BlackOnyx8 said:
...non-meditating, living in ignorance...
I've tried the whole meditation thing never worked. It doesn't interest me. For example 2016 after finding out the external website. Apparently sometime around 2014 is when the old proPHP forums were built. I checked it out after spending about a few weeks reading and whatnot I began to change.
I've been at this since 2016 for example cleaning or doing XYZ meditation or doing this or that. It just doesn't work. I don't feel or am cleaner. I don't feel anything for that matter. Like I said before although people discount this person SWG(Southern White Gentleman) and he apparently left or ceased communicating or probably created a smurf account and posts under a different name. At the end of the day it gets to the point whereby I just study for the political and just to know the spiritual. For the sake of knowing.
I'm mentally intense at this point I only care about learning for the sake of learning. If it's real and it works for you fine I'll give you all the advice possible. If not then continue going and hope you become better. In other words do as I say, not as I do. I don't find meditation in any way enjoyable nor does it work for me at least. I've said this before but pretty much being on the internet since 1999, I've gone into studying lucid dreaming, astral projection to no avail. I just learn it for the sake of learning. Like basically as a mental curiosity; just to study it for whatever reasons just to study it for the sake of studying. I came here in 2003 nearly 20 years ago and that is it. I dedicated did some meditation never found it working so I just stayed around in my middle and high school years and the years leading up to 2016 in my same thinking about killing people, warfare, sex, spiritual satanism etc.etc. I invented my own things and theorized stuff.
In other words I just dedicated again for the sake of dedicating. Nothing happened, nor nothing; apparently in the succubus thread some person typed "I doubt a person gets a succubi/incubi if they don't work on advancement".
Well what can I say is the succubus that was sent to me a mental insanity or real being or maybe I made the whole thing up. I don't know, I did the break up ritual. I guess that too is insanity then it's just my own mind or self inventing things.
Anyways to put it bluntly I don't meditate as a matter of fact I pretty much quit meditation about a week and half a ago due to an email with my friend whereby he goes your meditation is kinda like my exercise routine I never took breaks it's been 2 years since I took a break. I emailed my friend several times and he backed off for a week, did his exercise, and now he tells me he fell in love with doing exercises again and doing squats despite the lower weight he felt doing them with gusto and energy.
I guess like I said meditation and all this spiritual stuff I learn it for the sake of learning. Just to know it for the sake of knowing. I'm not gonna get immortal or magnum opus or kundalini or anything. It's just mental curiosity. If it's real then what can I say better luck next life. But for my current life these things don't exist. I don't talk to people nor even my family about this stuff. Not that they don't know about it just they don't nor care.
Most people don't care even if they care they feign interest standing there going "God when is this person gonna shut up and let me move on with my worthless piece of shit life that sucks".
For me it's never worked. I visualize or vibrate or do something to clean. Does it work no idea. I have absolutely no idea. If spirituality can be proven I'd inasmuch believe in it further and go I knew I was correct in adopting this websites doctrines and acclimating the libraries to my data banks. But if not then it's okay it's better that way, let's destroy god and xtianity and all this hippy judeo-bolshevik crap and lets put Satan and the Gods and man as these religions. Basically if Satan and the Gods are real then cool if not and just human inventions maybe trolling technology or memetic technology of the past. Then lets return man back to worship man like he used to rather than some kikes who demand destruction. Lets reverse their reversal so to speak.
I might sound horrible and might sound discouraging to people. But nothing on this site has ever worked. Even the MerKaBa meditation which is a shame the old Russian website was taken down had MerKaBa scientific information. Even that meditation does nothing. I don't know if I'm supposed to be in a trance or altered state or hell I've even done meditations in dream. To no avail, I recall a dream I did Vinasa for some reason and even in the dream there was nothing spiritual about it or anything. As normal as my vision is in real life is as normal as my dreams are even flying through outerspace or being around some scenery of extra terrestrials is normal vision.
IF people have a good time and experience stuff meditating and doing stuff. Fine cool good for you but this doesn't work for me. I simply study this to entertain myself and go off new data and improve my data banks. I just simply use it for thinking material for learning about things that maybe we aren't supposed to do or maybe it's too late for humanity to do. It's like rituals we do, do they actually work, I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if it's just normal human sentiment to prevent slavery so people are free. Coincidence maybe I don't know.
Anyways I appreciate your concern but your basically talking to a tank rolling into you. You can say this, this, and that but I'm not stopping. Perhaps I shouldn't be on these forums my answers come from reading and remembering sermons, meditations, websites etc.etc. intellectually and mentally kept data banks. I guess you can consider me a helpful troll but connecting me with trolling implies brutish behavior like for example starting a fight or harassing people.
I guess like Mutahar(Some Ordinary Gamer) spelunking the deep web only to find a whitehat hacker who posts interesting Mozilla Firefox modifications when working with Tor system. I guess I'm a Whitehat Satanist or something, never gonna advance why lie to myself if I've been trying to astral project for the last 20 some odd years and never worked. Nothing is gonna happen.
Basically if reincarnation is real or Gods or whatever I live another 30-40-50 years maybe 60-70 with medicines and whatnot but knowing my mental illness and pills it's probably increased my comorbidity i.e. lesser years alive due to how scientists, researchers, and Doctors mention certain but not all illnesses compound later in life producing less livelihood and years. And then what can I say either black out lights out that is it the end of existence. Or reincarnation. Or spending time in Hell or whatever crazy shit that occurs after death and that is it.
Anyways BlackOnyx8 thank you for the concern I appreciate but don't waste further time on me. Rather use that determination and focus to improve yourself.
slyscorpion said:
Yes this should help you a lot. This may actually be part of the issue here you talked about with not advancing.
A strong Saturn keeps someone centered in reality a lot of the time. You can make your affirmation simple like "I am centered and grounded in reality" something like that. There really isn't any way to maximize the power of a square other than maybe being nit picky and looking up at Saturn hour on something like astro.com or the JOS astrology thing where Saturn is. 10th 7th or 11th house are good for it. 1st house or conjunct Ascendant or conjunct chart ruler would increase power or it being chart ruler/co ruler. But this is totally Virgo like no real need to do it.
Without getting into anything in depth my Saturn is in 1st house. I grew up during the Saturn transit of pluto in Scorpio circa the mid-late-1989-1991/1992 area where for those years people were born with prominent Saturn at least in my case I assume having 1st house Saturn is an intense property or work more so in said manner intense. So it's not just Pluto in Scorpio i.e. it's dominant but also Saturn in Capricorn 1st.
Same time the so-called Triple Conjunction occurred like Taylor Swift's chart that possess the three in people analyzing her chart.