Greetings to all Satanist brothers, I will summarize a little bit how I ended up here:
Since childhood, even though I was a xtian, I felt an inexplicable fascination for Greek and Egyptian "mythologies", so much so that in the library of the school I was studying, I read all the books I could read on the subject. So much so that my parents forbade me to take these books, but I read them anyway. I was never happy in xtianity. I confess that as a child I tried, but I couldn't adapt, I lived with guilt and fear of the horrible yaweh, until my adolescence, I quit xtianity once and for all, I couldn't stand living with that anymore.
For some reason, I immediately became interested in magic and Satan and demons, even though my schoolmates said that this was not good, the more I became interested and curious about what magic was. But unfortunately, at that time there wasn't much about the subject on the net and the little I had was corrupted, unfortunately, so I gave up, because I didn't like much of what I saw, they were texts and articles very poor in content. In my researches I found some new age sites, and I got interested because of the content about meditation, but a short time later I gave up, I found that again, somehow something was missing.
Until by chance I found Lavey's Satanic Bible, and even though something told me not to read it, that the book would have horrendous descriptions of human sacrifices etc, my curiosity spoke louder and I read it anyway. In a way, it opened a "new world" for me, and I started to get interested in Satanism again, and ended up finding Joy of Satan and Spiritual Satanism.
When I met Spiritual Satanism, I was more fascinated by it than any occult or esoteric stream I had known until then. Because I had left Christianity, I was a little hesitant about the idea of believing in gods or something, but the more I read, the more things made sense to me, and I decided to believe in Satan and the gods of the Duat as real beings. And then I got to know the forum and started reading the articles, first in Portuguese, then in the American forum.
At first I was hesitant about the fact that they spoke so much against the Jews, but after I read some of the books that I downloaded from the site, I understood why and started to put together the pieces of why the world is the way it is. In a way, I always suspected that someone was controlling the "shadow" world, and that the politicians were mere puppets, but I never imagined that it would be the Jews, and as I read and found out about their crimes against humanity, my hatred and repulsion against these hateful beings only increased.
And with this, I made my decision, and decided to make a commitment to God Satan. I confess that I was afraid that I was a Jew, even because I read the pdf how to recognize a Jew and saw that I had some of the physical characteristics listed. But even so, I decided to go ahead and at the time of the ritual, I simply said to Satan: "if I am really a Jew, you can kill me, god Satan, kill me here and now, because I don't want to live anymore if I really have the blood of these worms in me". But when I finished the ritual, I just felt an extremely warm and pleasant energy within me, so much so that I cried with emotion. And at that time I knew that I had been accepted and that I was a legitimate Gentile.
To this day, all I have to thank is the God Satan and the Duat gods who helped me, and my guardian demon. I feel that Satan guided me to this path and on it I found peace and acceptance and most importantly, Satan taught me to be strong, and to control my own destiny through magic and the powers of the mind. I am still in the beginning of my journey, but every day I am getting stronger, and all this thanks to the knowledge Satan passed on to humanity.
I now recognize that Satan is the true creator of mankind and the true God over the Gentiles, and I am willing to do my best fighting this war against our true enemies that are the Jews and their masters, according to a promise I made to the God Satan. As I strengthen my soul and seek to complete the magnum opus.
HAIL SATAN FOREVER!