Alex Llaine Guzman
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I was a Born Again Christian from birth until last month, when I Realized that I am expecting nothing and wasting my life from my known GOD.. I am 19 now and living with my so called "blue-flamed warrior of Christ" in an apartment. They are my friends. But they are all hypocrites.Sinning from morning till night and then at midnight, I woke up from their noises, praying, singing, asking forgiveness, but after that, same routine.
I just have this doubt if Satan did really exist. same question with God and gods and goddesses. last month I did the dedication ritual inside our apartment. But before that, my xtian friends do some warfare inside our room and wiping some "anointing" oil all over the house and reciting bible verses out loud. Does the "anointed oil" has something to do with my ritual? like it probably prohibit my dedication or something? because I can't feel unusual thing.
its 3 weeks since i've been doing a chakra meditation but i still don't see demons. "It doesn't mean that it's not their if you just cannot see it." well I kinda believe that saying, and so after I meditate, I talk, addressing to my demon, imagining they are/ it is with me .. but then, I laugh cause it was just my imagination. and it would be different if I see them.
I just have this doubt if Satan did really exist. same question with God and gods and goddesses. last month I did the dedication ritual inside our apartment. But before that, my xtian friends do some warfare inside our room and wiping some "anointing" oil all over the house and reciting bible verses out loud. Does the "anointed oil" has something to do with my ritual? like it probably prohibit my dedication or something? because I can't feel unusual thing.
its 3 weeks since i've been doing a chakra meditation but i still don't see demons. "It doesn't mean that it's not their if you just cannot see it." well I kinda believe that saying, and so after I meditate, I talk, addressing to my demon, imagining they are/ it is with me .. but then, I laugh cause it was just my imagination. and it would be different if I see them.