Please don't take offense, but I encourage you to reflect on your behavior and consider stepping out of your fantasy world. Real life does not always align with our dreams. And feeding this kind of fantasy in your own mind, is not healthy and will hurt you a lot.
You may believe that you and her were meant to be together, but have you examined your synastry and explored astrological compatibility? That's how you see whether a relationship is fated and fully compatible, or not. If you are unfamiliar with these concepts, it's best not to make assumptions that could lead to pain for you and the women involved.
Your astrological setup may be responsible for your current mindset, Neptune rules over delusions, fantasies, and platonic love.
If you had a tarot reading from someone else, be cautious about taking it too seriously. Most individuals providing these services have no idea of what they are doing and may only be seeking to take your money.
You acknowledged that your communication skills were not sufficient to get her interest. Rather than forcing her to be with you, focus on developing yourself into someone who is genuinely valuable to her life. This means improving your confidence and communication abilities, as well as investing time and effort into personal growth.
Going to the gym, building up your physical strength and confidence, changing your style, and improving your diet are all tangible ways to enhance your self-image and become more attractive to potential partners. Additionally, working on your body language and communication skills can help you better express yourself and connect with women on a deeper level. Investing time in reading books and seeking out other resources on communication and self-improvement can also help you become a more interesting person. If you are not meditating everyday, then you also need to do that. You can benefit from Sun squares to boost your confidence and Mercury squares to improve your communication ability.
She is not a bitch or a toy to be played with; she deserves a fulfilling relationship with someone who enhances her life. Would you like to be in a relationship with someone who didn't add value to your life, just for the sake of it?
While you can indeed use magick to spark her interest, if you don't add real value to her life or even communicate effectively with her, she will likely lose interest and may even choose to end the relationship.