AskSatanOperator
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When envisioning a goal, a scene, an item, a person, anything for a spell, I feel like an impostor, as if I'm deluding myself. The best way to explain it I have figured out is using the placebo effect. Say I am under a placebo, because I do not know the inner workings of said placebo, or because I trust the person who induced it, I automatically and subconsciously place full faith in it. This faith gives power to the placebo and allows it to fully manifest in reality as much as it can. In magic I believe the same principle must be applied. As I envision something, I need to develop such a strong faith that I believe either one of two things: that I will get what I am performing the ritual for, or that I already have it. The more daring it is, the more I faith I need to have, but I always fall short. Every time I visualize and affirm something that is not as if it is in the present time, my mind loves to "snap back to reality" and remind me otherwise. My efforts to perform these rituals is rendered moot because of it. The only way I have found to more or less get the visualization and affirmations going without resistance is if I perform a meditation before sleep. However, I can't focus that much at that moment, and I sometimes miss counts and pronunciations. I figured that the best way to fight it is using void meditation, but the problem is not that I have intrusive thoughts, or that I can't control them while meditating. I can perform my ritual successfully for a day, but in a random moment during that same day my brain reminds me of reality and then I remember the meditation, and it feels like everything just fell apart. I'm having a hard time explaining this. I hope you can more or less grasp what I mean. Have a nice day.