Hi Blitzkreig,
I have dwelt on this response for quite some time. I am very grateful for it and have read through your wise words several times, but I have only regressed spiritually.
It looks like your second post citing George Washington (confirmed freemason) has been removed from this thread.
I drafted a few responses to this before discarding each one. I'm hesitant to respond.
I can safely presume that you and others are far more advanced than me as I sporadically peruse the content here (though way less often than before). Without a doubt, there are very advanced spirits here.
I see all of the new developments that are being made here. There's no doubt that the JoS is progressing and growing. Cheers to that.
I am only a fallible man, yes, but I don't think my standards for recovery are unrealistic. I can endure in hardship so long as I do not feel alone and abandoned like this.
My problems are not unsurmountable, but I don't have money, friends, or a place to call my own. I'm destroying my own website with all the legal templates in it because I lack patience with people in this world, and very little is swaying in my favor. I've had patience for years, but without any confirmation or guidance to remain steadfast, I cannot have patience anymore. Time is valuable.
According to you, I have nothing because I have left the path. True. I don't practice magick or meditate anymore. I blaspheme "God" or the "Gods" or "Satan" daily (just saying to contextualize my spiritual walk... won't do it here). I constantly say that I want to kill God. I
revile the Godhead with every inch of my being at present. The deicidal hatred I have for the creator gives me a depressive wave of tears and intense sorrow, but I'm also attached to this feeling as I feel justified.
I actually would argue that I had nothing from Satan or any Demons to begin with (more on this in the next segment).
When I dedicated, I did not expect immediate cash. I carefully weighed what I was getting into. I asked for the assistance in the completion of my endeavors in exchange for my eternal soul. Nothing more, nothing less. Though I was excited and anticipating some form of communication during or after dedication as I have read about on websites like this one (didn't happen), I did not expect to be showered with blessings immediately.
When I think of a partnership, I think communication is what perpetuates the partnership. I have no meaningful communication from "Satan". I can't count on him to show up to uphold his end of the partnership. I can't count on new opportunities or anything to come my way.
I want and need guidance. I'm in full understanding that I'm at a low point spiritually and filled with animosity and foul energy, but this absence from "Satan" only bolsters my resentment. I don't even know what I have to do to recover.
HPHC just wrote the other day that in his first standard ritual, he (allegedly) had a profound experience that confirmed the truth of the Satanic faith.
No to feeling energy during any working or meditation. I have no idea what it feels like to open and close the "chakras".
The same goes for meditating on a demon's sigil. I feel no energy buzz and absolute disconnection.
I did revisit the 40-day meditation guide. Likewise, I have never been able to "cleanse my aura" and never felt any sort of positive result as I envision white light coming into my being and ridding my aura of negative influences. I can't really easily find someone to tell me what I'm doing wrong as we're faceless and isolated from one another.
I can't call anyone on the phone here. We're not friends.
I thought Lydia here wrote that we're not meant to do things totally on our own, yet that describes my solitary walk.
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When I was 18, my girlfriend at the time had an unexplainable appearance of the number 666 on her calculator while in my presence. I guess that's something.
A couple of years ago (after my dedication), I encountered a setback and devolved into a despondent mess. There was a paranormal depression on the mattress (like someone slapping their hand down on the mattress). I interpreted that to mean, "Stop complaining!"; however, there is no proof that there is any intelligent meaning to that phenomenon. I can only insinuate.
I also remember the words "mentally ill" coming into my psyche as if the thoughts were not my own.
I don't think said clean and empowered soul will be attained through any meditation. It's medication that I need, preferably holistic and not a Jewpill.
I suppose I'm sleeping better than when I wrote last year.
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This is all speculative, though, and does not affect the "partnership" I had made.
Could "Satan" or "Lucifer" and the demons be real and benevolent? Could be. I won't rule it out, but I'm not a Satanist anymore.
However, the creator gave me 5 senses (or 6), and this is the human limitation. We are clearly meant to have limits as mortals.
When I look at a wall, maybe there is a spiritual world between me and the wall teeming with all sorts of activity, but the wall is the only thing I'm equipped to see in front of my little eyes.
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I remember commenting on the Warriors of Enki channel on BitChute (a very childish and immature channel that doesn't upload content anymore, I might add), being critical of the Joy of Satan's permissive stance on homosexuality. I'm not an absolutist on the issue, but I have a problem with this organization flying rainbow flags and ardently supporting LGBT like that. My comments were blocked and removed. Then, I was trolled on my website with a bogus email signup for some "
[email protected]" or something like that.
Another big problem I have is with the Lilith page here. So, Lilith wants women to have rights to kill their offspring on a whim? And we should support birth control for our women? I thought Hitler outlawed abortion to support the war effort because reproduction is key to overcoming the Jewish ZOG, and the Jews want us to be sterilized and have near-zero birth rates.
We all know now that Jane Roe lied about being raped now, and birth control has the Jews' fingerprints all over women's reproductive rights and feminism.
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Then, there are a ton of other points I can make about Jews either being Satanists or using its symbology. The waters are too muddy. I have to be revealed the truth.
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Coprophagia Fecalust... Are these credible Satanists? A pentagram made of turds?
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So, "Satan" was overcome and defeated.
Well, I can't count on "Satan" or the Demons. In a pragmatic sense, I am alone in this world to fight my own battles and to establish my kingdom. That's what reality dictates. There is no "God", or he is either unable or unwilling to help. I was very excited about my newfound faith in 2022, but at this point, the box with my occult toys in it stays in the closet collecting dust now. None of this stuff works, or it's not the right program for me. I'm finished.
If the "Gods" can be credited for any benevolent act in my life, let it be known, and I will bow down and praise them. Without that, I thank myself and the few other people around me for their acts, not some "God" who's always hiding, demands faith, and seemingly plays weird head games with those who accept him. I have no palpable evidence for anything.
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Sorry, man, this is just feedback. You may certainly criticize me for falsehoods or anything else. I don't know what to say about this stuff anymore other than to inquire where my partner disappeared to. Normally, I would end a partnership with an absent mate.
It looks like the economic collapse has just about arrived, so I'll probably die an angry young man at 35. Thankfully, I didn't bring kids in to the world to suffer my chaos. I made some contributions to the world and didn't pollute my body with a Jewish vaccine, but I loathe this world and its maker from the very bottom of my spirit. I wish humanity didn't exist, especially the woman.
"Satan" or a "Guardian Demon" isn't going to protect anyone on the Jews' naughty list as they make moves to get rid of their enemies, especially white men.
As you can tell, I'm resigned to my low state, so I probably can't be hoisted from it. Surely, I would understand if it occurred to you to just look the other way. I hope I don't get banned for this, though.
See ya later.