On Fri, Dec 23, 2016 at 17:10, voiceofenki@... [JoyofSatan666]<
[email protected] wrote: I have seen the results of sexual repression myself, as my ex partner was sexually repressed and unable to orgasm. She is currently 24 years old and still hasn't been able to orgasm. Her mental issues and problems aren't visable to the outside world, because of her personality and because she's a very logical and highly intelligent person she represses her feelings and emotions and brushes it off as she cannot understand them herself at all.
In the 2 years I have been with her I have tried everything I could to give her sexual satishfaction and to give her the orgasm that her soul is screaming for. She cannot see this herself because she is so closed up mentally and spiritually that it's impossible for her to understand any of this, but me being the extremely watery and very psychic person that I am I could see all of it easily.
People around me don't need to open up to me or say any words, I simply pick up on their deepest feelings and worries whether they want me or not, whether they are even aware of it themselves or not, and she has so many problems as a result of never being able to have her Orgasm.
During sex I didn't just follow techniques or whatever that people tell about on the internet and all, I felt her out spiritually and found where she is most sensitive, where she enjoys being stimulated the most etc using my energy. She was unable to tell me herself what she liked because she never tried anything herself and she was so detached from her own body that she could not even stimulate herself.
So I had to figure out what her buttons where myself, which was easy to do for me, but would definitly be nearly impossible for any other men. Not to sound concieted, but really there aren't many people as watery as me and if not for that nature of mine giving her pleasure would be nearly impossible.
But no matter what I tried, it was impossible for me to give her the orgasm. She has had a lot of sexual partners, especially in her younger years, but she was never able to orgasm or have her own sexual release and satisfaction.
During sex I could feel if she was pretending to enjoy it or not, I could feel if she actually liked what I was doing, I could feel how close she was to orgasm, I could feel if she was in the mood. She didn't need to communicate anything to me, because I simply felt her out and understood her far better than she understood herself.
I had long foreplay with her to try and calm her mind, get her to relax and get into a higher state of brain function, which certainly helped loosen her up mentally. Then during sex I would press all her buttons, put all my intent to giving her the greatest pleasure and ultimately give her an orgasm. I stimulated her physically on all places where she enjoyed feeling stimulated. I had no trouble finding her G-spot. I stimulated her nerves and her chakra's during sex and during masturbation with my palm chakra's and finger chakra's. Sending my energy into her nerves and into her clitoris, into her g-spot and she certainly felt it.
Sometimes she would pretent to enjoy it, but I always knew when she was doing that, so I was very open to her and told her she should try to be open to me as well and not repress herself, told her not to worry about hurting my feelings (which is what she was worried about) and just be honest with me when she didn't enjoy something.
She was comfortable with me, because I made her feel comfortable. She ddidn't need to hold anything back, nor could she because I felt everything so she was mentally much more free.
Even so no matter what we tried we could not get her to orgasm because everytime she came close to it, her mind froze up and shut it all down. She was subconsciously preventing herself from going past that breaking point.
She was screaming for it, almost having her orgasm, her heartbeat raising, her body convulsing, her energy raising up. Telling me not to stop, this is it. And yes it was it, she was getting close, but then right as she was reaching the peak it all died down because mentally she blocked herself out.
We used vibrators, we used them during sex, we used different positions. I connected to her spiritually, sending my sexual enerrgy through my penis into her sexual organs and into her soul. I stimulated her pineal gland and her sacral chakra during sex. I stimulated her nerves and her clitoris with my energy.
I made it a metaphysical experience for both of us. It was bliss, for her as well, she was spiritually closed up, but she felt all those sensations and I could feel her pleasure just as well as she could. I timed my orgasm with hers as I could feel her sexual energy rising, but it just died down right as she reached the peak.
Mentally she could not orgasm.
I'm sure my technique could have been much better. She was my first sexual partner as well, so in the beginning I had to learn a lot about controlling myself, learning how to properly stimulate her and all, but despite all that I did everything I could both physically and spiritually to give her her orgasm but even then I could not give her one.
It had nothing to do with me or my lack of technique. Certainly if I were better maybe I could have made a difference, but mostly it was her being so sexually repressed it was impossible to give her what she needed.
On the spiritual level she is closed up to a point where there's no return. She's not a xian, but just a sexually repressed woman unable to have a succesful relationship because of this, unable to understand even her own emotions. She is so detached from herself she doesn't even know what she needs the slightest.
Right now it's only getting worse. The only reason she's not depressed yet is because of her repressing her emotions as well, because she cannot understand them, but really it is going to reach a breaking point sometime and I was able to let some of it out by slowly breaking those mental barriers in her mind, which everytime that happened resulted in a violent psychotic episode where she sometimes literally tried to kill me.
She nearly has a split personality as a result of all this repression. One being her usual repressed self and one where the mental barriers she created subconsciously don't hold up and all the insanity she holding in comes out. When this happens she becomes out right dangerous to herself, she cannot control herself and she cannot reason anymore. She completely impulsive and she doesn't think anymore. She nearly killed herself, she nearly attacked me with a knife multiple times because she became so panicked as a result of this...
I could deal with this because of my water personality, but of course it wasn't good for me. That's why we broke up because I cannot be with someone that broken down. However she will never be able to free herself from all this and it's done so much damage to her on a spiritual level this will stay for many lifetimes.
All because she was sexually and emotionally repressed.