The struggle of self harm.

[Ivy<3]

I've been getting more and more urges to cut myself. Last night I was carving a piece of wood to add to my carving collection, and I sliced my thumb(Directly by the side of the nail.) this started the thought process. I recognize the feeling and for a moment, I missed it. I have been clean from S-H for about 5 days now. I don't know what I should do.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I've been getting more and more urges to cut myself. Last night I was carving a piece of wood to add to my carving collection, and I sliced my thumb(Directly by the side of the nail.) this started the thought process. I recognize the feeling and for a moment, I missed it. I have been clean from S-H for about 5 days now. I don't know what I should do.

You're writing in the teenage section, so you're writing these things about your life condition while you're still very young. This seriously moves me to compassion and makes me want to really want to help you as best I can. But I need to know things first so I can do that.

Usually the things we do when we want to hurt ourselves are never without reason. Even when you have an uncontrolled addiction to something negative, it is always due to a deeper reason. You don't eat a ton of chocolate cake a day because you "feel like it," you have to search for the reason that really drives you to do it.

So, for the next few days, I would like you to try to think hard about this: why do you cut yourself? What drives you to do it? I would like you to give me a reasoned answer and not the first thing that comes to your mind. You don't cut yourself just for the sake of it. There is a reason for it. If we find the reason we can solve the reason. Whether you solve just the symptom to stop cutting yourself -- that doesn't interest me. Let's work on the reason. Think about it, please and then write it to me as a reply to this topic. I thank you. Don't worry about it. We will work this out well.

 

[Charlotte666]

Here is my advice, although I may be misinterpreting what you are saying. Please tell me you are not conflating emotions with self harm. When you say you miss doing this to yourself, it sounds as though there is some sort of satisfaction gained from it.

I'm sure you're aware, but harming yourself is not the proper way to express your emotions. Is there any trauma you have bottled up inside? Or perhaps recent struggles with depression or anxiety? There are better ways to handle these situations.

I would recommend starting by healing the emotional body and reading the article "On Suicide" by HP. I'm glad you feel comfortable enough to open up about this, I hope these resources are helpful and provide guidance for you. Remember that you're not alone in this.

Healing the Emotional Body (for men too, don’t disregard this)

You have your physical body, soul, astral body, mental body, and more. The Emotional Body is the part of the soul that can be damaged when you experience emotional trauma, grief, bereavement, abandonment, and so on. Many people have emotional outbursts, immature reactions, trigger episodes...

www.ancient-forums.com

Omni:Endless pain and suffering. Can I suicide? - JoS Wiki

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[Ivy<3]

You're writing in the teenage section, so you're writing these things about your life condition while you're still very young. This seriously moves me to compassion and makes me want to really want to help you as best I can. But I need to know things first so I can do that.

Usually the things we do when we want to hurt ourselves are never without reason. Even when you have an uncontrolled addiction to something negative, it is always due to a deeper reason. You don't eat a ton of chocolate cake a day because you "feel like it," you have to search for the reason that really drives you to do it.

So, for the next few days, I would like you to try to think hard about this: why do you cut yourself? What drives you to do it? I would like you to give me a reasoned answer and not the first thing that comes to your mind. You don't cut yourself just for the sake of it. There is a reason for it. If we find the reason we can solve the reason. Whether you solve just the symptom to stop cutting yourself -- that doesn't interest me. Let's work on the reason. Think about it, please and then write it to me as a reply to this topic. I thank you. Don't worry about it. We will work this out well.

I guess I just have a feeling of passion and, for a moment, happiness. I don't usually feel that way at all, so cutting is, to me, my only way to it.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I guess I just have a feeling of passion and, for a moment, happiness. I don't usually feel that way at all, so cutting is, to me, my only way to it.

I used to date a girl who cut herself. She was telling me how this "world" works. And yes, what you tell me fits the description. Can I recommend some things to you?

ON THE SPIRITUAL SIDE:

The first thing is to put beautiful joy your soul, this is most easily achieved with mantras like SANANDA

Banishing Ritual

You should heal your emotional body though, so that it finds itself facilitated to feel emotions:

Healing the Emotional Body (for men too, don’t disregard this)

You have your physical body, soul, astral body, mental body, and more. The Emotional Body is the part of the soul that can be damaged when you experience emotional trauma, grief, bereavement, abandonment, and so on. Many people have emotional outbursts, immature reactions, trigger episodes...

www.ancient-forums.com

And in general, if your soul is strong (that is, if you have energy in your soul), you will be more inclined to be joyful and ALIVE:

Basic Meditation Program

At a level that slightly more advanced, there are Runes that can be used to be well and happy. I am referring to the WUNJO Rune:

