It's actually not the powers of my soul, it's everything that the 12th house rules:
THE TWELFTH HOUSE:
Cadent
House of Endings
The 12th house is the house of sorrow. In a positive sense, it is the house of psychic ability. It rules and represents the psyche, the unconscious, secret enemies, self-undoing, secrets, and skeletons in the closet. The twelfth is the house of confinement, illness, seclusion, institutions, hospitals, large animals, one's innermost secrets and emotions. It rules imprisonment, and prisons. The twelfth is the house of secrets.Planets in the 12th, the affairs of the houses they rule are subject to misfortune. Victimization, resentment, loss, disappointment, and misfortune can occur regarding the affairs of the houses that have their rulers placed in the twelfth house. The 12th is a powerhouse of psychic ability and energy, when properly sublimated
It's the psyche, and unconcious and everything to do with psychic energy. When I was trying to clean my aura and visualize a bright and powerful light over myself (which I intended to be a bright white-gold), my mind then starting turning it into grey, which made me feel sick. So anything I do with psychic working fucks me over, and it scares me from advancing spiritually. One day, I had repetitive thoughts, of the Jewish gods name repititing in my mind, which I suspect is because of saturn being in my 12th house. 12th house is also the house of self-undoing, and the unconcious, so it gives me problems there too. I have capricorn in my first house too, so would a MUNKA working to free the soul from all of negative influence work? Or maybe a working to turn saturns negative effects into positive effects?
While typing this, these were the thoughts I had (I didn't have these thoughts conciously, it was the mind speaking or saying thoughts):
"Satan is a jew""Hitler is a jew"When thinking of a solution to this, my mind said "Suicide"
Seriously, wtf..?