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Random Thoughts - Integrating the Shadow

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"Born in the Dark"

There's a feeling that you're being torn apart between two opposing forces. When your intent and actions or your beliefs do not align. And i've experienced this most of my life before actualizing myself. Self Doubt, Inner Negative Self Talk, Pessimism, Confusion and Clouded judgement are some of the symptoms of this issue. And this seeps into almost all areas of your life. And i have been confused,hesitant, pessimistic all the same. I've tried to meditate and gain focus ,but it lasts only some days before you return into the same habitual pattern of self sabotage. Whatever areas the darkness plagues, you self sabotage at some point. Either you say all the wrong things in your relation, or as you scroll through your phone and waste all your time, or general lack of direction and incompetence in living your life. You are unlucky but its not supposed to be like this.

Having special knowledge should translate in my life to mean that everything a human can do and is doing , i do it 10 times better on account of my spiritual superiority. I get driven to the correct information through my intuition, i easily implement it without hesitation and without resistance within myself, i achieve superior results on account of my exceptional luck that i brought upon myself. Like a bolt of lightning piercing through the sky. I pierce through reality like a superhuman under my Lord's eye. Who has made me an enigma, capable of making of myself whatever i choose on account of my spiritual practice and my superior that facilitated that all this information be available to me like it did from whence i was young. Everything is connected like a puzzle and it gets unlocked after i satisfy some condition and thus deeper knowledge is discovered by me.

"Kill The Shadow"

All of these problems are remnants of the negative karma that has influenced the planets in the charts to make our lives thus. And the only way out is through. We must confront the Shadow. And by that i mean we must release the negative karma plaguing us ,if the problem has no sign of going away just with our will. If it is endemic.

I employ my superior knowledge and use spiritual mantras to rip the tendrils and uproot the creepers. Then i burn them so that they can never return. I instead plant trees , that will last a hundred years. The Mantras will work to remove the karma. After Chanting i sit in silence and focus on the energy. I can see the colors changing and random emotions come and go. i keep myself steadfast and i do not get involved in the emotion. I let it run its course and i let it pass through me. Sometimes i see images and scenarios that are emotionally charged. Sometimes they've never happened in my memories. The subconscious mind is making them to communicate them to me. And so i listen. And i observe them and then the spark of lightning hits and i experience that the karma has left me and i have paid the dues. Deliverance has come and God has taken away my suffering. Under Satan Lucifer i can be anyone i choose, do anything i desire. I thank my Lord for showing me the way.

After encountering your shadow and integrating it in your psyche the splinters of my personality have coagulated and harmonized. And with a healed mind and Soul using Lucifer's Fire , i do workings to do the things i want and i do them. For when God is with me, who is against me ? No one can stop me. I then do the things i set out to do. And i feel exhilarated. My Lords spirit is within me and i conquer. And i introspect. And Intuit.

I wake up everyday and rehearse in my minds eye to do the things that are the most important. My brain ducks and dives the obstacles. I complete the most important work without fail because i have already done it in my mind in the future.

I open my mind. I question my emotions when my intuition tells me that something isn't right. I think about things and i think about why i feel this way.

I am never supposed to be unhappy or pessimistic. I only think positively and everything i attract optimistically and think optimistically. And i shield myself from the trash of the world. And so only trust-able uncorrupted people come into my life becuase my Aura is the ultimate defence. And so i rehearse only positive outcome and rehearse myself defeating all negative ones. I only think positively and that i deserve positive people and i feel it in my emotion. And so with my Meditation i manifest my reality into this world.

Everything is Fine. Keep moving Forward.
 


BEAUTIFUL!

Truly Deep, inner Knowledge and understanding These kind of posts are great for newer empath members too.

Well said :D
 
It looks like you have written this to your personal book. Nice motivation, thank you.
 
AFODO said:
It looks like you have written this to your personal book. Nice motivation, thank you.
I plan to publish more of these.
 
Stormblood said:
General Yeager said:
AFODO said:
It looks like you have written this to your personal book. Nice motivation, thank you.
I plan to publish more of these.

do you still have the same email address?
Yes but I haven't checked it in a while. I'll check it if you plan to email me.
 
General Yeager said:
Having special knowledge should translate in my life to mean that everything a human can do and is doing , i do it 10 times better on account of my spiritual superiority. I get driven to the correct information through my intuition, i easily implement it without hesitation and without resistance within myself, i achieve superior results on account of my exceptional luck that i brought upon myself. Like a bolt of lightning piercing through the sky. I pierce through reality like a superhuman under my Lord's eye. Who has made me an enigma, capable of making of myself whatever i choose on account of my spiritual practice and my superior that facilitated that all this information be available to me like it did from whence i was young. Everything is connected like a puzzle and it gets unlocked after i satisfy some condition and thus deeper knowledge is discovered by me.

it touched me so hard that my eyes filled with the desire to cry.

i will definitely overcome everything that is necessary and prove myself again just as I did in bad circumstances, i have never been so strong and prosperous, what comes as details on this journey, looking from above even at the moment is so pathetic and silly.
nothing to worry about.
 
General Yeager said:
Stormblood said:
General Yeager said:
I plan to publish more of these.

do you still have the same email address?
Yes but I haven't checked it in a while. I'll check it if you plan to email me.

I'll email you if you want to catch up
 
Stormblood said:
General Yeager said:
Stormblood said:
do you still have the same email address?
Yes but I haven't checked it in a while. I'll check it if you plan to email me.

I'll email you if you want to catch up
Yes do email me. We do have a lot of catching up to do ,my brother.
 
General Yeager said:
Stormblood said:
General Yeager said:
Yes but I haven't checked it in a while. I'll check it if you plan to email me.

I'll email you if you want to catch up
Yes do email me. We do have a lot of catching up to do ,my brother.

Done. Sorry for the digression, everyone.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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