Hey, please calm down. Hostile entities could be doing this. If you're Jewish, don't give a damn, keep following the gods. And please don't worry about some things. Yes, some people here don't speak well for beginners and say unspeakable things and scare people and create doubt. If there are no Jews in your family and background, you are not Jewish. Do you feel any sensations when you meditate, or in the rituals of the gods? Or have you ever realized that the gods are helping you? Have you felt it?