or whatever.. or when people insult you again..
You are you. You are allowed to be here.. If people don't like it.. Then that is their problem, not yours. Wrong words hurt. They can make or break things..
Even if people try their best but fuck up for some reason, then is it their right to just burn you into the ground like an useless twat or whatever you want to call it? No it isn't.

Also, read the page on Fighting Back, if you haven't.

And the last.. a piece of advice that has been given to me.. be kind to yourself. Always be kind to yourself. Treasure yourself. Love yourself (not like the I am in love with myself I am the most beautiful stare in the mirror type lol). Speak positive to yourself and give yourself compliments if need be if you did something that worked out well.
You are worthy of being here.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Sounds like you're mostly just longing for normal happy relationships with people, not necessarily dealing with sex.
...
And to be honest, I think most people here want that .

However, I remember reading something about that to some people relationships need to be intimate, emotionally or whatever too.
This in itself can be problematic..

Question.. have you ever known what it feels like to know what your friend or partner is feeling 24/7 ?
...
In regards to that, I have one thing to say. The person you should be that close with.. you have to be able to trust them with your life.

Yeah I do know this with my friend I sometimes talk about on here. She is quite advanced even more so than me right now.

I kind of know what shes thinking and her experiences as does she with me. Its not a negative experience though cause just about anyone who is not enemy and advanced is going to be a lot more kind and helpful.

She is the exception though most people its very shallow where as often we are talking about energy and concepts and things. They just talk about superficial trends or mundane things. I dont know how to say it I want all my relationships to be like that. We are kind of in the same boat I was just talking about this with her not long ago most people are just empty and bring people down. They will turn on you in a moment.

So yeah I know what a more healthy relationship is but unfortunately only one person I know knows how to do that.

I wanted to have more than one person to talk to though and shes not SS so there is a lot of stuff I dont bring up with her I respect her though as do the Gods she sometimes sees them and they get rid of the evil things around her. We both want friends if you can say something on here to solve this you will not only be helping me. I know its sad if not for this I may have been gone by now to suicidal feelings even now I still feel alone. So does this individual.

I actually wanted to be a part of a community to have a whole bunch of friends but every time I try to I get taken advantage of or not understood with exceptions like the above.

So yeah I experienced a healthy relationship and I still feel completely alone.

I see.

To be honest, I do not want to talk about that stuff with everyone either, simply because it gets borderline new agey and sometimes you're just not having a ton of experiences for quite some time.

As for friction with other people, aside from non shared interests, there can be aspects that cause this, or even just bad placements in your own natal chart.

Something to solve the problems regarding friendship? Hm.. I heard a few things about Hypersensitivity the other day. The descriptions are very close to being an empath, taking on the feelings of different places and such.
It can very well be that there are communities out there that have people with this stuff that stick together.
As for other places to meet people.. do you know about the 'outside of school activities' ? That could be visiting a free yoga class, in example.
If you really want friends in the real world, find them through shared interests. You may not agree with everyone on everything (I don't either) but that doesn't mean that you have to shove them aside entirely. That means that you need to accept them for some part, and some you just shouldn't (in example getting drunk every weekend or day and stoners being stoned out of their mind way too much.. aka potheads). Make your choices wisely.

Also, do you think she's not a good candidate to be SS then? It has been suggested before that to bring certain people to SS that you could drop an anonymous message to them with the link in there or something..

I know this may sound harsh.. but in the world you are alone. You need to be able to carry yourself as far you can, and sometimes, yes you do need outside help. But first and foremost you stand on your own two legs.
As for the 'taken advantage of' or something with the (friend)ships.. maybe you should do a freeing the soul regarding these issues, then do a working to attract good people into your life.

.. I do not have a lot of friends.. never had in fact, not in this lifetime at least, and sometimes I do miss talking to people a bit longer. However, I do try to do things that I find joy in.
And I do like to spend some time alone, plus that you can do a lot of stuff that you want to do without anyone interfering or being a problem.
Sending an email just to talk sometimes also helps to not feel so super lonely.

By the way, I like your new account name much better than your old one.

I would love to chat if you want on email the one I am using is [email protected] the thing is this is where I am getting all the emails from. I may have to take it off public display on my youtube channel. I am just deleting these emails now. It is not connected to my real email account or phone personal info though so ill share it.