Futhark/Odin

To finish, of course it is written on the meditations page, but I would like to reiterate the importance of these three things for your problem:

1) Soul cleansing (fundamental, tuning into depressed energies increases this condition of yours. Cleanse yourself)

2) Chakra work (will give vital energy to your soul)

3) Yoga Hatha: essential to connect the vitality of the soul to the physical body on which you cut yourself to feel alive. Yoga really means union of soul and body.

extra) I would try the EZ chakra spinning also. Increasing the level of chakra spinning to make you faster and more vibrant can help you elevate. Maybe the Mer Ka Ba meditation can be long, but at least the chakra spinning can elevate you well. Or even the advanced one if you feel you are not overwhelmed by the energy. It may be difficult visualization in the beginning, write to me here if you would like to try these meditations but you notice that you experience some difficulty.

BUT all this may not be enough to solve the situation. Although it is a good potential starting point, it is not active in the material plane (you need to transfer your spiritual successes regarding your situation to the plane of concrete things as well: physical reality).

Before I can figure out what I can advise you from a physical standpoint, however, I need to know more. Tell me about your life *MINTAINING A HIGH LEVEL OF PERSONAL PRIVACY! I need to know something about how you live, what you do during the day, what you like and what you do for fun, a little history in short. I would also like to understand in the material plane where you have the gaps. So we can fill in those as well. Be as specific as you can, but only 1) as far as you feel like it, without forcing yourself 2) Always maintain privacy, don't put personal information.

I don't want to give generic solutions to people like you. Children and teenagers are SACRED to me. I will not let a young person throw away his life in suffering, I want to give you specific solutions for you and not generic ones. Let me know more about the context of your condition so we can keep working on it.... if you like

Thank you so much for your attention!!!

 

[Renita]

I've been getting more and more urges to cut myself. Last night I was carving a piece of wood to add to my carving collection, and I sliced my thumb(Directly by the side of the nail.) this started the thought process. I recognize the feeling and for a moment, I missed it. I have been clean from S-H for about 5 days now. I don't know what I should do.

As a person who also had many issues with self-harm in the past, I feel you. I know the urges and I know how hard it is to not fall back into the cycle. I recommend praying to Satya and asking for guidance, He always listens and he has helped me so much with my depression and self-harm. Meditations (specifically void meditation) has helped me the most to distract myself from any negative thoughts or ideas. Fill your day with things that take your mind off anything negative, meditate more, workout more, work on yourself so your brain eventually rules out any thoughts of hurt or negative.

I myself can still get an urge or an idea of SH but I always think about the lasting impact it will have. Yes it might feel good and I miss the feeling, but will I be happy with the scar later on? Is it really worth it to be ashamed of it for the rest of your life? No. Satya is here to guide us and help us become the best versions of ourselves. No matter how hurt and strong the negative energy is, He is always there to guide us. I have many scars on my body, but that does not mean I need more. While asking for Satya is wonderful, make sure to tell yourself that you don't need it. What do you get from self-harm? Nothing but pleasured pain for a bit, but then guilt of the scars and disappointment of your close friends and family.

Meditation and Prayer has helped me be clean now for 6 months, and I really hope that you can heal both emotionally and physically so your urges slowly subside. I would also recommend removing all sharp objects from yourself for a period of time so no thoughts come in your head. I hope you the greatest recovery from all your pain as no SS deserves to hurt. Please reach out to Satya and meditate on good energy. Best of luck Sister <3

HAIL SATYA!!!

 

[SaqqaraNox]

I just have a feeling of passion and, for a moment, happiness. I don't usually feel that way at all, so cutting is, to me, my only way to it.

It is normal to seek these feelings that are positive for us. However, cutting yourself is not the way to reach this; it is a very personal form of disrespecting your own self. The passion and happiness you are looking for can be found elsewhere. If you enjoy wood carving, then focus on making it a hobby, for example, carving the Sigils of the Gods or their Names on a wooden roind, or something else.

I know how the whole process works. You need to deconstruct these mental patterns that lead you to self-harm because you have associated positive emotions with a negative act, creating an incorrect energetic pathway. You need to change this path. Whenever you feel the urge to cut yourself, practice breathing exercises combined with void meditation on the color black, which enhances discipline. With time and consistency, this will lead you to detach from these actions and will redirect you toward more positive acts for yourself.

Another addition you may consider to make is to enter a trance state every day and repeat about forty times something like: "In all the most positive and healthy ways for me, I am completely free from any impulse or inclination to harm myself". This for an entire cycle of forty days.

When after some time, you will look at your body and, if the scars you caused yourself are still visible, you will regret causing them. So remember that the body is the sacred Temple where our Soul resides, and it has to be treated accordingly, with care and respect.