Because of the jewish infestation of our societies there are many people who have unatural hangups or desires as a result of many years of constant corruption of our peoples...
Andrzej, you have to understand that it is unnatural to feel attraction for girls who are underage when you yourself are much older.
Of course many people would be angry to hear someone say they have attraction towards minors, but honestly I can't blame you for it because it's simply how the jewish influence manifests on some people....
Don't beat yourself up over it and don't bottle it. If you are serious about bettering yourself and improving yourself you should start a meditation program for real. This will help you remove any kind of mental hangups and any kind of negative unnatural or jewish influence from your mind.
You need to fight it and overcome it. You need to stand strong and better yourself. That is the whole premise of Spiritual Satanism.
Look where you stand now, who you are now and then work on improving what you are now in all aspects through meditation, study, physical work and whatever else you can think of.
It might be hard to take this in for you and this is not what you want to hear, but as a 40 year old man (or as an adult men in general, regardless of age) it is unnatural and wrong to have attraction towards girls under age.
Whether the girl is 3 years old, 6 years old or 12 years old or even 15 years old, it doesn't matter. She is still a child and thus as an adult men you shouldn't have a sexual attraction towards a child and if you do that means there is a negative influence in your mind or your soul that needs to be fixed and removed.
When people dedicate they all have different amounts and differen kinds of hangups in their souls, it's not a shame to have such things, but when you dedicate you must learn about your hangups and you must be willing to fix them and remove them from you so you can eventually advance far enough spiritually to rise your serpent and ascend to godhood.