Mathematics was not my favourite subject at school, geometrical equations forget it, I really don’t understand a thing that is put here, I hope I won’t have problems advancing since I have difficulty reading and understand these equations
Don't worry about that! I'm barely good at math either considering special ed (almost a dropout because of it...)
Learning math is optional on this path.
We are all our own worst critics, that's for sure! I don't think I'm alone in this feeling, as though I was never enough.
After talking to a bunch of people on these forums I've realized that intelligence doesn't mean much on this path. I learned that there's emotional intelligence (EQ) and beyond that there is wisdom which supersedes knowledge. The foundations of wisdom are spiritual and experienced-based lessons.
If you keep up with meditation you'll find that these things aren't necessary, that things come to us overtime without us 'trying so hard'. Some people here are just good at math and they can see the numerology in it.
Others are good at psychology/sociology and can easily see the behaviours of others on a societal level or in immediate interactions (empaths). For others their natural strengths are in language, law, politics, science, history, art, music and so on. As we learn about these general topics little-by-little we see the world in a different way; however, it's best to stick to what inspires you the most and keep that as your main focus without getting too sidetracked. Once you become highly skilled at one thing other things typically become easier to learn, while trying to master everything all at the same time spreads you too thin which easily can take away our time from meditation. Everyone seems to want a teacher/guru and we can get lost in watching videos from other people... we need to flip this around, see ourselves as the master of our reality and create it from within ourselves.
I think that this is a problem in schools today - not enough focus on fostering individual learning styles along with no life lessons (how to be a better person, manage finances, etc).
Just as no two snowflakes, flowers or fingerprints are the same, no two people are the same. Regardless, we are all divine creations capable of far more than what we give ourselves credit for. It all starts through meditation and getting strong access our subconscious mind while also balancing the physical (diet/lifestyle).
My advice is to try and find your best balance and keep that pattern going, embracing all that you are and keeping your focus on those positives in yourself that others see. Always be positive and inspired! The Gods see us in the most beautiful way and it's our job to see things from their point of view rather than the one our world and environment creates for us.