So far as feeling suicidal I dont anymore I did at that time that is what I meant. She is a good candidate for ss she knows I am SS and we are working on other issues first. No I am pushing nothing on no one its up to her she has to get over some fears before I go into it too much with her she has very positive energy though. So yeah I have one person to talk to who is positive.

I dont know how much I am supposed to say but we have been friends in various lives since very long ago from what we both remember.

I would love to talk about this with someone if you like all I am getting is people saying I am going to die or sending stuff with hebrew on that email address. This sucks I doubt we as Satanists will for a long time be able to have any public emails chats or phone numbers or maybe even locations. The enemy can though that sucks and is unfair.

 

[Taol]

I would love to chat if you want on email the one I am using is .. the thing is this is where I am getting all the emails from. I may have to take it off public display on my youtube channel. I am just deleting these emails now. It is not connected to my real email account or phone personal info though so ill share it.

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I would love to talk about this with someone if you like all I am getting is people saying I am going to die or sending stuff with hebrew on that email address. This sucks I doubt we as Satanists will for a long time be able to have any public emails chats or phone numbers or maybe even locations. The enemy can though that sucks and is unfair.

K.. ehm.. question.. if you make a youtube channel with the same email that you'd use for this..Don't you think that that'd be problematic? Wouldn't it be smarter to keep things a bit more separated?
(Not to mention, what would happen if your jewtube account was deleted?)

But thats just me. You do what you want to do with it.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I may end up committing to this person though the only problem is she is not SS right now whos to say she wont be in 3 or 4 years though. I would think as a person who was likely with the Gods in a past life since she knew Baal when things really begin to change she will realize the truth. I dont think I may even have to bring anything up as I mostly avoid the subject now.

I havent ever met anyone else that can do this stuff and I would feel empty with most people though. I guess I may have to just suck it up and say I may not find this absolutely perfect individual.

I have a freedom loving venus sign I dont like to close off to new people but it would like lydia or someone said in another post it would take lifetimes to gain the kind of conncetion we have with someone else and who knows how long we really knew eachother.

This still doesnt solve my problem of finding friends we both need new friends but most people use drugs or party etc are not trustworthy or they are involved in enemy things. This may change in a bit though but how long will I have to wait I wanted to have a group I could belong to a sense of community and purpose. The xtians have that and they always have mutiple people to talk to its just unfair.

This I think is where the real hang up is. I want friends but dont trust anyone especially in my gender considering the fact that I was taken advantage of by drug users we both lived toghether at the time and got in with the wrong crowd. But what other crowd is there xtianity or jew age stuff or just people that dont think about anything.

My problem is I want a world with meaning to have these kind of experiences be common place with everyone. To advance and live amoung good energy.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Oh I forgot to add onto here does any Satanist do synastry charts or past life astrology I have seen no place that does that. I dont want to place my or her chart on here cause I want no harm to come to either of us but I am looking for that service I dont see past life astrology anywhere. I would pay for it. Yeah id show her these reading and this would help us discuss this stuff more on whether we are absolutly right for eachother. We both strongly believe in Astrology.

 

[Awakening666]

Is it my Imagination, or are too many people claim to be transgender bi or gay to actually really be, they are all claiming it to get prestige, to feel social acceptance, in odd as a cod Neo-liberalite counter-culture Robotica. ''Libitis homixsapins''. As I like to think of them.

Last and this generation PC Parents are telling 6 year old children to question there gender by rote, they are imprinting them be this way at the stage where these things are coded in the brain. Also to always seek the opposite race, that its better. Nero-brainwashing.

Personalty or Conman Cultist tell people what to do sexually as part of brainwashing and re imprinting.

Jim Jones: ''His bleeding bottom, sacrificed for the one and the many'' who at the end would not let people in to the peoples temple unless they do such acts, he forced it gay or not.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I wonder how Uranus in Taurus is going to affect this and is affecting this. Uranus is my ruler and since it entered Taurus I have wanted to rebel and dress up in female clothes to make some sort of statement or buy all sorts of wierd clothes have a wierd style.

Also these issues have more come to the forefront in my life. I noticed also I am not the only one in my area that started doing this. I never saw this kind of thing before Uranus entered Taurus much.

This was not anything I even thought about till this change in energy.