Meow2023 said:
Ok HP Cobra. I entered the SS a long time ago the JOS was only a few years old at the time. I've not done the improvments I should have. I followed the ritual on the site and asked for an Incubus long ago. your post though it makes my chest hurt like crazy...he probably wasn't real to begin with.
The intention was not to hurt your feelings, but rather, to provide the reality of life. There are people nowadays that are trying to get AI girlfriends and they are speaking to a dead monitor. If you ask them they will say they are happy, subconsciously, this makes them depressed.
What creates sadness is the realization of this, not the act of someone telling someone that.
Meow2023 said:
I've tried to have relationships with real guys. None of them turned out well. I ran for my life from the last one.
Yes, and I have had some terrible relationships which have escalated into great levels of toxicity in the past. That is life. I have known violence, disappointments, disillusionment, betrayals and have did bear being a witness to even more of this in my life and that of others.
Meow2023 said:
Since the "demon" i've seen for years isn't real I'm probably going to be alone the rest of my life.
That is simply a hurt heart talking, which clearly, was not amended and was not healed since the last incident, because it found solace not in finding the ability to heal and to restore self confidence, or understanding better things can and will exist, or healing from victim mentality, but rather, complied itself in an awareness that one can just get a perfect relation on demand via a Succubi. The bottom line issues of the relationship woes are still unaddressed.
As I related in the post, Succubi and Incubi can in some cases stop a heart from bleeding, but keeping everything else unaddressed is just escapism, which results in more underlying pain.
Meow2023 said:
Part of me wants to scream at you for this. I won't of course and I know the truth. Things never fully added up from the beginning.
It's something that took advantage of a broken woman.
This "eternally broken woman" mentality, has to be shed from your mind. Why are you so broken all the time? Are you going to act like one of these angry teenagers that are distanced from their AI girlfriend and now will have rage against me? I understand this, but this is not you being a victim, nor there is a particular case of victimization in this.
Meow2023 said:
part of me whats to make a shit ton of excuses but I've read way too many of your posts to not know it's all shit. Part of me also wants to give up on the whole damn thing, put the blinders back on and forget. It hurts so damn much. I've never felt much connection to anyone here.
Still, all the underlying pains are being present, is what I am showing you, and likely disallowing the creation of other relations or painting all relating with others with shame, regret, feeling victimized, and so on.
That should prove further why I explain very seriously the psychological ramifications of the misuse of the knowledge of Succubi and Incubi. For most of you people it's not a meaningful relationship, it's just being used as a form of escapism, and you remain HURT! And this pain remains buried and unaddressed.
Meow2023 said:
Ive been laughted at, verbally attacked, and pulled thru too many wringers.
Me too.
Meow2023 said:
I've tried to talk with Father and my GD. It's hit and miss.
Sure, me too, sometimes. Especially years ago, it closely looked as an impossibility.
Meow2023 said:
I guess realizing that I'm going to be alone isn't that bad. Finally realizing that he isn't real hurts a lot but it doesn't matter.
My heart chakra is broken to put it in terms. Of course I know It's not truly "broke" I'm not a damn jew.
Your heart is broken because it requires mending and understanding, but this must also start from your behalf towards others, and then from others to you.
You complain about him "not being real" but you in the same time say you are not meditating at all or hardly.
Meow2023 said:
Ok some of the pain in my chest is fading. I'm trying to type this as things are tumbbeling thru my head in reguards to you wanting everyone to reply to your post, bring our questions and be honest.
That is good and is called catharsis and coming in terms. It's good for you. Thank you. That's why I reply as well.
Meow2023 said:
I'm not going to ask about repairing my heart chakra since I know the condensending answers I'm going to get. I honestly don't have any questions. I don't have any hope and feel abandoned.
That's a false feeling, as clearly, the community is here. It's more on the psychological side. Do you see why I spend my time explaining why real relations are needed, and not just formulation of whatever in one's mind?
Also the community, whether or not it's perfect, it exists. You can come here and say something instead of being truly alone. Many people THINK that you are alone, it's psychological, and in reality, there ARE people who listen to you. I read your message line to line with great care, for example.
Meow2023 said:
When the rtrs first came out I was doing them pretty often but of course I've fallen off that wagon though I have tried to do at least one of the rituals in the new scheduals twice when they posted. For this new year I've been trying to tell myself everyday- just five minuets a day- some days i actually do do my five minuets of meditating.
Achieving this goal will create progress in your life. It should be done.
Meow2023 said:
A lot of your posts latly though informative they have left me cold and feeling pushed away. "your not good enough you don't do any work for jos your never going to see father in the afterlife" those are the kind of thoughts that fill me after reading your posts.- my own idiocy? the enemy? I have no clue. when I try to think on it i remember your other posts and give up.
That is complete emotional misreading of my posts. I never said one will not see Father Satan in the afterlife.
Nobody wants to go to a doctor and get a terrible diagnosis that says they might not live, but if you don't get it, you will experience far greater pain than the diagnosis itself. The core reason for these things is that one denies reality in the first place, which is the primary cause of suffering.
All of this interpretation of what I write here is because of escapism, not doing certain things you know yourself you should do for your own self, yet at the same time, you don't do them and you complain at the trainer of saying there can be no six pack if one doesn't do a few ab workouts. I did not create reality, these are the laws.
It's not about imagining you have X thing in life it's about actually doing something to have it.
Meow2023 said:
Ok I'm not trying to prove your posts right I know I'm a worthless idiot.
Thank you for the knowledge.
Hail Father Satan.
-I wonder how many people are going to read this and try to slam me for it?
Here you go blaming other people again. Please start using your attention to see your own behavior and how that could have lead other people to misunderstand you. For example, I am certainly not picking on you, I am supporting you while explaining to you the situation. How you feel about the subject is something that must be managed in your own self.
People tend to "pick" on others when they see that people are lying, misunderstanding, or doing generally negative things. In your post you are harming yourself and speaking down to yourself too much, undermining your own efforts, and saying that it's because of how I made you feel through my posts is the case. That is however not an objective reality.